dear joe,
okay. i need to talk to you, but it's 9. I mean, out of everybody I talk to, you are probably the person that would change things. it's just all like, mama can't really help me because she made me change my decision in less then 60 seconds, and brittany can't really help because, well because i haven't talked to her in a while. and i can't talk to chevelle about whats bothering me because part of its her fault. not being mean or anything to her, but it really is. I mean i think that she wants me and nick to break up, i think that she is just telling me nick is talking about me behind my back for that soul reason. i mean i know i should probably ask her, but she's an avid liar. or at least i think that she is. and now i'm uber confused and i have no clue what to think about anything. i mean, i dont know if he really is talking bad about me, or not. and i don't know if chevelle is just trying to get us to break up or what. i mean i know i guess i should trust her but theres just something in our friendship that makes me not...but what if he isn't and i do break up with him? what if i do it for nothing. what if that was like my one and only chance? and to make matters worse i was just informed that chevelle and christian were back together, so she'll be rubbing that in my face if me and nick do break up. i wish it wasn't so freaking late.
haylea.
dear pictures,
hurry up and load. there's only three of you. and one is like...maybe 1/2 way done. i wish you weren't so slow and stupid.
haylea.
dear chevelle,
why are you pushing it?
why do you keep asking what i'm going to do?
why do you keep bothering me about if i'm going to break up with Nick?
why are you so concerned?
and i do not want to hear the whole, i'm your best friend. i have the right to ask you so many stupid questions. okay, you wouldn't say stupid questions because you think that they are smart and helpful. well heres a clue for you, they aren't you're just making things worse. maybe you should learn to keep your mouth shut, i mean considering what had happend in the past because of your big mouth. how long did we go without talking? oh yeah....one and a half months.
haylea.
dear self,
you have no clue do you?
you think that chevelle might be lying to you, you think nick might be lying to you. you don't know who to believe at the moment. why not just believe in yourself? you are the only person that can change your mind about anything, you just have to believe in the smaller things. you have to think of all the possible outcomes. don't worry tomorrow isn't going to suck as much as you want to think it will...i don't think.
haylea.
dear pictures,
(again)
YAY! thank you for takin like 20 minutes to upload three pictures.
haylea.
dear headline,
i just thought of a new one.
""If you can't believe in yourself, how can you believe in anyone else?""
haylea.