Need prayers & PD please...

[Plutes]

I lost my Grandma this week.

She turned 95 just two weeks ago.

Up until the time she was diagnosed with oral cancer in September (never smoked a day in her life, either), she never spent a single day sitting at home. She was constantly running errands for others, going to Atlantic City with the 'girls' from her building, etc. She had never taken medication of any kind in her life - for anything.

She was very blessed, but not as blessed as I am for having known her.

She was buried this morning. As I sit here, at nearly 4 a.m., wearing her wedding band that my parents gave me, I can't imagine ever feeling normal again. I can't sleep, because I just keep thinking of everything I should have said to her and didn't. I can't read, because I love to read, and somehow feel that I shouldn't be doing something I love if she can't. I can't watch tv, because everything I see somehow reminds me of her. I just can't seem to function yet.

I'm selfish...I wanted her here for another 30, 40, 50 years. I wasn't ready to let her go.

She was my Grandma, and I will love her and miss her for the rest of my life.

 

[IWISHFORDISNEY]

(((HUGS))) to you. My only words of wisdom having lost most of my loved ones (mom, dad, grandmas and grandpas) yes all of them, is; they will be in your heart forever and never forgotton. You loved things because these people taught you to love so they are carried on by you and your actions. As they say the "circle of life". Remember her and hold those memories in your heart. That is what I do. It will get easier as time goes on. Many prayers and pixie dust coming your way.

 

[Launchpad11B]

Good thoughts and prayers to you and yours. Hang in there.

 

[mikelan6]

Oh, I'm so sorry.

 

[OKW Lover]

Its sad to loose somebody you love. But in time the pain will fade and you'll be fondly remembering all the good times. As you said in your post, you're blessed for knowing her and that's something that her death can not take away - ever.

 

[kab407]

Amy, my thoughts and prayers are with you.

 

[Renysmom]

Amy ,

I am so sorry for your loss. Thoughts and prayers are headed your way

 

[eeyorethegreat]

Thoughts and prayers with you. I am sure that your grandmother felt as blessed to have had you as you are to have had her.

 

[Mouse Skywalker]

I'm very sorry to hear this Amy. It sounds like she was a very special woman. You're in my thoughts.

 

[disneyholic family]

i'm so sorry....it's so very difficult to lose someone we love and who is important to us...

 

[scarlett873]

Awwww...I'm so sorry for your loss Amy. Your grandma sounds like she was a pretty amazing person...

I lost my grandma when I was a sophomore (1988) in high school. We were very close and it was the most unimaginable pain. I still miss her everyday, but it's gotten easier. It's been 20 years since she passed, but there's not a day that goes by when I don't think of her and remember just how lucky I was to have her in my life...

Hang in there honey!

 

[Disneybridein2k3]

She was very blessed, but not as blessed as I am for having known her.

Amy - you said it best yourself. You are a better person for the time you had with her. Thank God for those years, and the many years they were! It is so hard to focus on the good times right now but soon the tears will start to slow and when they do, the good times will be what your memories will be made of. It sounds cliche, but it is very true - only time can heal your heart now.

 

[calypso*a*go-go]

So sorry Amy.

I know you'll miss your Grandma, but it sounds like you've got some wonderful memories to get you through the rough times. Your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[farmergirl]

So sorry for your loss. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[*NikkiBell*]

Hugs and much PD sent you and your family's way.

 

[daneenm]

So sorry for your loss. The pain will ease, but, in my experience, you will never stop thinking of her in every day moments.

I lost my Nana a couple of years ago, right after her 100th birthday. We were very close and I have so many pieces of me that have developed because of my relationship with her. What helped me through it was knowing...

• She lived life to the fullest and had a great long life
• She left us with lasting memories
• She had been without my Papa for 3 years - it was time for them to be together again
• In the very end (which was only about 3 months for her), she was not living life the way she wanted and I did not want her to suffer.

My Nana had very little when she died, but I did inherit a ring (my favorite of her jewelry), which I wear on all of our special occasions so a piece of her remains there with me always.

Hang in there and just keep focused on the wonderful memories you have of her. She will be with you forever.

 

[figment3258]

I am sorry for your loss

 

[SamSam]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my grandfather (age 95 ) two years ago, so I know your pain. Remember alll the memories you have, keep her alive through you. You honor her with every memory, and by sharing those memories with others.

 

[rtobe]

(((HUGS))) to you. My only words of wisdom having lost most of my loved ones (mom, dad, grandmas and grandpas) yes all of them, is; they will be in your heart forever and never forgotton. You loved things because these people taught you to love so they are carried on by you and your actions. As they say the "circle of life". Remember her and hold those memories in your heart. That is what I do. It will get easier as time goes on. Many prayers and pixie dust coming your way.

I could not say this better. Prayers and pixie dust coming your way.

 

[GoofyJediMaster]

You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers. Spend some time remembering your Grandma, but things happen for a reason. I was always told that learning isn't always easy. Think about what you are supposed to learn from this. Sometimes to best lessons that you learn are the hardest to get through. My grandparents died about a year apart. They played a song at mass for both of them that I still start balling after the third note. What would your Grandma say to you if it were someone else that died? How would she comfort you? It is very hard now, but only time will help it get better. Reread through the posts and know that you have friends out here.