I find myself strangely at peace with this. Dont get me wrong, a few well chosen words can send me over the edge, but it seems easier to accept when you know that the one you love is being made comfortable and that very soon the suffering will end.
I dont know how or what I will feel when the inevitable happens, but for right now I feel lucky to have the ability to do this. It will be the last thing I ever get to do for my Mom.
I'm blessed with the very best partner I could ever wish for. John has been strong and supportive through all of this and I told him today that my love and gratitude dont seem adequate. He tells me they are and that I'm being silly.
I'd like to thank everyone that has posted, sent PMs, emailed, called, said prayers...and kept all of the other positive thinking going on. It's amazing to come here and read these words of encouragement, love and support. Again......my gratitude seems inadequate. Thank you so much.
At this point, I am resigned to the fact that the most I can hope for is a quiet peaceful passing. We have done everything we could.
Kevin