My mummy is in the hospital UPDATE post #119

[safetymom]

I will keep you all in my prayers today. I am glad you have friends and family around you at a time like this.

 

[lucas]

Thinking of you.

 

[Piglets Mommy]

 

[nuttylawprofessor]

Lean on those friends.

 

[Pea-n-Me]

Thinking of you today.

 

[Plannin'Shannon]

I'll be thinking of you today.

 

[Liberty Belle]

Ember

You've given your mom such a beautiful, glorious gift, taking care of her at the end of her life as she did you at the beginning of yours.

I'm thinking of you and your mom today and you all are in my prayers. I was with my granny at the end and I'm so glad for that. I know it's hard and so sad. It will get better with time.

 

[Robinrs]

Prayers for you honey....

 

[wdwfan16]

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[PrincessSuzanne]

This morning my mummy's breathing is worse. She has a death rattle that means death is close by, probably today. Both the nurses and my own reading suggest this is more disquieting to me than it is a discomfort to her. (But they aren't kidding about the disquiet to me, it's an awful sound.)

We have had visits from friends we haven't seen in years and all our family who is in the city have come. My circle of friends have been here every day, taking turns in rotation to feed me. This has probably meant more to me than anything. I have four of the best friends in the world and if I ever doubted it, I was a fool. DH has also been amazing, living with me at the hospital since Friday.

I am feeling a little more at peace today after a rather emotional crying fest, though I'm sure there are many more of those to come.

I have to admit, I'm a little scared to go home. For the first time since June my mum won't be there when I walk in. What a horrible prospect.

Ember, I was thinking about you this morning. You are in my thoughts and prayers . I know exactly how you feel. I was where you are just 18 months ago with my own mom and I beat myself up regularly and said many of the same things you have. It WILL get better with time. As they say "Time heals all wounds" and it really does. I am not completely healed and probably never will be, but I have come to a place where I can move on and stop living in that "place".

You are blessed to have such great friends and a wonderful Husband. My husband was my strength through all I went through and I probably would have joined my mom if it hasn't been for him.

I know what you mean about going home, it was difficult and because mom and I spent mornings together before I had to go to work, I had a very lonely feeling for a long time. I couldn't even look at her empty recliner, I had to sit in is so I didn't have to look at it.

Suzanne

 

[ols386]

 

[ead79]

I can't imagine how difficult this is for you, so please know that prayers are being said for your, your mum, and your whole family. May the Lord give you all comfort, peace, and strength.

 

[*Fantasia*]

Praying for your mom.. Praying for you.. Stay strong.

 

[4nana]

I know this heartbreaking pain and send prayers of faith, strength and peace for your dear Mum, you, DH, family and friends.

 

[MinnieTink]

I'm so sorry that you are going thru this tough time.

 

[starrzone]

I'm so glad you have your spouse, friends and family to help you through this. I'm sure your mum appreciates having you there, even if she isn't really "there" as you remember her, kwim? for you at this difficult time, and I'll be thinking of all of you.

 

[BernardandMissBianca]

Thinking of you today Ember.

 

[minkydog]

Ember

You've given your mom such a beautiful, glorious gift, taking care of her at the end of her life as she did you at the beginning of yours.

I agree, and not only is it a gift to your mother, it will be a gift to you. I cared for my dad during his last battle with lung cancer. We had been estranged for 30 years, but for some reason when I went to see him(and pay respects) I just couldn't leave him like that. My DH understood. That last 24 days were the sweetest, most healing time of my life. Dad and I were able to sort some things out and he ended up telling me how much he loved me, how he was proud that I was a nurse, and how grateful he was that I didn't hold a grudge toward him--things he had never said to me. He asked for, and received, forgiveness and I did too. I was there for his final hours and I closed his eyes for him when he passed.

It's been 6 years and I have no regrets. Even though we were apart for all those years, we were able to surmount the important stuff and get to the core: I love you, you love me, that's the way it was meant to be.

Ember, My thoughts are with you. I know this is so hard. That awful breathing...but just know that in the future you won't be dwelling on that. You'll be remembering all the great things about your mum and that you had the PRIVILEGE of seeing her across the bridge. It's worth its weight in gold, I promise.

 

[Tigger2252]

Ember, my thoughts are with you today. My DH, my two DDs and I were with my dad when he passed and I am so glad we were. I believe your darling mum can hear you and knows you are near. What a gift to be able to be with her as she leaves this world and goes to her reward. She brought you into this world and you have the opportunity to walk with her as she leaves it to join other loved ones who have gone on ahead. I wish you peace and strength for the coming days.

 

[nmmom95]

Ember, my thoughts and prayers are with you. I'm so glad to hear that you have such a wonderful support system.