I am so sorry, luvwinnie....
You never really lose a Mother. She is with you forever! I remember my Mom telling me that as long as you live a GOOD mother will always stay with you. Since I lost her two years ago she has always been with me. In my choices, in my blessings, in my life.
Hold on, I know it's hard. Close your eyes and feel her love. She still with you...
God bless,
Robinrs