Had to vent a little , sorry all. I have lived with her for 4 years, it is the longest relationship i have had and this is really hard. I love her, but we are just not meant for each other i suppose. we fight SO much and it hurts. me and her fight more in one month than i remember my parents fighting in my whole life. She is heartbroken, as am I, she wants to make it work, but we have tried over and over again, and nothing works, 2-4 weeks later were in another huge fight. and it gets mean, i will not lie i say mean hurtfull things in fights, and she does the same. Its just not healthy for either of us. She told me "thanks for wasting the last 5 years of my life, i though we were gonna get married" i choose to not see it as a waste, it was a life experience that had many many good times, and some bad ones also. Its with her i took my first WDW trip, and my first Cruise. I feel so bad for her, we are still living together, this just happend 2 days ago, but she is planning on staying with her mom for a little while (her mom also lives in the same apartment complex as us, but on the other side, this should be interesting). I hope im doing the right thing, but i just cant take the hurtfull arguments anymore. I can tell we are both gonna have a rough couple of weeks ahead of us. I feel so alone out here also, i moved out to phoenix with her 4 years ago, i have no family and very few friends here. I would like to move back home to Orange County CA, but we have 5 months on a lease left. All i know is breaking up SUCKS. not just for the person getting dumped, it hurts for the other party too. I truly do love her and wish her only the best in life, i just know that i am not the person that can make her the happiest, and she deserves that, even if she doesnt know it right now. thanks again all...