September 21, 2005
YEsterday was a good day. Thanks for all the sunny thoughts you guys sent my way.
I got home last night around 7:30 and was asleep on the couch at 8:45! Woke up at 10 to watch TV with DD for half an hour and then went up to bed. Sheesh!
It's looking like another full and happy day. I have an a.m. class with 10 toddlers and their moms
, a preschool class at 12:30, and then piano students until 8.
Please everyone, if you have a minute, could you send a little prayer up for DD around 10:20? She's doing a callback audition for her school's super select choir; there are about 110 people auditioning for one of 30 positions, plus she's only a 10th grader (10-12th grade high school). I'm so proud that she's just trying out--I'm praying she'll feel peace and courage.
Here's my devotion this morning:
When the Answer is No Answer
by John Fischer
"I'm going to attempt the impossible. I am going to tackle THE BIG QUESTION especially popular in the wake of hurricane Katrina (and now Rita on the way), that being: the question of God's sovereignty. If God is in control of everything and He is a loving God, how can He let something like this happen?
As human beings who claim to follow God, we are often put in a position of having to answer for Him. This is unfortunate, since we are none of us, God, and if God is not going to give us an answer, on what grounds can we possibly think that we might be able to explain one to someone else?
Put on the spot with questions like this, we usually end up trying to show how good ultimately comes of these horrific things, but that is never a satisfying answer, especially for one who is in the middle of experiencing nothing but loss and devastation.
Here is a believer's dilemma: The Bible has absolutely no qualms about presenting a world where bad things can happen to good people and good things can happen to bad people. It is entirely un-self-conscious in this way. God does not seem at all challenged about accepting responsibility for that which befalls us that we determine is good or bad.
The pill we have to swallow is this: Our inability to accept these paradoxes is our problem, not God's. God is not hauled into court by our questions. God simply will not sit on the witness stand and have His activity scrutinized by us. I suppose we can scrutinize it all we want but that will get us no closer to understanding God or having Him reveal His motives to us.
So we are left to make our way - to figure out, as both Job and Solomon did, how to accept difficult things from Him and still honor and worship Him.
By saying this, I am not suggesting we have a faith that has nothing to do with our feelings of frustration or desperation. We don't just paste a scripture verse, or a God knows what He's doing over the question and walk away, unconnected with the feelings that forced us to Him in the first place. (This is why some Christians seem so unattached to their true feelings, because they have gotten good at doing this.) Even God's Son cried out My God, why have you forsaken me? from the agony of the cross
and He knew why all along! He just wasn't a robot. I think He was merely being entirely human in that moment. It's human to ask. It's human to not get an answer. It's human to be frustrated. It's human to alternate between trusting God and fighting God.
So where does this all end up? Well, here's my best attempt: Never stop asking, seeking, and pounding on God's door for answers; just don't expect Him to always come out and give you one. However, He will always come and put His arm around you and comfort you. That much I know.
Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable His judgments, and His paths beyond tracing out! Who has known the mind of the Lord? Or who has been His counselor? Romans 11:33, 34"
As a Christian, this is such a difficult issue. . .I found some guidance and comfort in that reading.
As far as healthy living goes:
1. Devotions
2. Vitamins--better take
3. Water--will drink lots
4. Exercise--walked Mickey about a mile
5. Food-peanut butter toast and banana for breakfast. I'm not interested in what else I'll have today, but I'll try to pack some healthy snacks.
6. Scale--honestly forgot to get on today.
So, that's the scoop for Wednesday!
Erin
your DD's way today. Seasonal allergies are no fun.
I know that I have been struggling the past few days with them, too.
You're strollin' through the DZone in a healthy way!! 
Right back at 'cha, sweeties!
, and fun, also--I spoke to a few parents I rarely speak to and got a lot accomplished re: PSATs, choir info, etc.
The old grey mare ain't what she used to be! With the DZone and a 8:30 to 9:00 day, I'm just shuffling along. That's OK, though, I'm fortunate to be able to take the day at a pretty slow pace. Before work this morning, I'm going to take some "me" time--probably some reading, cross stitch, and piano playing.
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