LTS's Journey to a Healthier Life /Back Again--comments and support welcome!

[lovetoscrap]

Every diet I have ever been on says I should keep a journal. I always stick to it for a week and then give up.

I am not going on a diet this time. I am going to start eating healty and if I can, try to exercise. I am on the DIS all the time so this is probably the best place for me to try to stick to it.

About me. My user name confuses people (see my siggy!) so most have shortened it to LTS or lts--easier to type to. As of today I am at my highest weight ever--210lbs. I have severe plantar fasciatis in both feet that makes walking difficult some days and is really affecting my life. I need surgery for it but am a big baby. I am hoping losing weight will help instead.

I just found out recently that heart disease runs in my family. I am scared. I don't want my girls (ages 7 and 11) to grow up without me. I haven't told these thoughts to anyone, not even DH, but I am really worried about heart problem and diabetes. Not to mention that all that I enjoy gets to be more difficult with each pound I gain.

I am not an active "exercise" type person--I hate exercise. But I am an active go here, do this, museums, parks, outings, I love to take my girls places and have fun. I can't do that much anymore. My feet hurt. I can't even go to the mall. Grocery shopping is hard. I get tired to easy. My back hurts from the weight I carry in front. I dont' look huge, just big, but I feel it.

I have to do this. My quality of life is really suffering.

My goals:

Short term: Get under 200lbs
Long term: Lose 60-70 lbs.

Overall Goal: eat better, less junk. Exercise (swimming) when I can.

 

[lovetoscrap]

B: Lenders WW bagel with cream cheese and coffee

S: Yoplait Yogurt

L: South Beach Frozen meal
salad with blue chesse dressing
diet pepsi

S: apple and cheese stick
water

D: 4 oz. melted cheese (don't ask)
Leftover Rotisserie Chicken--not the best cause there was some skin and dark meat, but it was all I had
stir fry snow peas
rest of the diet pepsi from lunch

 

[Jaime]

Hi...
I so know where you are coming from. At my highest weight I weight 246.5 pounds. It is hard mentally, physically & socially to carry all the extra weight. I have been loosing my weight for the past 6 years and now have 73 pounds gone. The biggest thing I did for myself was take very small steps. It allowed me to continue to loose my weight...everytime I would stay the same on the scales I would change something else...now my biggest problem is I actually tend not to eat enough and when I don't eat enough I don't loose any weight! I use the Canada Food Guide for portions and choose healthy choices with the foods I eat and the way I cook them. I also find I do loose more weight when I write down everything I eat.
Best of luck...I know you can do it!

 

[lovetoscrap]

Thank you for your support Jamie. Congrats on 100 lbs--that is amazing!

So I didn't drink enough water yesterday. Okay, I drank about 2 sips. I had one diet pepsi and 2 coffees. I dont' drink enough. But I was still up peeing every hour throughout the night . TOM I think was causing it.

My goal for today is to drink more water.

B: scrambled eggs, 2 small biscuits w/ marg, coffee

S: Peach Yogurt, banana, water with lemon Crystal Lite

L: WW frozen turkey dinner (quite good!), 1/2 baked potato with some marg. water with Crystal Lite

D: bunless burger with Amer. cheese, cottage cheese and peaches, 10 french fries (I caved, I am human--it was that or a box of GS cookies) water with crystal lite

It has been a very hard day emotionally. I really, really want that box of cookies--the whole box.

MUST



RESIST

 

[goldcupmom]

Step AWAY from the GS cookies!!!!!! You don't need them!!! (but what kind are they?????)

I'm usually really good with water, but I'm having trouble lately. At least my journaling is improving thanks to y'all!

Have you tried the buns that Wal Mart Sells - I forget the name - I think by Nature Made - white wheat - on WW they're 1 pt as they have a bunch of fiber. Just like real white buns, too!

Have a GREAT rest of the week!

 

[lovetoscrap]

Step AWAY from the GS cookies!!!!!! You don't need them!!! (but what kind are they?????)

I'm usually really good with water, but I'm having trouble lately. At least my journaling is improving thanks to y'all!

Have you tried the buns that Wal Mart Sells - I forget the name - I think by Nature Made - white wheat - on WW they're 1 pt as they have a bunch of fiber. Just like real white buns, too!

Have a GREAT rest of the week!

Tagalongs, my favorites! I made it through the night without them.

I don't think I have tried those, I will look for them today. I need to go "new lifestyle" shopping! I am out of most of my good stuff.

Thanks for the support.

 

[lovetoscrap]

Rough day emotionally and lots to do the next few days. Eating will be low priority so I have to make the effort to be good.

B: 3 blueberry muffins and coffee (not a good start)

S: X

L: Roadhouse salad at Quiznos

D: Pot roast, 1/4 cup mashed potatos, sauteed carrots

S: 5 GS cookies

 

[lovetoscrap]

Okay I didn't get to post yesterday cause it was a busy day by the time I got here the DIS was down.

Let's just say that it was a BAD day. I am going to forget that it ever happened and move on.

 

[lovetoscrap]

Moving on to today--another on the run, busy day with challenges.

B: Go Lean Oatmeal, Coffee

S: Peanuts and Diet Pepsi

L: a few bites of Sweet and Sour Chicken

S: scoop of choc and vanilla ice cream at DD's birthday party

D: Left over macaroni and Cheese from the party and Orange Soda

Okay, not a great day and I fell apart at the end due to exhaustion and just ate what was there.

But, I didn't get a donut or candy bar at Walmart mid morning when I got lightheaded and the shakes from needing a snack. I only had one small scoop of ice cream, not a piece of cake and a bowl of ice cream. Baby steps, right? I see that as success in a small degree.

Tomorrow WILL be better

 

[lovetoscrap]

B: turkey hot dog and light chips coffee

L: Chicken Caprese from South Beach (not bad), diet pepsi

S: junk--don't even remember how much some cookies and sprees coffee

D: Pita Chips

S: Popcorn

 

[momof2minnies]

Love to scrap- I have one suggestion and it does work. Eliminating ALL processed food from your life. You essentially need to rethink how you do about food, leaving out ALL processed food we are actually eating the way the cavemen did. The pounds will melt off. Don't forget to set yourself an exercise goal everyday as well. When we rearrange our eating habits(and that is just what they are) we find that shopping only in the perimeter of the grocery store is all that is needed and boy do you save money as well!
Good Luck,Linda

 

[lovetoscrap]

I weighed in this morning at 208.5--a 1.5 loss. Not a bad start for a bad week. It shows me that even the little changes make a difference. If I can make big changes I can see a big difference.

My Challenge for today is that I am going to the movies with a friend. I am planning to not buy any food--like popcorn. She doesn't eat much so it should be okay. It is much harder when I go with DH and he wants to get the big tub o' popcorn.

B: 2 scrambled eggs with 1T bacon bits and slice of Am Cheese, Whole Wheat toast w/ a small amt of marg. coffee

S: big breakfast--don't need it

L:

 

[lovetoscrap]

Love to scrap- I have one suggestion and it does work. Eliminating ALL processed food from your life. You essentially need to rethink how you do about food, leaving out ALL processed food we are actually eating the way the cavemen did. The pounds will melt off. Don't forget to set yourself an exercise goal everyday as well. When we rearrange our eating habits(and that is just what they are) we find that shopping only in the perimeter of the grocery store is all that is needed and boy do you save money as well!
Good Luck,Linda

Thanks for the advice Linda.

I do realize that ideally I should do that. Unfortunatley my life, time and cooking skills are just not compatable with that. I am trying to do much better with that at dinner time--fresh veggies and lean meats and very little to no processed items. And also trying to cook fresh for breakfast a few days a week. I am hoping to have time this week to make some fresh whole wheat bread and biscuits, and some bran muffins to help with that.

I also plan to add exercise at some point, but for health reasons I am unable to right now. I hope that after I get 20 or 30 pound off those reasons will be less of a problem.

 

[tbstein]

lovetoscrap!

Hi!

Sending a dose of support for the upcoming week!

Wendy

 

[lovetoscrap]

Well, I was sidelined by a 4 day migraine at the beginning of the week. It not only caused me to fall off the wagon I think it pushed me off.

I should be back to "normal" tomorrow.

 

[goldcupmom]

OUCH! Hope the head is better today, LTS!

But you know what? Life happens & we just have to pick up & move on.

How did the Movie go???

Have a good weekend! Keep journaling - good/bad/ugly! It helps!

 

[tbstein]

LTS


Hope your headache is gone and you are able to jump back into reality!


Wendy

 

[lovetoscrap]

Thanks everyone. I am trying to get back. I am having some blood sugar issues also that I am trying to figure out.

B: biscuit
S: Chicken nuggets, Snickers Bar (feeling really sick and needed sugar ASAP)
L: Kashi Lemon Rosemary Chicken

 

[tbstein]

LTS

Hope you are feeling well and enjoying the Holiday weekend!

Wendy

 

[lovetoscrap]

No need for anyone to read all this if you don't want. It is just my ramblings for my personal journal. I do like getting my thoughts out and down. But I do welcome coments, encouragement or suggestions.




Wow, has it really been since April? I guess I didn't get very far when I started. Life came crashing in on me. Migraines, blood sugar problems and a surgery that did not go well and left me off my feet and unable to do much of anything for weeks did not help. I am still recovering from that. In fact, I am guessing I am a few pounds up from where I was. Major depression led to eating and no activity at all.

My scale is broken, but I don't think it matters. I don't want to know right now. I had to buy some new shorts I will know when it is better when I can fit back into my fat shorts, instead of the "really fat shorts" I just bought.

I am 37 years old and currently can barely walk because of severe PF in my right foot. We have done every treatment but major surgery. The minor surgery didn't work, and my Dr and I agree I am not a good candidate for the major surgery. I am facing a future of never walking with out horrible and unbearable pain--in other words never walking-- if I don't get some weight off. It isn't a guarantee that losing weight will help the condition, but it sure won't hurt.

So I am working through it all. I have new meds for the migraines that are working okay. They were supposed to have a appetite supressing side affect, but no such luck for me. I just had a desperation shot in my foot to relieve some of the pain and will start PT, in hopes of getting some pain management to help me through while I try to lose at least 50 lbs.

Blood sugar issues are harder to figure out. I am not diabetic or hypo or hyper glycemic. No idea why I get such major crashes and terrible shakes and dizzyness and faint. I seem to have the need for just the right balance of carbs and protien, but I don't know what that balance is. When I overeat it isn't a problem, but when I start moderating my eating then it is a major problem and I can't find the right balance to keep me from getting sick.

So today I start again. It has already been a rocky start but I will just keep going. DH is so supportive. I have gotten together a bunch of recipes. I need to make a meal plan. He will cook and shop since I can't stand on my feet long enough to do either. I just have to have it all planed.

And the pool opens so I am going to try to swim. That reminds me. I need to order a swim suit. I dont' have one that fits anymore.