Lori's Journal to the old/new me COMMENTS WELCOME :)

[kkevcamsmom]

Hi

My name is Lori and I first started WW in 2000 after the birth of my first son (second child), I lost nearly 70 lbs in 10 months! I know the program works, it's me that's broken...lol. I have 3 kids DD15 yrs, DS5 yrs, DS3 yrs. I am a SAHM but also run a small daycare. Most of all I want to be a healthy weight and be able to keep up with the kids!

I am having trouble staying focused and on task so I hope this will help

I was only up .4 so it wasn't as bad as it could have been and I am still down for the year, but still I just can't find my motivation. Last time around we wanted another baby but there was no way I wanted to be pregnant and 100 overweight again, a great motivator! But now I am done having kids, so what should be my motivation. I think most of my problem is thinking I need to have a reason to lose the weight.

I do remember feeling gross about myself and deciding I really needed to do something about my out of control weight. Well I have reached that point again. I am just tried of being fat, huffing and puffing up the stairs, feeling tired most of the time... all that other fun stuff!

So my goal this week is to lose at least 1 lb, hoping for 2 but not counting on it.

Thanks for reading, please feel free to pm me.

Lori

 

[blue_eyes5212]

Hi Lori,
First of all I love your weight loss ticker! I am going to see about getting myself one!! I am doing Weight Watchers as well and am going to meetings every thursday night! I'm like you I know that the program works. I lost 20 pounds before I got married but have gained it back. I don't have any kids, but will some day and don't want to start out my pregnancy at 232 (my current weight). I have a journal on here also and plan to update it to keep myself motivated. Do you attend meetings, use online, or do it on your own?
Good luck and hope to talk to you sometime!!

~Amanda~

 

[DisDee]

Hey Lori, Welcome! Journaling is a really great tool to help you along in your weight loss journey, so you've taken an important step already! I too, recently joined this forum, so all of us newbies can help each other with motivation. Come on over and check out my journal. Good luck to you today with all of your efforts!

 

[kkevcamsmom]

Thanks Amanda and DisDeel

So far this week I have done very well! I have been journaling everyday Walking everyother day to see how well my foot takes it, so far so good. I think I will add a day

I would LOVE to be down to the 190's by the time our vacation rolls around but more so I want to be fit for all the walking whether I hit my personal goal or not.

Thanks for the support!

Lori

 

[kkevcamsmom]

WHOO HOOO!!!!

I lost a whopping 2.6 lbs!!!! I was hoping to lose one so this is just way cool!

For this week I would like to be down 1.2 lbs. I also want to walk 5 days next week.

Lori

 

[kkevcamsmom]

I WI tommorrow but need to vent here.... I am a big time stress eater and lately I just seem to want to just eat all day. Not really stresssed but I think my body/mind is resisting any change. I am trying to sabatoge (sp??) myself.

Luckly I know this is what I was doing so instead of cookies I had broccoli and carrots, Necturine, apples, bananas.... Now I am out of fruit....lol but the cookies are still there.

So I am getting better at not grabbing the 'easy' snack but it seems so hard somedays....sigh....

But I am determined to be down to a good weight by January. I would LOVE to be in the 190's but I am counting on being close to my 10%.

Ok, I feel better now. My WI in tomorrow and I haven't been on a scale since my last WI but I feel better...that should count for something right???

Thanks for reading and any comments are VERY welcome!!!

Lori

 

[NYcpa]

Good luck with your weigh in tomorrow. Great job resisting the cookies.

Have a great healthy day.

 

[kkevcamsmom]

Well yesterday was WI and I was a bit bummed! I thought I would be down, my scale at home said I was!!! The liar....lol

I was only up .4 and it was the end of TOM, I had walked 5 days last week, but for two days I didn't get a lot of water in. Oh well, that was last week, today starts over

I am so happy today, it' is my 16th anniversary. No one thought DH and I would last a year. We met on June 16, 1990 and were married on July 13, 1990. Yep just over 3 weeks....lol He still drives me crazy but ya got to love'em right?? We are going out to dinner tonight and then going to see POTC on Sat or Sun.

Tommorrow is my youngest DS's b-day he will be 4, so lots of challenges coming up this week!!

Ok enough about that... My goals this week are: Walk 20 to 30 mins 5 days this week, and be down 1 lb.

Thanks for reading!

Lori

 

[kkevcamsmom]

What a week! All the kids were on one, I think they all sucked their brains out because they could not remember any of the rules (like not standing on the picnic table, no throwing toys, no hitting, no screaming in the house...). Aaaahhhhh, but now it's friday and I only have my monsters to deal with...lol

I was totalled FLOORED on Wed. I was so expecting to be way up since we had our Anniversary, DS4's b-day, and the grandparents were up the to celebrate both....again. But I was down .2
I was so happy! Must be because of all the vaccuming I have been doing.... My IL's gave us a Dyson for our Anniversary, and I LOVE IT!!! I keep finding excuses to vaccum...

So what I though was going to be a heavy week wasn't

Hope you had a good week too!!

My goals for these week are : lose 1 lbs and step up to 3 45 mins walks this week.

I didnt get time last week to post but I was up .4 last week

Lori

 

[kkevcamsmom]

I haven't posted the last few weeks, just been really busy and I forgot! I have had losses the last two week so now my total loss is 8 lbs I know if I just hit 10 it will be a huge battle won!

I have been doing this for 3 yrs, I know the program works, I was just having issues. I haven't lost more than 9 lbs in the 3 yrs I have been back to WW so for me the ten lbs mark is a HUGE deal. I am so excited, it's so close

It's amazing how much even an 8 lb loss makes you feel better. I have found I am laughing more, less worried about what people think when I put 'junk' kids food in my basket.

Last week when I was walking on the trail at the park some boys were being VERY mean to this other very large lady walking ahead of me. They then spied me and well, lets just say that was their mistake....lol PMS combined with hot humid weather, spending the day with cranky kids.... Well these two 'boys' got a earfull!!!

Here's how it went:

Boy #1: "Hey fatty, what you doing, causing an earthquake"
Boy #2: giggle
Me: taking off headphones "Excuse me, did you say something?"

At this #1 looks freaked out, apparently they didn't think I could hear them, but I had heard them just fine, I had also heard their comments to the lady in front of me.

#1: "Uhm, No"
Me: "Oh so it wasn't you who called me fatty and mentioned an earthquake?"
#2: "Oh crap"
Me: " Do you think I care what you think? Do you think that what you think of me will change anything? Do you think that you know me?"
#1: "Uhmm....."
Me: "I don't know who taught you your manners and common sense but they should get a failing grade in that department. Do you think it's ok to talk to a perfect stranger like that? What gives you the right to come up to me and insult me? You are a child, yes a CHILD, I have a daughter older than you and if I heard her being rude to someone like you just were, there would be HE** to pay. If you were my child I would be beating your A$$ right now!"

By this time about 5 other walkers and runners had stopped to watch...lol

Both boys looked shame faced and completely embarassed (GOOD!!!).

#2: " We're sorry"

Me: " I don't want an aplogy from you, but the lady up there may."

They both went up and apologized to her

When I walked up by her she thanked me, said she was trying to get out and lose some weight but people's rudeness makes it hard. She turned out to be quite a funny and sweet lady. When I see her at the park we often walk together now and she said she may have to look into WW....

Little boys that say mean things to people are nothing but bullies, and I for one do not buy into the 'Not my child, not my problem' theory. I have been known to tell other peoples kids to quite running in the isles, stop screaming, and taken them back to their parents...lol Yes I am one of those. Maybe it's because I run a daycare, I have not problem with doing it....lol

Anywho...lol back to point....lol My goal this week is 1 lbs and 4 45 min walks. I think I bought by shoes to small though and need to get some new one bummer for me.

See ya next week

Lori

 

[kkevcamsmom]

OUCH!!!

My poor toe is so sore, but in a good way

I just did two days with ONE HOUR walks

My goal this week was to get in 4 45 min walks so I am doing better than that

I am hoping for a full pound loss this week.

Lori

 

[blue_eyes5212]

Hi Lori,

Good for you handling those rude kids like that!!! And that lady is right....when you are already soooooo self conscious about your weight that makes it hard to leave your home and go to a gym or somewhere to walk. At my gym and at the local park there are always thin, fit people doing laps around me. And I just keep telling myself....."I am the before, they are the after!!"

Good for you on losing your 8 pounds....what an accomplishment!! You mentioned in a post that you have been doing WW for 3 years and haven't lost very much?? Am I reading that correctly?? The reason I ask is because I have been going for a long time as well and sometimes I follow the plan and sometimes I don't which doesn't add up to much weight lost!!! Sometimes I think people are looking at me thinking "She's sure been here for a long time, but hasn't changed at all!!" I'm sure nobody is really thinking that, since they are probably focused on themselves, but sometimes you can't help what pops in your head, ya know??

Have a good week!!!! YAY for you 10 pounds is just around the corner!!!

~Amanda~

 

[kkevcamsmom]

Hi Lori,

Good for you handling those rude kids like that!!! And that lady is right....when you are already soooooo self conscious about your weight that makes it hard to leave your home and go to a gym or somewhere to walk. At my gym and at the local park there are always thin, fit people doing laps around me. And I just keep telling myself....."I am the before, they are the after!!"

Good for you on losing your 8 pounds....what an accomplishment!! You mentioned in a post that you have been doing WW for 3 years and haven't lost very much?? Am I reading that correctly?? The reason I ask is because I have been going for a long time as well and sometimes I follow the plan and sometimes I don't which doesn't add up to much weight lost!!! Sometimes I think people are looking at me thinking "She's sure been here for a long time, but hasn't changed at all!!" I'm sure nobody is really thinking that, since they are probably focused on themselves, but sometimes you can't help what pops in your head, ya know??

Have a good week!!!! YAY for you 10 pounds is just around the corner!!!

~Amanda~

Thanks Amanda!

Yes, it's been three years this go around. I know it was me and not the program not working though. I was having some other issues that I had to work through. Dr. Phil's Weight Loss book helped me get my head right again though. The man doesn't let you whimp out even in the books...lol

Keep at it, it's not an easy road we are on...

Lori

 

[blue_eyes5212]

Hi Lori,

Maybe I need to get my Dr Phil book out! I have it too and several years ago I read parts of it, but I don't remember much about it now!

I have not done very well this week! I have got to get with it!! Keep us posted and let us know when you hit 10!

~Amanda~

 

[kkevcamsmom]

Well... I didn't hit my 10 lbs... I was up just a bit .6 then we went on vacation and I came back 1.4, not a surprise, but I was shocked it wasn't more!

I am hoping I am WAY down tomorrow. Good news is we bought a new scale and so far this one has been right on, so if it is right I should be down at lease 1 .2 lbs tomorrow

Now on to other things.... I havent really been feeling myself lately. I have battled depression on and off for several years. On Sunday I woke up and didn't want to deal with life. I wanted to stay in bed and hide from the world, didn't care if my kids ate, things got cleaned, I just didnt' care. I did force my self out of bed and decided then and there it was time for some help. Saw my dr yesterday, got an **** chewing by him for waiting so long to come in and talk to him. He started me on Lexapro so hopefully I will start feeling better soon

I was in a vicious cycle of being upset about my weight, wouldn't lose because I as overeating and overeat some more... No wonder in 3 yrs I haven't even lost 10 lbs when before I lost 65 lbs in 10 months! So if this stuff works I should start feeling better in 1 to 4 weeks and start shedding the lbs. I still will work with my Dr. Phil book because I know that drugs alone can't change my self esteem.

Ok, sorry about the ramble....lol

Lori

 

[kkevcamsmom]

Wow, it's been a while...lol

Updates: I have made my 10% goal and hit the big 25 lbs mark

I am doing so much better on the program now that I have addressed my depression issues. Since I was an emotional eater I was caught up in a catch 22, I was bummed I wasn't loosing weight because I wasn't following the program so I would eat more... ahh yeah, that worked.....NOT!

Since I have been on the anti depressants, I have regained the emotional control I was lacking and WOW the weight is dropping off

I had my second foot surgery but it was all soft tissue so healing time was much quicker! I just started walking again, but no jogging yet... I was worried about gaining some from lack of exercise but I lost each week

We leave for WDW in 58 days!!!! I CAN'T WAIT! I wanted to be to my 10% goal by then and I have done that, so now I am hoping to be around 190 when we go, heck I will take anything under 200....

Good luck to everyone, we can all do it!!!

Lori

 

[blue_eyes5212]

Hi again Lori! I haven't posted in a very long time and I just started a journal. I haven't been dieting or anything and have found myself at 265.5 pounds. But I've decided that I've had enough and I rejoined WW last Thursday!
Congrats on your success!!

~Amanda~

 

[goldcupmom]

Happy, Healthy New Year, Lori!

Congrats on the losses!

You've done GREAT this year!

 

[kkevcamsmom]

Thanks Amanda and Goldcupmom!

Been a while since I updated again...lol

The holidays were hard but I managed to get through them with only gaining 1.6 lbs, not too bad!

I have now lost that plus another .2 so I am down to 204. I would love to be down to 200 by the time we go in just 15 short days!!!! Not sure I can really make it but it will be darn close

My Dr. switched my meds from Lexapro to Celexa, which has helped a ton with the insomnia. I feel so much better and am getting so much more done

I can't believe our vacation is soo close! I am so hoping Tigger is back by then, I just love all the Pooh Bear characters.

Oh and out two little ones have no clue yet....lol They will be so surprised! We decided to tell them we are going on vacation but not where untill that morning....

You can read my pre-trip report, I have some photos of the cards I made to tell them where we are going ... http://www.disboards.com/showthread.php?t=1246374


Thanks for reading!

Lori