Thank you everyone who has given their condolences and shared an inspiring story with me. I am grateful to have this board to vent and get support. IM sorry to all of you who have lost someone as well. I plan to get a cremation pendant and wear Mom's ashes close to my heart. I have yet to experience a sign from Mom. She knows that something like that would prob freak me out. I do wish I have a spiritual feeling at some point in my life. Maybe would help me be less pessimistic. Thank you again....I enjoyed reading.