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Miseria Cantare - The Beginning
Love your hate, your faith lost
You are now one of us
Love your hate, your faith lost
You are now one of us
Nothing from nowhere, I'm no one at all
Radiate, recognize one silent call
As we all form one dark flame... Incinerate
Nothing from nowhere, I'm no one at all
Radiate, recognize one silent call
As we all form one dark flame
As we all form one dark flame
As we all...
Love your hate, your faith lost
You are now one of us
Love your hate, your faith lost
You are now one, one of us
The Leaving Song Pt. 2
Don't waste your touch, you won't feel anything
Or were you sent to save me?
I've thought too much, you won't find anything...
Worthy of redeeming
Yo he estado aqui muchas veces antes y regreso
To...break down, and cease all feeling
Burn now, what once was breathing
Reach out, and you may take my heart away
Imperfect cry, and scream in ecstasy
So what befalls the flawless?
Look what I've built, it shines so beautifully
Now watch as it destroys me
Y regreso aqui otra vez y comienzo
To... break down, and cease all feeling
Burn now, what once was breathing
Reach out, and you may take my heart away
Break down, and cease all feeling
Burn now, what once was breathing
Reach out, and you may take my heart away
I left it all behind, and never said goodbye
I left it all behind, and never said goodbye
I left it all behind, and never said goodbye
I left it all to die
I saw its birth, I watched it grow
I felt it change me
I took the life, I ate it slow
Now it consumes me
I...break down, and cease all feeling
Burn now, what once was breathing
Reach out, and you may take my heart away
Break down, and cease all feeling
Burn now, what once was breathing
Reach out, and you may take my heart away
...Heart away
Bleed Black
Oh
I am exploring the inside, I find it desolate
I do implore these confines, now, as they penetrate, "recreate me"
I'm hovering throughout time, I crumble in these days
I crumble, I cannot, I cannot find reflection in these days
(If you listen) Listen, listen
(Listen close) Beat by beat
(You can hear when the heart stops) I saved the pieces
(When it broke) And ground them all to dust
I am destroyed by the inside, I disassociate
I hope to destroy the outside, it will alleviate and elevate me
Like water flowing into lungs, I'm flowing through these days
Like morphine cuts through, through dead end veins, I'm numbing in these days
So...
(If you listen) Listen, listen
(Listen close) Beat by beat
(You can hear when the heart stops) I saved the pieces
(When it broke) And ground them all to dust
I know what died that night, it can never be brought back to life
Once again, I know
I know what died that night, it can never be brought back to life
Once again, I know
I know I died that night and I'll never be brought back to life
Once again, I know
I know I died that night and I'll never be brought back to life
Once again, I know
(If you listen) Listen, listen
(Listen close) Beat by beat
(You can hear when the heart stops) I saved the pieces
(When it broke) And ground them all to dust
So...
(If you listen) Listen, listen
(Listen close) It dies beat by beat
(You can hear when the heart stops) I saved the pieces
(When it broke) And ground them all to dust
Silver And Cold
I...I came here by day, but I left here in darkness
And found you, found you on the way
And now, it is silver and silent, it is silver and cold
You, in somber resplendence, I hold
Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one
Your sins into me
As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer
And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me) Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one
Light, like the flutter of wings, feel your hollow voice rushing into me
As you're longing to sing
So I... I will paint you in silver, I will wrap you in cold
I will lift up your voice as I sink
Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one, now
Your sins into me
As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer
And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me) Your sins into me
Cold in life's throes, I'll fall asleep for you
Cold in life's throes, I only ask you turn away
Cold in life's throes, I'll fall asleep for you
Cold in life's throes, I only ask you turn
As they seep... into me, oh, my beautiful one, now
Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one
Your sins into me
As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer
And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me)
Your sins into me...oh
Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one, now
Your sins into me
As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer
And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me) Your sins into...
(Your sins into me) Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one
Dancing Through Sunday
Will you join me in this dance, this dance of misery
Cradled in imposs... impossibility?
Swooning, I am swept away
Swept off my feet, with step by step by step
We take the lead as drop by drop, we start...to bleed
(Oh, we dance in misery)
And we dance on, and we dance on
(Oh, we dance in misery)
All lost in the arms of our misery, oh
(Oh, we dance in misery)
And we dance on, and we dance on
Swept off our feet by misery, we're swept into the shadows
Will you lend yourself to beauty that will horrify?
Let me hide within your black, the still inside your eyes
Deafened, caught within a cry
So sensual, as step by step by step, I seperate
As breath to breath, as I...suffocate
(Oh, we dance in misery)
And we dance on, and we dance on
(Oh, we dance in misery)
All lost in the arms of our misery, oh
(Oh, we dance in misery)
And we dance on, and we dance on
Swept off our feet by misery, we're swept into the shadows
So who will follow? Who is the lead?
I know I'll leave a stain, because I bleed
As we dance, we all dance
We all...have no chance in this horrid romance
(Oh, we dance in misery)
And we dance on, and we dance on
(Oh, we dance in misery)
All lost in the arms of our misery, oh
(Oh, we dance in misery)
And we dance on, and we dance on
Swept off our feet by misery, we're swept into the shadows
Swept off our feet by misery, we're swept into the shadows
Girl's Not Grey
I'll lay me down tonight
Much further down
Swim in the calm tonight
This art does drown
(What follows) me as the whitest lace of light
(Will swallow whole) just begs to be imbrued?
(What follows) has led me to this place
where I belong, with all erased
What follows
All insects sing tonight
The coldest sound
I'd send God's grace tonight
Could it be found?
(What follows) me as the whitest lace of light
(Will swallow whole) just begs to be imbrued?
(What follows) has led me to this place
where I belong, with all erased
I'll lay me down tonight
Much further down
Watch stars go out tonight
On sinking ground
I'll lay me down, I'll lay me down
(What follows) me as the whitest lace of light
(Will swallow whole) just begs to be imbrued?
(What follows) has led me to this place
where I belong, with all erased
What follows will swallow whole
What follows will swallow whole
Death Of Seasons
Of late, it's harder just to go outside
To leave this deadspace with hatred, so alive
Writhing with sickness, thrown into banality, I decay
Killed by the weakness, but forced to return, turn it off
I watch the stars as they fall from the sky
I held a fallen star and it wept for me, dying
I feel the fallen stars encircle me, now as they cry
Out there so quickly grows malignant tribes
Posthuman extinction excels unrecognized
Feeling surrounded, so bored with mortality, I decay
All of this hatred is ****ing real, turn it on...yeah
I watch the stars as they fall from the sky
I held a fallen star and it wept for me, dying
I feel the fallen stars encircle me, now as they cry
It won't be all right despite what they say
Just watch the stars tonight as they, as they disappear, disintegrate
And I disintegrate 'cause this hate is ****ing real
And I hope to shade the world as stars go out and I disintegrate
The Great Disappointment
I can remember a place I used to go
Chrysanthemums of white, they seemed so beautiful
I can remember, I searched for the amaranth
I'd shut my eyes...to see
Oh, how I smiled then, so near the cherished ones
I knew they would appear...saw not a single one
Oh, how I smiled then, waiting so patiently
I'd make a wish...and bleed
While I waited I was wasting away
While I waited I was wasting away
I can remember...dreamt them so vividly
Soft creatures draped in white, light kisses gracing me
I can remember when I first realized
Dreams were the only place to see them
While I waited I was wasting away
While I waited I was wasting away
While I waited I was wasting away
Hope was wasting away
Faith was wasting away
I was wasting away
I never, never wanted this
I always wanted to believe
I never, never wanted this
How could I have become?
I never, never wanted this
But from the start I'd been deceived
I never, never wanted this
How could I have become?
I never, never wanted this
I always wanted to believe
I never, never wanted this
I never, never wanted this
But from the start I'd been deceived
I never, never wanted this
Inside a crumbling effigy
But you promised
So dies all innocence
But you promised me
While I waited I was wasting away
While I waited I was wasting away
While I waited I was wasting away
Hope was wasting away
Faith was wasting away
I was wasting away
Paper Airplanes (Makeshift Wings)
Raise high monolithic statues so fragile as they fall
I am ever enthralled
Gaze, lie and smirk in time, your arrogance will suit you well
'Til fashion is dispelled
As waves of plastic fame go out of fashion
You're going out, going out forever unknown
These waves of plastic fame go out of fashion
(These waves of plastic fame are drying up and I smile)
You're going out, going out forever unknown
(Because you're dying to become forever unknown, unkown)
From above a rain of ashes descends
Anathema I will remain, forever will remain
From below, in my seclusion
Look up to the sky to see paper wings and watch them burn
Without habitation, you'll never find a soul inside
No life, but nothing's died
No lights, but quite the show (Just as long as no one ever knows
All motion is pantomime)
As waves of plastic fame go out of fashion
You're going out, going out forever unknown
These waves of plastic fame go out of fashion
(These waves of plastic fame are drying up and I smile)
You're going out, going out forever unknown
(Because you're dying to become forever unknown, unkown)
From above a rain of ashes descends
Anathema I will remain, forever will remain
From below, in my seclusion
Look up to the sky to see paper wings and watch them burn
Dancing in the rain of descending ash
Dancing on your grave, I'll see you all falling
Dancing in the rain of descending ash
Dancing in your dust, I'll see you all falling
I'd stop it, had you a heart (your heart)
I'd stop it, had you a heart (your heart)
From above a rain of ashes descends
Anathema I will remain, forever will remain
From below, in my seclusion
Look up to the sky to see paper wings and watch them burn
From above a rain of ashes descends
Anathema I will remain, forever will remain
From below, in my seclusion
Look up to the sky to see paper wings and watch them burn
This Celluloid Dream
Calling tears from deep inside, oh, you're so exquisite
And in the mirror, all midnight eyes
Oh, if I could remain, but it's just a visit
All midnight eyes read "vacancy"
Twisted, twisting
To the lovely dancing lights, I begged, "May I cut in?"
But they never stopped playing "their song"
Of a joyous song they sing, I've heard whispers
On a freezing note, I resonate
Just like romantic verses, just like a joyous end
Just like a memory, it twists me
Just like romantic verses, just like a joyous end
Twist...twisting me
You land as lightly as the new snow, cinematic
Onto the melting boy, and melt away
You light as gently, you're so cinematic
Bathed in your radiance, I melt
In the glitter, in the dark, sunk into velvet
Praying this will never end
In the shadow of a star, in static pallor
I realized I never began
Just like romantic verses, just like a joyous end
Just like a memory, it twists me
Just like romantic verses, just like a joyous end
Twist...twisting me
You land as lightly as the new snow, cinematic
Onto the melting boy, and melt away
You light as gently, you're so cinematic
Bathed in your radiance, I melt
All the colors upon leaving, all will turn to grey
All the colors upon leaving, all will turn to grey
(All grey) All the colors (All grey) upon leaving
(All grey) all will turn to grey
(All grey) All the colors (All grey) upon leaving
(All grey) all will turn to grey...grey...twisting me
You land as lightly as the new snow, cinematic
Onto the melting boy, and melt away
You light as gently, you're so cinematic
Bathed in your radiance
You land as lightly as the new snow, cinematic
You land as lightly as the new snow, and melt away
You land as lightly as the new snow, cinematic
Bathed in your radiance, I melt
The Leaving Song
Walked away, heard them say
"Poison hearts will never change, walk away again"
Turned away in disgrace
Felt the chill upon my face cooling from within
It's hard to notice gleaming from the sky
When you're staring at the cracks
It's hard to notice what is passing by with eyes lowered
You...walked away, heard them say
"Poisoned hearts will never change, walk away again"
All the cracks, they lead right to me
And all the cracks will crawl right through me
All the cracks, they lead right to me
And all the cracks will crawl right through me, and I fell apart
As I...walked away, heard them say
"Poisoned hearts will never change"
Walked away again
Turned away in disgrace
Felt the chill upon my face cooling from within
...But Home Is Nowhere
Twenty-six years and seems like I've just begun
To understand my, my intimate is no one
When the director sold the show, who bought its last rites?
They cut the cast, the music, and the lights
This is my line, this is eternal
How did I ever end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone
Twenty-six years end, still speaking in these tongues
Such revelations while understood by no one
When the new actor stole the show, who questioned his grace?
Please clear the house of ill-aquired taste
This is my line, this is eternal
How did I ever end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone
Give me something, give me something
Give me something, give me something
Give me something, give me something real
I lay strewn across the floor, can't solve this puzzle
Everyday another small piece can't be found
I lay strewn across the floor, pieced up in sorrow
The pieces are lost, these pieces don't fit
Pieced together incomplete and empty
This is my line, this is eternal
How did I ever end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone
This is my line, this is eternal
How did I end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone
Untitled poem/The Spoken Word
[Spoken]
We held hands on the last night on earth.
Our mouths filled with dust, we kissed in the fields and under trees,
screaming like dogs, bleeding dark into the leaves.
It was empty on the edge of town but we knew everyone floated
along the bottom of the river.
So we walked through the waste where the road curved into the sea
and the shattered seasons lay,
and the bitter smell of burning was on you like a disease.
In our cancer of passion you said, "Death is a midnight runner."
The sky had come crashing down like the news of an intimate suicide.
We picked up the shards and formed them into shapes
of stars that wore like an antique wedding dress.
The echoes of the past broke the hearts of the unborn
as the ferris wheel silently slowed to a stop.
The few insects skittered away in hopes of a better pastime.
I kissed you at the apex of the maelstrom and asked
if you would accompany me in a quick fall,
but you made me realize that my ticket wasn't good for two.
I rode alone.
You said, "The cinders are falling like snow."
There is poetry in despair, and we sang with unrivaled beauty,
bitter elegies of savagery and eloquence.
Of blue and grey.
Strange, we ran down desperate streets and carved our names in the flesh of the city.
The sun was stagnated somewhere beyond the rim of the horizon
and the darkness is a mystery of curves and lines.
Still, we lay under the emptiness and drifted slowly outward,
and somewhere in the wilderness we found salvation scratched
into the earth like a message.
This Time Imperfect
I cannot leave here, I cannot stay,
Forever haunted, more than afraid.
Asphyxiate on words I would say,
I'm drawn to a blackened sky as I turn blue.
There are no flowers, no not this time,
There'll be no angels gracing the lines,
Just these stark words, I find.
I'd show a smile, but I'm too weak,
I'd share with you could I only speak,
Just how much this, hurts me.
I cannot stay here, I cannot leave,
Just like all I loved, I make believe.
Imagine heart, I disappear, seems,
No one will appear, here and make me real.
There are no flowers, no not this time,
There'll be no angels gracing the lines,
Just these stark words, I find.
I'd show a smile, but I'm too weak,
I'd share with you could I only speak,
Just how much this, hurts me.
I'd tell you how it haunts me,
I'd tell you how it haunts me,
(Cuts through my day, and sinks into my dreams.)
I'd tell you how it haunts me,
(Cuts through my day, and sinks into my dreams.)
You don't care that it haunts me.
Oh,
There are no flowers, no not this time,
There'll be no angels gracing the lines,
Just these stark words, I find.
I'd show a smile, but I'm too weak,
I'd share with you could I only speak,
Just how much this, hurts me.
Just how much this, hurts me.
Just how much you...
Now The World (Sing The Sorrow Version)
Summer I painted, a scene, that lit the stars for me,
Said, "I can erase it for you dear."
That summer created, those words, that came to life in three,
They were denied by you.
Summer I laid down, below, the glitter adorned night,
And silently sparkled, my own way.
Summer I laid down, by you, and shared my frail light,
You gave the dark to me.
I looked inside,
(I)
To find,
(Wanted)
The one I sent away.
(To insinuate)
I nearly froze, when I stepped inside,
(I)
To find,
(Remain)
The flowers turned to Grey.
(I self mutilate)
I closed my eyes, and kissed them one last time.
Summer a morning, so pale, alone when they found me,
As I remained sleeping, I heard them say,
"This summer created, a boy, of abject misery."
He was designed by you.
(He was designed by you)
I looked inside,
(I)
To find,
(Wanted)
The one I sent away.
(To insinuate)
I nearly froze, when I stepped inside,
(I)
To find,
(Remain)
The flowers turned to Grey.
(And self mutilate)
I closed my eyes, and kissed them...
So like a lost child,
I will hide.
And like lost lie,
I will find.
Find a way to return to the ones who made me,
Cover your eyes and we'll die together.
Will you fly for me,
Will you fly for me,
Or will you cry with me?
Will you fly for me,
Will you fly for me,
Or will you cry with me?
Will you cry for me,
(I've been a lonely one)
Will you fly for me,
(I've had this whole world)
Or will you die with me?
(Drained from me)
Will you cry for me,
(Am I the only one)
Will you fly for me,
(I've had this world)
Or will you die with me?
(Drained from me, drained from me.)
Summer I painted, a scene, that lit the stars for me,
Said, "I can erase it for you dear."
Synesthesia
Heartbreak, incarnate, I'm nothing if not your memories
Heartbreak, please let me be your joy and your pain
Someday, I will be...
I'll be those common words spoken uniquely
Because I may, will forever be floating as you feel.
Where all remaining failed
Please let me haunt as scent on your pillow
Letters of past are tear stained and wrinkled
Please let me haunt as scent on your pillow
Letters of past are tear stained and wrinkled
(Just say...) Say you will follow me (follow me)
Invite me to your memory
(Just sing...) Sing again follow me (follow me)
That long forgotten song
Heartbreak, incarnate, I'm nothing if not your memories
Heartbreak, please let me be your joy and your pain
Someday, I will be...
I'll be that waking warmth from a fading dream
Because I will, I may at best
Float as you feel
Please let me haunt as scent on your pillow
Letters of past look distant and wrinkled
Please let me haunt as scent on your pillow
Letters of past look distant and wrinkled
(Just say...) Say you will follow me (follow me)
Invite me to your memory
(Just sing...) Sing again follow me (follow me)
That long forgotten song
(Just say...) Say you will follow me (follow me)
Invite me to your memory
(Just sing...) Sing again follow me (follow me)
That long forgotten song
Let me be all the words
Let me be all the words
Let me be all the words
Let me be all the words
Let me feel the words echo in comfort
Let me be all the words that you'd unsay
Let me feel the words echo in comfort, comfort, comfort, comfort
Let me be all the words that you'd unsay, unsay, unsay, unsay
Let me be all the words echoing comfort
Let me be all the words that you'd unsay
Let me be all the words echoing comfort, comfort...comfort
Let me be all the words that you'd unsay, unsay, unsay, unsayright when i went into chat with him the little green circle turned gray
damn lol
The Lost Souls
If you can't stand upon the water I will see you on the ocean floor.
When you blink do you only find the misery between the lines?
Then take my hand and walk with me.
Come to me, your sanctuary,
I'll gladly accept the gift that I've been granted.
If you feel fine, then give it just a little time.
I'm sure you'll contract my disease.
Look what you've done to me now,
You've made me perfect.
Look what you've done to me now.
If you can't stand upon the earth then I see you on the other side.
When you blink do you only find the misery weighs down your eyes?
Then take my hand and sleep with me.
Look what you've done to me now,
You've made me perfect.
Look what you've done to me now.
Take my hand, I'll be everything to you.
Take my hand, I'll take everything from you.
I will seep under your skin.
I will.
I will hold onto your heart.
I will.
Look what you've done to me now,
You've made me perfect.
Look what you've done to me now.
Look what you've done to me now,
You've made me perfect.
Look what you've done to me now.
What have you done?
What have you done?
What have you done?
What have you done?
Done
The Nephilim
Swing through sadness, tears of joy.
Curse the sunlight.
Arsenic for the girls and boys.
Drink the madness, smoke so coy.
Smile injection.
Serum of a will destroyed.
Serum of a will...
Serum of a will destroyed.
The seasons change, change without me.
I remain in shadows growing wings.
Swing through sadness, tears of joy.
Curse the sunlight.
Arsenic for the girls and boys.
Drink the madness, smoke so coy.
Smile injection.
Serum of a will destroyed.
Serum of a will...
Serum of a will destroyed.
The seasons change, change without me.
I remain in shadows growing wings.
The spirit song still surrounds me, in refrain, in shadows growing wings.
Like an angel with two broken wings, reach the sky again.
Like a devil, meant for better things, I will find my place on high.
The seasons change, change without me.
I remain in shadows growing wings.
The spirit song still surrounds me, in refrain, in shadows growing wings.
Ever And A Day
Lie in the comfort of sweet calamity with nothing left to lose.
Lie in the darkness, I'm slowly drowned to sleep
nothing left to lose.
Three tears I've saved for you.
I'd retrace the steps that lead me here but nothing lives behind me.
So I lie in this field bathed in the light that loves me,
with nothing left to lose.
Three tears I've saved for you.
Will you be my beloved?
Will you help, help me to get through?
Will you be my destruction?
Will you help, help me to be through?
Will you be my beloved?
Will you help, help me to get through?
Will you be my, be my destruction?
Will you help, three tears I've saved for you.
Sacrifice Theory
Hear one thousand screams.
Hear one thousand voices.
A solitary echo.
Feel one thousand pains,
But one is receiving a bloody invitation.
Do you want to feel the warmth?
To taste the life, to taste the life
Do you want taste the life?
To taste the life, to taste the life flow?
Go, go
Feel one thousand lost
sinking into soft skin
Ingest rejuvenation
One to consume
One to renew
Demanded invitation
Do you want to feel the warmth?
To taste the life, to taste the life
Do you want taste the life?
To taste the life, to taste the life flow?
I offer grace,
I offer blood.
I offer everything till my heart is crystal clear.
I offer grace,
I offer blood.
I offer everything till my heart is crystal clear.
Let me taste the life flow.
Do you want to feel the warmth?
To taste the life, to taste the life
I want to taste the life.
To taste the life, to taste the life flow.
Go, go, woah, go
Of Greetings And Goodbyes
Now ending discreetly, just like a hidden sin,
as I go under please tuck me in.
Make me invisible.
This hidden explosion calls for a wandering cast with no direction.
Enter all monsters let us twist another fairy tale.
Go kill the lights, we'll glow till morning comes.
I'll say goodnight and bow to everyone.
Then we go under.
The beauties are sleeping as fruit just rots away.
Today go hungry.
Let it begin.
Make me invincible.
There was a weeping I carried down today, a sigh worth keeping.
Deep within divinity let's star another secret show.
Go kill the lights, we'll glow till morning comes.
I'll say goodnight and bow to everyone.
No need to worry it is just another monster.
No need to fear here in the secret show.
No need to worry I am just another monster.
In you, I'll see me, in the secret show.
Go kill the lights, we'll glow till morning comes.
I'll say goodnight and bow to everyone.
Go kill the lights, we'll glow till morning comes.
I'll say goodnight and bow to everyone.
Smile
Overwhelmed with a deep repulsion for sights seen so commonly,
now I have come to be the walking enmity.
Assimilate into a culture of post morality, from what I've seen, I hate humanity.
Rot with repulsion. I'll write the world a brand new song.
Look upon your bleak creation,
but is it truly me that's to be the human blasphemy?
I'll set the world on fire and,
in burning light I'll write my first love song and I will feel warmth.
Hide your eyes in heaven, in the lies.
Believe. Relieve. I'll end the world tonight.
Overwhelmed with a deep repulsion for sights seen so commonly,
now I have come
to be a walking enmity, for humanity,
the human blasphemy,
I'll end the world tonight.
A Story At Three
Again and again they blend into one,
my father the morning pushes through moonlight love.
So what's sleep? (Sleep) Sleep.
I'm tired, so tired, so tired, but it seems that there's someone here with me.
We are the wakeful, wry, watchful.
We're awaiting.
Deathless ones.
We are the wakeful, wry, watchful.
We're awaiting.
Deathless ones.
A story at three with the shrillest of cries.
My mind fights with the sparkles in the corner of my eyes.
So what's sleep? (Sleep) Sleep.
I'm tired, so tired, so tired, but it seems that there's someone here with me
We are the wakeful, wry, watchful.
We're awaiting.
Deathless ones.
We are the wakeful, wry, watchful.
We're awaiting.
Deathless ones.
We are the wakeful, wry, watchful.
We're awaiting.
Deathless ones.
We are the wakeful, wry, watchful.
We're awaiting.
Deathless ones.
I hear the morning choir sing to me their elegy.
I hear the morning choir sing to me their elegy.
Sing to me
I hear the morning choir sing to me their elegy.
(So beautiful)
(Beauty)
(Sing to me)
I hear the morning choir sing to me their elegy.
(They sing to me)
(Requiem)
I hear the morning choir sing to me their elegy.
We are the wakeful, wry, watchful.
We're awaiting.
Deathless ones.
We are the wakeful, wry, watchful.
We're awaiting.
Deathless ones.
We are the wakeful, wry, watchful.
We're awaiting.
Deathless ones.
We are the wakeful, wry, watchful.
We're awaiting.
Deathless ones.
The Days of the Phoenix
I remember when I was told of story of crushed velvet,
candle wax, and dried up flowers
The figure on the bed all dressed up in roses, calling
Beckoning to sleep,
Offering a dream
Words were as mystical as purring animals
The circle of rage
The ghosts on the stage appeared
The time was so tangible, I'll never let it go
Ghost stories handed down, reached secret tunnels below
No one could see me
I fell into yesterday
Our dreams seemed not far away
I want to, I want to, I want to stay
I fell into fantasy
The words were as mystical as purring animals
The circle of rage
The ghosts on the stage appeared
The time was so tangible, I'll never let it go
Ghost stories handed down, reached secret tunnels below
No one could see me
I fell into yesterday.
Our dreams seemed not far away
I want to, I want to, I want to stay.
I fell into fantasy
The girl on the wall always waited for me,
And she was always smiling
The teenage death boys
The teenage death girls
And everyone was dancing
Nothing could touch us then
No one could change us then
Everyone was dancing
Nothing could hurt us then
No one could see us then
Everyone was dancing
Everyone was dancing
No one could see me
I fell into yesterday
Our dreams seemed not far away
I want to, I want to, I want to stay
I fell into fantasy
Our dreams seemed not far away
Our dreams seemed not far away
Our dreams seemed not far away
I fell into fantasy
Catch A Hot One
Let's tap your heart so we can paint the walls
and see if anybody likes the tone or the pain.
The hungry eyes waiting for life flash, now they're gonna see it.
Open your veins so we can make a pool and bathe
and see if anyone complains of the stain.
Let's strip you down so we can see you old scars.
Now you're gonna feel it. Now you're gonna feel it.
Show me how to shine now.
Have you turned, turned to dust?
I saw an insect learn to fly; its form was scorned.
Have you ever seen the kingdom of the flys?
Have you lost the sense of touch?
I saw it stay in sovereignty.
Have you ever turned to dust?
Let's lift you up so we can see how fast
you fall. We always thought that you could fly; now you'll crawl.
The lack of loyalty you thought you once felt, now you're
gonna feel it, now you're gonna feel it. Now show me how to shine.
Have you turned, turned to dust?
I saw an insect learn to fly; its form was scorned.
Have you ever seen the kingdom of the flys?
Have you lost the sense of touch?
I saw it stay in sovereignty.
Have you ever turned to dust?
Now show me, now show me, now show me how to shine
Now show me, now show me, now show me how to shine
Now show me, now show me, now show me how to shine
Have you turned, turned to dust?
I saw an insect learn to fly; its form was scorned.
Have you ever seen the kingdom of the flys?
Have you lost the sense of touch?
I saw it stay in sovereignty.
Have you ever turned to dust?
Wester
I can feel you waiting for me as the sun retreats to the hills and I,
Below the blanket of a burning sky, wrap myself within
Embraced by dead leaves as the rain leaves trails of black down my face,
And I creep through the twilight to that hidden place beyond the lonely
I'll meet you tonight in the whispers when no one's around
Nothing can stop us now
Tonight in the whispers where we won't be found
Nothing can stop us now
I can feel you dreaming of me and the time when our steps are retraced
and I creep through the twilight to that hidden place,
beyond the lonely
I'll meet you tonight in the whispers when no one's around
Nothing can stop us now
Tonight in the whispers where we won't be found
Nothing can stop us now
Tonight in the whispers when no one's around
Nothing can stop us now
Tonight in the whispers where we won't be found
Nothing can stop us now
I can feel you dreaming of me, I can feel you dreaming
I can feel you dreaming of me
Beneath a dream, beneath a dream,
(One world away. We were just one world away. In silent rapture let us stay... one world away)
I can feel you dreaming of me, I can feel you dreaming,
I can feel you dreaming of me, lost in a dream tonight, lost in a dream tonight.
Tonight in the whispers when no one's around
Nothing can stop us now
Tonight in the whispers where we won't be found
Nothing can stop us now
Tonight in the whispers when no one's around
Nothing can stop us now
Tonight in the whispers where we won't be found
Nothing can stop us now
6 To 8
Six figures enter; they've come to destroy the world.
They've called together this storm almost every night.
I awake in another place.
A familiar voice with a stranger's face speaks (I awake in another place) more unheard words.
What new friends will the day bring?
One for one thousand acquainted.
What new home will the night bring?
When it all comes down you just throw the bones.
On the way I saw five hours of sleep (On the way) but your fire makes it all worth while.
On the way I wrote words for you to keep.
On the way
What new friends will the day bring?
One for one thousand acquainted.
What new home will the night bring?
When it all comes down you just throw the bones.
On the way I saw five hours of sleep (On the way) but your fire makes it all worth while.
On the way I wrote words for you to keep.
On the way, I saw myself.
Lost myself along the way.
On the way I saw five hours of sleep (On the way) but your fire makes it all worth while.
On the way I wrote words for you to keep.
On the way
The Despair Factor
Along the path where the stream is talking,
I breathe the mist and continue walking.
The wood it whispers in a language of it's own.
As a sigh escaped my lips,
I feel the light caress of fingertips that,
steal away the breath and leave me on my own.
Waiting by the stairs. (Waiting, I despair)
Waiting, I despair. (Waiting by the...)
My whole life is a dark room.
One, big, dark room.
Do I hear the hollow sound,
Footsteps resounding on this frozen ground,
Or the familiar disappointment of the echoes of my own?
Waiting by the stairs. (Waiting I despair)
Waiting, I despair. (Waiting by the stairs)
Waiting by the stairs. (Waiting I despair)
Waiting, I despair. (Waiting by the stairs)
(For sensation, for elation, for the time when I ascend. For the ecstasy, for tragedy, for the point of my ascension.)
Waiting by the stairs. (Waiting I despair)
Waiting, I despair. (Waiting by the stairs)
[whispers:]
Somehow I ended up here in between,
Where there is always the comfort,
Of knowing I'll never be seen.
When I fall
When I fall
I wait for just one touch,
And I fall
Weightless,
Endless,
Faithless, I'll adore you.
A single touch, before I fade. Painless let me pass through.
Weightless,
Endless,
Faithless, I'll adore you.
A single touch, before I fade. Painless let me pass through.
Morningstar
I saw a star beneath the stairs glowing through the melting walls.
Who will be the first to begin their fall?
Or will we become one?
Am I the star beneath the stairs?
Am I a ghost upon the stage?
Am I your anything?
I saw a star beneath the stairs glowing bright before descent
and in the morning there is nothing left but what's inside of me.
Am I the star beneath the stairs?
Am I a ghost upon the stage?
Am I your anything?
Am I the star beneath the stairs?
Am I a ghost upon the stage?
Am I your anything?
And I don't want to die tonight; Will you believe in me?
And I don't want to fall into the light.
Will you wish upon?
Will you walk upon me?
I don't want to die tonight.
Will you believe in me tonight.
Am I the star beneath the stairs?
Am I a ghost upon the stage?
Am I your anything?
Am I the star beneath the stairs?
Am I a ghost upon the stage?
Am I your anything?
Battled
I can't think and I can't speak
My mind is not my own
Feeling like my will is weak
Cannot find the strength to go on
I've battled, I'm ****ing battled man
I've battled, I've battled yeah
I've battled, I'm ****ing battled man
I've battled,
I can't think and I can't speak
My mind is not my own
Feeling like my will is weak
Cannot find the strength to go on
I've battled, I'm ****ing battled man
I've battled, I've battled yeah
I've battled, I'm ****ing battled man
I've battled
Dream Of Waking (track 9 on the A-Side of the 12" vinyl edition of the album)
I feel it washing, over me,
slow poisonous tide.
Pins and needles, dance on me
sickness undefined.
Now I'm afraid, to face the sky,
please someone hear my haunting cry.
Please let them waken me, please let them waken me,
please let them waken me, please let them waken me.
Go!
With eyes sewn shut I still can see, I end up somewhere,
all that is surrounding me, somewhere in between,
Between a dream, I end up somewhere,
and motionless reality, will I forever lie?
I feel it binding, so smoothly,
I see myself below,
I feel it gnawing, eating me,
poisonous and slow.
My mind it speeds, my voice has died,
God let me make the faintest cry.
Please let them waken me, please let them waken me,
please let them waken me, please let them waken me.
Go!
With eyes sewn shut I still can see, I end up somewhere,
all that is surrounding me, somewhere between,
Between a dream, I end up somewhere,
and motionless reality, will I forever lie?
Binded by my hands, bind my legs, bind my eyes,
bind my mouth, bind everything.
Opened up, and for the taking,
just one touch and I'll be yours.
Open up, wide for the breaking
just one touch and I'll be yours.
What's on the other side, behind the mirror?
To try, I cry, to break, the static keeping me here in between,
What's on the other, side of the mirror?
To try, I cry, to break, the static keeping me here in between,
the static keeping me here in between.
Prelude 12/21
This is what I brought you this you can keep
This is what I brought you may forget me
I promise to depart just promise one thing
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep
This is what I brought you this you can keep
This is what I brought you may forget me
I promise you my heart just promise to sing
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep
This is what I thought
I thought you need me
This is what I thought so think me naïve
I promise you a heart you'd promise to keep
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep
Kill Caustic
So I'm feeling much worse now
You're better, you're better
Your designer drug
Won't work, won't work for me
Connect to a three volt
I hope your battery dies
How could you run on such, on such voltage?
All the same
I remain
The one you blame and I'm
Demonized
Purified
Justified
As you let yourself show
So now you'll love these screams
What's left of me (Don't speak)
Love these screams like I do (My name)
As the infinite stops cold
Just nine and the six are gone
Guess I was the one to
Ride that dirty ride
That is turning so fast now
I cannot hold on
But at this pace
Who'd want, who'd want to
All the same
I remain
The one you blame and I'm
Demonized
Purified
Justified
As you let yourself show
So now you'll love these screams
What's left of me (Don't speak)
Love these screams like I do (My name)
Don't ever speak my name
Don't ever speak my name again
Don't ever speak it
Don't ever speak my name again
Don't speak
Don't speak
Don't
Speak
My
Don't speak my name
So now you'll love these screams
What's left of me (Don't speak)
Love these screams like I do (Why)
Miss Murder
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh
With just a look they shook
And heavens bowed before him
Simply a look can break your heart
The stars that pierce the sky;
He left them all behind
We’re left to wonder why
He left us all behind
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh
(ohh)
Dreams of his crash won’t pass
Oh, how they all adored him
Beauty won't/will last when spiraled down
The stars that mystify
He left them all behind
And how his children cried/cry
He left us all behind
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh
What's the hook, the twist
Within this verbose mystery?
I would gladly bet my life upon it
That the ghost you love, your ray of light
Will fizzle out without hope
We're the empty set just floating through, wrapped in skin
Ever searching for what we were promised
Reaching for that golden ring we'd never let go,
But who would ever let us put put our filthy hands upon it?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh
Summer Shudder
Listen when I say
When I say it's real
Real life goes undefined
Why must you be so missable?
Everything you take
Makes me more unreal
Real lines are undefined
How can this be so miserable?
Under the summer rain, I burnt away
Under the summer rain (Burn!)
You turned away
Listen I can't make
Make a sound or feel
Feel fine I kissed the lies
Why must they be so kissable?
Listen as I break
Break the fourth wall's seal
Gorgeous eyes shine suicide
When will we be invisible?
Under the summer rain, I burnt away
Under the summer rain (Burn!)
We find a way
Under the summer rain, I burnt away
Under the summer rain (Burn!)
You turned away
This is the fall
This is the long way down
And our lives look smaller now
And our lives look so small
Willingly crying
This is the fall
This is the long way down
And our lives look smaller now
And our lives look so small
Under the summer rain, I burnt away
Under the summer rain (Burn!)
We find a way
Under the summer rain, I burnt away
Under the summer rain (Burn!)
We find a way
Under the summer rain (Burn!)
I burnt away
Under the summer rain (Burn!)
You turned away...
The Interview
Forever waiting for disaster
What David calls servant and master
Will you play it too?
As this displacement begs for water
Swimming, bathing
Drowning in sorrow
Scream with me
I crawl across this cracked expansion
I'll be buried soon
Beneath the sand with pure intentions
Wanting something, someone to follow
For a change, I'll refrain
From hiding all of me from you
(Here's my lullaby)
Pray for rain, lose your name
And watch all your dreams fall through
(Hush now, don't you cry)
I swoon upon my knees come crashing
Will you bury me?
Today, this small favour I am asking
Hold me, you may drop me tomorrow
For a change, I'll refrain
From hiding all of me from you
(Here's my lullaby)
Pray for rain, lose your name
And watch all your dreams fall through
(Hush now)
For a change, I'll refrain
From hiding all of me from you
Pray for rain, lose your name
And watch all your dreams fall through
Here's my lullaby
Hush now, don't you cry
[hidden track]
Calm down
Come down cold resides with me
With me
I flee to, I flee to decemberunderground
As you exhale, I breathe in and sink into
The water underground
And I grow pale without you
Love Like Winter
Warn your warmth to turn away
Here it's December
Everyday
Press your lips to the sculptures
And surely you'll stay
Love like winter
For of sugar and ice
I am made, I am made
It's in the blood
It's in the blood
I met my love before I was born
He wanted love
I taste of blood
He bit my lip, and drank my war
From years before, from years before
She exhales vanilla lace
I barely dreamt her, yesterday, yesterday
Read the lines in the mirror through
The lipstick trace
Por siempre
She said "It seems you're somewhere, far away" to his face
It's in the blood
It's in the blood
I met my love before I was born
She wanted love
I taste of blood
She bit my lip, and drank my war
From years before, from years before
Love like winter
Love like winter
Winter
Three, four
It's in the blood
It's in the blood
I met my love before I was born
He wanted love
I taste of blood
He bit my lip, and drank my war
From years before, from years before
Affliction
Every night devise
New heights in genocide
Lover I am loveless
All my friends and I
Toast health and suicide
Lover, I am lonely
Come on!
Were you holding hands when
My palms bled?
Oh, I will be alright...
Just use me, just use me
The future's bright without me
Spend some time walking the line
World is unified
Ennui, and I divide
Lover, I am loveless
Red days and burning might bleed
'Til the faceless die
Oh, lover I am lonely
Were you holding hands when
My wrists bled?
Oh I will be all right...
Just use me, just use me
The futures bright without me
Spend some time walking the line
Spend some time walking the line
So stay sweetly numb
Remain lifeless, love
Stay sweetly numb
Maintain lifeless love
Stay sweetly numb
Remain lifeless love
Oh I will be all right...
Just use me, just use me
The futures bright without me
Spend some time walking the line
Spend some time walking the line
The Missing Frame
One at a time, constants become surreal
One at a time, heart attacks are consealed
I can see that I lose the joys of life
One at a time
Suicides are revealed
You will see that I lost another life
But tonight
I'll let you tear it up
If you don't wake me up
But if you tear it, we can't repair it
So please don't wake me
Til someone cares
Now no one cares
One at a time, I watch them all forget
One at a time, I'm lost in little deaths
It's the place that I, I forget my life
Like tonight
I'll let you tear it up
If you don't wake me up
But if you tear it, we can't repair it
So please don't wake me
Til someone cares
Now no one cares
Will the flood behind me
Put out the fire inside me
Will the flood behind me
Put out the fire inside me
I'll let you tear it up
I'll let you break it up
If you don't wake me up
But if you tear it, we can't repair it
So please don't wake me
Til someone cares
Now no one cares, cares
Oh
I'll let you tear it up
If you don't wake me up
'Cause it's apparent
That you don't care and
It sunk into me
'Cause I don't care
Now no one cares
Kiss And Control
Watch the stars
Turn you to nothing
Now blush and smile as they whisk you away
Part your lips a bit more
I'll swallow your fear
I will show you how
All the bite marks impress
A need to be here
A need to see
City lights, like rain
Dance and explode
Fall upon debutantes
Reeling from nights that
Kiss and control
All of our, broken hearts
Velvet burns
The wrists while restraining
You blushed and smiled
And said you would stay
One more time seal my breath
I'll feed you the sky
I will show you how
Steal the glamour from death
And before you die
Oh, you should see
City lights, like rain
Dance and explode
Fall upon debutantes
Reeling from nights that
Kiss and control
All of our, broken hearts
Hearts
Our hearts
"We all want to die like movie stars" you said as you jumped from the height of our cutting room floor.
While above us glowing, exploding, our dreams burst forth in light in death.
Hold me and tell me,
"We'll burn like stars. We'll burn as we fall. Watch as the city lights dance for us!"
City lights, like rain
Dance and explode
Fall upon the pain of our lives
Reeling from nights that
Kiss and control
Fall apart, the pain of our lives, has pain
Dance and explode
City lights like rain
City lights sowcress me
Kiss and control
All of our, broken hearts
The Killing Lights
Oh
Five A.M. on the bathroom floor from the night before
Do you find me dreadful?
What a shame, such a sad disgrace
Such a pretty face
But she's not regretful
Am I beautiful?
Am I usable?
It's killing time again
Put on your face and let's pretend
These killing lights won't kill us all again
Three A.M. on the city street
When the air is sweet
I've had my mouth full
But it seems that outside the screen
Such a pretty face often will look dreadful
Am I beautiful?
Am I usable?
It's killing time again
Put on your face and let's pretend
These killing lights won't kill us all again
It's killing time again
Cover your face and we'll pretend
These killing lights can't kill us all again
You see, they always remember
They never forget a face
When they cut, cut, cut, cut, cut, cut, cut you up
Cut, cut, cut, cut, cut they remember
Cut, cut, cut, cut, cut, cut, cut you up
Cut you up
It's killing time again
Put on your face and let's pretend
These killing lights won't kill us all again
It's killing time again.
Cover your face and we'll pretend
These killing lights can't kill us all again
All again
All again
It's time again
It's killing time...
37mm
Bring your secrets to me
Just give me your hands
And I'll let you feel the wounds
They put in me
If you believe in me
How can I be dissolving?
If you'd believe me
I'd tell you everything
Do you fall too?
(Everytime that I)
Yes, I fall
(Everytime that I)
Do you want to
(Try to pacify)
Fall into me?
(Fall into me)
(Fall into me)
Into me
Silence can you hear me?
Press me to your lips
And I'll suck the poison out
Who will heal me?
Me...
If you keep killing me
How can I keep absolving?
Your sins into me
Begin the poisoning
Do you fall too?
(Everytime that I)
Yes, I fall
(Everytime that I)
Do you want to
(Try to pacify)
Fall into me?
(Fall into me)
(Fall into me)
Into me
Time, time, time
We're not, waiting
Time, time, time
We're no one
(Unknown, unknown)
Do you fall too?
(Everytime that I)
Yes, I fall
(Everytime that I)
Do you want to?
(Try to pacify)
Fall into me
(Fall into me)
Do you fall too?
(Everytime that I)
Yes, I fall
(Everytime that I)
Do you want to
(Try to pacify)
Fall into me
(Fall into me)
(Fall into me)
Into me
We are no one
We are no one
We are one
We are no one
We are
We are no one
We are no one
We are one
We are no one
We are
We are no one
We are no one
We are one
We are no one
We are
We are no one
We are no one
We are one
We are no one
We are
We are no one
We are no one
We are one
We are no one
We are (no one)
Endlessly, She Said
[Whispering]
Walked into our world and made
Horrible sounds
I can still hear them today
(Strangely they seem)
Beautiful now
Though they outlast my love
Still each time I always meant
Every word
Every one
Though in time they finally bent
Every word
Every one
Every word
"I will wait for you." She said,
Endlessly
"I will wait for you." So spoke,
Misery
I returned to you but found
My empty home
The radio told me to stay
As it burned down
I sang alone
You will outlast my love
Still each time I always meant
Every word
Every one
Though in time they finally bent
Every word
Every one
Every word
"I will wait for you." She said,
Endlessly
"I will wait for you." So spoke,
Misery
Oh
I have been waiting for you
Biting as you taught me to
I have come to relieve you
Of life and love
I will wait for you
I will wait for you
I will wait for you
I will wait
I will wait
"I will wait for you." She said,
(I will wait)
Endlessly
"I will wait for you." So spoke,
(I will wait)
Misery
"I will wait for you"
Wait for you,
Endlessly.
"I will wait for you."
So spoke
So spoke
Misery
I will bite straight through
As I wait for you
Dear,
Endlessly
Miss Murder edit
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh
With just a look they shook
And heavens bowed before him
Simply a look can break your heart
The stars that pierce the sky;
He left them all behind
We’re left to wonder why
He left us all behind
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh
(ohh)
Dreams of his crash won’t pass
Oh, how they all adored him
Beauty won't/will last when spiraled down
The stars that mystify
He left them all behind
And how his children cried/cry
He left us all behind
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh
For a little moment
I'm, frozen in perfect time
My heart, my heart, my heart
Is imperfect too
For reasons though you won't forget
Born into the empty set
My heart, my heart, my heart
Is empty too
Whoa-oh-ohh
[What's the hook, the twist
Within this verbose mystery?
I would gladly bet my life upon it
That the ghost you love, your ray of light
Will fizzle out without hope
We're the empty set just floating through, wrapped in skin
Ever searching for what we were promised
Reaching for that golden ring we'd never let go,
But who would ever let us put put our filthy hands upon it?]
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohh
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Hey Miss Murder can I?
Make beauty stay if I,
Take my life?
Whoa-oh-ohhBreather II
Let it be reborn invited and I hate my ways now.
I looked possessed in a focus of pure hate and I was gone forever.
Gone forever, gone.
I didn't mean it and now I'm faded and wasted.
I'm throwing up the old.
I knew that I'd live it, admit it, my demons were beating me down.
Cut out the black space, the blood and frustration of a wasteful life.
And I sent myself away with the medicine.
Another sleepless night, sleepless night.
I didn't mean it and now I'm faded and wasted.
I'm throwing up the old.
I knew that I'd live it, admit it, my demons were beating me down, down.
Another sleepless night.
Another sleepless night.
The Family Disease
I'll vomit illusions,
Trick myself that I'm happy,
But so much comes out of my mouth it's burning me empty, burning me empty
I think my heart could receive it,
Cheap imposter where you heading,
Thank you my love would you believe me,
Thank you my love would you be listening.
But so much comes out of my mouth it's burning me empty.
Feel me my anger's gone,
I don't breathe I only have a son,
It's not me (it's not me)
I'm not real, I was never born.
Feel me my anger's gone,
I don't breathe I only have a son,
It's not me (it's not me)
I'm not real, I was never born.
I am forever alive,
I hook my heart to my eyes,
I reach from birth just to die,
I keep the devil inside I grow him in me.
I think my heart could receive it,
Cheap imposter where you heading,
Thank you my love would you believe me,
Thank you my love would you be listening.
But so much comes out of my mouth it's burning me empty.
Feel me my anger's gone,
I don't breathe I only have a son,
It's not me (it's not me)
I'm not real, I Was never born.
Feel me my anger's gone,
I don't breathe I only have a son,
It's not me (it's not me)
I'm not real, I was never born.
I watched you choke on me,
You leave me unbalanced,
You come back to break them.
I watched you choke on me,
You leave me unbalanced,
You come back to break them.
I watched you choke on me,
You leave me unbalanced,
You come back to break them.
I watched you choke on me,
You leave me unbalanced,
You come back to break them.
Feel me my anger's gone,
I don't breathe I only have a son,
It's not me (it's not me)
I'm not real, I was never born.
Feel me my anger's gone,
I don't breathe I only have a son,
It's not me (it's not me)
I'm not real, I was never born.
I am forever alive
I hook my heart to my eyes
I am forever alive
I hook my heart to my eyes
The Constrictor
Divided I'm carelessly counting my sins
The sight of growing too old to begin
Sentenced to find the one that is gold
In a pile of nothing
To our hearts we wreck we're reborn
I grow inside you I feel nothing
And when I'm born I will be ready
There's not enough of a reason to be ugly
I'll crucify you and burn until you're nothing
And if my body is bruised would you believe me that
I am more than you and what you're reading
There's not enough of a reason to be ugly
I'll crucify you and burn until you're nothing
And if my body is bruised would you believe me that
I am more than you and what you're reading
Medic I feel headless
Leave me
Medic I feel headless
Leave me
Medic I feel headless
Leave me
Medic I feel headless
Leave me
Divided I'm carelessly counting my sins
The sight of growing too old to begin
Divided I'm carelessly counting my sins
The sight of growing too old to begin
And if the world never died
I'd live long enough to forget what its shape is
I lost each one of my eyes
In a world mind versus the question
And if the world never died
I'd live long enough to forget what its shape is
I lost each one of my eyes
In a world mind versus the question
And if the world never died
I'd live long enough to forget what its shape is
I lost each one of my eyes
In a world mind versus the question
Divided I'm carelessly counting my sins
The sight of growing too old to begin
Divided I'm carelessly counting my sins
The sight of growing too old to begin
Dead Speaker
Something didn't want you to live in me
My body rejected you, you don't belong to me
And after the bodies cleaned they have to make room for you to sleep
Something didn't want you to die in me
My body accepted you, you don't belong to me
And after the bodies cleaned they have to make room for me to sleep
Breather you took it all away from me.
You're nothing. Was I supposed to see?
Mother we're going too fast for me.
I was a growing seed. It ended mother.
I was still so afraid of my grave.
I was buried as a child, father
And after all my organs were choked.
Do you still feel me?
Something didn't want you to live in me
My body rejected you, you don't belong to me
And after the bodies cleaned they have to make room for me to sleep (for me to sleep)
Something didn't want you to die in me
My body accepted you, you don't belong to me
And after the bodies cleaned they have to make room for me to sleep
I'll find sadness it matches my sound its vicious as sex
I'll find sadness it matches my sound its vicious as sex
Devil you fed it your son isn't finished
Devil you fed it your son isn't finished
Something didn't want you to live in me
My body rejected you, you don't belong to me
And after the bodies cleaned they have to make room for me to sleep
Something didn't want you to live in me
My body rejected you, you don't belong to me
And after the bodies cleaned they have to make room for me to sleep (for me to sleep)
Something didn't want you to die in me
My body accepted you, you don't belong to me
And after the bodies cleaned they have to make room for me to sleep
Mother Love
Fear, love.
A failure to nothing, but an empty shape.
We collide and we were dead on.
Are you tired enough.
I think I hurt your head enough.
Bruising me the first touch.
We'll fall asleep we'll close it up.
Count the days till you get rid of me,
Till I fall asleep I am meaningless endlessly
You'd feel fine if you could bury me six feet underneath, I won't see it
And now I'm recklessly ending it as it falls from the stage to the floor
The day ends when I say it does I'm afraid of him, I'm afraid of him
My mother sings when she's afraid of me because I hurt her more,
More than the son she sees it scares her half to death
My father sings when he's afraid of me because I hurt him more,
More than the son he sees it scares us all to death.
Oh, my son why did you leave me?
Where did you run my son?
Why did you leave me?
Oh, my son why did you leave me?
Oh, my son why did you leave me?
Where did you run my son?
Why did you leave me?
Oh, my son why did you leave me?
Where did you run my son?
You left me empty
In Birth
In birth we lose them to sudden defects. Our minds are not open yet.
And all, all the time you had growing out of your seed.
And all, all the life you had you'll finally see.
There's no, there's no life here.
We welcome you to the world in fascinating views.
We consume you will all be alone.
You're breathing like you did you never wanted to.
You're always gonna lose when no ones there for you.
You're barely human yet we thought we'd see you soon.
We'll all abandon you, we're always gonna lose.
There's no, there's no life here.
We welcome you to the world in fascinating views.
We consume you will all be alone.
Those who say there's nothing after
Well their all ghosts and none of them will matter
Those who say there's nothing after
Well their all ghosts and none of them will matter
There's no, there's no life here
We welcome you to the world in fascinating views
We consume you will all be alone
There's no, there's no life here
We welcome you to the world in fascinating views
We consume you will all be alone
Boneworks
When feeding the ones left breathing
It's our only way to live
My minds past growing in the salt
With the bone community
They took my tongue for the things I
Wanted but couldn't, wanted but couldn't but couldn't say
When your taking my child away
My colors will surely change
My voice will be the same
Things were never that way again
After they came and left we're nothing
When your taking my child away
My colors will surely change
My voice will be the same
Things were never that way again
After they came and left we're nothing
Your voice is a cannibal
Your child got taken away
Your life is an open wound
Exposed to all of those around you
Exposed to all of those
Your voice is a cannibal
Your child got taken away
Your life is an open wound
Exposed to all of those around you
Exposed to all of those
Exposed to all of those around you
The Abortion Plan
I left my head when I was home,
I caught an evil side of me,
I only breathe when I'm alone.
The days await till I am gone.
I grew right next to your heart.
I should have grabbed it and pulled it down.
I feel what your feeding me.
I hear what you really speak.
Could the eater rot in time?
He's sucking out the lines that make you notice the world as an illusion.
Your body pushed through it.
In birth it all confuses us.
What do I do when I'm lying on a table?
My mother didn't want me, my whole life I've been starving.
9 months to grow inside you, my life was as fresh as the mind of an infant.
Where did I go? Hell, I knew that my heart wouldn't make it.
And the due date is close.
Well heaven knew it take a part of me.
But I only speak, I only speak when I am hungry.
Now the lights on my face.
And I've never felt more ugly when the devil grabbed me by the legs and shook me.
I was gone, I was gone...
Could the eater rot in time?
He's sucking out the lines that make you notice the world as an illusion.
Your body pushed through it.
In birth it all confuses us.
What do I do when I'm lying on a table?
My mother didn't want me, my whole life I've been starving.
9 months to grow inside you, my life was as fresh as the mind of an infant.
Where did I go? Hell, I knew that my heart wouldn't make it.
You said it, you said it
Homes where death is, I'll just forget it.
You said it, you said it
Homes where death is, I'll just forget it.
Could the eater rot in time?
He's sucking out the lines that make you notice the world as an illusion.
Your body pushed through it.
In birth it all confuses us.
What do I do when I'm lying on a table?
My mother didn't want me, my whole life I've been starving.
9 months to grow inside you, my life was as fresh as the mind of an infant.
Where did I go? Hell, I knew that my heart wouldn't make it.
Could the eater rot in time?
He's sucking out the lines that make you notice the world as an illusion.
Your body pushed through it.
In birth it all confuses us.
What do I do when I'm lying on a table?
My mother didn't want me, my whole life I've been starving.
9 months to grow inside you, my life was as fresh as the mind of an infant.
Where did I go? Hell, I knew that my heart wouldn't make it.
BOA
If I was fearing the world I'd be generous
In habit the world seems to feed what I need
And in a separating ground pulled apart from me
Where's cause me I erase everything
When we we're first born
The liquid covered our bodies it harder to breathe
Without a clue in the world
Our fathers poisoned their wives and the life that he made for me
Are you afraid of us
This isn't a place for us your body is surely as sad as can be
Wish I could feel again
The sadness will never end invited forever we sleep, sleep
Hail deliverer the skin the skin will peel off of me
Hail deliverer the skin
If I hadn't meant to live
If I hadn't meant to live what would I give
I had a part of you
You were a part of me and now it doesn't exist
If I hadn't meant to live
If I hadn't meant to live what would I give
I had a part of you (I had a part of you)
You were a part of me and now it doesn't exist
If I hadn't meant to live
If I hadn't meant to live what would I give
I had a part of you (I had a part of you)
You were a part of me
If I hadn't meant to live
If I hadn't meant to live what would I give
In hell we decide
In hell we decide
Hiding in the lines of the sand with the old blood
I'm dying and living alone in a home with nothing I'm nothing
And I mean it
And I saw the afterlife you had a reason to be
You had a reason to be and now their all alone
We'll all be living (we'll all be living)
And if they eat us
They'll only show us their life is broken in pairs
With the old love I'm extending my way as a full blood in this life
I Came As Dust (I Left As Dust)
I kept a cross in my right hand
I dropped it into the quicksand the wood went to waste
Waste faith it's broken
You're furthering self to fame losing your god is leaving
I left it there for a blind man
He pulled it out with no questions and I took his place
Waste faith it's broken
You're furthering self to fame losing your god is leaving
And when there's nowhere to fit
It leaves us here to be compared to him
How could you bend your fears
The day was reduced to tears
Your stomach was armor an aid that would save your life
It's impossible for you to hear
I kept a cross in my right hand
I dropped it into the quicksand the wood went to waste
Waste faith it's broken
You're furthering self to fame losing your god is leaving
I left it there for a blind man
He pulled it out with no questions and I took his place
Waste faith it's broken
You're furthering self to fame losing your god is leaving
And when there's nowhere to fit
It leaves us here to be compared to him
Breather followed me here you followed my footsteps here
You fit in my head like a father I'll never remember you ever
Breather followed me here you followed my footsteps here (you ever)
How could you bend your fears
The day was reduced to tears
Your stomach was armor an aid that would save your life
It's impossible for you to hear (It's impossible for you to hear)
And when there's nowhere to fit
It leaves us here to be compared to him
And when there's nowhere to fit
It leaves us here to be compared
Waste faith it's broken
You're furthering self to fame losing your god is leaving
Waste faith it's broken
You're furthering self to fame losing your god is leaving
The Spine Collection
The old ways always get at me
Throwing myself on the floor when I'm empty
Call me I'm falling in front of a demon possessing
Making me talk
My throat gets rid of a part of me
Anxiety could end it all
Physically I've found that I'll stay the same
And you all should have nothing to say
Was afraid of living alone
You could of changed it
They could have saved us
I need something to fill in the hole
I was afraid of living alone
You could of changed it
They could saved us
I need something to fill in the hole
How pathetic my face is allergic
And everything my spine gives
Wanna get rid of it
When there's something saddening
The room writes a scene
I could not exist I want to get rid of it
The patches that hold my blood in
I've invented a new sin
The whole world takes part of it
In learning I'll love him
I'll love him does not exist
Till then I'll be over it
It's one thing I'll never miss
And I'll never find a way to be happy
And there's no one here no one here that's like me
No one here that's like me
And I'll never find a way to be happy
And there's no one here no one here that's like me
No one here that's like me
I was afraid of living alone
You could of changed it
They could saved us
I need something to fill in the hole
I was afraid of living alone
You could of changed it
They could saved us
I need something to fill in the hole
I was afraid of living alone, alone
Devil Walk, God Walk (Heaven Walk, Hell Walk)
For those who mean it your skin will be cleaned
The scales you have shed for the family disease
Wash the salt from you palms
You're sweating it out I beg for the taste of it
Believing in him
Devil the fear of you in me
Delivering the failures that made me believe
There's no life worth living that children will leave
We'll separate the family disease we'll create
If we're dead we'll believe
It was diseased I was left just to see it
The rotting flesh my teeth were all broken from feeding
I found a better love as I aged
It progressed and left it's not over till it's over I said
Devil the fear of you in me
Delivering the failures that made me believe
There's no life worth living that children will leave
We'll separate the family disease we'll create
If we're dead we'll believe
Guard them demon
Let them to be headed
Kill them, burn them
We'll be left seedless men
Kill them, burn them
We'll be left seedless men
Kill them, burn them
We'll be left
Found myself with a cheap mask in hand, drowned out
Birth has it's hands reached out to welcome the sound of hell
Open your eyes breathe now
But don't move your mouth
Open your eyes child breathe now, now
But don't move your mouth
All of my heartless life I die
My voice will change when I start to smile
My mind gets eaten away our children die, die
Wash the salt from your palms you're sweating it out
I beg for the taste of it
Wash the salt from your palms sweating it out
I beg for the taste of it
Guard them demon
Let them to be headed
Kill them, burn them
We'll be left seedless men
Kill them, burn them
We'll be left seedless men
Kill them, burn them
We'll be left
All of our sons and our daughters are dead
And the birth that we stole
Eater grows old
All of our sons and our daughters are dead
And the birth that we stole
Eater grows old
All of our sons and our daughters are dead
And the birth that we stole
Eater grows old
All of our sons and our daughters are dead
And the birth that we stole
Eater grows old
All of our sons and our daughters are dead
And the birth that we stole
Eater grows old
