Things have not been so good this month, I feel and most has to do with the fact that I am so busy, it has become stressful. When I started this program, I became busier and it felt good and yet I had time to take care of things around and relax with my family. Now I am finding that I don't have time to concentrate on much except for work or volunteer projects that I am involved in. Yes, I became over involved and even though some things were temporary, they lasted longer than expected. Now we have this new business venture that is taking up so much more time. I feel like I am teetering on the edge.
One thing I do know, this isn't good for my health or my sanity level and I need to do everything possible to learn how to take care of me again.
Weight is fluctuating because I am not taking the time to exercise, get enough sleep, drink enough water, or eat properly.
What I know now:
1. I have to make a regimented schedule in order to exercise daily.
2. Taking time to plan meals works the best.
3. Going to bed early is key to increasing the speed of my metabolism.
4. There is a fine line between staying busy in a healthy way and being too busy which becomes unhealthy.
Things I have learned:
1. Weight loss is important to me still, after all I am still here.
2. It is "easy" to make weight loss efforts a lower priority.
3. To get the support I truly need, I also need to make time to give support needed to others.
4. It can be easy to even think about exercise because I haven't "built" it in to my routine.
5. When I am tired, I still make very bad decisions and lose my productivity.
6. It can be easy to "con" yourself into believing that "baked" cheetos are much better than "real" cheetos. Who am I kidding?
7. Using Fitday.com helped to keep me aware of my food and I should consider using it again.
8. The healthy eating of my family STILL lies with me.
Things that changed:
1. My energy my energy is decreasing.
2. I am still taking better care of my appearance, which can be a big boost.
3. My eating is all over the board.
4. I am not sleeping properly.
5. I still eat a healthy breakfast for the most part.
6. My water levels are horrible.
Things I still need to work on:
1. Prioritizing all things in my life and letting go of the minor things.
2. Getting more water in. It's hard to do when the weather is cold.
3. Exercise. 15-20 minutes a day would be a good start.
4. Eating in the kitchen only.
5. Preparing a few meals for the freezer for the "busy" nights, although I have actually begun this and it works well.
This starts my tenth month. I haven't lost any more since last month. I am up some then down some, but I can see where things could seriously continue to go up if I am not careful. I have come to terms with the fact that my progress has slowed, but I know that I can still move forward. Last month I was at 188. Things are still about the same. My total loss since beginning the program is 42lbs.
I have needed to change my goals yet again, to reflect this stagnate routine.
1. 4lbs lost by Christmas
3. 14lbs lost by Feb 1
4. 24lbs lost by Mar 10. I year with WISH
5. 34lbs lost by Easter
5. 38lbs lost by my birthday! Hit the goal!!!!
I know that I have still done well, especially when I get comments and when people ask "what I am doing to lose". They never want to hear the answer, but oh well. I did get some relief in the fact that I am making a lifestyle change and learning my pitfalls and learning how to make this successful for life. It is much better to lose weight "slowly" than lose a lot all at once, like I see so many do. Even given the set backs, I still feel successful.
Back to some mini-goal rewards.
1st (starting over) mini goal reward: A manicure when I lose 3 lbs.
2nd mini goal reward: A day to relax, read, pamper myself, do anything I want and nothing that I have to do. 8 more lbs.
I am glad I did this. It really helps to focus on what is most important at this point and that is priorities. Here's to next month showing a loss!
