LeoGrrrrl1982
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- Jan 8, 2005
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I suppose to properly tell my story I need to journey back a good many years. I have ALWAYS had a weight problem....as long as I can remember. I became overweight around age 5...when I look at childhood pictures it saddens me to see the pics of me at 4 looking so normal and healthy and then the ones at 5 where my tummy is protruding and i have a double chin. Whats amazing to me is that I put on about 30 lbs in ONE summer (a LOT of weight for a 4-5 year olds height) due to staying home with my dad who was working for Chrysler at the time and home while they did a changover of the plant. He was just trying to be a good father, but in doing this he caved in to all of my whims (many of them revolving around food).
I remember grade school and middle school being horrible...I didnt have many friends because unfortunately kids can be cruel and many didnt want to be associated with the fat girl. I remember once in 2nd or 3rd grade one of the teachers on the play ground asking a couple kids from my class to play with me...they did and it was really great running around and playing with other kids.....but the next day things were right back to the same thing and I played on my own again. At home I was friends with most of my small neighborhood (probably 10 kids or so) but school was always depressing and I remember usually having a tummy ache in the morning which doctors diagnosed as stress.
Then, at 13, I decided I was tired of this nonsense and I set out on a plan to lose weight. I refused to continue getting more heavy and more unhealthy and my prime motivation was NOT to be heavy in high school. At that point I was 5 foot 5 and 210 lbs. I went on Atkins and over the course of about 3 months (I started about one month before school let out and continued all summer break) I lost over 50 lbs. I wasnt skinny by any means but I fit into a size 12 pants, I could shop in the juniors department, and I was ready to take on high school. Of course, everyone noticed that Id lost weight at school and now I was more confident and making friends became easier. Over the course of my freshman year I managed to not only maintain my weight but got down to about 150 lbs.
Over the summer of my freshman year, I got into spot training....what started as situps in the morning soon turned into an obsession....I would seriously do sets of 100 situps for the front abs, obliques, and lower ab muscles (so a total of 400 situps) about 10 times a day. I still had a little pooch below my belly button and was convinced this was how to rid myself of it. It worked....and I was getting more attention. I noticed that I was very prone to putting my weight back on....if I didnt watch every morsel I put in my mouth I would hop on the scale and bam 5 or 10 lbs were back on. I know now that I am very much a carb addict and I do have to watch myself and not eat with careless abandon.
I remember that summer deciding that I didnt want to put weight back on and if i didnt eat more then 1000 cals a day I couldnt possibly gain weight (remember this is 15 year old girl logic). Well to make a long story short, 1000 cals a day turned into 200 or 300 cals a day. By December of my sophomore year I was 5 foot 6 and 110 lbs. I was rale thin....I was passing out frequently because I wasnt eating. The worst part? Everybody couldnt stop raving about how good I looked!
In January though I just couldnt take it anymore and started eating again....my 110 lbs jumped back to 150 by the end of sophomore year.
The next 6 years (Im 22 now) have been an exhausting series of gains and losses on my weight.
In the past 2 years I have really gotten away from good eating habits, havent excercises (although ive dieted for 2 weeks and then fallen off the wagon again several times). I began to make excuses for my weight....claiming that clothing companys were makign clothes smaller. My jeans ALL suddenly had to be stretch....and even those began to get too tight. I hit an all time high last November. I had just moved into my first home and after all the stress of that (moving, saving the money for the downpayment, etc, etc) I looked at myself in the mirror and was horrified.
At 5 foot 9 I stepped on the scale and weighed 188 lbs! This was the closest Id been to 200 lbs in almost 10 years and I decided this is coming to an end.
I went on Atkin November 15th of 2004 and after two weeks of induction began to add carbs into my life.....keeping the limit to 60 carbs a day and having a cheat day once a week. By New Years I was down to 175 lbs and I was satisified with my eating lifestyle and didnt feel deprived. I didnt weigh myself for awhile and had vacation to Disney in February and when I came back I was full of mickey bars and dole whips. Convienently when I returned to work they were doing something for the month of march (nutrition month) called weight wars. I joined with a team of 3 others and this gave me what I needed to get back on the wagon! I am down to my slimmest weight Ive been in 2 years or more! I am following modified atkins and yesterday I weighed 168. CLothes I havent worn in years are fitting again. My goal is 155 and Im hoping to reach that or at least near that by April 22nd when I go to DIs again!
Wish me luck...I will keep ya'll posted!
I remember grade school and middle school being horrible...I didnt have many friends because unfortunately kids can be cruel and many didnt want to be associated with the fat girl. I remember once in 2nd or 3rd grade one of the teachers on the play ground asking a couple kids from my class to play with me...they did and it was really great running around and playing with other kids.....but the next day things were right back to the same thing and I played on my own again. At home I was friends with most of my small neighborhood (probably 10 kids or so) but school was always depressing and I remember usually having a tummy ache in the morning which doctors diagnosed as stress.
Then, at 13, I decided I was tired of this nonsense and I set out on a plan to lose weight. I refused to continue getting more heavy and more unhealthy and my prime motivation was NOT to be heavy in high school. At that point I was 5 foot 5 and 210 lbs. I went on Atkins and over the course of about 3 months (I started about one month before school let out and continued all summer break) I lost over 50 lbs. I wasnt skinny by any means but I fit into a size 12 pants, I could shop in the juniors department, and I was ready to take on high school. Of course, everyone noticed that Id lost weight at school and now I was more confident and making friends became easier. Over the course of my freshman year I managed to not only maintain my weight but got down to about 150 lbs.
Over the summer of my freshman year, I got into spot training....what started as situps in the morning soon turned into an obsession....I would seriously do sets of 100 situps for the front abs, obliques, and lower ab muscles (so a total of 400 situps) about 10 times a day. I still had a little pooch below my belly button and was convinced this was how to rid myself of it. It worked....and I was getting more attention. I noticed that I was very prone to putting my weight back on....if I didnt watch every morsel I put in my mouth I would hop on the scale and bam 5 or 10 lbs were back on. I know now that I am very much a carb addict and I do have to watch myself and not eat with careless abandon.
I remember that summer deciding that I didnt want to put weight back on and if i didnt eat more then 1000 cals a day I couldnt possibly gain weight (remember this is 15 year old girl logic). Well to make a long story short, 1000 cals a day turned into 200 or 300 cals a day. By December of my sophomore year I was 5 foot 6 and 110 lbs. I was rale thin....I was passing out frequently because I wasnt eating. The worst part? Everybody couldnt stop raving about how good I looked!
In January though I just couldnt take it anymore and started eating again....my 110 lbs jumped back to 150 by the end of sophomore year.
The next 6 years (Im 22 now) have been an exhausting series of gains and losses on my weight.
In the past 2 years I have really gotten away from good eating habits, havent excercises (although ive dieted for 2 weeks and then fallen off the wagon again several times). I began to make excuses for my weight....claiming that clothing companys were makign clothes smaller. My jeans ALL suddenly had to be stretch....and even those began to get too tight. I hit an all time high last November. I had just moved into my first home and after all the stress of that (moving, saving the money for the downpayment, etc, etc) I looked at myself in the mirror and was horrified.
At 5 foot 9 I stepped on the scale and weighed 188 lbs! This was the closest Id been to 200 lbs in almost 10 years and I decided this is coming to an end.
I went on Atkin November 15th of 2004 and after two weeks of induction began to add carbs into my life.....keeping the limit to 60 carbs a day and having a cheat day once a week. By New Years I was down to 175 lbs and I was satisified with my eating lifestyle and didnt feel deprived. I didnt weigh myself for awhile and had vacation to Disney in February and when I came back I was full of mickey bars and dole whips. Convienently when I returned to work they were doing something for the month of march (nutrition month) called weight wars. I joined with a team of 3 others and this gave me what I needed to get back on the wagon! I am down to my slimmest weight Ive been in 2 years or more! I am following modified atkins and yesterday I weighed 168. CLothes I havent worn in years are fitting again. My goal is 155 and Im hoping to reach that or at least near that by April 22nd when I go to DIs again!
Wish me luck...I will keep ya'll posted!
