Kristin's Journal.... posts welcome

[pettyone]

I made it a whole mile at speed 3.0...in 25min. Now this might be slow to some of you. But to keep up that speed the whole time was hard for me.

Don't kid yourself, Kristin...you did great!! I think it's awesome that you pushed yourself through it!! It will get easier...you will get more fit...just keep plugging away, the payoff will be there!!!

 

[kris1973]

Still day 6

OH boy I lost it today....got in fight with my mom and proptly got off the phone and got in the kids stuff. YUCK!!!!! Even as I ate it I knew it was wrong....wish DH was in town. OK gonna get back on track.

Kristin

 

[Strings]

Kristin,

You are doing an incredible job. You are exercising every day despite feeling sore. (Motrin works wonders BTW) You are pushing yourself and you are focusing on your meals. Congrats!!!

Emotional eating is a tough one. I know I can never stay OP around my Mom. I end up with all the childhood patterns. You are missing DH, handling the kids by yourself, and arguing with your mom. Forgive yourself for the slip and move on. no one is perfect, and it is getting back on Program that will make this time different.
Take care and keep up the GREAT work,
Beth

 

[kris1973]

Day 7

Totally disappointed....a full week of hell working out and lost only 3 or 4 pounds. This is just water weight and I guess I thought more would come off. Don't worry I am not throwing in the towel just unhappy. Did my 1mile run/walk on the treddie and did it in 22min and it is just 7am so pretty happy about that. Almost have 1/2 my water in me already. Thank god hubby is comming home tonight. The kids about drove me bonkers last night. Well off for now gotta get the kids out the door.

Kristin

 

[Lesli54]

3 to 4 lbs in a week is GREAT!!

Don't let your mind play tricks on you. You have worked really hard and it has paid off! Remember, you are also building muscle and stamina which have probably also increased. If it comes off too fast, you could get sick and we don't want that.

Keep up the good work and you will see some more gone soon.

 

[kris1973]

Still day 7

Boy oh boy today is gonna be a hum dinger. Long story short my mom is an alcoholic for most of my life but we did not know it. She hides it well and my whole life from 14 to now 31 she has never been shy about my body and how it makes her feel. We pretty much do not have any kind of relationship anymore. So we get into it yesterday and now she calls me at 8am and asks me if I have ever thought of suicide because of my weight. I respond no way I have to much to live for between my kids and my hubbie. So she responds well I have thought of suicide many times but I think I am to afraid to do it But please don't tell your dad.

So of course I call my dad and he responds she says it all the time she will never do it.....it just her way of trying to get sympathy. Man I better drink all my water today because if I dont cheat than I should be up for saint hood today. Sorry to dump this on you guys but I needed to vent and no hubbie at home.

Kristin

 

[plutosmyfav]

Hi Kristin,

Wow you definitely are challenged today with the emotional dump from your Mom. Be good to yourself, don't let it derail your positive efforts.

BTW, I don't mind hearing you complain about aches and pains. I know it won't be long before you are addicted to exercise!!!! You are doing so great, keep pacing yourself and you'll be amazed at what you can do!!!!!

Sunny

 

[Lesli54]

Kristin,

Hang in there. I understand alcoholism and not being aware for a while that it was going on. My mom "told" me her problems through a letter when she was in recovery and I was overseas. Great way to find out. She didn't stay there and I have seen too much with her in my adult life that my children were "cheated" out of having a grandma for many many years. Thankfully, she has been sober for 6 years. My cousin went through the same with my uncle. It is tough and your dad is right about your mom using excuses to get sympathy. Unfortunately, there isn't much you can do except pray and listen to what your mom says with a handful (forget the grain) of salt.

You hang in there and keep working on strengthing your health for you and your family. At least you know that your children will not have to deal with the same thing you are going through now. That is my consellation prize in raising my family and doing right by them.

Sending prayers and strenghth your way.

 

[pearlieq]

(((Kristin)))

I am so sorry to hear about all of the stress you've been dealing with between DH being gone and your mom's issues. You deserve major kudos for still being comiitted to being OP and for working out so hard while all of this is swirling around you! It's such a great thing--it proves how committed you are to your health and sanity!

Much to you! I'll check in on you later to say how the rest of your day went.

 

[kris1973]

Day 7....will it ever end


Well today has been rough. I started out really great but ended up going down hill around 2pm....I could have really lost it but just ate larger portions than I should have only one dessert.

I am a biggy on emotional eatting and today was sure that, hubbie is home tonight so things should be alot better tomorrow. Thanks guys for all the support today with my mom.

Kristin

 

[toystoryduo]

Oh Kristin,

I am so sorry to hear about the situation with your mom. That must be difficult for you. Hang in there sweetie, do the best you can, and know that we are here for you! Take good care of you!

 

[kris1973]

Day 8

Well today is a new day and thank goodness hubbie is home. The stress level in the house went down so fast. It is so nice just having him around. Well yesterday was not the best but I am so far so good on track today.

Got my water in already and it is 9:30am did the slim fast thing for breakfast. Gonna walk 1mile again and do floor workout. I will update more later. Thanks guys for listening.

Meal Plan:

Breakfast...slimfast and water
Snack...carrots and water
Lunch...slimfast and water
Snack...banana and you guessed it water
Dinner...fish and brocolli and SODA
Snack....Chocolate Rice Diet Thingies

Kristin

UPDATE: got my 1mile done and did it in 20min 40seconds. WOOT im speeding up.

 

[Strings]

Kristin,

I am so proud of you. You are dealing with some mjor emotional things right now, and while you weren't perfec, you are back OP today. I will send a few prayers for you nd your family. Keep up the gret work.
Take care,
Beth

 

[kris1973]

Still Day 8

Well did everything I said I would do today except for the small bowl of doritos that somehow landed in front of me.

Out of guilt I went to the Y and started the fit start program and did a full upper body curcuit and the weights were pretty high so that felt good. Then the psycho trainer lady put me on something called an epileptic trainer or something and I lasted 6minutes and my legs have still not stopped shaking. She wanted me to do 10min and I told her at 6min that I had already done a mile today on treddie and I cant handle anymore than this.....I will work up to 10 and than higher. I could tell she was a bit disappointed but she was very nice about it,. but I have to keep it real or I will never go back.

On a bad note I think I have gained weight. It has to be mussle because I have eatten so much better this week than I normally would even with some small cheat days. On a normal day for me I would prob consume about 4000 calories. So either my body is hording or I am getting mussle. I will no for sure in the morning but the scale tonight says gained. BLAH!!!!!!!!!!

Kristin

Thanks for letting me vent guys.;

 

[pearlieq]

Good for you for standing up to the psycho trainer lady! You're absolutely right that it is your program and you've got to keep it real.

Don't give up on the elliptical--they're awesome! It's a lot like running or using a stair stepper but it's a much smoother motion and it doesn't impact your knees so much, so it doesn't hurt as bad. It can take a little while to get used to the motion--I used to think I was going to fall, but I never did. If they have more than one style try them both. Also, if it gets to be too much, stop using the arms (if it has them). You can always do one minute with the arms, one without, etc.

You're doing a great job with your exercise and your water! Keep up the good work!

 

[kris1973]

Day 9

Well got on the scale and it was pretty good total of 6pounds in 9days. The scale must not like me in the evening. I almost cried when it said I gained. But thank god for the morning woot.

Got on the treddie this morning and did my 1mile at 7am...worked up a big sweat and ran off and on which was a first.

Plan of the day do the slim fast for breadfast and lunch....snacks will be the chocholate rice things and dinner will be fish and brocolli. As you can tell I am on a fish thing.....got burnt out on chicken. Have a great one today guys


Kristin

 

[pettyone]

Well got on the scale and it was pretty good total of 6pounds in 9days. The scale must not like me in the evening. I almost cried when it said I gained. But thank god for the morning woot.

Got on the treddie this morning and did my 1mile at 7am...worked up a big sweat and ran off and on which was a first.

Honey, stay AWAY from the scale in the evening!! No more of that, okay?

Congrats on your loss, that rocks!!

Way to go on the treddie!! I started out on that, but have moved to the elliptical...now I am the elliptical queen!! I love it!! It took me about two weeks to feel like I wasn't going to die while I was doing it, but now, a month and a half later, I am loving it!! I can honestly say that the elliptical is slimming me down, my clothes are looser from the waist down!! Vary your routine some & I'm sure the WHOOSH fairy will pay a visit!!

Have a great Friday & a Happy Easter!!

 

[Lesli54]

Keep up the good work Kristin. You are doing AWESOME on the exercise, just do what you can now and the rest will build over the next few weeks.

Glad to hear DH is home to relieve the stress.

 

[kris1973]

UPDATE TO DAY 9

OH boy lol I was so on track till I took the kids to McDonalds and I am not ashamed to say it. I enjoyed ever darn bite of my quater pounder with cheese. But I am still doing the fish for dinner. Thanks for the support guys.

Kristin

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Kristin!

I love McDonalds too! My favorite is Big Macs! Yummy!

Keep up the good work! You are doing a great job on exercise!

Have a Happy Easter!