Keep me in your prayers and thoughts today and the next two days.

[6_Time_Momma]

I know I sound like a broken record, but I could use prayers and good thoughts today. As I have mentioned today is the one year anniversary of our finding our Gabrielle had died.

I broke down emotionally on the way home from work this morning and have not been doing well since. Hard to believe it can still hurt this bad after a year, but I am indeed hurting in a very big, big way. And I'm sure it won't let up until after Saturday, which is when I delivered her. I called DH at work when I got home and he is in the same boat. I'm not sure how well he will get through work.

And it is a strange thing to be grieving for her and feeling the new baby kick inside me. I don't know how to explain the way that makes me feel.......I guess bittersweet is one way. I never really got to feel Gabrielle move around like this one is.

Just also want to tell everyone for all the prayers and kind words you have given me over the past year, even when you probably wanted to say "Enough already!"

Thanks again.

 

[BWVDenise]

I'm sorry you're hurting so much, Kristy.

 

[becka]

I am sorry that this is so difficult for you. Please don't feel like you are bothering us. You have been through so much and if it makes you even feel the slightest bit better to have some place to channel your grief and sadness then go right ahead.

I will be thinking of you and your family in the coming days. {{hugs}}

 

[Dizzy-Disney4]

Oh Kristy. I know, it hurts so much. {{{HUGS}}} to your whole family. The same thing still happens to me 11 years later. We lost our Nicholas in 1992. The whole week in April when we found out he was gone, the delivery, and his burial are still tough. We planted a memorial garden for him this year in our front yard. My DS and DD helped pick out the plants and flowers and help tend the garden. Its a great way for them to think of their big brother who is watching over them and great therapy for me. Prayers, Kristy, for some peace. Remember your little angel is still with you, watching over you, everyday.

 

[Pop Daddy]

hey

 

[Mskanga]

Kristy, I could say enough already to a lot of things, but this is not one of them, you are in pain and I can very well understand that, I would be too. {{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}} my friend, I can only hope that time will help you both to heal.

 

[wdwnutze]

{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}} to you and your family. I'm sorry you are hurting.

 

[always quiet]

I knew this was going to be hard. I remember that first anniversary ever so well. You know what you were doing, what you were feeling each and every second. It almost feels like it's happening all over again. I remember replaying each and every event over and over in my mind...hoping somehow to change the tragic events of the year before. Please know, even though you never truly get over it, it does get better. Try to close your eyes and imagine your little angel, sitting on the puffiest, whitest cloud up in heaven. She is there, just waiting for you. Watching over your family. She is so close, if you close your eyes, you can almost touch her little hand.

I'm here if you need to talk....we all are.

{HUGS}

 

[CRB#33]

You are most definitely in my thoughts and prayers at this awfully difficult time.

{{Hugs}} to you.

 

[HauntedMansionGeek]

I'm sorry to hear that you're hurting so much.
Have you and your family considered grief counselling? It might help you get over some of these bumpy roads you've had as of late.

I'll keep your family in my prayers.

 

[Rajah]

*HUGS* I'm sorry, Kristy. I'll keep y'all in my prayers. Losing a loved one is always hard, even years down the road. *HUGS*

 

[browneyes]

Have you and your dh thought of doing a little memorial for her this weekend? Not to grieve her, but to celebrate her? I like Dizzy-Disney4's garden idea.

I'm sorry you're hurting. I can only imagine the pain you're feeling right now. {{hugs}}

 

[ead79]

Kristy, I am so sorry for your pain. My prayers are with you and your whole family. I can't imagine the pain you are feeling. Lean on the Comforter and He will give you the strength to get through this. We are here if you need a shoulder to lean on. {{{HUGS}}}

 

[JAP]

Sending good thoughts your way! All those hormones don't help the emotional roller coaster!

 

[dianeschlicht]

((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))
and prayers today.

 

[dizneenut]

{{{hugs}}} and prayers for you and your family.

 

[Zurg]

 

[Minnesota!]

((((((hugs to you all today and always))))))

 

[cinmell]

I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[4greatboys]

Awww Kristy I know what you mean by bittersweet. Back in 1999, after 4 years of trying to get pg we finally did. The happiness was short lived as I had a m/c. I did get pg again 6 weeks alter--which I could not believe. So while I do mourn the child we lost, we wouldnt have my 3 yr old if I didnt have the m/c. Its hard to have the mixed emotions.
Good luck with it all Kristy and I will keep you in my prayers.