Kailey's WISH Journal

[CptJackSparrowsGirl]

I'm new to this area of this type of Journaling. I have done LJ and Blogger, but no one ever says anything on there to me *sigh* Ok I guess I'll list what I'm going to do

This Journal will be anything thing having to do with what I want to write about.

Main things will be Weightloss, Disney College Program, Life, and so on.

Right now I just joined the Biggest Loser 8 Fall. I joined it late, but I hope to get somewhere until the next BL comes up.

As for the Disney College Program, I have tried out for it twice and have been rejected both times. I ponder on weither or not to tell the interviewer about how I have Asperger's Syndrome or not. *sigh* It's so hard to be me at times

Thankfully school is going really well. I aced my InDesign II Test over Tabs Haven't gotten my first test though yet and have no idea how I did on it. *ugh*

Going to go see Twilight Saga: New Moon on Nov. 19th at 7pm with one of my BFFs So can't wait for that. I have lots of fun hanging out with her and she's helped me with alot of my stuff I have problems with being a person with AS (asperger's syndrome). I met her last Semester as a roommate. She and two other girls were my first roommates ever!! It was my first time staying on campus and me and her became very close. Especial this semester after the other two girls moved on. I'm staying at the same apartments on campus again, but in a different room with different ppl that don't exactly meet my cleaning standereds. I'm the only one who cleans basically. My mom said to suck it up and live with it cause I might get stuck with ppl like that if I get picked for the Disney College Program. I sure hope not. It's a nightmare and my BFF I talked about is helping me through this. She was so kind as to help me clean the kitchen and make it all nice and clean. Sadly no one noticed and just dirtied it up all over again. I just got done yesterday cleaning the bathroom and that was scary It was like a horror movie in there. *sigh* I just keep praying.

Upside, Christmas Vacation starts Dec. 15th and I get to go home and relax from all this stress over roommates.

I guess this will be it for now. I might add more later.

Ta for now,
~Kailey~

Comments are welcomed

 

[solar]

Kailey - welcome to the WISH journals. Good luck on your program!

Just wanted to wave and say hello, Deb

 

[CptJackSparrowsGirl]

Kailey - welcome to the WISH journals. Good luck on your program!

Just wanted to wave and say hello, Deb

Thanks for the welcome Deb

 

[CptJackSparrowsGirl]

Ok today I nearly had a heart attack!! Why!? Cause one of my roommates made a mess in my mircrowave and they were actually cleaning it up!! I think I would have fainted if I wasn't sitting in a chair. I acted like I didn't notice, but inside I wa think, "THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!" Lol. I also went and got a haircut appointment for tomorrow to get my hair back in shape like Alice Cullen from the Twilight Saga I'll try and post a pic tomorrow afterwards before my next class or during it lol Yep I'm naughty I'm on the internet during classes hehehe Well I had a wonderful day today. Why? I finally got to meet up with one of my BFFs before our get together on Nov. 19th for the New Moon showing. We were laughing our butts off today It was so much fun. We went to Apple Bee's and shared a dessert so I didn't eat a whole one by myself. Which is a good thing of me I'm excited to get my hair cut. I'm like going nuts with my OCD that my hair is to long!! Its starting to get in my eyes and its getting thick. I have very think hair when it isn't thinned out. Its crazy hair I tell ya. Just a 2 months and I need another hair cut and during the summer its less!! I'm cold right now. Its starting to get cold in Iowa again. Its depressing, but I would like snow by the time Thanksgiving is over. I'd love to have white Christmas this year. I get to excited about this stuff, but I might win a $20 gift card to Barnes & Noble. It's an in class prize for the best photoshop of these carved pumpkins that weren't able to be lite all at once. So we had to make it look like their all lite at the same time. I think I did quite well and I was there for almost 4hrs working on it. The class is suposed to last from 6pm to 10pm, but everyone was leaving and I wanted to finishing touches at the apt. I'm living at during the school week. I made one where Captain Jack Sparrow and the Cinderella Castle is behind the pumpkins lol I just love Jack and the Castle. I'm going to hand in the regular pumpkins and the edited Disney version too I think thats pretty much it. Yep.

Ta for now,
~Kailey~

 

[CptJackSparrowsGirl]

Ugh!! I just found out that I weighed more then I thought. Then I found out I might have lost 2 pounds, but then my mom goes and dumps a load on my joy that I might have actaully lost something saying that I had my cloths and stuff on adding to the weight. UGH!! Then I'm wait some hours and say I'm going to get something to eat cause we have nothing to eat in the house do to remodleing the kitchen. I come back with a burger and she goes on a guilt trip on me about being alot of calories and so on and that I'm going to get bigger and not fit my cloths!!
!!FOR GOODNESS SAKE I WANT SUPPORT NOT CRITICISIM!!
Before this I told her that I joined up on this weight watchers thing on here and she missunderstood at first and was in pure joy, but when she found out it was just online she dropped the joy and said I thought you were sharing with girls at your school. Grrr!! I find something that might help me loss weight she attacks it!! AHHHH!!!

 

[CptJackSparrowsGirl]

Ok, I went nuts just now...*sigh* I went and walked on the treadmill for like the first time in over 3 months (being at school, and it being broken) I walked for 15mins from speed 2 to 3. I usually just do 2, but I was being creative lol. So I started listening to some Disney music and I was off. *UGH!!* I need to work on walking more. I was poohed by the end, but then I went to our weight machine and started lifting. I did my arms so my legs could relax and then I did my legs again and then I did my arms again and finally I did my stomach. *YIKES!!* It was tiring. I just pray I can keep this up so I can lose maga pounds. I gained 5 more then I use to weigh at the beginning of the school year I need to go and see if there is a treadmill at the school to use and then I need to see when I can go. I have classes at 1pm to 2:50pm and then some days its that time plus 6pm to 10pm *Ugh* I just wish there was an eaiser way to do it. *Sigh* I need to get rid of bad food and get some good food in. Its hard to eat right at this time being at an apt. with ppl that don't clean and at home where our kitchen is being redone.

 

[CptJackSparrowsGirl]

Well excitement today. On the way back to school (about an hour ago) my dad almost hit a dead deer laying in the middle of a lane while trying to change lanes. It was scary at first, but amusing later.

Well I've been some what of a good girl. I went and walked for 30minutes today on the treadmill at 2 while listening to Disney music. Then I used the weights again (I'm getting tender now). But I had two pieces of cake today and pizza at Pizza Ranch. *UGH!!* I'm a pig Hopefully tomorrow I'll get a walk in at the school gym if they have a treadmill. If not, well its getting cold and I don't want to freeze and get sick So I'm won't walk outside on the path cause its to long and cold. I might walk in the gym area thought if the gym is not to busy.

*DARN IT!!* There are ppl jumping around up stairs and making a lot of noise. That is so annoying when its time to get ready for bed, but I guess they have until 11pm to be noise.

I sure hope the gym does have treadmills. I think I'll die without one or stop trying to exercise and come home and be out of sink and just sit there like a lump and just gain more weight

*Sigh* I just wish I had gotten into trying to have a routine earlier. Then I could have possibly gotten the Bella Swann Green Hoodie Jacket from the movie New Moon that they have been selling at Hottopic and Torrid. At least at Torrid I had a chance, but I bearly fit their size 4. I'm so a shamed by that

Maybe I can get the next big thing in clothing when Eclipse comes out What I really want to do is save all my Christmas this year and Birthday money I get next year to buy new clothing if I lose enough weight by my birthday (March, 22). So about 5 months of hard work and avoiding bad foods and counting calories *ugh* But it sure would be worth it being able to get new clothing. All I have is Tshirts and some nice clothing, but I don't think I can fit a lot of it now sadly because of me infact gaining 5 pounds since the beginning of the school year.

I just want to cry because of all of this. I just pray I can stay on task and maybe, just maybe fit a Large again

 

[solar]

If the gym doesn't have treadmills, which it probably will...there are always sidewalks!

Good job on walking, and don't be so hard on yourself, you slipped, had some cake- just move forward.

 

[CptJackSparrowsGirl]

If the gym doesn't have treadmills, which it probably will...there are always sidewalks!

Good job on walking, and don't be so hard on yourself, you slipped, had some cake- just move forward.

Thanks
LOL I guess I need to relax a little on freaking out on stuff. I just really hope I can lose the weight. I've never been a really skinny person, but I want to at least be smaller then I am now

 

[CptJackSparrowsGirl]

I slipped today and bought an sugary drink and some sweets
I need to stop doing this to myself and keep moving on away from these bad foods. Dang you evil sugar goodness!! Sadly my friend won't be hanging with me tomorrow so I'll be happily off to the gym again to work this crap off. Pardon my french lol

*Sigh* why couldn't I have been born skinny *sniff*

 

[cclovesdis]

Hi!

Not sure where you go to school, but you might find the gym bigger and better than you think. I went to a small school, but it had a great gym that was open to the public to join. Best of luck!

CC

 

[CptJackSparrowsGirl]

Thanks, I did find the gym and everything worked out great

 

[cclovesdis]

Thanks, I did find the gym and everything worked out great

Great to hear! I'm hoping to hit the gym tomorrow night.

 

[CptJackSparrowsGirl]

I'm off to hit the gym myself after I get some lunch

 

[CptJackSparrowsGirl]

Ok I missed going to the gym yesterday cause I went out with one of my BFFs and we ate out and went to see New Moon. So I got on the treadmill and went half the time and had to stop cause I was to tired to keep going. I'll try to go the full time tomorrow. Getting back after a day off is harder then I thought, but I hope to get back on the horse quickly.

 

[cclovesdis]

You can do it! Happy Thanksgiving!

 

[CptJackSparrowsGirl]

Ok, I stopped trying to lose weight during the holidays...big mistake!! I gained 2 lbs back. I am going to try and lose the weight and more. I've already started walking yesterday and twice today. Hopefully with my mom's encouragement and the goals I have for when I lose the weight I'll actually lose it!! I want to join the Biggest Loser Spring, but I can't weigh in on time all the time unless I get a scale for at school which I think I just might go and ask my mom for so that I can keep track while walking at school. I pray this helps cause sadly I weigh more then I've ever weighed before. It saddens me and makes it hard, but I'm going to strive to lose the weight. I'm going to start eating better too. My mom says if I actually lose the weight I can grow my hair out again. I use to have it long, but it doesn't look that good on me at this size. *Sigh* I pray this will be the time I stick to it.

 

[cclovesdis]

Sounds like you have a plan to get back on track. Just a thought, does your school have a scale? Mine had one at the gym. Also, maybe health services would let you weigh in weekly if you told them about your plan. You wouldn't have to mention BL 9 spring challenge, but just that you've been getting a lot of exercise and making good choices with regards to eating and you really want to keep a close watch on how it's helping your weight. Just a thought. Have a great week!

 

[CptJackSparrowsGirl]

Thanks, I'm determined. I don't think my school has a scale, but I've asked my mom to buy one for me for the apt at school. Forgot to thanks you for the Happy Thanksgiving

 

[cclovesdis]

Best of luck tomorrow! So glad your mom is so supportive!