Journey back to ME!!- I'm getting bugged!!

[tbstein]

Oh Julie!

So sorry reality isn't all it's suppose to be right now. I do hope you had a good birthday. Family can be a blessing and a heartache when we see the saddness in their eyes and know that we can't change it for them. Especially when things are not fair, as with the choir thing for your DD. You wish you could be there with them, but know that you can't. Our kids start the tuesday after laborday. DS at college and DD as her first day in middle school.

My prayers go out to you and I am sending a big dash of pixie dust to help you enjoy your weekend.

Take care!

Wendy

 

[toystoryduo]

, , and more Julie,

I am so sorry for all the stuff that you have had to deal with the past few weeks. I hope that you will take some time for yourself this weekend.

Know that you are in my prayers. Keep on keeping on!

 

[goldcupmom]

8/13 - Day 44/322 days (or Less) until GOAL
(OS) - 173 (NS) - 176.4 WW 7/19 - 175
I'm going to get to Port of Tampa B4 7/27/08 37.3/1769.56 = 1732.26 to go

latte(5)
lt bread(1)
veg burger(1)
ff chz(1)
chicken(3)
potato(3)


Managed to get the above updated. Don't know why but my lower back is horrid. I think it's from last Tuesday playing a stupid horse riding/racing game w/ DD. But I can't get it to stop tightening up. Then yesterday I woke up with the constant gas bubble feeling in the tummy/throat - probably from allergies, but it was annoying all day & is still a bit there today. UGH!!!!!

Off & running - or I wish I was really running rather than errands! At least the weight isn't too much gain!

More later.....

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Julie
Just caught up on your journal
Sending you a belated Happy Birthday
So sorry life isnt being good to you at the moment, but i always think we have to go through bad times to 'earn' the good times, & i really hope the good times are just around the corner for you.
Maybe try being a little more selfish & put yourself 1st sometimes, it sounds like you do a lot for your family & they are taking you for granted, maybe they need some shock tactics???
Go do the TOT & make new friends & get away from the stressful homelife.

Take care of yourself Julie - you deserve it & your worth it

 

[toystoryduo]

Julie,

I agree with Tracey. I think you should go do the ToT race and make some new friends at WDW. Maybe while you are gone, your family will come to appreciate you more and all that you do for them.

Please take some time for you this week. Maybe a walk in the park, a nice hot bubble bath or read a good book.

Have a good Tuesday!

 

[goldcupmom]

8/14 - Day 45/322 days (or Less) until GOAL
(OS) - 171.5 (NS) - 175.3 WW 7/19 - 175
I'm going to get to Port of Tampa B4 7/27/08 38.1/1769.56 = 1731.46 to go

lt em(1)
egg beaters(1)
cheese(3)
latte(4)
salad(7)
bread(6)


8/15 - Day 46/322 days (or Less) until GOAL
(OS) - 171 (NS) - 175 WW 7/19 - 175
I'm going to get to Port of Tampa B4 7/27/08 39.25/1769.56 = 1730.31 to go

slimfast(3)
lc red beans/rice(6)
ww caramel cake(1)
ww icrm (2)
chicken(4)
potato(3)
curves cereal(3)

Well the gas bubble feeling lasted steady from Sunday Morning thru last night. This morning is seems better, but still not all the way normal. A couple of times the pressure on my diaphragm was so bad & around my lower ribs I thought I should go to ER. No pain, just bubble pressure. Not really any heartburn, either. Mu stomach still is feeling 'full' after eating or drinking anything, but I THINK it's on the mend.

I'm wondering if it's a bug, gall bladder, or something. I was bad & had eaten GREASY potato chips, fast on Saturday. Plus DH & I ate at the casino buffet on Saturday.

Of course, the 'bloat & belch' is also a part of lovely peri & all my other symptoms have been MUCH worse lately. Been skipping more TOM & last one after 2.5 months missing was almost nothing so maybe I'm nearing the end. They say it's gotta get worse before it gets better, right?

That coupled with stress, lack of sleep, & I'm of course imagining all sorts of wonderful scenarios - heart attack, stomach cancer, etc. Lovely mid-life panic!!!! When my sane mind takes over, I know it's not likely at all, but.....

So, it's now Wednesday & I'm just getting on Ebay. Haven't really exercised as I've been feeling too icky. Weather here is HOT & for us, humid. With our swamp (evap. cooler) and the humidity, the coolest possible my house can get is 87 which is NOT cool, especially when combined with hot flashes!

To add to the fun around here, DS18 & I went to the other side of town to pick him up a black dry erase board, then 1 grocery. At the 2nd grocery, bought milk(which is like gold around here) and frozen food. Went out to start the bug & it made a funny whistle, then died. I think it's the starter. Fortunately, his GF older sister was home & came to rescue us. Had to call DH home as he had the van. Took DD to work at 4, then waited at the grocery until almost 6 for the tow truck to show up - said 30 - 45 min. VW called, my factory warranty was up in Feb, but the extended MAY cover 'something'. Will be 3 - 4 days to diagnose, then they call me, then the extended warranty co., then the warranty co decides what they will pay for & FINALLY they'll start fixing. UGH!!! Always something. Hopefully I'll only end up with my $100 deductible and the cost to replace my headlight. Time will tell.....

Such is life. More later....hopefully!

 

[traceycooper]

Wow Julie it sounds HOT out there, wish you could send some my way!!
Hope the car gets fixed quick!
Hope your feeling better, if not get it checked out - better to be safe than sorry!

 

[goldcupmom]

8/16 - Day 47/322 days (or Less) until GOAL
(OS) - 170 (NS) 174.9 - WW 8/16 - 173.2
I'm going to get to Port of Tampa B4 7/27/08 40.37/1769.56 = 1729.19 to go

WW 1 pt bar(1)
fiber 1 bar(2)
hard taco(4) - YES! I had only ONE!!
ww cake(1)
spinach ravioli(7)
1 pt bar(1)

74 oz water, 22 oz diet sunkist

Not sure what today will bring. Stomach seems significantly better, at least this morning. Late yesterday I had heartburn a bit and started an ache up under right rib. I'm thinking GallBladder & that's what my DSis said immediately. Hmmmmmm......... If I'm not truly close to normal by Monday, I'll call & get an appt. If it's gall bladder, a week isn't too much time to get over trouble. Funny thing is when I was devouring the chips I thought they would make me sick, but I kept on....

Finally started listing some Ebay yesterday & I need to do it daily now for awhile. DH is already complaining about riding the cycle. He knew when he bought it it had an electrical problem & you needed to keep the battery charged. It's getting worse, but will jump & security at his work can jump him if needed to get home. I suggested we rent a car for a few days or he drive 1 of the 2 old bugs which are perfectly driveable sitting in my side yard, but he won't. Oh well......

Off to get ready for WW...

Made it to WI. First time since 7/19. Down 1.8 - I'll take it! Still up 5 lbs from cruise, but any loss is good.

 

[Amy&Dan]

Julie, that really does sound like gallbladder. I had mine out just after ds was born and I remember those symptoms well! Go see the doctor if it doesn't improve tomorrow! That really stinks about the school choir. Sometimes you really gotta wonder what our taxes pay for. You have girls motivated to do this activity and they get the boot. Go figure. Hang in there with the hot flashes, I am generally sweating all night too! Gotta love the 40's and central ac!

 

[traceycooper]

congrats on the loss Julie

 

[toystoryduo]

Congratulations on your weight loss, Julie!

I hope you're feeling better soon. Please be sure and get into the doctor as soon as possible if the pain continues or intensifies.

Have a good weekend.

 

[goldcupmom]

8/17 - Day 48/322 days (or Less) until GOAL
(OS) - 170.5 (NS) 174.1 - WW 8/16 - 173.2
I'm going to get to Port of Tampa B4 7/27/08 43.52/1769.56 = 1726.04 to go

ww yog/fiber 1(1)
sm banana(1)
rf pnt btr (4)
revival shake(2)
ww ice crm(2)
ww 1 pt (1)
pretzel(6)
ww ice crm(2)

Yesterday was NOT as I planned. DS18 talked me into taking him to UNM to walk his classes. and walk. and walk. In the heat of the middle of the day. UGH!!!! And we bought another of his books. One left, but they just ordered it last week. I love to walk, but not when it's 98 & humid out!

Got home from the DS18 run with less than 10 min til DD arrived from school. Then had to take her to work. Finally started dinner & was about 1/2 way thru when she called me to come back & get her. Too many people & she volunteered to leave early. UGH!!!!! So, I was basically gone from 11:15 - 6:40. Needless to say nothing got done yesterday & no ebay.

Stomach seems still better today, but I'm a bit leary still. The ache was never really a pain, & the more I think about it, it's below the ribs, not up under, not constant & it seems to move a bit.....trapped gas???? That coupled with really tight back muscles, especially on that side makes me think it may not be the stomach, but could be a combination. Am playing the waiting game & still eating conservatively - which is a GOOD thing!!

This weekend I need to get some errands done & finish up the ebay pics of the misc. stuff in the Living room. I'd like to get my house back!

And somehow, I WILL get to journals!!!

Thanks for hanging in there with me!! You guys are AWESOME!!

UPDATE: The full feeling in my throat/neck started to come back, so I called to make a Dr. appt. The 'next available' appointment with my Primary Care Internal Med. Dr. is OCTOBER 18!!!!!! Welcome to NM where they run Drs. off by taxing them like crazy!!! And our Governor wants to be President and have Universal Healthcare. NOT!!!!!

Anyway, I'm getting in to see another Dr. in that group Monday at 11:30.

My SIL called & I was talking to her & she said it sounds just like her Acid Reflux started out. Hopefully they'll be able to figure it out & also reassure me.

 

[keenercam]

Hey, Julie! Thinking of you! I'm sorry you still aren't feeling great. And I'm really sorry you spend so much of your time playing chauffeur. Sending you a huge and WISHing you a wonderful weekend!

 

[goldcupmom]

8/18 - Day 49/322 days (or Less) until GOAL
(OS) - 170 (NS) 172.8 - WW 8/16 - 173.2
I'm going to get to Port of Tampa B4 7/27/08 44.42/1769.56 = 1725.14 to go

activia yogurt/fiber 1(2)
revival soy(2)
pretzel(1)
bite cheesecake & angel cake(1) - these & pretzel were samples at Sunflower Market - bought TONS of fruit which likely no one here will eat!
2 lt bread(2)
1/2 pkg pb breadsticks (1.5)
sub meat(1)
ff chz(1)
ff cott chz(1.5)
clif bar(2)
ww 1 pt bar(1)


Well, I'm pretty convinced that this is stomach trouble & that stress is playing into it. I felt pretty normal most of the day. Then DH calls about 5:15. DH, the electrical engineer that designs airplanes......He was jumping his cycle battery to come home & connected it backwards FRYING the electrical components of the bike. Go ahead & laugh...I did! I think that is a good 'stupid engineer' story! Called today & looks like it would be $1000+ to START to fix it. Probably not worth it. Likely will try to sell for parts.

So, I'm on the way to get him & my stomach is getting progressively worse. Within 2 hours, my throat was sore, neck ached, hard to breathe, etc. When I got up this morning I was fine. Relaxing watching the news before bed I was pretty close to normal. This morning the ache is now in the left side, so I lean toward stomach. I'm keeping track of foods, 'events', & my BP through this so if I start to see anything really weird, I'll head to ER, but I think it's a combo or hormone induced tummy problems & stress. Hopefully the Dr. will have a good clue & not be a doofus!

One good thing is the fear of making it worse is keeping me from eating much at a time & not much at all.

Off to take DD to work.....

DH FINALLY decided we should get a new motor or have someone come fix our Swamp Cooler. Went out to check motor size & realized belt was slipping as it's old. Slid the motor back a couple of inches & it's working again. That should definitely help make it cooler! Before on low I could lay a single kleenex opened to 1 layer & it would not blow it off the vent. & that was supposed to put enough cool air in to cool our 2700 sf house!!!! NOT!!!!!

 

[goldcupmom]

Well, last Sunday is when my tummy troubles started & I didn't record food. Last Saturday was the Casino food & then chips, chips, chips.

However, looking back over the week, my points have been: 14, 23, 12, 16, 18, 15. 23/24 is where I should be. but it's truly hard to eat that many.

I'm just hoping that my body doesn't go into starvation mode as it usually does and end up gaining.

Today has been very CLOSE to normal except I started to feel 'it' when DH decided he was going to go buy a NEw $7500 motorcycle & I had to go along to negotiate or he would just pay all they asked. Fortunately they closed about 3 min before we arrived. But next week it is gonna end up happening.

don't get me wrong. he needs something, but he won't ride it enough for me to justify that even though we could afford it. He now says he'll ride it except when it's too cold or when the weather is bad -(not in Nov - Mar) or at least 2 days a week. then he wants to go buy DD a NEW small car & share the pmt w/ her - he will drive it when he can't drive the cycle & she will have it the rest of the time. and I can just keep hauling her the other times or give her MY car. That means that for 4 mo of the year I will haul her to work, etc, and anytime the weather is bad as she will have to be at work before he would get home. Me, the chauffer, STILL!!

Plus, I can almost guarantee she will have at least 1 accident in the first year. I think she needs a car we can have liability only ins. on to keep it cheaper for her as she has to pay her own ins. And he won't be satisfied with a small car like a Kia Rio, Hyundai Accent, Ford Focus.....

GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!! Is it any wonder I have STRESS????????

I'd be reaching for the chocolate about now, but I'm afraid it would make my stomach worse. Maybe this is God's way of getting me ON TRACK finally!!!!!!

 

[toystoryduo]

Julie,

We are keeping you in our thoughts and prayers. You always have so much going on. Please be sure and keep that doctor's appointment on Monday and try and get some rest this weekend.

Sending lots of prayers and your way!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Hi Julie,

Yep that sounds a lot like acid reflux (have that too also from stress). I take Pepcid every day and don't eat much in the way of tomato products! No small wonder if you do have that, given your stressful life. Is today your appt? If so you should be there right about now, update us ASAP!

I did laugh about your dh elecrical engineer story. I have alot of those too with my genius computer engineer husband! Hope the car thing with dh and dd works, I guess only chauffering her 4 solid months of the year is an improvement but still not ideal.

You know, God may indeed just be giving you a wakeup call to take care of yourself and put yourself first! You need to! Hang in there and keep us posted on your tummy woes.

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Hi-
you have so much goinig on--no wonder you are stressed! hope you are feeling better--TRY to relax today if you can

 

[bekkiz]

It is so hard to be the responsible one! No wonder you've got the tummy troubles, all of that stress

Good luck with all of your tough decisions--and I hope you feel better soon

 

[toystoryduo]

Julie,

How did your doctor's appt. go? Hope you're feeling much better!