Jen's Journal.....Baby Steps to a new me

[toystoryduo]

Since the smilies are missing "over there" ( ) , I wanted to send a great big and some your way, Jen. I hope you have a great time at the concert!

 

[kmp1191]

we're here for you.....even if you are a knothead!!

hang in there...the mood swings and the blahs will pass....I think alot of us go through that when the seasons change....that and when life gets to be a pain in the butt!! Jen, you have a lot going on....school, work,Steve, Alex, Lyssa (she's still with you)...you have a pretty full plate right now. Don't worry about "acting"....if you want to be in a funky mood, be in one. Just because you're young and cute doesn't mean you can't be grouchy every now and then!! Have you ever just had a good cry?? Punch something?? Kick something?? (just make sure it's nothing hard....I know from experience on that! ) Try it.....it might help.

hang in there girl...have fun at the concert....and RELAX!!

marie

 

[keenercam]

Good morning, sweetie! Thank you for sharing that picture. Geez, you are soooo cute (but aren't you getting too thin? I hope your friends and parents are keeping an eye on you and making sure you are taking care of yourself )

I was thinking about you last night when DD called from college. I think you are such a wonderful person and I see a lot of the same caring characteristics in her. You have been through some really rough stuff over the past year and I think the way you have coped with it is admirable. While we all hope our children have few of those challenges and rough times, I'd also hope my Jenn will be as strong and loving as you are.

Happy birthday and have a fabulous time at the concert tonight -- I am so jealous. I wanna goooooooo!!!!! BTW, "My Wish" is one of my all time favorite songs and I gave it to DD as a graduation gift (a special CD I made for her). I WISH all of that for you too, Jen.

 

[kimwim8]

Hey Jen...I certainly hope you're not acting when we talk! You need to let some stuff out - you just vent to me anytime!!

And like Marie said....you don't have to be perky and happy all the time. Let it out girl!!

I know you have a busy weekend. Try to rest some and take care of yourself!!

Oh, and you are looking super-skinny in that picture with Alex. Maybe you need to not lose any more weight!

 

[CJK]

Thanks for posting the great pic!

Traditionally, I was the "perky" one of my group of friends. Even when I didn't feel it, I would still pretend to be happy b/c I figured my friends expected it of me..... Once I let that go, I felt better (and my friends realized I was human!!). Feel free to vent if you want as we're all here for each other. Have a WONDERFUL time at the concert tonight and had a good dinner at Olive Garden. Have a great weekend too!!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

WOW! I felt so loved when i checked my journal this afternoon--Thanks for all the support :


Tracy-Thanks for the smiles--its hard "over there" without them sometimes



Marie-Im glad you guys still love me, even if i am a knothead You know, i havent realized just how much is going on until you wrote it all out..I know you are right..You just made my day calling me young and cute I actually had " a good cry" this afternoon...but i feel like im doing that alot lately


Cam-Another one that made my day--cute and thin! I dont think i am getting too thin,,i promise, i am taking care of myself..it may just have been the way i was laying. Thank you so much for saying those nice things about me..I am sure your jenn is going to be a strong and loving person...i LOVE "my wish" -it is a great song...Very touching!! I bet your daughter LOVED the cd!



Kim-I dont normally act when i talk to you! I just go ahead and vent so anytime i am annoying, you know you tell me! since 3 people said i look thin, i honestly think it is just the way i am laying in the picture...but still made me feel good ill come over soon and you will see i am just the same hahaha


CJK-Venting has been very helpful..i used to feel bad using the journal to vent, but now i need to once i nawhile!



Well it is the WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am going to get my workout in and shower and get ready..I am leaving my house by 5 to head to Jess'..were going to grab some dinner and then head to the concert. I am looking forward to it and i know alyssa will be there in spirit...I dont know if i ever posted the reason i am going to this concert..if i did, just skip this
When Alyssa was visiting NJ, her and I took a ride and sang a couple of the rascal flatts songs (for those of you that know them, Sarabeth and What hurts the most). Even as we were singing, i thought how ironic it was we were singing these songs. After she died, these songs make me cry and g et chills every time i hear them. Alyssa's nurse sent me a message a couple months ago asking if i wanted to go to this concert because alyssa had talked about how much we enjoyed singing those songs together and she knew it would mean alot. So my friend and i will be going tonight..and during those songs, i know i will get chills and may get teary, but i just hope alyssa is there..

Other than that, i will be in and out all weekend..have a great weekend and thanks for caring ladies!

 

[kimwim8]

i just hope alyssa is there..

She DEFINITELY will be!! She's with you more than you realize!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

I just got back from the concert and it was an AMAZING show! My friend already uploaded the pictures, so i will share some of them. We had seats on the floor, row 16, center stage...Between sets, they had the big screens flashing messages that the crowd texted to the number on the screen--My friend and I sent "we wish you were here Alyssa" and it ended up on the big screen! I got a little teary during the songs that Alyssa and I sang together and i knew she would have loved the concert--it was so nice to be able to go and know that its what lyss would have wanted The opening acts were Eric Church

and Gary Allan

they were both really good, i loved when Gary Allan came out! sang all the songs that i knew, he was great..then it was t ime for rascal flatts!

And they ended with confetti going everywhere!

and this is my friend and i between sets!

 

[toystoryduo]

Hey Jen,

It sounds like the concert was great! That was very cool that they put your text message to Alyssa on the big screen. You know that she was there at the concert with you and will always be with you in spirit, sweetie.

Please know that you can always come here and let your WISH sisters know exactly how you feel. You have always been there for us Jen and we want you to know that we are here for you too.

I hope this weekend brings you some much needed rest and relaxation.....

Sending good thoughts and prayers your way from Ohio!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Thanks Tracy-It means alot to me, it really does!

This weekend was FANTASTIC! i havent had that much fun in awhile..Saturday, after the viewing, i went to the movies with my friend/ex bf--we actually had a good time. I babysat after that and i miss those kids so it was great..

Yesterday was the BEST day! My cousin from denver was here for the funeral, so i went to my uncles house so we could all hang out....My cousin Shannon (denver) and michelle (she lives here) and i went shopping... I got a black dress for my cruise--this picture isnt too good, but ill share anyway--its at a weird angle, but i swear my hips arent THAT big hhaa

http://render2.snapfish.com/render2...?*KUp7BHSHqqy7XH6gXPPe|Rup6lQQ|/of=50,590,442

Today was okay, i have the house to myself otmorrow so im looking forward to doing nothing since i did a ton of homework today..have a great night

 

[CJK]

Your dress is gorgeous and you look beautiful in it!!! You'll turn some heads on the cruise! Glad to hear you had such a great weekend. Hope this week is just as great!

 

[Princess Michelle]

Hi Jen, Just stopping in to see how you were doing. It appears that you have lost someone that was very dear to you, I'm so sorry. {{{hugs}}}

I'm glad you had a great time at the concert. I like your cruise dress, it's really pretty and you look great!

I hope you are having a wonderful morning!

 

[kimwim8]

Happy Birthday, Jen!!!

Hope you have a GREAT day!!

 

[kmp1191]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEN!!!!

 

[toystoryduo]

Happy Birthday, Jen!!!!!

I hope your special day is filled with happiness, love, and laughter and that wonderful blessings continue for you throughout the year!!!!

 

[goldcupmom]

Ok, I posted, it crashed and so.... the gist of it is -

Happy Belated Birthday!

You look AWESOME!!!!

And I think you're incredible for handling all you have plus school!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Thanks for the birthday wishes!! I did end up having a good day, despite being a little bit "under the weather" I had so much fun at Olive Garden for dinner.. my parents are buying my dress for the cruise for me and got me a nice pair of earrings that match..My brother got me a snow baby (i collect them!)..and Steve ( the air force brother) got me an air force shirt (ive been begging him for one!)

So, now im 22 and im still sick..i am skipping my class tomorrow as im feeling miserable and have a fever and just cant keep anything down. (sorry if TMI) . but at least it is the weekend! I did a bunch of homework t onight so i only have 2 more papers to do for the remainder of the weekend.
The plan for this weekend is ...mainly relaxing and homework.. I am going to go hang out with my friend this weekend--hes coming home from college so i think were just going to get take out for dinner and watch a movie, since i dont really feel like gonig out..

saturday-im going to be going to a soccer game of a girl that was in my summer camp class that i taught and sunday i will be working on my grandparnets 50th anniversary present..

Im doing okay on my exercise minutse..i believe i am at 375/500..if i feel better tomorrow, ill get some more in..if not, i have the weekend..

well, im going to get some more work done. have a great night!

 

[kimwim8]

Hey lady...WHAT, you don't have time to post anymore??? You too busy going out getting tipsy??

Savor this time you have with me, love. Before you know it I'll be gone!!

I'll be getting some and and seeing:

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Now miss kim...must you rub it in!? I expect to see pictures of all those characters..and have a mickey bar for me--YUM YUM

I am savoring the time with you-but you arent online to savor with me!

 

[kmp1191]

Hey lady...WHAT, you don't have time to post anymore??? You too busy going out getting tipsy??

Savor this time you have with me, love. Before you know it I'll be gone!!

I'll be getting some and and seeing:

Ya know Jen...I don't know why you hang w/ her so much...she thinks she's so hoity toity....hangin w/ the Main Mouse and such....


hope you're feeling better!
marie