I've lost that scrappin' feeling

[Kim1964]

I've totally lost that scrappin' feeling. I haven't put a page together since January. When we came back from our August '08 trip I had all these great plans (and tons of supplies) to scrap our trip. The trip was GREAT...the best one yet. So it's not that I don't want to relive the trip.

I've been thinking about it a lot (my scrapping table is in my bedroom so I see it every day!) and I finally figured out why I've been avoiding it. I hate the way I look in the photos! Between our 2007 trip and our 2008 trip, I gained about 15 pounds, and I look bloated in the 2008 pics. I look even worse now, but I started a new food plan this week and I have high hopes that I'll be back down to 2007 size before our 2009 trip.

So, my question. Have you ever just skipped a trip in your scrapping? None of the supplies I bought for the 2008 album are year specific, so I could use them for the 2009 trip. I kind of feel like if I let myself off the hook for scrapping the 2008 trip, I might actually WANT to scrap other things (the kids' basketball season, for example).

 

[AlexWyattMommy]

I don't mean to be disrespectful, but if you were 15 pounds heavy when I saw you, you must look like a stick person most of the time.

However, I totally understand not wanting to scrap photos of yourself because you don't like the way you look. I have a double chin. Even when I weighed a whopping 110 pounds I still had the chin. It's just a part of me I will always have and always hate. Have you noticed my big nose? It looks fine on full face photos, but my profile? Uhm, did Pinocchio have sister?
I skip those photos when I can.

Can you pull out the photos of you or crop them and still make pages for the girls without you in it? Maybe make a book each that focuses on them only. Then you have scrapped the trip and kept the photos you don't like out and maybe get out the scrapping funk?

 

[BernardandMissBianca]

hello!!! You saw me in August right?!?! I am at my all time highest weight right now!

I sooooo get it, trust me but you are who you are at that moment. Your kids don't care if mommy had a double chin, chunky thighs, or feels bloated. They can say hey mom, I remember the blast we had riding Soarin, or Dumbo, or tea cups. I remember that was the coolest parade ever. Do you remember mom?

It doesn't matter what you look like, it matters that you were there.

 

[Lisa]

hello!!! You saw me in August right?!?! I am at my all time highest weight right now!

I sooooo get it, trust me but you are who you are at that moment. Your kids don't care if mommy had a double chin, chunky thighs, or feels bloated. They can say hey mom, I remember the blast we had riding Soarin, or Dumbo, or tea cups. I remember that was the coolest parade ever. Do you remember mom?

It doesn't matter what you look like, it matters that you were there.

I don't mean to be disrespectful, but if you were 15 pounds heavy when I saw you, you must look like a stick person most of the time.

Can you pull out the photos of you or crop them and still make pages for the girls without you in it? Maybe make a book each that focuses on them only. Then you have scrapped the trip and kept the photos you don't like out and maybe get out the scrapping funk?

The girls definitely want to see their pictures in an album. They might not even notice that you don't like the way you look in the pictures. Get your scrapping groove thang on for them.

 

[lovingthemouse]

I understand your feeling Kim, but although it makes you feel uncomfortable looking at yourself, your daughters will love it as they grow and look back.
Skipped scrapping a trip? - the thought did cross my mind because looking back at our last trip in May, 2008, my dh was with me. You bet it saddens me to look at them but these are memories that I want to have forever. So even if i looked awful I can never go back and relive those days. My friends know this has been the most difficult book to do, and I put it off for a number of months - but I need to remember the special moments.
Maybe when you have some time to think about it, you'll decide to move ahead and get the book done. Your family loves you no matter what!!!

 

[party of 3]

Kim- I totally know how you feel. But I must say that I agree with everyone else here. It's more about the trip and having family memories. I look so awful on our last day of our trip from 07 that I really don't want to even look at those pics. But I still feel as if it's part of the trip and I'll put in the pics that i look the least worse in!!!
Maybe once you get rollin' you be ok with it. I really hope so.


and f-y-i~ i too am overweight! i guess eating a big bowl of ice cream while watching the biggest loser is not helping me either!!!!

 

[New England Eeyore]

I agree with everyone that you should probably scrap that trip eventually, but if your hesitation to do so is making you not want to scrap, then by all means, put it aside for now and work on something that you don't have any anxiety about doing (like the basketball season.) If you get back in the scrappin groove, you can always go back to other projects.

 

[ddavis860]

I totally know where you are coming from!

I can only tell you my 2 cents worth, from my point of view. I hate seeing me in pics...and honestly, I would be thrilled if it was just 10-15lbs, and not what I'm carring around. But I realized something last fall. And I am being honest. Those pics, while I don't like them, are not a surprise to anyone else. My family and friends already know I look like that, I'm the only one that remarks about it. They love me, even with the extra lbs, I'm the one with issues.

So really, and this is just my perspective, I decided I just don't care anymore. There is a pic of me at the 25yr luncheon last fall, and I posted it on the bullitin board at work. They all know I'm the heaviest person, so there's no point hiding it. Others are in that pic, and I'm very proud of 25yrs.

BUT, I really do know where you are right now. And, even if it's minimun scrapping, it's you and your family, and that's what matters. Remember, they already know what you look like...KWIM?

 

[meyernl]

I perfecty understand how you feel. I don't like pictures of myself either BUT I don't have any pictures of myself from our last few trips to Disney. I am the photographer and have a DSLR. No one else wants to use it so there are NO pictures of me at all.

 

[LindaBabe]

Totally understand how you're feeling (I weight an 8th of a ton) - BUT - those pictures are you looking at you and seeing "fat". Your family looks at you and pictures of you and sees "mom" or "dear wife". Put them aside if you must, but please scrap them all eventually. I have hardly any photos of my mom because she was always behind the camera. Now she's gone and I would cherish every one, and not even see her size or shape. Size and shape are trivialities. Love is real.

 

[party of 3]

Size and shape are trivialities. Love is real.

how very nice & very true. what a great way to say it Linda.

 

[pjlla]

Oh.... I am feeling your pain. I was probably at or very near my "all time adult non-pregnant weight" when we took our FIRST family trip to WDW in 2002. I hate EVERY photo of me (well, except one where I am with the Queen of Hearts and I look kinda cute!).... but I wouldn't have dreamed of not scrapping that trip! And believe me, I was WAAAAAY more than 15 pounds overweight!! I cringe when I see myself in the photos, but I SWEAR, my kids don't even notice! They are too busy "remembering" the trip as we flip through the book. Maybe someday, when they are older, they will look and remember that Mom was a fatty then , but I am SURE it is not the main memory from that trip.

I think you have three choices...

#1. Skip scrapping the trip (and regret it someday maybe??).

#2. Scrap it, but avoid pictures of you as much as possible.

#3. Scrap it and include yourself as you normally would. (Even if you have to wait a while to do it.)

I think if you go with #1 or #2, you will regret it someday (or your kids will).

I figure there are two future possibilities regarding these pictures.... someday you will look back and either say "Wow, I look SO much better now... I'm glad I took care of myself!".... OR "Wow... I didn't look as bad then as I thought I did. I wish was only 15 pounds overweight now!" Hopefully it will be option #1! Good luck, no matter what choice you make!...................P

 

[TinkSassy]

I understand completely! My December trip is that way. I am just reminding myself of how self-conscious my mom was with pics. I have very few of her over 35. My first trip to DL I wanted to scrap with all my other Disney trips - I keep a book just for Dis trips I couldn't find any pics and asked my dad about it. Mom didn't want to take the camera because she didn't want to be in photos - so we don't have any! My mom was self-conscious about her pics - but I'd kill to have some of her now. Just remember your kids love you and that trip is special because you were there.