amberg@eastlink.ca
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well i've been busy planning our mos recent trip and several of you have passed along your condolances in regards to my ticker. so here's our story.
dh and i have two wonderful children(altho it's past beditme and theyre still awake!) i've been bugging for a third child and he was on the fence. so we didn't take precautions- with dd it took over a year and a half to get her, and with ds iot happened the very first month. so we just let nature decide. i had a feeling we were preggers again around the 1st of april, i was getting all those pregnancy feelings. took a test at walmart, i saw a faint line, dh saw nothing. the next week, the 8th of april i had him pick up another test since i was now over a week late. sure enough boom big fat positive!! i think he almost had a heart attack when i told him.
everything was going along just fine until april 18th- three months ago today. i woke up, went to the bathroom and there was blood. never a good sign. dh's trying to clam me down, cus i had bleeding with both pregnancies, and until my docs office opened at 9 am, i had to wait. i had a wonderful friend who kept me on the phone to keep my busy. i finally get through to the docs, they say go to the cobequid( a medical er, but not our main city er and typically not as busy.)
off i went. had already been there easter monday to get my winrho shot, and ended up with my nurse from monday being my triage nurse. she was wodnerful and said you knwo youre not going to know for sure today. thankfully my dear phone friend already told me this. they examined me and checked my bloodwork. and after the exam all looked good, i was closed up lock stock and barrel. they had me come back the next day for an u/s.
45 mintues after my appt and with a full baldder! they took me in and the doc who was doing it said are you sure of your dates. i knew i was and he said well it appears you were, but theres no sac and no heartbeat so you have m/c'd. i was devastated, and cried all the way home.
had several teary eyed moments over the next week or so. that thursday was ds's second bday and his check up. went in got a req for followup b/w and went in the 1st of may for it. the 6th of may my doc calls me with news that she is puzzled. well what do you mean puzzled? turns out my hcg levels were rising drastically. this was 1 pm, by 330 i was on my way for an u/s. they confirmed i infact did m/c...which by now was no longer a surprise. they said you'll have to speak to ob/gyn. so off i go to a little tiny room, and two residents come in.
then they drop the bomb on me what on earth was going on. i had a molar pregnancy. or the official name gestational tropoblatic disease. i was basically told to go home an google it since they had no info for me other than a very fast explination. i was scheduled for a d and c that friday.
there are several types of this and can either be partical or complete "mole". mine was complete. a quick expilnation: it's an unviable egg and can be either one or two sperm that then replicate themselves to replace what was missing in my egg. it nomally turns cysts like in the egg and self aborts. the national average in canada is one in 1000, here in ns, it's one in 500! scary odds!
thankfully when the results came back it was cancer free, as some can come back as cancerous. for the first two months i had to undergo weekly b/w to make sure my hgc levels were dropping. once they hit 3 or below i was good to go back to monthly.
now im doing this monthly fo the next year and praying that the tissue does't grow back(it can do that) and once january hits we can try again for another baby. in the mean time ther have been lots of ups and downs. we went to grief councelling, and that helped. to me it was a baby, i was pregnant and now we have an angel baby. dh has been wonderful and after seeing me so upset over this loss has decided he wants a third baby.
dh and i have two wonderful children(altho it's past beditme and theyre still awake!) i've been bugging for a third child and he was on the fence. so we didn't take precautions- with dd it took over a year and a half to get her, and with ds iot happened the very first month. so we just let nature decide. i had a feeling we were preggers again around the 1st of april, i was getting all those pregnancy feelings. took a test at walmart, i saw a faint line, dh saw nothing. the next week, the 8th of april i had him pick up another test since i was now over a week late. sure enough boom big fat positive!! i think he almost had a heart attack when i told him.
everything was going along just fine until april 18th- three months ago today. i woke up, went to the bathroom and there was blood. never a good sign. dh's trying to clam me down, cus i had bleeding with both pregnancies, and until my docs office opened at 9 am, i had to wait. i had a wonderful friend who kept me on the phone to keep my busy. i finally get through to the docs, they say go to the cobequid( a medical er, but not our main city er and typically not as busy.)
off i went. had already been there easter monday to get my winrho shot, and ended up with my nurse from monday being my triage nurse. she was wodnerful and said you knwo youre not going to know for sure today. thankfully my dear phone friend already told me this. they examined me and checked my bloodwork. and after the exam all looked good, i was closed up lock stock and barrel. they had me come back the next day for an u/s.
45 mintues after my appt and with a full baldder! they took me in and the doc who was doing it said are you sure of your dates. i knew i was and he said well it appears you were, but theres no sac and no heartbeat so you have m/c'd. i was devastated, and cried all the way home.
had several teary eyed moments over the next week or so. that thursday was ds's second bday and his check up. went in got a req for followup b/w and went in the 1st of may for it. the 6th of may my doc calls me with news that she is puzzled. well what do you mean puzzled? turns out my hcg levels were rising drastically. this was 1 pm, by 330 i was on my way for an u/s. they confirmed i infact did m/c...which by now was no longer a surprise. they said you'll have to speak to ob/gyn. so off i go to a little tiny room, and two residents come in.
then they drop the bomb on me what on earth was going on. i had a molar pregnancy. or the official name gestational tropoblatic disease. i was basically told to go home an google it since they had no info for me other than a very fast explination. i was scheduled for a d and c that friday.
there are several types of this and can either be partical or complete "mole". mine was complete. a quick expilnation: it's an unviable egg and can be either one or two sperm that then replicate themselves to replace what was missing in my egg. it nomally turns cysts like in the egg and self aborts. the national average in canada is one in 1000, here in ns, it's one in 500! scary odds!
thankfully when the results came back it was cancer free, as some can come back as cancerous. for the first two months i had to undergo weekly b/w to make sure my hgc levels were dropping. once they hit 3 or below i was good to go back to monthly.
now im doing this monthly fo the next year and praying that the tissue does't grow back(it can do that) and once january hits we can try again for another baby. in the mean time ther have been lots of ups and downs. we went to grief councelling, and that helped. to me it was a baby, i was pregnant and now we have an angel baby. dh has been wonderful and after seeing me so upset over this loss has decided he wants a third baby.
