A slacker in your world = overachiever in mine. lol

I totally agree with what you said though. You are required to maintain a certain amount of physical fitness and then are also surrounded by like minded people. I am working to surround myself with some of those people as well. I've got about a 50/50 mix right now. My friends that do not exercise do not understand why I do. I definitely can see myself moving south to some degree once the kids are grown! I need warmth and sunshine.
I think, especially in the northeast, most people's fitness does decline to a degree in the winter. Even runners scale back on their mileage. You will get there. You are too determined not too!
OK, so I get what you are saying to Chiomaca but the truth is, YOU are an overachiever in your world. You said 1/2 of your friends don't exercise. You ran a 10 mile race. That makes YOU the overachiever in YOUR world. It's all relative though. None of us could probably keep up with Chiomaca in her circus workouts, right now. But, if we worked at it we would get stronger and we could probably do some of those too. Maybe not, but maybe.
I know what you are saying about the weather. But I told myself I wouldn't allow it to happen to me this year and it did, so it bothers me. Last year I was getting start right about now. I couldn't run at all. 2 workouts ago I did 5.3 miles. So, I know I am ahead of the game compared to last year. I could probably do 10 miles tomorrow if I wanted to. So, I am still in decent shape. I get all of that. I am just not where I wanted to be right now, so that's my problem. More on that below as I have to comment to Chiomaca.
Depression will do that to you, too. You have a big uplifting fall with ToT and the marathon, then nothing to look forward to...which is why you need to find something to help motivate you. That's what you've been lacking and one of the areas you keep making excuses. You need to set a short term goal. An achieveable one, thought it should be a stretch. Right now you have everything hung on a BQ without much in between. I know people who have been trying for YEARS to BQ. So what's your goal for Baystate and how are you going to get there? It's okay to make BQ your big goal...but what happens if you have a bad day? You need some intermediate goals to work towards that move you forward. You're really good at beating yourself up, how do you build yourself up? 3.5 miles on the treadmill is a start - and we're all here to help.
As for me...yesterday was track day. 1.25 mile warm up (would have only been a mile but I got there early and needed to do another lap to stay warm), 2000m at race pace, followed by 3x400m at 5k pace, with 2 minutes rest between. For me that translates into 5 laps at a long run pace and then 3 single laps running hard but not all out. I run more by feel and then check my actual pace on Map My Run later. The only problem is that I either have to stop the timer each time I finish a repeat and then remember to re-start when I go back out, which isn't a sure thing. My current goal on the 400s is to get under 2 minutes and to be under 4 for 800s. Not there yet, but I will get there!
You are probably right. I guess there was a letdown after the races were over. I know for a fact I am bummed about not getting to do a Disney race this year. I feel your pain Dizzy. It was so much fun, and talking about it at work with my co-workers is bumming me out. This is the first time I am admitting that to anyone because I feel like I shouldn't even be thinking about that, given my situation.
I have already taken off the time for the Baystate Marathon so it's not like I have nothing to look forward to. I really am looking forward to that. Come March 1, I will be signing up. I am also trying to plan some other races. Had issues with that kid that took all the time off at work (he got fired yesterday by the way). But, I am going to try and do a 1/2 in June, July, and either August or September. I also REALLY, REALLY, want to do the Marine Corps Marathon. Financially it will cost the same as a Disney race from what I saw so I'd rather do Disney if that was the case, for obvious reasons.
You are 100% correct. I beat myself up all day long. I got away from it for a long time. But in recent weeks it is back. So, I am redoing my self assessment. (I learned this in a self-esteem book I read and it worked AWESOME.) So, I recognize I am going back down the wrong path and will begin doing it again tonight. I have just been very bummed out for the last month. I need to get out of the cycle.
As for the BQ. I know it is hard to do. I know there is a great chance I won't be able to do it this year. BUT, my mind doesn't work like that. Once I decide I want something I will work as hard as I can to make it happen. Chances are I won't be satisfied with the results if I don't make it but I need to work on that.
So, I will get back on track. I will put 100% effort in this spring and summer. I will get out of this funk. I won't make my 200 lb goal for the father/daughter dance but I need to get closer.
And, while I am spilling my guts, you know one thing that bothers me. Crossing another finish line and having nobody there to share it with.

OK, I went to counseling today, can you tell? : )
Great job on your run. I may not be there with you but it keeps me going right now, as little as it may be.
Thanks everyone for letting me know I’m still welcome even though I’ve been slacking. Part of my lack of motivation is the cancelling of TOT. It was the only run that really worked in our schedule – I’m trying to see if any of the others do but so far none in 2015 or 2016 do. It may be better if I go on my own instead of making a family trip out of it but I couldn’t do that before we got one more trip under our belt or my kids would have a fit LOL! I do think I’ll have enough points for a pretty much free trip to
Disneyland next year for spring break so that will keep them at bay for awhile if we can’t make it to WDW this year. I think the timing of finding out about the run was the worst part – it was right before our rainy season. The other “bad” thing for my mojo was asking my cousin to come with me. It’s great when she comes but its so easy to cancel when she does and unfortunately she does a lot. I need to get back in the habit of going on my own and if she meets me great and if she doesn’t no big deal. I need to set a goal and stick with it soooooooooo..................
1. Get to a Zumba or other workout class before the end of Feb to try it out.
2. Go out for a run/walk at lunch at least two times between now and the end of Feb and
3. Go to aquafit 4 times a week with or without my friends.
Ok now I’m committed! I will also look into local “fun” runs coming up this summer and pick one to aim for.
Welcome back. I am glad to see these goals and I really hope you stick to them, for YOU. I am mentally drained. I am off to watch Millionaire Matchmaker. I don't watch much TV but I love her. I love honesty and she is all about it. Thanks for letting me vent again.