Today I attempted to run. I say attempted because I only made it about 17 minutes and 0.8 miles. I woke up hungry so I had a chocolate chip granola bar. Then I just went right down and got on the treadmill. I felt really good so I decided to push myself to go a little faster and at first it was fine. Then it suddenly wasn't. I became nauseous and dizzy. So I stopped. I am not sure what actually brought that on. Hunger? I don't think I was dehydrated. I'm not sure.
My second question is, how do I know when to push myself further? I feel like sometimes I become complacent because it isn't "easy" so I don't try to do more. Today I did try and it didn't work out. So much to work on...
My running history: I started out on the couch, never exercised, never played any sports, nothing. It just wasn't my thing. I didn't need to, I was always thin. In college I started to pudge a little, after I got married I gained more. There was a weekend I went with friends back to our college town during marathon weekend. It was so inspiring to me. I saw people who were 30+ lbs over weight like me running a freaking marathon! Holy Cow! Who knew! I thought you had to be an athletic twig to do something crazy like that! So I decided then I want to return and run Grandma's marathon one day. I started running. It sucked. I was following the cool running couch to 5k program. It sucked. I did good in the beginning, was still inspired from marathon weekend, but it made a jump from something like run 5 minutes walk 2 repeats one week, then the next jumped up to run 15 minutes straight. I couldn't make that jump. I had to adjust the plan to work for me. Not really sure exactly what I did, but most likely increased the run portion and kept the walk break. I spent that summer signing up for 5k's. Eventually I was able to run a full 5k around Thanksgiving time, I would estimate this being around 1999. Then came the snow and then stopped the motivation. Every few years I'd decide I'm going to do this again and quit after awhile. One year I trained for the 5k, and kept going, signed up for the 10k the next year. During this time I had what I knew was a mental block to go that distance, couldn't get past the 3 mile mark without feeling like death. I decided one day I need to just
see what 6 miles was. So I got on my bike and I biked the distance. Yikes that seemed crazy! But now that I knew what I needed to do, I adjusted my training. From that point on, I started to do 6 miles every weekend run. I ran my 3 miles, stopped my watch, and planned to walk the rest, building on the 3 miles each time. What happened is, I ran the 3 miles and turned around to head home. Walking home also sucked, it was a long boring walk, so I'd start to run part of it to make it over sooner. Then walk, then run, then walk, then run. I didn't look at my clock because I stopped it back at 3 miles, didn't look at the distance because that too wasn't tracking anymore, just did what I felt like doing. That was my turning point. It was my choice if I wanted to walk or run, it wasn't some program telling me what to do. Eventually I was running more, walking less. By the time my 10k came along I was able to run the WHOLE thing! Wow I was proud of myself! This was in 2011. After that I was going to train for the 10 mile the next year. I ended up getting injured (plantar fasciitis) and wasn't able to continue. In spring 2013 I was finally able to run again without pain. I was back to the beginning. I had learned alot since I first started this run thing and didn't even try a couch to 5k app this time. I just did what I felt like doing, building VERY slowly! I was still REALLY scared the plantar fasciitis would come back. Took me 9 months to build up to that 5k on 1/1/14. At this point I was already signed up for 3 other races, final race being in the fall of 2014 a half marathon. So I had to keep going. Right now I'm doing 6 or 7 miles on the weekends hanging out here until my half training starts.
After all that, your motivation to push harder vs risk pushing too hard has to come from within somewhere. Think about your reason to sign up for this in the first place. I still picture one girl around 20 years old, 30lbs over weight, bright red face, on an extremely hot day, with 2 miles to go of a marathon. It motivates me ALL THE TIME! Following a 'program' didn't work for me. I needed to do what
I could do, not what some expert thinks we all can do. During that 10k training, going the distance, even if it meant walking 3 long boring miles home, got me to my goal. Maybe that is a good thing for you to try. Start with 3 miles, run what
you can, not what the program says you can, and walk the rest. At some point start completing 6 miles on the weekend however
you can. Then just keep building. Maybe this won't work for you, you are not me, but its a new idea to try. It also gives you time to think what will work for you, what will motivate you to keep going. Maybe you just need to picture Mickey giving you a high five at the finish line. That also got me through a few runs when I wanted to quit. You'll figure this out and cross that line. I know you will!
By the way I have NEVER finished a couch to 5k program, they always have a jump that is too high, and I have to modify it to fit my needs.