In search of my body...not the one I ate!

[3DisneyKids]

My realtionship with the scale…

I am so impressed with all of you who actually get on a scale and face the truth. I cannot do it. Back when I was a skinny-minnie, I would weigh myself many times each DAY. And if the number wasn’t what I wanted it to be, I stressed and obsessed all day….and kept getting back on the scale all day until I saw the number I wanted.

Even though I was thin and healthy, I know that this obsession with the numbers on the scale was not.

Since getting pregnant, (9 years ago now) I have not been on a scale. Ok, that is not completely true….for each of my three pregnancies, I got weighed at each OB appointment—but I would turn around so that I would not see or know the number. And for the past 5+ years, I just haven’t gotten on a scale at all. When I go to the doc and they say “hop on the scale,” I just say “no thanks.” Seriously. I have not been weighed in over 5 years and I have not known my real weight in 9 years.

The truth is….I am terrified of the truth. What if it is way higher than even my worst fear? Honestly, I posted here that I am about 155 (at 5’2”), but I am not sure how accurate that is. It could be anywhere from 145 – 165. It has been so long that I really don’t know.

I measure my losses in other ways…primarily through clothes. “WOW! These made me look like a demin-cased sausage 3 weeks ago and today they FIT!” type of stuff. Or on the other side…”YIKES! All of my fat pants now need fat pants of their own!”

Today is a good day in terms of the clothes-measurement system. I am wearing a pair of those pants that have the slit-style front pockets. The last time I wore them, that pocket was pulled so wide open it was like….well, my mouth when pizza is around! But today….the pocket is nice and flat just like it is supposed to be. So that is my victory of the day.

Here is my goal….maybe dawn can record it to help me stick to it. I am going to continue on my program for all of Janaury and get sort of a head start. Then, on February 1st, I am going to do it….I am going to get on the scale.

I feel like if I have a few successful weeks under my belt first, I’ll never have to know how bad it really was. I know that may not make sense….as I am sure it is so wonderful to see those numbers go DOWN with each weigh-in. It is just getting that first number that scares the holy beejeebers out of me!

Thanks for listening.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

I like it because it's both funny and real.

I am really honest on here, and I feel like its totally okay to be honest. As you can see from my picture, I can hide my weight and my struggles and I NEVER ask for support...but here I am telling the truth and there's no mask.

That's why i like it here! We are all going to do this, together!

Oh, and in the spirit of disclosure, my mom is going through her fourth cancer diagnosis and treatment. This time I am not stuffing my fear with food...I'm going on hope and taking care of myself. If I don't take care of myself first, I can't take care of anyone else!

 

[SeptemberGirl]

My realtionship with the scale…

I am so impressed with all of you who actually get on a scale and face the truth. I cannot do it. Back when I was a skinny-minnie, I would weigh myself many times each DAY. And if the number wasn’t what I wanted it to be, I stressed and obsessed all day….and kept getting back on the scale all day until I saw the number I wanted.

Even though I was thin and healthy, I know that this obsession with the numbers on the scale was not.

Since getting pregnant, (9 years ago now) I have not been on a scale. Ok, that is not completely true….for each of my three pregnancies, I got weighed at each OB appointment—but I would turn around so that I would not see or know the number. And for the past 5+ years, I just haven’t gotten on a scale at all. When I go to the doc and they say “hop on the scale,” I just say “no thanks.” Seriously. I have not been weighed in over 5 years and I have not known my real weight in 9 years.

The truth is….I am terrified of the truth. What if it is way higher than even my worst fear? Honestly, I posted here that I am about 155 (at 5’2”), but I am not sure how accurate that is. It could be anywhere from 145 – 165. It has been so long that I really don’t know.

I measure my losses in other ways…primarily through clothes. “WOW! These made me look like a demin-cased sausage 3 weeks ago and today they FIT!” type of stuff. Or on the other side…”YIKES! All of my fat pants now need fat pants of their own!”

Today is a good day in terms of the clothes-measurement system. I am wearing a pair of those pants that have the slit-style front pockets. The last time I wore them, that pocket was pulled so wide open it was like….well, my mouth when pizza is around! But today….the pocket is nice and flat just like it is supposed to be. So that is my victory of the day.

Here is my goal….maybe dawn can record it to help me stick to it. I am going to continue on my program for all of Janaury and get sort of a head start. Then, on February 1st, I am going to do it….I am going to get on the scale.

I feel like if I have a few successful weeks under my belt first, I’ll never have to know how bad it really was. I know that may not make sense….as I am sure it is so wonderful to see those numbers go DOWN with each weigh-in. It is just getting that first number that scares the holy beejeebers out of me!

Thanks for listening.

We will listen anytime!

It's just a number. It's not what you're worth. Remember that! You are more than your weight! I am behind you!

 

[HockeyKat]

Hey Kat! I also see you on the DVC boards from time to time as I am a fellow kool-aid drinker! Living in Maine (hockey country...and yes, DH and I met at UMaine back in the days of Paul Kariya--he was a good pal of DH's), I play on a Mom's team....we all suck at it but have a ton of fun!

FWIW, I have been doing the 5-on 2-off method for years, actually, and have been able to maintain. Now granted, I am maintaining a weight that I am NOT happy with. In the last year, I have actually stopped maintaining and gained again, but that is another story (dd, 4, was critically ill with kidney failure and I stress ate like you only read about). But for me, the 5/2 plan has worked in the past.

Keep going! I am on day 5 of my new plan, and so far so good....haven't cheated yet. But now we are going into the week-end which has always been my 2-off, so I am worried about getting through the week-end.

Great!! I really want to get to the maintenance portion, but I am counting my chickens there.

Nice to find another hockey chick... I know they are common up where you are, but here in NC not so much. Although surprisingly enough, Raleigh-Durham has 7 sheets of ice and thriving adult leagues.

Hi my new friends!

This is now, by far, my favorite thread on the boards!

Ok, here's a question....

Looks like many of you are counting calories? I am doing South Beach. I had great success with South Beach a few years back, so that is why I am back on the Beach now. I remember saying...all the time..."I love this diet! I am NEVER hungry!" So, that is my main reason for using SBD.

I find that if I calorie count, I also eat lots of stuff I shouldn't...

What other programs are you all on? Any favorites? Any to stay away from?

I am counting calories. I use sparkpeople.com to track food and exercise, and they have a fun point system that makes it feel like a game. There is a DIS team there, as well.

I have tried Atkins, fairly successfully, but I find it so restrictive somehow. I like the calorie counting because, I can cut back at lunch and budget in calories when I know something is coming up. Like yesterday I had an NHL game to go to and I knew I would want beer, so I can budget in the beer calories.

Oh, that is my other problem w/ low carb, I like an occasional drink, and I found Atkins + alcohol = fat Kat.

I like it because it's both funny and real.

I am really honest on here, and I feel like its totally okay to be honest. As you can see from my picture, I can hide my weight and my struggles and I NEVER ask for support...but here I am telling the truth and there's no mask.

That's why i like it here! We are all going to do this, together!

Oh, and in the spirit of disclosure, my mom is going through her fourth cancer diagnosis and treatment. This time I am not stuffing my fear with food...I'm going on hope and taking care of myself. If I don't take care of myself first, I can't take care of anyone else!

Hope that the treatment goes well.

I agree with the others... this thread is real. I like both the honest sharing and the humor. I have found some pockets of DIS, this one included, to have really amazing people in it and I am glad I found this thread.

 

[Dizneydawn]

Thank you so much for letting me know about your lives....your personal struggles and your enjoyment here. I was going to go back and Quote all of you but I won't be able to do it justice through my tears.

Today you have all moved me more than I can express but I feel I need to tell you a little more than just a simle Thank You.

I will let you know a little something about me.

I have always been a watcher...I was very quiet in H.S. until late and would watch others to see their actions and see their re-actions. I never thought I fit and I was always afraid I would say something that would be stupid and my confidence was very low. It did not have to do with weight but rather who I saw in the mirror.

I dated a lot and flitted between groups of friends but when it came right down to it...I dated a lot and had tons of friends because I never trusted myself to get serious with anyone. I would leave you before you could leave me because if I actually trusted you...I could be devestated. I did not have any more room for devestation.

Then I learned to love my inner-self and like my personality and let my humour come out and trust my laughter.

I spent literally Feb. 1996-1998 in the hospital with a congenitive kidney defect and this last year has been the worst since 1998. I had surgery in 1998 and another this past May. The reality is I will lose my right kidney sooner than later and that is something I am scared of. I need to lose weight to be healthy enough to better my survival of a surgery. I deny myself the truth of how I am feeling some days because I don't want to know.

When I started this thread...I wanted to be honest..to be whole and for the first time not hide behind and watch. I wanted to be available to trust and open to devestation because if I keep watching...I will never actually live.
What happens if I die before I allow myself to live? What if I never get a chance to come out from behind the corner?

The truth we all face is we came here for many reasons but all of us will chose to stay for one.

Each Other.

That at the end of the day is all we have in this world and that to me is everything.

 

[Debbie]

3DisneyKids, could you tell me about the "Me on a Diet" diet?

I grazed and tracked on Fit Day in 2004 and I lost a lot of weight. My three sisters and I did the Disney Half Marathon, knowing that, with my teaching schedule (August trips---where's that sweating icon?) that this would be the only trip that we would be together. We trained in different cities, but we reached our goal TOGETHER! (Did I have to say that we are very close?) Well, it turned out really to be our only trip together. After pushing me to the finish with horrific pain and bowel problems, my younger sister was diagnosed with cancer shortly after we got back. She fought the real marathon for 15 months, and then passed away in May of 2006. I, of course, wasn't working out with all of the things that need to be done, and with all the stress....I ate.....and ate.....and ate.

That's part of my story, but I would like to be ready to move back to the me that I want to be. My DSis's son, and my daughter have plans to do the Half in 2010. I don't think that my knees will be able to do it, but I do know that my weight has to come down before I even entertain the thought.

I'm finding that Fit Day isn't working....or rather, I just am not as committed right now. I know that I should be committed but for some reason, I am not. I can do breakfast and lunch, and then I seem to get too busy to track dinner and those infamous after supper, before bed snacks-usually carbs, not sweets. Oh, yeah. I am a carb addict!

Oh, and finally....why I like the thread. For starters, it's funny. It's real. It's supportive. It's not so big that I have to spend hours catching up every night. And Dawn, your email checking my weight....made me connect with what I want to do. Thanks!

Happy Saturday everyone. DRINK YOUR WATER! (That's always hard for me on the weekend. I drink oooooodles of green tea, but the water. . . .)

 

[3DisneyKids]

Good morning my friends! (chubuddies? family of fatties? )

Dawn and Debbie--thanks so much for sharing some of yourselves with us! As a behavioral scientist, the one thing I do know about all of this is that there is a real and true triangular relationship between food and emotion and behaviors.

Since my specialty is NOT in eating behaviors, I would never presume to give that type of advice here, however, the one thing I can share is that we all got here for a variety of reasons (stress eating, abusive relationships--past or present, bad habits formed at childhood, etc.) and that the reason we are all STILL here is one and only one reason....dishonesty.

It is not that we are dishonest about our sizes....we all have the same loathsome feelings when getting dressed, buying new clothes, getting on the scale (well, not me, we know that I am scale-phobic! ).

It is more that we are dishonest with ourselves in terms of confronting the issues that got us here and keep us here. It's emotional. It's behavioral. And it is a pattern. Until we learn what our patterns are, how can we break them? Until we learn to be truly honest about why we choose to turn to food, we can't get beyond it.

Another part of dishonesty is those "little cheats." Those little things like, "I've been good all day, so I can have this one little thing." OR....I have had a major trauma this week, so I can have xyz. OR--today is a special day! I "deserve" this treat.

We turn to food when we are depressed, when we are stressed, AND when we are happy!

And that is why this thread is wonderful. There has been so much raw honesty here...and that is one of the reasons we are going to be successful. We have to honestly look at ourselves and our lives...and that is being done here!

I am going to try to change my thinking when it comes to the "I deserve this" mentality. What I DESERVE is to have a healthy body. What I DESERVE is to be happy with who I am inside and out. And a certain type of food--no matter what it is--is not going to help me get what I truly deserve.

DAWN--this past may, my DD (then 4--just a baby) lost her left kidney. She had been in renal failure for 2 years and finally the only solution was to remove the kidney. I stress ate like you only read about. I am happy to say that she is happy and 100% perfectly healthy today! So, if you ever want/need to talk about those issues, I am like a walking encyclopedia about renal disease. (I am a researcher by nature and profession, so when something like this happens, one of my coping mechanisms is to research the ever-lovin'-hell out of it.)

DEBBIE--I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I have two daughters and see how close they are as sisters, so I can only imagine your devastation. How wonderful that you have the memory of training for and competing in the race with her! Don't stress about whether or not you will ever be able to run like that again. Focus on getting to a healthy weight first, and then just take it from there.

As for me, I have had a great week so far. Today is day 6 and I am on a roll. This morning I tried on a bunch of clothes (since that is my current measurement technique) and I was very pleasantly surprised. More things fit than I thought they would, so that feels great! Don't get me wrong, I am still in my "fat" pants, but I have laid out two pairs of my "mid-range" pants so I will see them frequently...and these should fit in about 3 weeks. (I was able to get them on and buttoned....but if I ever wore them out in public, I would be in constant fear of the law-suit that would be sure to come when the velocity of the button flying off my pants caused the button to impale itslef in some poor soul's forehead!)

Be strong! We CAN do this! Have a great week-end!

 

[milestogo]

Hi Guys,
I noticed that several of us are height challenged, for all of us in the 5'1 - 5'2 height range it does feel like when we look in the mirror 10 pounds on a tall person isn't even noticeable, but on us it looks like double, but it is still the same number if you ask a mathematician. Frustrating, but still just a number.

3disneykids: What is your specialty in the behavorial sciences? You've nailed this one even though you say it isn't your specialty!!!

You on a diet is the Dr. Oz and Dr. Roizen book. They started on Oprah and now have several specials running on PBS and Discovery Health. But the best is Dr. Oz's daily show on XM radio - he is fantastic and has an amazing array of guests. Bob Green also has a show that is great where he talks to people about their excercise, eating, why and how. I highly recommend them. I just sold my audio copy of You on a diet on Ebay, but still have the hardcopy book. They are all about reading the ingredients, looking for hydrogenated fats, lowering blood pressure, walking 30 min. a day, eliminating bad foods from our cupboard and refrigerator and CHANGING OUR HABITS! Both talk extensively about emotional eating.

We have been following this way of eating and thinking for about 4 years now. We mostly eat Italian, mediterranean, and Japanese food mixed with salads topped with a ton of veggies (but different all the time.) Now salad dressings are a problem in our house. I've never been an emotional eater, but everyone in my family is, so I've watched it and it is a hard habit to change. Saying it out loud, changing the habits one piece of frozen food at a time, one box of prepackaged food at a time, one sweet liquid at a time. I still indulge in one hot chocolate/pretend coffee per morning that has hydrogenated fat in it and one Dr. Pepper per day, but other than that we have little by little purged our cupboards and freezers of anything that isn't as natural as possible. It took us forever to do it since we shop at Costco.

My problem now is that I have hit that plateau of weight where I can't get rid of that last 10 pounds to get down to a comfortable weight. I've aged and it isn't as easy as it always was! And to make the challenge even harder the medicine I'm on isn't fighting me. So, I must face he obstacle of finding time to increase my activity to change the pattern. I'm working hard on it, but I'm not there yet.

So, my message today is group hug for changing habits

 

[Dizneydawn]

Another part of dishonesty is those "little cheats." Those little things like, "I've been good all day, so I can have this one little thing." OR....I have had a major trauma this week, so I can have xyz. OR--today is a special day! I "deserve" this treat.


I am going to try to change my thinking when it comes to the "I deserve this" mentality. What I DESERVE is to have a healthy body. What I DESERVE is to be happy with who I am inside and out. And a certain type of food--no matter what it is--is not going to help me get what I truly deserve. =Quote]

***Sorry screwed up highlighting the quote again!*****
I need to tell you an aha my OBGYN shared. The same smart man who told me to get a bike....yeah him.

He told me that if I was a food addict than maybe I need to stay away 100% forfm the foods that cause me to splurge. His comparrison was this...
If he were a cocaine addict and wanted to stop...would I encourage him to stop but continue on weekends? Or would I say...just a little bit won't hurt you...go ahead you deserve one snort!

Food is no different....addiction is an addiction and if the plan to make brownies comes up and I am convinced I can stop at one....I am fooling myself. The one turns to one and a half because you know that it would not be a even cut and you can't leave a brownie uneven. Then it wouldn't cut evenly into 3 pieces for the rest of the row so I would help myself to another sliver because I wouldn't want to short change someone in my family...I am a giver!

Do ya feel my pain people??? I would have the pan gone in 2 days...maybe! Probably less.

I want to have a sweet than I want another....

Debbie....I am a carb junkie....I smoke Ritz like no other!

So here I am 5.2# down and wanting to make the commitment for me. Have done good so far and will have my 13 glasses of water today. If you miss me...yell into your toilet because I should be able to hear the echo!!!

 

[grumpyyoungguy]

Hi my new friends!

This is now, by far, my favorite thread on the boards!

Ok, here's a question....

What other programs are you all on? Any favorites? Any to stay away from?

I know the "chocolate diet", "Ice Cream diet", and "Starburst diet" definitely don't work. I will get back to you on how the "Skittles diet" works out.

truthfully though I am using Fit Day. Also drinking a ton of water. I heard somewhere that you are supposed to drink half your weight in ounces worth of water a day

Lets see that is 353.7 divided by two carry the seven and delete the 353 that makes 20 ounces of water a day

Good luck you all and congrats to the folks who are losing I am completely proud of you. You are doing a great job.

 

[HockeyKat]

Food is no different....addiction is an addiction and if the plan to make brownies comes up and I am convinced I can stop at one....I am fooling myself. The one turns to one and a half because you know that it would not be a even cut and you can't leave a brownie uneven. Then it wouldn't cut evenly into 3 pieces for the rest of the row so I would help myself to another sliver because I wouldn't want to short change someone in my family...I am a giver!

Do ya feel my pain people??? I would have the pan gone in 2 days...maybe! Probably less.

I want to have a sweet than I want another....

Debbie....I am a carb junkie....I smoke Ritz like no other!

So here I am 5.2# down and wanting to make the commitment for me. Have done good so far and will have my 13 glasses of water today. If you miss me...yell into your toilet because I should be able to hear the echo!!!

Hehe.. yelling hi into my toilet...

I hear ya on the food addiction. I am that way with Ripple potato chips, I just can't have them in the house at all. I am lucky in one respect because Mr Kat struggles just as much if not more with weight, so we can stock the house with only healthy food.

I don't have the sweets problem but I could eat cheese until I popped.

Dawn, sorry to hear about the kidney problems. A good friend at work had end-stage renal disease, and received a transplant about 10 years back. I hope that everything works out and that this new healthy lifestyle works a miracle in your life in more way than one.

 

[Dizneydawn]

Hehe.. yelling hi into my toilet...
Hola back atcha...

I don't have the sweets problem but I could eat cheese until I popped.
I read this at first as pooped!

Okay...so I have a pre-trippie started and am wondering how do I link a thread at the bottom of my signature area??? Help!!!

 

[Debbie]

Me! Me! Pick Me!

Copy the URL of the trip thread. Go to your edit siggie page , and click the globe link on the toolbar. It will come up as http:// Paste your trip thread URL there. There will be some highlighted words after you click it. There you put your click here word (or title, whatever you want to call your trip thread.) Okay it and you are done.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hey Gang...

Just wrapped up my "business/training" for the day and finally got a chance to catch up on my e-mail.... Of course, you all have me crying because of what we have developed in such a short time here... Thank you all for your honesty and your experiences. They have truly made a difference in this gal's life...

Dawn - you know I am praying for you... I am a firm believer that God never throws you more than you can handle and you CAN handle this!!!! Keep me posted on how your are doing. We are all here to listen...

As for me, I have tried WW, South Beach and a whole host of other "diets", but have found success with Jenny Craig. I know some may say it is a cop out with all of the pre-packaged food, but you wouldn't believe the amount of fruits and veggies I am now eating. The diet has taught me a lot about portion control. I can't eat nearly as much as I used to. I am working on the exercise portion now and trying to get workouts in on a daily basis.

Thanks for the insight on the behavioral aspects of weight gain. It has been really helpful... I still can't walk away from certain foods, but it is getting easier to have one or two bites of something instead of the entire cake.

We can be successful because we deserve to be....

Goof

 

[HockeyKat]

Btw, the blood type = gravy had me LMAO.

I don't think anything is a "cop out"... everyone is different and different approaches work better for different people.

I am a hardcore math geek so all this calorie counting works for me... plus I see it as a game to stuff as much food as possible into my 1200 calories. Prepackaged meal plans, and WW for that matter, are really just calorie counting in the end, except someone else has done the counting for you, and actually your meals are probably a bit more balanced than mine might be. Plus the cost per meal is pretty reasonable.

Jenny or NutriSystem have crossed my mind, for convenience reasons, but everytime I look at their meals I realize I am too picky!

Today was a fish day for me... smoked salmon for lunch, crab legs for dinner.

Oh, and I finally bought new sneakers... mine have been worn out for a few weeks now. I *heart* the Dr Scholls line at Wal-mart. They have a WW version for my messy deformed feet, are only $25, and work SO much better than the expensive ones I had before.

Speaking of which, I forgot to mention that I had juvenile rheumatoid arthritis. I was fortunate enough to go into permanent remission at age 18, but it left me with some bone deterioration, and my left foot is rather messed up and a half size bigger than my right. However, anything high impact like running is right out of my workout routine. Elliptical, skating, etc are fine though.

Hope everyone is having a great weekend!!

 

[Dizneydawn]

Me! Me! Pick Me!

Copy the URL of the trip thread. Go to your edit siggie page , and click the globe link on the toolbar. It will come up as http:// Paste your trip thread URL there. There will be some highlighted words after you click it. There you put your click here word (or title, whatever you want to call your trip thread.) Okay it and you are done.

I know you can now link to it...but why does it seem very long???? I don't remember other peoples being so many numbers and such??? I am so not computer savy!!

Oh well..at least it is there!

 

[3DisneyKids]

It is Sunday...if you have had a good week, don't blow it today! Stay committed to your program, whichever program you have chosen!

My mini-victory for today was going to church without feeling terrible about how I look! I have always been an avid church-goer (my dad is a minister, so I am a PK..."preacher's kid" for those not in the lingo). When DH and I got married, we naturally decided that we would raise our kids in the church.

Well, for years, I was always the one who motivated the whole family to go to church. If left to DH, we would have rarely gone, so it was mostly my deal. Well, about two years ago, the tide turned. I was so heavy that NONE of my church clothes fit (or didn't fit comfortably), so I started making excuses about why we didn't need to go that week. DH--who by this time was used to going--picked up the ball and kept us going regularly....dragging my ever increasing tail to church, and me stressing out about Sunday starting on Monday.

In my mad trying-on frenzy from yesterday, I found that I actually have several things that fit now....so for the first time in I don't know how long, I was up and saying to the whole family..."time to get ready for church...."

Yup, it is a small victory, but I will take it!

Have a great day everyone!

 

[HockeyKat]

That's great 3Disney!! I know what you mean about not wanting to go out because nothing fits. I bet you are rocking today! And just think about a few months from now and how great you will look!!

I find my weekends are easier when Mr Kat works. He has more of a tendency to stray from the path, and I am weak when provoked.

My plans for today are to finish up the laundry, drop off some stuff to Mr Kat at work, hit the gym for 45 min of cardio, and come home and drain the hot tub. One of the pumps died and needs replacing (yay ebay!).

 

[Dizneydawn]

In my mad trying-on frenzy from yesterday, I found that I actually have several things that fit now....so for the first time in I don't know how long, I was up and saying to the whole family..."time to get ready for church...."

Yup, it is a small victory, but I will take it!

Have a great day everyone!

Victory for God is a smaller tukkus!!! I think that should be a new song.

Oh I know I have been slow in going to church...
My mind was there but my body would lurch...
It was flabby and flawed and it weighed quite a bit.
I would often cry and cause my family to see me in a snit.
My clothes were small and just did not feel or fit right.
My huge behind was expanding in my pants which made the pew too tight.

So I decided to believe...... I knew I must concede....I needed a food reprieve....because...

Victory for God is a smaller rump...sometimes round but never plump....He believes I can do this...It has been told to me...Victory for God is a better and healthier meeeeee.

Okay so I actually was singing this in my head as I wrote this...no I will not sing you the harmony because true story....

6th grade church choir....they asked me to play the bells...which is a nice way to say...God doesn't want to hear you either.

I find my weekends are easier when Mr Kat works. He has more of a tendency to stray from the path, and I am weak when provoked.

I know what you mean...I tend to be a follower...right into the fridge!!

 

[believen]

I'm in...... I've procrastinated,and made excuses, but I keep being drawn back here, to check on everyone, be encouraged, laugh, be concerned, and laugh some more. I've borrowed a scale from the neighbor, mine was "lost" sometime last year. I've had a good week food wise, during a very stressful week. I'll pm my weight. I know it's just a number, but it is a reality check. I still think I'm thinner! More later, but I'm in!! Thanks for all the laughs and encouragement so far.