In search of my body...not the one I ate!

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Ugghhh, will this week ever end?!? Work is hideous this week and of course this is the time that the specialist we have been waiting to get an appointment with for my son calls and says there is an opening. It took me 1.5 hours to get there yesterday. I love the doctor though so at least it was worth the drive. I was afraid he wouldn't say or do anyhting I didn't already know. Then they closed one of the main roads in the area and it took us 1 our and 22 minutes to drive 12 miles!!! What a night! Needless to say I was ready to throw myself out in traffic after 45 minutes. Of course all I would have gotten for my effort would have been a bruise since everyone was at a stand still/ crawl. Sorry, I am in a mood

Forgive me, but I don't remember what you went to see a specialist for?

Ok, have to catch up on posts....just dropping in to freak out.

I weighed in. I stayed the same.


It's only one week, I know. It's the start of a major exercise change and my body needs to adjust. I know. So I should NOT freak out, right?

I wouldn't freak out. I think this is normal. If you are consistant, you'll see results soon. (Unless your name is Erica.)

Here you go: http://www.elephants.com/

I love this organization and enjoy following the progress of their residents. This would be such a great place to work. I went as far as researching real estate in the area but there is no guarantee that DH would be able to make a lateral move to the police department there. Not to mention, I think he would be bored out of his skull. I can't imagine there is a lot of excitement for a cop in that teeny tiny town.

I LOVED the AK behind the scenes tour!!

Dawn, Chad really is a GIANT TURD!! Poor cat!

Thanks for this link. LOVE IT!

SG - I KNOW! This is typical me.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

I wouldn't freak out. I think this is normal. If you are consistant, you'll see results soon. (Unless your name is Erica.)


SG - I KNOW! This is typical me.

OMG SOOO wrong!!!! But it made me laugh out loud. Erika can get back at me by laughing at my fat a$$ as she circles me twenty times on the track!

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Liz

Liz was born in Asia in 1957. She performed in circus her entire life before coming to the Sanctuary.

Solitary upon arrival, she is now best friends with Frieda and Billie. Liz is vocal, engaging and fearlessly adventurous. She runs surprisingly fast and has a most unique dialect.

Affectionately dubbed "the puppy dog", Liz will follow a caregiver anywhere for an apple.

 

[born2bird]

Forgive me, but I don't remember what you went to see a specialist for?


Oh, it wasn't for me. It was with a pediatric allergist who deals with asthmatic children. My 3yon has asthma and they want to see if some of it is triggered by allergies.

I wouldn't freak out. I think this is normal. If you are consistant, you'll see results soon. (Unless your name is Erica.)

ooohhhh, you are in trouble now...



Thanks for this link. LOVE IT!

You're welcome

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OMG SOOO wrong!!!! But it made me laugh out loud. Erika can get back at me by laughing at my fat a$$ as she circles me twenty times on the track!

fat a$$.. I think not, missy! Who has the 50lb loss tag in their siggie?

 

[born2bird]

Liz

Liz was born in Asia in 1957. She performed in circus her entire life before coming to the Sanctuary.

Solitary upon arrival, she is now best friends with Frieda and Billie. Liz is vocal, engaging and fearlessly adventurous. She runs surprisingly fast and has a most unique dialect.

Affectionately dubbed "the puppy dog", Liz will follow a caregiver anywhere for an apple.

How sweet is she and what a great name.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

[/DisneyWorld Delight]I wouldn't freak out. I think this is normal. If you are consistant, you'll see results soon. (Unless your name is Erica.)

ooohhhh, you are in trouble now...

fat a$$.. I think not, missy! Who has the 50lb loss tag in their siggie?

Erica, I hope you don't take this the wrong way. I don't think I said anything you haven't already said yourself. You exercise your @$$ off and the scale never changes.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Liz

Liz was born in Asia in 1957. She performed in circus her entire life before coming to the Sanctuary.

Solitary upon arrival, she is now best friends with Frieda and Billie. Liz is vocal, engaging and fearlessly adventurous. She runs surprisingly fast and has a most unique dialect.

Affectionately dubbed "the puppy dog", Liz will follow a caregiver anywhere for an apple.

Ok, so I'm Billie and SG is Freida!

Lots to say to you all, but here it is 2:30 and it is the first time I have turned my computer on yet...and I am running right back out. Just having one of "those" days. Nothing bad...just tons of stuff in the schedule.

Will catch up on all the posts shortly!

And Liz...OMG...I totally laughed! SO true...I am just completely used to the scale never moving. I was joking with Jeff the other day and said, "I guess I will just be the first chubby marathon runner in history..." I haven't checked yet (I weigh on Fridays), but I am really thinking this is my week...I really feel like I have lost. *insert fingers crossed smiley here*

 

[3DisneyKids]

Has anyone else noticed how amazing we all feel when we get those positive comments? It makes me want to compliment people more - spread it around. "I'm proud of you" means so much when we hear it - I know it means SO much when you all say it to me. Especially since I think a lot of us have been raised by parents who love us and are proud of us but don't say it. Saying it means something. Even a "you look great", which we can say to any acquaintance, can make their day and validate their choices.

Your words of encouragement have meant SO much to me - all of you, all of you words. I'm so happy to see my friends being praised for their hard work!

This is such a good point. It takes no time and costs nothing to say something kind to someone else. Gonna make this part of my daily routine as well.

I'm back to randomly blather on and on and on and on and on....



Maddi is the "fat-fat" (I know, I know, we'll probably have to change that some day, but, it is a term of enderment to her, she's our "fat-fat." She even uses that as her log in to webkinz ) [/B][/COLOR]

Ok, I added her to Cammie's account. So when you get a friend request from cammiekinz, go ahead and accept. Then our DDs can play online too! FYI--Cammie is a nickname for Cameron.

Erica - this one's for you

OMG, that is freakin' hilarious!

Ok, have to catch up on posts....just dropping in to freak out.

I weighed in. I stayed the same.


It's only one week, I know. It's the start of a major exercise change and my body needs to adjust. I know. So I should NOT freak out, right?

Do NOT freak out! DO NOT freak out. Just come hang out with me. It's not fun, but at least we won't get lonely! I am sure it is just a one week thing for you....and honestly, I think I am going to have a good week....so it really won't be forever.

I wouldn't freak out. I think this is normal. If you are consistant, you'll see results soon. (Unless your name is Erica.)

HA! I've been saving all of the crap you have been throwing at me and now it is coming back your way! Seriously, I laughed out loud at that one. Funny about the whales and the homework. If you need anything, just let me know. I don't think I have a save the wahles t, but I am sure have tons of stuff.

DAWN--Holy cow! That guy is some piece of work. I don't even have the words... He gives even Giant Turds a bad name. Liz was dead on when she called him selfish. This man just has no clue.

KIM--hope you get the answers you are looking for with the specialist. Go for the third kid! Sanity is way overrated!

Ok...I'll check in later tonight with updates. Crazy day.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

HA! I've been saving all of the crap you have been throwing at me and now it is coming back your way! Seriously, I laughed out loud at that one. Funny about the whales and the homework. If you need anything, just let me know. I don't think I have a save the wahles t, but I am sure have tons of stuff.

I ordered a long sleeve t and a decal. We should be good. Although I'd like a harpoon. That'd get some attention. HUH?

DAWN--Holy cow! That guy is some piece of work. I don't even have the words... He gives even Giant Turds a bad name. Liz was dead on when she called him selfish. This man just has no clue.

KIM--hope you get the answers you are looking for with the specialist. Go for the third kid! Sanity is way overrated!

Ok...I'll check in later tonight with updates. Crazy day.

It's actually fatfatt. Someone else already had fatfat. So, I added Cammie, to Maddi's. You should get an invite from us under fatfatt. Maddi doesn't do much interaction with others, except for sending gifts. She loves to do that.

Now for the real kicker. I have my own webkinz. An elephant named Lola. I just couldn't bear the way my girls were spending their virtual money, so I had to get my own. But, since hanging out with my posse here, Lola's garden has fallen on hard times.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hi Everyone....

I have had the two days from heck.... I spent yesterday trekking to NJ for a regional meeting for my company. The bus we were taking broke down 90 minutes into the trip and we were stuck waiting for another one to arrive. Finally made it to the meeting and got home around 1:15AM. Had to be up and at a meeting at 8:30 this morning only to find out that the person leading the first part of the meeting didn't do anything and I really could have showed up around 9:45 and not missed anything... The rest of the day was spent listening to one power point presentation after another and fighting the urge to fall asleep...

Needless to say, I am exhausted and will soon be heading for bed... On the plus side, I have been sticking to my food plan. Now I just need to get my exercise in....

I caught up on all hte posts and you folks are just too funny....

I'll be back to my posting self tomorrow.

Sleepy goof...

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Ok, so I'm Billie and SG is Freida!

Okay, I'll be Freida. But make my nickname "Fre" .

Lots to say to you all, but here it is 2:30 and it is the first time I have turned my computer on yet...and I am running right back out. Just having one of "those" days. Nothing bad...just tons of stuff in the schedule.

Will catch up on all the posts shortly!

And Liz...OMG...I totally laughed! SO true...I am just completely used to the scale never moving. I was joking with Jeff the other day and said, "I guess I will just be the first chubby marathon runner in history..." I haven't checked yet (I weigh on Fridays), but I am really thinking this is my week...I really feel like I have lost. *insert fingers crossed smiley here*

You are NOT chubby! I have my fingers crossed for you!

fat a$$.. I think not, missy! Who has the 50lb loss tag in their siggie?

I know, I know...I need to get over it, right? But OMG Erika could still kick my a$$!!!

Do NOT freak out! DO NOT freak out. Just come hang out with me. It's not fun, but at least we won't get lonely! I am sure it is just a one week thing for you....and honestly, I think I am going to have a good week....so it really won't be forever.

Hey, at least we get to hang out!

Hi Everyone....

I have had the two days from heck.... I spent yesterday trekking to NJ for a regional meeting for my company. The bus we were taking broke down 90 minutes into the trip and we were stuck waiting for another one to arrive. Finally made it to the meeting and got home around 1:15AM. Had to be up and at a meeting at 8:30 this morning only to find out that the person leading the first part of the meeting didn't do anything and I really could have showed up around 9:45 and not missed anything... The rest of the day was spent listening to one power point presentation after another and fighting the urge to fall asleep...

Needless to say, I am exhausted and will soon be heading for bed... On the plus side, I have been sticking to my food plan. Now I just need to get my exercise in....

I caught up on all hte posts and you folks are just too funny....

I'll be back to my posting self tomorrow.

Sleepy goof...

Sorry about your super long day yesterday... Let me know if you ever come to NJ again - I can always arrange to meet you for lunch, if you have time. Kudos for sticking to your plan!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Ok, I am sure that Kat knows this, but I sure as heck didn't....

Did you know that ONE single Hershey's kiss has 25 calories in it? And I mean, really, who only eats just one???

So, I had DWD in my head earlier...thinking about pure unadultered chocolate...and I figured that I would ease the craving by having just a couple of Hershey's kisses. Better to do that than to binge, right? So I had 3 of those little buggers, all the while thinking I was doing great to limit myself like that. Then I find out that I just ate 75 calories in no time...poof...gone.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Eh. I drank my calories! A nice vanilla vodka and Diet Coke. Yum.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Eh. I drank my calories!

Nothing wrong with that!

 

[HockeyKat]

Thank y'all for not being chatty this afternoon/evening!!

I love the elephant.

My meeting went suprisingly well... no-one threw anything at anyone else and there were no temper tantrums. It appears that if you get us all in a room, we turn into reasonable human beings. Fwiw, this is the same group that I have indeed heard a temper tantrum and the phone has been hung up more than once during our weekly status calls!

However, 1-5 is a LONG time for a face-to-face meeting w/ 10 people in a room. We did go through all the issues, though, and I think that we reassured the people that needed reassuring, so that will maybe make my life a bit easier in the future. Doubtful, though, they likely reverted to a$$holes as soon as they got back in the car!

And Erika, you are NOT chubby!!

 

[goofyfan-12]

You are NOT chubby! I have my fingers crossed for you!



I know, I know...I need to get over it, right? But OMG Erika could still kick my a$$!!!



Hey, at least we get to hang out!



Sorry about your super long day yesterday... Let me know if you ever come to NJ again - I can always arrange to meet you for lunch, if you have time. Kudos for sticking to your plan!

I'll keep that in mind. I am usually there about once every other month or so. Our office is near Princeton on Route 1. Is that anywhere near you?

Goof

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Ok, I am sure that Kat knows this, but I sure as heck didn't....

Did you know that ONE single Hershey's kiss has 25 calories in it? And I mean, really, who only eats just one???

So, I had DWD in my head earlier...thinking about pure unadultered chocolate...and I figured that I would ease the craving by having just a couple of Hershey's kisses. Better to do that than to binge, right? So I had 3 of those little buggers, all the while thinking I was doing great to limit myself like that. Then I find out that I just ate 75 calories in no time...poof...gone.

Funny, isn't it? I'd never go to the store and buy myself a candy bar, but I'll pop a half dozen or so of those evil little creations into my mouth without even thinking about it!

Actually - I DO think about it....I think about how GOOD they are.. I prefer the dark chocolate ones...much tastier than the original... ....

ANYWAY...a quick drive-by for me...been the week from he!!... ...and we leave Friday A.M for DISNEYWORLD!! I can't tell you how badly I need this vacation. If I do nothing but park myself by the pool I'll be happy (yeah, right! ) Hoping to have more time to check in tomorrow...

 

[SeptemberGirl]

I'll keep that in mind. I am usually there about once every other month or so. Our office is near Princeton on Route 1. Is that anywhere near you?

Goof

It's not super close...easy to get to, though! Let me know next time. I can always do my Route 1 stuff all in on day.

Funny, isn't it? I'd never go to the store and buy myself a candy bar, but I'll pop a half dozen or so of those evil little creations into my mouth without even thinking about it!

Actually - I DO think about it....I think about how GOOD they are.. I prefer the dark chocolate ones...much tastier than the original... ....

ANYWAY...a quick drive-by for me...been the week from he!!... ...and we leave Friday A.M for DISNEYWORLD!! I can't tell you how badly I need this vacation. If I do nothing but park myself by the pool I'll be happy (yeah, right! ) Hoping to have more time to check in tomorrow...

WOW, I am so excited for you!!!! WDW, here you come!

 

[3DisneyKids]

You are NOT chubby! I have my fingers crossed for you!

And Erika, you are NOT chubby!!

I love you both for that!

Ok, let me explain...just so you don't think I sit around and whine about a few vanity pounds (I have about 15 pounds left to go). I don't think it matters if you are a size 8, a size 18 or a size 28...it just plain ol' sucks to be the heaviest person in the room. And as odd as it may seem, that happens to be my situation. Even at this size. I am the heavist mom in my DDs class.

And so, I have let that become part of my identity (even though I hate it). It's like, if I acknowledge and openly call myself that, then that takes the power away from the others who are all thin. And I don't mean normal thin. These women are super-model thin. Size zero thin. String bikini even after having 3 kids thin. So even though I am "average," I feel like a hulking mass next to these women.

Here is an example from the pool club. (Oh yeah, I have to sit around in a bathing suit all summer with these folks....such fun.) One of the women had been really ill and lost a bunch of weight because of it. (And she was like a size 2 to begin with...yeah, like why the hell couldn't I get that bug? Or someone who could really use it??? But I digress...) Anyway, so she is commenting that she likes her new lower weight and is going to try to maintain it. And then she turns to the other skinny sitting with us and says, "Promise me you'll tell me if I get too thin." Seriously....this woman's biggest concern was getting TOO THIN!

I don't mean to villify them, as that really isn't fair. They are good people and have always been kind. They definitely consider me one of their close friends. But when this is my reality, it is hard to have any real perspective, if that makes sense.

Sure, there are other people in my town who are average, chubby, and obese. This isn't Stepford, after all. However, it just so happens that everyone in my circle and seemingly everywhere I go...I am the chubby one in the group.

My tennis team starts up again in two weeks. I love tennis. It is a total passion, and I am the captain of my team (all moms). Again, I am the heavist one there. And tennis outfits are SHORT and TIGHT. There is no hiding your flaws there. Obviously, they don't hate me or make fun of me or alienate me for being above a size 2...they all wanted me to be Captain (it is definitely a popularity contest type of thing more than anything else, so they like me and consider me a friend), but it gets to you after a while when everywhere you turn, you get slapped in the face by the fact that you are bigger than those around you.

And so, I let being the "chubby mom" become part of my identity. And I am desparately trying to shed that. Not so that I fit in with the skinny moms. But so that I have a healthier self-identity. And so I can once again be comfortable in my skin. I will likely not see a size 2 ever again, and I am totally ok with that. But my TRUE self-identity is definitely someone who is healthy and athletic and in great shape. I was always an athlete...and then a fitness trainer and aerobics instructor. I really miss how I felt about myself then. Like I said, it was a huge part of who I was. And I totally lost that part of me.

Anyway, sorry to get all dramatic on you guys! Just trying to explain why I get frustrated and why these are more than just vanity pounds for me.

And FYI--for those who follow the BMI numbers (I know a lot of you do not put any stock there), but according to those charts and scales, I am still in the overweight category by about 4 pounds. So, even the chart says I am a chub!

But that is why I am so obsessive about the running. I am really trying to identify with that...so I can start to think of myself as the Marathon Mom instead of the chubby mom.

Ok, I'm done. Bring on the funny!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Funny, isn't it? I'd never go to the store and buy myself a candy bar, but I'll pop a half dozen or so of those evil little creations into my mouth without even thinking about it!

Actually - I DO think about it....I think about how GOOD they are.. I prefer the dark chocolate ones...much tastier than the original... ....

ANYWAY...a quick drive-by for me...been the week from he!!... ...and we leave Friday A.M for DISNEYWORLD!! I can't tell you how badly I need this vacation. If I do nothing but park myself by the pool I'll be happy (yeah, right! ) Hoping to have more time to check in tomorrow...

Wait! You have to tell us about the GOATS! How was labor? Are you a goat grandma?

And WOO HOO for a trip in 48 hours!!! SOOOOO Jealous! But definitely happy for you because I know how much you need to get away.