In Search of my Body...Not The One I ate...#3 "Crowning Goddesses As We Go"

[Dizneydawn]

Hi all...glad E is taking charge of keeping accountability...

My accountability is this:
I will drink at least 100 oz of water a day
I will keep track of my carb choices and try and keep track of WW points as well...but will track my food intake...from start to stop...
I will try and walk this week at least 3 times for 30 minutes each...





Anyway...E - I was trying to read old posts and wondred about something...when you started to run...how did you do it..what amount of miles...time..or did you start with the Couch-5k and amp it up? Carsyn was asking about who was coming...how they have been doing as well and such...and asked about your running schedule and how long it took you to get up to where you were at in your first race...

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Hi everyone. Sorry I wasn't available yesterday. Very good posting, LISA! I have a super hard time loving me right now. Cause I really can't stand me right now. I think of these as the "fat years" and they should be erased. But that would mean erasing all the good too. I don't know when I'll be ready. ARRRRGH.

What was I doing yesterday you ask? Well, I spend the day on the phone with a quickbooks customer care team member as my payroll software decided to have a breakdown. And the part of the evening on the couch with a headache. Getting the laptop out sounded like to much effort.

Today I am cleaning and Mad and I are heading out to shop.

Right now, the Ohio State/Michig(blech I can't even spell the whole thing) game is on and really, it's our bound duty to stop and watch. So, I am. GO BUCKS!

One more thing, I agree with Kat, I am a mere mortal compared to EriKa, so I understand her statements. And EriKa, I understand your crazyness too. Trying to be everything to everyone all the freaking time, well, that calls for some indulgence.

All for now. Post later.

 

[HockeyKat]

E, thanks. It makes me feel good that I can provide inspiration to superwoman!

I think I pretty much finished my gym analysis. I am either going to go with Anytime Fitness ($25/month) or fly-by-night ($12/month). I am thinking of going over and checking out Anytime this afternoon.

I may go to fly-by-night and keep PF around for a while... going to take a month or two to cancel it anyhow, and the net cost is roughly the same as Anytime.

Today is laundry, cleaning, etc. Tomorrow I scored two free lower level tickets to an NHL game, so will do that. Going to try and stay good foodwise, but I am sure there will be a beer or two involved!!

Food for yesterday:
B: Coffee
L: Jimmy Johns #2 roast beef w/ avocado spread, lettuce, onion, cucumber, sprouts (360)
S: 1/2 cup chili (50)
D: 6 wings (200), 1 white pita-pizza w/ spinach, chicken, broccoli, feta (200), salad (100)
S: 1 serving/.5 cup light mocha almond fudge (130)

Total, 1040. Exercise, 30 min on arc trainer, 60 crunches on ball. Water, 64 oz.

 

[3DisneyKids]

9 miles. Word.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hi everyone...

getting through the day here, but it has not been easy... ate some chocolate, but nothing too out of hand... heading to dinner tonight with a friend to unload a bunch of crap that is rambling through my head so that should help as well...

I am feeling a little sorry for myself since I am no long sure how stable my job is. I had a conversation with my boss' boss at the state yesterday and he told me to start talking to my boss at my company about finding a spot for me on one of their projects. It kind of led me to believe that my spot at the state may not be as safe as I thought it was. I guess when the big project they were so eager to have me work disappeared thanks to the economy, my job may have disappeared with it. I came home last night and just cried (and ate two pieces of buttered bread with my JC mac and cheese). I don't think I am going to lose my job, but things are likely going to change. Just don't know when or how. This feeling just sucks... I have a meeting my boss at the company on Monday so I should know more then. What a way to spend a weekend... worrying... I mean seriously, can this week get any worse...

So - I am catching up on some projects at home and trying to keep busy. Eating wise, I have had some chocolate today, but not too much. I need to choose my dinner selection carefully tonight...

OK - so on to the fun stuff... I leave for Disney in 10 days... so excited about that (my mom offered to cancel the trip if my job was in jeopardy and I said no... we won't get back most of our money so if I am going to spend/lose it, I want to get something for it... I just have to severly tighten the belt when I get home.

Dawn - it will likely be just me at Raglan Road, but I won't be there for dinner. I am going to be at the Candlelight Processional concert with my family that night and then the fireworks afterwards. I likely won't be available to meet up with you all until after 10:00PM...

Take care and I'll talk to you all soon,
Paula

PS - Erika - thanks for the words of support and encouragement.. I have your words running through my head today to keep me on track...

 

[SeptemberGirl]

9 miles. Word.

Nice!!!

So, where have I been?

Thursday - night out for school fundraising. Turned into NIGHT OUT with bff. Craziness.

Friday - Hungover. Mom stuff. Concert at night

Saturday - Craft fair, school party, mom stuff, art gallery opening tonight. Wearing the nice jeans and God only knows what top.

Sunday - Book club and movie - We read Twilight, so we will discuss it and then see the movie.

Monday - Back to normal?

 

[3DisneyKids]

Anyway...E - I was trying to read old posts and wondred about something...when you started to run...how did you do it..what amount of miles...time..or did you start with the Couch-5k and amp it up? Carsyn was asking about who was coming...how they have been doing as well and such...and asked about your running schedule and how long it took you to get up to where you were at in your first race...

Dawn, I wanted to be sure to respond to this because I am so supportive of young girls getting into running. I am really taking it on as a pet project, so to speak.

For me, yes, I started with the Couch to 5k program in February. It is a 9-week program designed to have you running a 5k in 9 weeks regardless of your level of fitness when starting the program. Because I am a *tad* compulsive, I hit the 5k mark at around 4 or 5 weeks. And I ran my first road race, a 5k, in late April with a pace of 10:05 per mile (which is still my PR, btw).

Once I got to that point, I got a running coach. I had no idea what to do next. Should I work on increasing my distance and running farther? Or should I work on speed since my 5k time was slow? or what? A coach was a GREAT choice for me and not at all expensive. If you contact your local running store, chances are they have a coaching program. I paid $75 for 4 months or so. A GREAT deal.

I then worked up to the Half Marathon (13.1 miles) which I did in Sept. I when from zero running to a Half in 6 months. This is VERY aggressive and if I had to do over again, I would not have pushed it that hard.

I definitely recommend C25K as a starting point. I truly believe in the program.

I also really believe in an organization that Lisa (princessrunner) posted about here a while ago. Girls on the Run. It is for girls in 3rd - 8th grades and is a 12 week program (club, really) which gets girls running a 5k. Cammie and I are doing the Girls on the Run Turkey Trot 5k in a few days. She can't officially be part of it since she is not in 3rd yet, but she is really excited and so we are doing it together. We will do a run/walk combo since she is not through her training yet. For Carsyn's age, she would do the Girls on Track program, and both programs are detailed at:

www.girlsontherun.org

I hope she takes it up. It is not only healthy and a great way to lose weight and get in shape, but it is also very empowering.

Hi everyone. Sorry I wasn't available yesterday. Very good posting, LISA! I have a super hard time loving me right now. Cause I really can't stand me right now. I think of these as the "fat years" and they should be erased. But that would mean erasing all the good too. I don't know when I'll be ready. ARRRRGH.

What was I doing yesterday you ask? Well, I spend the day on the phone with a quickbooks customer care team member as my payroll software decided to have a breakdown. And the part of the evening on the couch with a headache. Getting the laptop out sounded like to much effort.

Today I am cleaning and Mad and I are heading out to shop.

Right now, the Ohio State/Michig(blech I can't even spell the whole thing) game is on and really, it's our bound duty to stop and watch. So, I am. GO BUCKS!

One more thing, I agree with Kat, I am a mere mortal compared to EriKa, so I understand her statements. And EriKa, I understand your crazyness too. Trying to be everything to everyone all the freaking time, well, that calls for some indulgence.

All for now. Post later.

So much to comment on in one post! Yes, I have been in the "fat years" for far too long now. Don't do what I did and hate your 30s. Plus, it is way easier to lose weight in your early 30s as opposed to your early 40s, so take care of it now. It is just not worth it to hate that much of your life.

Sorry that your computer issues bogged you down yesterday. Hate that!

Thanks for understanding my crazy.

And as for the Ohio/Michigan game....umm, you do know that I am a Wolverine, right?

 

[Dizneydawn]

E - Thank You so much for all of that - she is worth her Dad today so when I see her tom we can dealve into looking it up...

Lyz - hope life gets a bit easier....and your computer sitcheation works itself out...

Liz - sounds like a busy weekend for a busy woman again...I feel like you live in a soap opera world....

Paula - I know the stress you are under is huge...maybe make a gratitude letter...I just heard that agian on the radio today...that people who send letters..write a gratitude journal for themselves..have better outlooks..more success...and better sleep...gets them foccussed on what matters and easier to flick what isn't...I will be thinking of you...

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Much more to comment on, but have to get back to school for the evening performance of Our Town...

And as for the Ohio/Michigan game....umm, you do know that I am a Wolverine, right?

ummm...yeah....DH is a SPARTAN

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

And as for the Ohio/Michigan game....umm, you do know that I am a Wolverine, right?

Yes. I read it in your bio. I like you so much, I've decided to not hold that against you. Word.

We don't hate the Spartans.

Paula - ohh, that is a horrible way to spend the weekend. I'm sorry. Yes, this economy blows for construction. Well, everything, but I digress...

 

[lisaviolet]

Paula - I'm so sorry. That's very stressful.

Jean and I still pool income and we're suffering. We have to pool - expensive city. (And trust me pooling is probably 70% Jean - so I'm being helped) That's why I'm not coming to Florida. It would be irresponsible of me. I so hate being responsible. She was laid off by an a$$ when she was Director of Camps and Clinics at a basketball facility. He no longer wanted FT employees because he's an a$$. And a$$es like to take, take, take. And putting out what you want does work - she did want out of there. And actually used to pray about it. Too much.

And then she was bumped because of redeployment at an EA (Educational Assistant) postiion this school year. Our union is wonkers in our school board. Absolutely wonkers. It doesn't matter how good you are. If someone on this list or that list applies for this or that job - you don't even get looked at if you're on List C etc. Her boss was livid he had to follow the union crap. And the woman who was bumped didn't even want the job. She tried to rescind and the union wouldn't let her. Same board - both of us. My position is supply - ESL teaching/cultural teaching. So it's always up and down. And heavily unionized. And the teachers phone - not centralized. And when the students are really pleased with me - which is always and I'm not pompous. Well, I've figured out after six or seven years in this position that hey that's not always a good thing. Yes, insert insecure teachers in that sentence.

So I know it Paula. We are barely hanging on. Two jobs gone poof in a year and me not getting out of supplying. I love my job so it's hard. We both have our own businesses - she runs Basketball camps and clinics. I just started with travel - which is just because I love Disney and not a money mader. Well it's not pretty. (Erika - I've got some clients through the agency I work with - and the some through contacts - just started this summer)

Last year in January, when things were good, I phoned daily to DVC to get a BWV BW view studio between Christmas and New Year's. And snagged it. It's almost impossible to get. It's DVC - so paid for - I mean we paid in cash to buy the contracts. And we can eat nada there - we cook a lot at DVC. But I might have to cancel that. Sucks. But will do what I need to do.

And as for DVC. It was bought outright with Jean's inheritence from her mother. And you can imagine it's not just selling something. It's tied to emotional connections to death and life and a wonderful mother.

Well, I just wrote a novel. But Paula my stomach dropped when you said you had a good cry and bread and butter. I absolutely understand. It rocks your world. I've realized I barely go out anymore because it's too depressing to go out and feel that I can't even afford pocket change crap right now. Christmas is making me hold my breath.

But I'm healthy - we're healthy - have friends - still own my place and onward. Onward. Onward. Onward.

Hopefully, we'll be able to feel like gas to WDW is doable in our budget. Because I can eat here in my condo or eat there. And schools are closed. No difference. I don't do a lot of eating out at WDW. I actually get tired of it but I do love food. I hate buffets. And I love DVC because I like to hang out on vacation.

And anyways so many of us are self employed in some regard - so I know you understand. The highs and lows of that.

Okay - enough. I'm depressing myself.

 

[lisaviolet]

Lyz - don't ever stop posting what you need to post, okay?

I know it's tough to get through things when you're down on yourself. I know. I do understand. And don't hate now. Just don't. It's such wasted time Lyz. Such wasted time.

I have to tell myself that too. I'm not loving my weight loss in my face. As in fat in the face at 41 is a good thing. I totally did something stupid a couple of years ago. Jean had this cream for undereye irritation. She would get this extreme allergy thing once in awhile. It was a prescription from our doctor. And I used to use it all the time because it took away bags -any puffiness. I was so psyched. So one day she's at the docs and out of the blue she says "Jean be very careful with that cream - it has steroids in it - and will break down the collagen over time so just use it very very spariingly". And of course - this was after we had it for a year! At least I instantly figured out why I was sagging. My parents don't have it in their seventies - so I thought well it's not genes. I have very thin, thin skin so not good. At the same time I was using this apparatus to help drain sinuses which pulled at that area. Stupid there too. Vanity - so stupid. Long story. It's all not pretty. I look like I'm tired all the time. And I'm not.

Boy - I'm just a ventin' tonight.

Onto my workouts for Erika.

Lyz - really - do anything not to "wish away" anything. Now is so now. Gosh, I sound drunk.

 

[lisaviolet]

Erika - cause you asked about exercise routine and everyone -


In general my philosophy on food and on exercise - is simple. Can I keep this up every single day for the rest of my life? Can you Lisa? And sometimes the answer "ummm - uh ah". And then I will eat more on purpose. Really - consciously on purpose. And exercise less on purpose. I did this at the beginning of this last BL and I'm glad I did. I was too tight fisted. But as I've said I mainly focus on exercise. With food I eat everything and just try to eat consciously.

I have a theory that the body will really react to changes if one is strict. So if I can't do it in ten years from now - not doing it to lose weight now. And that's why it has taken me years to get it off. And that's fine. I want to enjoy life more than anything else - and that includes more than weight loss.

So yapping over.

Exercise

First, I'm lucky. I like it. Actually love it at times. Ie. I don't get Oprah.

Second, it is critical to my mental health. So vanity is there. For sure. But I'd rather not be locked up. So mental health wins.

I'm so not cut or anything. My legs don't look like Erika's - lovely Erika. And I don't like running - I get this weird lower leg pain. I get it with downhill skiing as well. I think it's a crappy vein circulation thing. Genetics. Long boring story.

I do six day schedules and two days off after six. Sometimes I love the days off. Sometimes I want to keep going. But I force myself to do the days off. I fully believe in allowing the rest. And I find two days is perfect after six days on. I LOVE LOVE LOVE that first day back when you feel so strong and rested.

These are the things I rotate - mostly intensive stuff - I love that -

1) My own interval training upstairs ( I'm lucky I have a gym in my condo).

*45 minutes to an hour
*five minute warm up
*short stretch
*3 minute fast aerobic interval on some kind of machine
*two weight exercises rotated
*3 minutes fast aerobic interval - see below
*two weight exercises rotated

Over and over....

I try to choose full body on each weight choice (sort of like Jillian's weight moves) Ie. 1) squats with arm press /2) lunges with a tricep.

And over and over until 45 minutes to an hour. Aerobic three minutes I really switch up -

Includes -

*doing the TM sideways like defensive slides in bball.
*kick boxing (looking like a lunatic around everyone in the gym and not giving a sh!t)
*punching with knee ups
*TM walking at 4.5 - looking like a lunatic again because barely staying on.

I do not run, which would be easier than fast walking in some ways, because I'm vain and my skin can't take it. I used to jump rope and one day caught my skin going up and down and all around in a mirror. And that was that. And let vanity overtake what jump rope was doing for my body. I have really thin skin.

2) Turbo Jam
3) Amped Series - Billy Blanks Taebo
4) Jillian's 30 day shred
5) Pilates machine
6) Straight cardio on some kind of machine
7) Classical Stretch - this bizarre stretching, pilates, ballet type workout.

I never do two very intense workouts in a row. If I do a short intense DVD I'll do a long. slower cardio the next. If I do a long intense interval workout I'll do a slower, longer cardio the next or some kind of gentle workout which pisses me off but I think it's important not to overload the body. Some weeks I'll do six short intense - like Jillian's all in a row. And if I think the week is hard emotionally or with special yummy days I will do six long workouts. Really mix it up.

So that's that. And it's worked. I"m very lucky to have upstairs here. Sometimes I don't want to be around people so I have lots in my condo as well.

Lisa

 

[lisaviolet]

Sunday - Book club and movie - We read Twilight, so we will discuss it and then see the movie.

Liz,

If you don't mind. Let me know what your next book will be and I'll order it from my library system. So I feel I'm reading along even if I don't get to discuss.

I used to head up a DIS book club. It went so well until Atonement. We never fully recovered. The DISer guy who picked it even disappeared on his own pick. We read it not knowing a movie was coming. People loved that book - I know. We all didn't like the writing style. We had books after that. But it was the beginning of the end.

Lisa

 

[HockeyKat]

Paula, so so sorry to hear it. I have been on the tech-go-round (what they call the IT industry around here, and for a reason) more than I have wanted to be... at one point had been laid off 3 times in the span of 2 years. Totally sucks. I hope that they find something for you and that it all works out.

9 miles... wow.

Today was errand running, gym, laundry, and carpet cleaning day. Whee! And stewed chicken in the crock pot all day for enchilada filling (frozen chicken breast, onion, cilantro, green chilis, texas pete, jalapenos, enchilada sauce).

Food:
B: coffee
L: 2 cups pumpkin soup (120), pita pizza (160)
D: Chicken enchiladas (425)


Total so far, 705. Will definitely eat at least popcorn (200), and maybe ice cream (130), to get it to a more reasonable 1040.

Exercise, 30 min of strength training, 45 min on the elliptical trainer. Water, 80 oz.

Tomorrow, hockey game!!

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hi Everyone...

Thanks for the kind words about the work situation. The whole thing came out of left field because I really thought I was safe. I'll get through it. I am lucky in that I have a supportive family who won't let me fail. Whatever happens, I'll figure out how to respond. I really think my company will find a place for me, just a question of where. If they don't, I am resourceful and will find someway to earn a living. I have been lucky, this is the first time that my job has been up in the air in the 15 years I have been working. It was bound to happen sometime... I am feeling a little better about the whole thing as it is not personal, it is business.

Eating wise, I am getting better - not great, but better. I am not going to let stress control me... Nope, not doing it... Besides, I have great folks like you all out there to help me get through this...

BTW - Kat, I never responded to your post about losing 6+ pounds... holy crap girl... that is awesome!!!! I am so proud of you for not just getting back on the wagon, but forcefully taking your place in the driver's seat... way to go...

Have a great night everyone... I'll check in tomorrow...

Paula

 

[3DisneyKids]

Hey all...ok, I can't respond to anyone cause I am having a hard time focusing on words cause I drank so much!

And why did I drink so much? Well, as I posted earlier today, J and I had a date night planned. Only it wasn't a date night. It was a SURPRISE party. For me, for my birthday. It was totally fun. I have never had a surprise party before.

J and Karen have been working on it for a month. The fact that J did this is flat out overwhelming. He is anti-social, you know. But he called all of these people, booked our local bar, everything. And he was downright charming all night. And the WHOLE bar sang happy birthday to me. With a cake. It was so wonderful. About 30 people made it...including my parents. Plus people from both of the mom's groups that I am in plus my tennis team.

I will post more tomorrow. Time to pass out.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Look at me, party girl waking up the thread! I am still in utter shock over the whole thing. Really. I would never guess in a million years that Jeff could or would do this. I would say that it is more likely for him to shoot up heroin as opposed to this.

Yes. I read it in your bio. I like you so much, I've decided to not hold that against you. Word.

Wow. Thanks, this is huge!

Erika - cause you asked about exercise routine and everyone -

THANKS, Lisa. I love cardio/weight interval workouts. I do those, too. And yes, I look like an idiot in the gym...running my a$$ off on a piece of cardio for 3 minutes and then jumping off and doing a couple of exercises and then running back to the cardio, etc. BUT...so many people have started doing the same thing. Some have actually asked me what I do and then I have seen them try it. Others are just trying it without ever having said anything to me. It's kinda cool to be exercise trend-setter,

PAULA--hang in there. In Jeff's field, we go through this ALL the time. And it is never easy. There have been so many times when we were sure he was going to go...so I get your stress. You are strong and will get through this.

Ok, my plans for today include raking the lawn, going for a run, and taking the kids to HSM3.

 

[Dizneydawn]

E - congrats on the B-day Party...what a great evening and what a testement to your marriage and where it is heading...celebrating this year means celebrating all your accomplishments throughout the past year...

Paula - glad you are having your head around the positives...and so happy you have a family that supports you...and 15 years with no job concerns is a huuuuuge thing...Chad had 9 jobs in 10 years...none by his choosing..jobs just kept shutting down in his industry...but it never allowed him to get financially anywhere and or build up vacation, pention etc....

Lyz - I miss watching football on Saturdays....who won?

Lisa - sorry about the vanity train running you over...I completly understand...it sucks...my hair is falling out in chunks right now from meds and stress...and coloring it di dnot help it out at all...but how do you justify looking like a skunk ya know? I bet it is worse for you than it is in reality...my hair looks thicker than most eoples still...but I notice the difference.

Happy Sunday everyone...start something new today just for you.....

 

[lisaviolet]

Hey all...ok, I can't respond to anyone cause I am having a hard time focusing on words cause I drank so much!

And why did I drink so much? Well, as I posted earlier today, J and I had a date night planned. Only it wasn't a date night. It was a SURPRISE party. For me, for my birthday. It was totally fun. I have never had a surprise party before.

J and Karen have been working on it for a month. The fact that J did this is flat out overwhelming. He is anti-social, you know. But he called all of these people, booked our local bar, everything. And he was downright charming all night. And the WHOLE bar sang happy birthday to me. With a cake. It was so wonderful. About 30 people made it...including my parents. Plus people from both of the mom's groups that I am in plus my tennis team.

I will post more tomorrow. Time to pass out.

Oh that's so lovely Erika. Yeah to him and Karen.