In Search of my Body...Not The One I ate...#3 "Crowning Goddesses As We Go"

[DisneyWorld Delight]

E - great job on the run. I don't know how you did it. Getting on the dreadmill is on my short list today.

 

[lisaviolet]

As a rule does everyone post their intake for the day?

Hey Val,

Not a rule. Oh, at least I think it's not. If so, I'm a definite rule breaker. (see that Lyz - bad me again ). EDIT: Whoops Lyz already answered you.

Anyways, here's my thing. I know myself. 41 kind of does that. And for me, and of course only me, I do so much better mentally in general and with weight loss when I don't think about food at all. Besides how absolutely yummy it is.

What I do is just try to eat consiously - not emotionally overeat. And other than that focus on exercise.

Of course we're all different. And I know that tracking is such a successful tool for so many people. That's apparent right here with all the success.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Now that is sweet!!! Yeah.
Ooops, Paula. I wanted to ask you if the project was getting any better? But somehow I went a little nuts with the edit.

Also, when you were talking with Val I got really curious about your positions before construction management. Ie. Did you do a lot more design?

Hi Lisa - in my previous life (pre CM days) I was an architect, so yes, I did a lot of design work... I don't miss that part of me though. I am more of technical person so the CM work suits me perfectly...

Well guys,

I am down 1.1 for BL this week. Well, let's half that because it's a two week weigh in because I was out of town last week.

But I have never ever been so thrilled about a loss. Really.

So thrilled.

And body is changing more rapidly than the scale. So pleased with that.

Whoo Hoo.... congrats on the loss and the body changing... awesome news...

Thanks to everyone for posting where you are at. I was wondering outloud. It's nice to know the facts - instead of me guessing. Nice check in.

Oh Paula - that's what I wanted to say - I loved your line about how we will all get where we need to in time. Loved it.

Glad I could help...

And hi to Lisa - I saw you popped in.

And Amiee - I wish you would come back to us. I sound like a romance novel. But I so wish you would. I loved listening and talking with you.

Master's Stacey - where for art thou?

Lisa

Nancy--you know that we will be here for you!

Word... we are here for you girlfriend... (snap...)

Wow, we all must be tired after last night. I didn't get to bed till 2;30! Ugh! And I have my long run (again) today. Damn I hate it when I have to do it on the week-end. But getting these big long blocks of time is just near impossible these days.

Have a great day all! Really--so many of us do great during the week and then go wild on the week-ends. Let's not do that this week-end. Keep posting food and exercise.

that's why I am here now... to stay on target...

Tomorrow will be my challenge, not today. We are having a big birthday party at MIL's. Between my family of 5 and J's side of the family, we have 6 people with birthdays in November. So we always get together in the middle of the month have the "November Birthdays" party.

It will be interesting. She has no idea how to cook vegetarian food, so it is always something really gross (last year it was tuna tacos....yes, it is disgusting as it sounds).

And the gifts I get are equally horrendous. Last year it was a purple polyester pants suit. She said that she saw it and thought it would be so cute on me. Has she met me? Oh, and it was from a thrift store to boot. So it wasn't like I could at least return it to Kohl's or something and use the credit to buy something I wanted. Good times.

Erika - ugh... good luck... nothing worse than trying to deal with someone who has good intentions, but horrible execuition... try to have fun...

Lisa - is that my new name, Master's Stacey? How official!

Ok guys, i think i owe all of you an apology. The past few weeks i've been in a pretty bad place, physically, mentally, emotionally. Instead of doing what i SHOULD have done, and seeked support here in our community of friends, i crawled into a hole and disappeared.

Don't be offended, it wasn't just a dis thing, I went to work, i came home, rinse, repeat, thats it thats all. Ignored my phone, haven't checked my email in a week and a half... Completely isolated myself. Bruce has been working evenings/overnights so i hadn't really seen him either.

I'm starting to shake some of it, and was laying in bed this morning and for some reason a little voice in my head just insisted that I get up and come online. I feel like a huge hypocrite, the whole point of this thread is to foster a sense of community, compassion and support, and i just bailed....

I need to start piecing things together in my head. I need to stop emotional/stress eating, start working out again (haven't done a THING in 2 weeks, i'm back to my original weight, and devastated.) Maybe i'm just not sure what to do.......

A few points i wanted to comment on (please don't get upset if i miss you, i think it was 27 pages or somewhat that i just read through)

Dawn - honey, i'm so sorry with all of this that you have been dealing with, poor baylor, stay strong, you are in my thoughts and prayers

Erika - same for you and your little angel, i'm very happy to hear her kidney is healthy, i'm sorry to hear that she has to go through another surgery, but i'm glad you were able to have a happy family vacation before receiving the news, so you could all be in a good place

Kat - i'm glad you started to get back on the wagon, it means there is hope for me still!! So sorry to hear about kitty!!

Lyz - I'm happy to see i was often in your list of hellos, it means alot


On positive notes, i had my grad school orientation this week, got all registered. I'm excited to start the next chapter....

Also, at 3 a.m. this morning Bruce and I decided we ARE going on vacation this year, and we booked our disney trip online. Going May 6-13, staying at the Poly, which i have ALWAYS wanted to do. Taking advantage of the buy 4 get 3 offer. So i'm excited about that, another thing to be able to look forward to.

Off to take care of the pupster and spend time with my husband (he is actually home this weekend, i'm floored, and so excited, i've really missed him...)

I'll be back to catch up more a little later!

Stacey - welcome back... you have been missed... I can so relate to wanted to curl up and hide for a while, but please don't stay there too long.. you are too much fun to stay in a ball for longer than a week or so.... we miss you...

Grad school orientation sounds awesome.. very exciting to be embarking on something new... maybe you can channel some of that excitement to this part of your life too.. just a thought.. use this as a new beginning... remember to quote Sarah - keep moving forward...

Hey babes--

Stacey--on or off, it is ok. Just as long as you are working on yourself in some way. Sometimes you have other stuff you have to get through before you are ready to tackle the weight, so don't sweat it.

So my long run....are you ready? DONE! Phew. I have been stressing for days. 8.5 miles, in the rain, no walking. Goddess crown for me.


Whoo Hoo!!!! This totally deserves a goddess crown!!!!

Thanks! It helped....really. I always think of this board when I am on the long run and all of the ways we are all working. And it gets me through it.


you are too sweet....

Just got back from 90 minutes in the rain. Not the first time, I am afraid. I keep my iPod in a sleeve/protector thing I got at Target, so that helps. And today I had to wear a light running jacket, so it was in the pocket as well.




Now THIS is why you are my idol!

Seriously, no, you are not making the wrong decision. There is a reason you have stayed in a happy, healthy marriage for so long. Things like this are important. You put your kids first all the time. You do so much for your kids. This is for you. Go, have fun, and leave the guilt.

Nancy - I agree... you need to have adult fun too... remember you had an identity before you had kids and are entitled to have that identity now... Have a great time...

OK - so I am off to a family gathering tonight with an Italian buffet... kind of scared of that but am planning for it. I am going to eat my apple, vitamin bar and some carrots before we leave so I am not that hungry when we get there. That and good choices at the buffet line will help me get through this (oh and the thought of you all in my head saying you can do this...)

Tomorrow, I am off to Giants Stadium to see my boys in blue play... Can't wait, never been and so excited.... Have no idea what the food options are there, but am going to bring some snacks with me and try to sneak them in (bag of carrots, an apple, some JC snacks). Hopefully, I'll be all right... think good thoughts for me that I don't get sucked into lure of the sausage and pepper, nachos, and all the other yummy stadium food stands...

OK - my food log so far:
B - JC french toast w/ lite syrup, mixed berries and a banana, tea
L - salad w/ oil and vinegar, JC tuna salad, crackers and peaches
S - venti iced nonfat chai latte from Starbucks
S - apple, vitamin bar, carrots
D - ??? not sure yet...

Have a great day everyone and GO GIANTS!!!!

Paula

 

[lisaviolet]

Lisa - glad to see you lost, but even better, happy with your bad self.

I wear drugstore readers because my glasses broke and I'm broke. Long story.

So I stared at your post for hmmm a good five minutes thinking "why oh why does my cutie think I'm lost? Why? I'm so confused. Do I sound that depressing?".

And then I went OH!!! YOU. Not YOU'RE. Not that I don't teach the friggin' difference.

 

[lisaviolet]

Paula,

Let me tell you how lovely it is to hear that you are happier where you are. I knew you were an architect and really wondered if you missed design.

It's so nice to hear when people have found their thing.

And thanks for all your thoughts,

Lisa

 

[3DisneyKids]

This may well be my last post till Monday morning. Tonight is family night, as always, and then tomorrow is the party at MIL's and we are leaving the house at 8am.

Paula--you so CAN do this. I am super glad that you checked in this week-end. Eyes on the prize. Think of what you want and why you are on this journey. NOTHING on the buffet is worth that. You have had a fantastic week...don't undo all of that hard work for one moment of pleasure. Know that I am in your corner on this. NO SABOTAGE. You are a goddess, remember that. And goddesses have strength.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Nancy - have a GREAT time without the kids! You know I am all about that. But I never feel guilty. You're a good mom, Nancy.

Val - Brothers is scrapped, so we are ordering in. (Lincroft, Attillo's. Not sure if you remember but we are right off West Front Street so we're all RB and Lincroft for our take out) .

The posting does help me.

Paula! In NJ tomorrow!!! Whoo-hoo! We really do need to get together one o these NJ trips!

Ok, gotta go slap on the makeup and curl the hair and wear the outfit or it wears me!

food so far...

Grapfruit
small chili
pretzels


I wasn't hungry but now I am!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Just posting my food--

Bfast = high power oatmeal (160...I only eat this the day of a long run)
Lunch = veggie sandwich (170)
Snack = fiber one (140)
Dinner = small amount of spaghetti w/ sauce with 4 small veggie meatballs - no idea
Drinks = 1 rum & diet (80) 1.5 glasses of wine = (200)

So, without the spaghetti = 750. I can't imagine that I ate more than 700 cals as my portion was small. So I think I am ok for the day.

Exercise:

8.5 mile run. Word.

 

[HockeyKat]

I spent today out and about for the first time in as long as I can remember. Started with a haircut date with a friend... I got at least 4 inches off, went from long red hair to shoulder length flippy chocolate brown hair with blonde highlights and layers and wispy bangs. I love it.

Then, other friend called and forced me to go to the mall. Since I was there, well, there were clearance racks in Belk (like a Macy's) that needed going through... and then, since hubby works in that mall, we went to dinner. After that, grocery store to cash in on the $25 purchase = $.29/lb turkey (13 lb turkey for $4!). Finally, home to crash on couch.

Food for today:
B: Coffee
L: Forgot to eat
D: Golden corral... big salad w/ fat free dressing, ~4 oz steak, bites of other stuff, so probably 600-800 csals?
S: 3 Pete's Wicked Ales (450?)

So, I will be around 1050-1200 or so. Exercise, walking the mall? Nah, nothing.

E, I want a purple pants suit.

Stacey, glad to see you back. I so understand the depression and stepping away, I was SO there not too long back. Sometimes the whole world is just too much, you know? Hope life gets better soon.

Nancy, my parents always made a point to have date nights. And they are still in love 35+ years later. I think that time with your spouse is important too, so go and have fun and have no regrets!

Allright, almost time for CSI:NY. Sweet skinny dreams everyone!

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hi gang...

finally home from the family party... had a great time - wore the giraffe print shoes.... and stayed pretty much on target, maybe a little more...

ate salad, one square of eggplant parm, one meatball and a few bites of flourless chocolate cake... not too bad...

Tomorrow will be interesting...

Erika - thanks for the vote of confidence... I'll be thinking that as I make my food choices tomorrow..

Liz - I just found out about this trip to NJ last night so no time to plan a meet. I promise on my next one that I will get together with you and Val...

Lisa - thanks for your kind words...

OK - off to gather clothes for the game and then off to bed...

I'll talk to you all tomorrow night,
Paula

 

[BrcsDisneyPrncs]

Thanks for all of the great support guys, i feel a lot better already. Looking forward to a fresh start with the weight loss, Bruce is setting goals with me to try to acheive by our May trip. I'm going to try to not let work get me down so much, and to keep my brain busy when i'm home alone so much, so i don't just get miserable again...

Off to shower, I just wanted to check in quickly to start my day, and i'm glad I did....

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Erika - great job on the run!

Kat - I love it when you're back!

Stacey - We all go through that. It's the coming back that counts.

Paula - Have a GREAT time!!! We are watching at home!

Last night was fun. Lots of pictures.

Food for yesterday:
Grapefruit
small chili
2 slices pizza
big salad
and...6 vodka's with diet coke and a handful of corn chips post drinking!

so there, posted all of it, tracked all of it, and back on plan today!

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Back from Boston - and we had a great time. Thanks to everyone for assuring me that it really IS ok to bail on my kids now and then.


Today our high school field hockey team and boys soccer team are both playing in the state championship games So I just had 6 teenagers body painting again...they're now off to cheer on the teams! (and it's peaceful and quiet here right now...and I have to SEW! )

So I stared at your post for hmmm a good five minutes thinking "why oh why does my cutie think I'm lost? Why? I'm so confused. Do I sound that depressing?".

SO Funny

I spent today out and about for the first time in as long as I can remember. Started with a haircut date with a friend... I got at least 4 inches off, went from long red hair to shoulder length flippy chocolate brown hair with blonde highlights and layers and wispy bangs. I love it.

Nice. I get my hair done next week and I can't WAIT. I am waaaayyy overdue for color

$25 purchase = $.29/lb turkey (13 lb turkey for $4!).

WOW. Great deal

E, I want a purple pants suit.

OMG. Be careful what you wish for


Paula - hope you are having fun at the Giants game

No exercise for me today - and no real tracking...just being "aware"...tomorrow I'm starting back to counting actual points....

 

[HockeyKat]

Nancy, glad you had a great time! And haha to the painting teenagers... I can just imagine it!

Liz, love the tracking vodka. Awesome. And thanks, I am glad to be back.

Stacey, hope today is a better day. And come by whenever you need to, okay?

Lisa, you rock. Just sayin'.

Okay, I sent pics to some but I will post a few on the thread... one before, two afters (one is faceless but shows the highlights nicely). Still feels weird but I am getting used to it:

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Sassy! I like!

 

[BrcsDisneyPrncs]

Nancy, glad you had a great time! And haha to the painting teenagers... I can just imagine it!

Liz, love the tracking vodka. Awesome. And thanks, I am glad to be back.

Stacey, hope today is a better day. And come by whenever you need to, okay?

Lisa, you rock. Just sayin'.

Okay, I sent pics to some but I will post a few on the thread... one before, two afters (one is faceless but shows the highlights nicely). Still feels weird but I am getting used to it:

I....LOVE.....It..... your hair looks great!

 

[DISNEY4XMAS]

Yeah, things get really interesting around here. When DD was in 4th grade, she "shared" with her class that she had helped her father artificially inseminate a goat. (the teacher nearly had a stroke! )....I told her that if the kids had questions, we could bring the goat in and demonstrate! ..oddly she didn't take us up on that

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NANCY DID I MENTION THAT STEPHEN WAS A CERTIFIED BREEDER! Yes bring on the jokes!!!!!

[COLOR="Blue]I am SUPER SUPER TIRED today.
[FONT="Comic Sans MS"]Me too! I actually had them test my blood tonight to make sure that I was healthy! The joys of working in the lab!!!! [/FONT]
Amy - brrrr - poor girl. Are you frozen yet? Just think, people have to get out and pump gas in that cold.
UMMMMMMM THAT WOULD BE ME!!!!!!!!
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oK WORK CALLS! YUCK! I CAN'T WAIT FOR A DAY OFF TOMORROW!!!

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hey gang..

Back from the game... It was awesome... the Giants won and we had great seats... 14 rows up in the endzone... I'll post pictures tomorrow... I promise...

Right now, I am getting a cup of tea and then off to bed... I am exhausted...

OK -food for the day:
B - JC cereal, banana and milk
L - sausage and peppers w/ 1/2 the roll at the game
D - Quiznos turkey sandwich

S - cup of tea and an apple..

Not my best day, but it could have been worse...

Talk to you all tomorrow and Go GIANTS!!!!

Paula

 

[HockeyKat]

I spent today doing laundry and cooking chili and turkey sausage pumpkin soup (60 cals in a cup!) for the week, and low-fat shepherd's pie for tonight.

Food for today:
B: coffee
L: tuna melt (200), 1.5 cups pumpkin soup (90)
D: shepherd's pie (250-300), salad (100), 1.5 glasses of Shiraz (200)

Total for the day, 850-900. Exercise, 50 crunches.

I will probably eat ice cream... 900 is lower than I thought I ate until I typed this out.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Good Morning everyone.....

Its time to get up... hey, don't blame me for waking you up, blame the earth's rotational spin for bringing morning to your part of the world...

Have a great day everyone... It is Monday, time for a fresh start on a new week...

Paula

I promise, I am not always this chipper, little miss susie sunshine first thing in the morning... I am tired this morning and for some reason starving... off to get breakfast..