Thank you, all of you, I have cried reading how much everybody cares about a stranger...and Dani C, you're list made me feel so good! Those are all such true points!
I did make my calls today. I called the sheriff's dept. and spoke to the chief of police, who was very nice and encouraging. I also told a couple of other people I know, just to kind of open the doors and quit hiding. I figure if I tell people I know that I'm leaving, then I have to have some sort of accountability to do something.
My husband has been staying in another town for work during the week, which has made it a bit easier. But when he called tonight I just froze. I couldn't tell him anything because I was terrified of his reaction. Plus, in a weird way, I felt sorry for him. He was being so sweet and talking about a horse he is buying for me, I think he must know something is up. Why is this so hard? On most days I know he's a jerk, but some days he makes me think of the old DH I used to know, before things got really bad. Part of me keeps thinking I should give him another chance. He wants to move us up to where he's working, to a huge ranch where the kids can have animals, a garden, etc. But that other part of me knows he will never change and I need to hold firm. Pray for me, think about me...I am so afraid of all the changes I will have to make, I need to hold strong and remember all the bad things he's done right now.....
