I'm coming to terms with a lot of things right now. One of the smaller ones is canceling our trip in April. I'm hoping that say it "out loud" on here, and getting some support will make it a bit easier.
We were going to surprise the kids with a trip in April. We booked a week- thats a couple days more then we normally do. We were going to San Deigo and
Legoland, and a bunch of days in
Disneyland. Think we even had club 33 reservations in the works. My mom was coming with us for 3-4 days and my MIL and FIL for the other 3 or 4 days.
We found out on Friday that my mother has cancer of the esophogus. There is no way I can leave her and go on vacation. She had breast cancer 8 years ago and beat it. But I don't have good feeling this time around. Frankly, with the weight she has dropped in the last month, she just doesnt have it in her to fight something this big. They put a feeding tube in yesterday, hopefully that will help.
I'm just working through all the emotions. I hope this post doesnt come across as me complaining that I have to cancel. That is not it at all. Its just one of the many emotions I'm dealing with. I was supposed to have a great vacation with her. Now I have to hold her hand while she dies. I dont want to that! We just did this with my dad 4 years ago (lung cancer for him). I've done cancer with both of them, isnt that enough? I guess sometimes life just sucks.
Disney will be there when we are ready. I guess I should be happy that we've only paid $200 so we arent out much.