I feel so scared.

[pokiemomo181]

I am so scared right now. I thought I would be able to handle this much better than I am. My fears, at times are uncontrollable. I always felt I was a strong person. I guess not. I can't sleep for worring about Tony. My head feels like someone is playing a drum in it. If it would help I would scream. I hate this helpless feeling. Sorry for the whine session. I can't talk to my DIL. She has enough of her own fears to deal with. I just don't know what to do.


Pokie

 

[debster812]

Sorry Pokie. I wish I had some words of wisdom for you. I don't. Just some {{{hugs}}} and we are here if you need us.

 

[bsnyder]

All I can offer is my most heartfelt hugs! We're worried along with you!

 

[PRINCESS VIJA]

Hugs to you! Reach out to friends, we are here for you. Maybe a minister could also be helpful? And you know what? I would be outside screaming at the top of my lungs, if not already in the bedroom screaming and crying into my pillow. You have every right to your fears and feelings, don't apologize. Prayers going out to you and your family.

 

[jamsmom]

Great big bear {{{hug}}}. I wish I could be there and hug you in person.


Go get some chocloate or gummy worms.

 

[Sheree Bobbins]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. Maybe this is a time to consult your doctor and get some temporary medicine to help you sleep through the night. I use Immovane when I can't sleep and I wake up refreshed. Getting a good night's sleep will help you to cope with some of your bigger fears.
{{{{{HUGS}}}}

 

[snoopy]

Oh my goodness, I am so sorry for your worry. I cannot even fathom being in your shoes right now.

I wish I had the right words to make you feel better.

Just know that we on the DIS are all here for you.

I'll keep you and your loved ones in my prayers.

 

[CourtasanSatine]

(((((hugs))))) and some pixie dust for Pokie

 

[Serena]

{{{hugs}}}
I don't know how I would handle this. But I was just thinking that your daughter in law may feel alone too and not know who to talk to. Maybe you two can support each other.
We're here of course, whatever it is that we can do for you.

 

[TerriP]

I don't know if you are a believer, but if you are...pray. Pray all day, pray all night, give Him all your fears and all your anxiety. Trust Him....put it in His able hands.

You and your family will be lifted in prayer today and every day until Tony comes home. Please let us know how you are doing...we care.

 

[Lucky4me]

I can't imagine how you must be feeling. I'm feeling close to what you're describing and I don't even know anyone who is there.

No advice, just know my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. And please! Come here and vent all you want!

 

[PamOKW]

It's only natural to be concerned. Try not to be scared. Our military are well trained. You know they are intelligent. You know they are doing their best to work together to keep each other safe. Trust in God, trust in the military as a group and your loved one as an individual and trust in yourself.

If it's too much -- turn off the radio, turn off the TV, maybe even get off the Internet. Say a prayer and then do something to get your mind off of what you cannot control. Take a walk. Clean the house. Go shopping.

The beginning is always very hard. A big hug to all the families who must live with uncertainty.

 

[tater bug]

{{{hugs}}} to you. You and your family are in my prayers.

 

[Dan Murphy]

My very best and prayers are with Tony, Cindy and you, Pokie. Very tough for those with loved ones there.

 

[Keli]

I don't know how you feel about God or prayer but it has really helped me today. I still feel very uptight at times but I calm down when I stop and pray for Titus and our other soldiers as well as the President and other military leaders. I am praying a lot for Titus' parents also. They are going through a very difficult time as you can imagine.

 

[MelanieC]

Pokie,
I know how you feel. Last night and early this morning were just about more than I could take. I have been sick all week too, so that did not help matters (probably due to the stress building).
My Dh left two weeks ago for Kuwait. I went to bed at 2:30 last night, and my heart was beating out of my chest and my moving into my shoulder. I was scared I was having a heart attack for a little while. I had to just turn off the tv and go to bed. Then I suddenly woke up out of bed a little after 5am this morning and I turned on the TV and found headlines about scud missles fired at Kuwait. Besides when my brother was killed, this was the most stressful time in my life. Having a loved one in such a small country, and hearing those air raid sirens and seeing everyone put on chem gear really got my heart pounding again. It was really scary.

My prayers are with you!
Melanie

 

[Saffron]

Pokie

During the Vietnam war I watched my mother and my aunts go through what you're going through. I remember feeling like I couldn't take a deep breath. Do you have sisters or girlfriends in the area that you can get together with and sit down and have a cup of coffee or tea or soda with? It seems to me that our family was always together whenever we could be. Seems we spent a lot of weekends at each other's homes. Maybe you can set up a lunch or dinner date for each day or certain days, at a certain time, with a favorite friend of relative, just so you can talk and breathe.

I'm sorry. I understand. I have been and will continue to pray for your son.

 

[Boots]

{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}