(((HUGS))) From reading your posts I realize that you are a very strong woman with great faith. God knows your pain, and he'll be there for you. He's not punishing your or testing you, he loves you and will help you daily to function and eventually find some happiness in life. Celebrate your baby girl. Find something that will make you feel good about the time you spent together. Just off the top of my head, how bout a leave a legacy tile at EPCOT? I bet she would have loved that.
I heard someone say that the only way to get over grief is to grieve. It's a process. I know it's hard now, but you will find joy again. If in nothing but remembering what an impact you made in a beautiful childs life.
Prayers going up for your quick recovery as well as your emotions. (((HUGS)))