My stomach hurts and I think it's because I have not been able to let my emotions go. I keep getting really sick so was unable to visit him very often. This past weekend I ended up with a bad stomach flu and wasn't there when he passed. I wasn't able to help his wife either until yesterday and today. I helped plan, make and serve all the food after the funeral so am really tired. He had bladder cancer that wasn't taken care of until it was too late. His Dr. just kept telling him that nothing was wrong with him and to live with the pain because the ultra sound, blood, urine and Cat scans came back negative. It turns out that one of the only ways to make sure that there is no tumor is a scope into the bladder. When his Dr finally reluctantly sent him to a specialist it was too late. I lost my dm last Jan. and now my best friend. My df is really sick and we are just waiting for him to go as well. As well I have been sick with everything and anything this past year. I have had pnumonia 3 times one time with the H1N1 flu. Not sure how much more I can take. Sorry this is so long, I just needed to get some things out.
tigercat
tigercat
I am sorry.
. I'm sending prayers for hope, faith, peace and courage, that you take good care of yourself and there is a silver lining in this black cloud very soon. 
... You are in my thoughts and prayers.
