HELP.... Please?

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  1. Luv0fDisney

    Luv0fDisney DIS Veteran

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    I"ve been suffering for years, basically cause my dr won't help me. :(
    my vision sees everything BRIGHT and can't adjust to shade. Everything seems just so bright and my eyes seem to hurt 24/7 like they don't blink but i do blink. It's like they are really heavy. I never feel tired

    i also have a hearing thing where everything has 1 tone and it's loud. :(. I can sleep for 9-10 hours and never feel rested or relaxed and feel like my nerves and muscles ache all the time.

    My dr just seems to just pass me by. I've had blood tests done and nothing seems out of the ordinary. :(.
    I'm just tired of feeling bad and at my wits end. I honestly feel like I don't know what it's supposed to feel like being human. I feel like I'm paranoid just saying that.

    I feel like I just woke up, from a 30 year nap... no friends, I can't seem make a complete sentence either when i talk so I just decided to stay mute most of the time. It's like my mind is blank! Like Brain Fog which is horrible horrible horrible. :(

    I hate everything and bored and nothing makes sense. I don't understand what I used to understand. :( . I feel like nothing is real like I can look at my hand and feel like I don't have 5 fingers (but i do).
     
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  2. ronandannette

    ronandannette I gave myself this tag and I "Like" myself too!

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    I strongly urge you to go immediately to the emergency room of the largest hospital you can find. Report your symptoms STARTING with the brain fog, confusion and detachment from reality. Don't underplay how much you need help and don't leave until you have been evaluated by a doctor from the psychiatry department. I have no idea what diagnosis might fit, but certainly you are in deep distress and there IS help for you. :flower3:
     
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  4. a1tinkfans

    a1tinkfans Spreading Some Pixie Dust Today!

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    OP: I hope u have tried getting additional help for what you are feeling!
    You deserve to be heard and understood and feel better!
    I know it’s been a few weeks since you posted ... but u are in my thoughts!
    If you didn’t get to an ER, do it, don’t wait
    Read what was in response above.
    Wishing you a Recovery for what is ailing you. Pls let us know how you are.
     
  5. DLgal

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    How old are you? Have you always been this way?

    Honestly, my first thought was you sound like my autistic kids with their sensory processing and communication issues.

    You also may have a psychiatric illness. I'd suggest heading to an ER and describing your feelings of detachment. Write it down if you can't manage to explain it verbally.
     
  6. DisneyFansInNYC

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    How are you doing? We will pray you find someone to help you.
     
  7. Luv0fDisney

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    I'm doing "okay." I guess. In the sense of just that feeling of run down feeling fatique 24/7, and i'm only 31 years old...and I mean I do feel...old.

    Life is boring altogether. I'm unemployed due to the fact I can't trust anyone. My last job was a cashier but I ended up doing other things. So I'm tired of people saying one thing and meaning another...never really knowing what to expect.

    I guess that's the real problem. My mind is "blank,"meaning its totally blank. It's like I don't understand plain english. I'm always reading between the lines I guess. I don't know what to expect from people and really don't know what people expect from me.

    I miss the feelings of emotions. feeling of excitement and happiness, and joy. I used to look forward to stuff and then start to think it's never gonna be the same as before, or its not going to be the way i picture in my head. I'm not even sure if people understand what I mean. Its like I'm saying "apple" and everyone else hearing that i say "pear."

    It's like i'm standing all by myself out of a circle and the whole world inside a circle along with opportunities i didn't take while i was younger and motivated. But now it's like "whats the purpose?"

    I don't know what is good or bad....like situations. I don't know whether something is good or bad anymore. Its like people want to scold you for saying something and scold you for not saying something about a topic.

    The last time I saw my Doctor I said my ear hurt my mind is blank. She said to go to a gynacologist...I'm like what the? I swear all i do is talk and don't really know what to do..Do i really need this or is my head just playing tricks? because apparently my mom says its all in my imagination and my way of thinking since i was a kid was all wrong.

    I'm sorry about the vent.
     
  8. robinb

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    {{hugs}} that sounds very disconcerting.

    Do you mind me asking, what kind of doctors have you seen?
     
  9. ronandannette

    ronandannette I gave myself this tag and I "Like" myself too!

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    Not the right kind obviously. @Luv0fDisney I am imploring you to go to the emergency room or maybe even call 911 and tell them you need help immediately.
     
  10. scottmel

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    This is going to sound weird but have you had your home tested for Carbon Dioxide leak? Mold?
     
  11. elfling8

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    Have you been checked for Lyme disease? I wish you the best.
    You're symptoms are real, keep changing doctors until one listens to you. It is a difficult thing to do.
     
  12. Queen of the WDW Scene

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    I recall a thread of yours from February from you similar to this.
    I stand by my post from back then that if your doctor is not helping walk into an ER and tell them how you are feeling.
    They will have a mental health professional speak to you so you can get the ball rolling.
    You need to actually want the help though because it sounds like for the last few months you haven't.
    A mental health problem is nothing to be ashamed of.
     
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  13. mommasita

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    I’m sorry to hear this once again. I’m the last poster to probably office medical office, but I totally agree with the previous poster.

    You need help, walk right in, they are there to help you.

    I know we have, I have , mentioned this quite often, have you ever gone this route ?
     
  14. Smittolis

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    Sorry to hear that you are dealing with real issues that are not being ratified by your doctor. As someone who works in an environment (and lives in one) whereby psychological issues manifest themselves as physical symptoms, I would encourage you to seek a second opinion. Blood tests don't always see what is going on, they will be looking for obvious signs, blood sugar level, iron, inflammation, white blood cell count etc...

    I would definitely speak to a professional therapist about how you feel and your personal struggles. Doing so will open the door to finding the root cause of your issues. This may or may not be psychological in nature, but seeking some support from a professional certainly will not do you any harm. I take my own children for second opinions all of the time, its just a practice I have gotten used to with experience of doctors who mean well but often make mistakes based upon their own experiences etc..

    Just remember, whatever you choose to do, there are people out there who want to help you, you are meaningful and worthy of support
     

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