Octoberbeauty
Always in our hearts and in our prayers
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Well, Saturday passed the 5 month mark since the tragedy that took my daughter. 
So, far it's not getting any easier, but my doc is still working on helping me through it. I'm suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and can't seem to quiet my mind at night. Also, feel I have to stay awake to protect my family. So, I've been operating in Zombie mode for quite some time.
I'm healing really well though. I have one more surgery and ironically, it's sceduled on the 6th month anniversary. I said at least it would give me something else to focus on that day instead of my grief. My hair is also growing. (yay!)
Andrew has adjusted really well to his new school. He was chosen for their gifted and talented program. Only 6 kids out of over 140 made the program. We are sooo proud of him!! And he loves it. He has started having a difficult time dealing lately though and has said that he is finally ready to talk to someone about the fire, his anger, missing his sissy, etc. I feel so bad for him. The other night he said that He wished that he had taken Macy with him when he left the house. I was really hoping he'd never "go there", but no such luck. I assured him that it was NOT his fault and he did exactly what I told him to do. It's just such a sad situation for all of us.
Anyway, I just wanted to update since I've been MIA. Just haven't really felt much like socializing and talking for quite some time, but I'm trying to start living again...with an emphasis on the "trying."
We did get out Disney trip paid off and are getting ready to go on December 9th. Poly here we come. So, if you're there and see the person crying all the time, that's probably me. lol There is a little bit of excitement starting to build in me, so that's an improvement.
And we are getting married on November 11th. Just a small ceremony here at our house.
That's about it for now. I'll try to get around to answering my pm's later today. Thanks to everyone that has checked on me.
Sherry
(Updated with a recent photo in post #37 ~of me. Yikes!)
So, far it's not getting any easier, but my doc is still working on helping me through it. I'm suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and can't seem to quiet my mind at night. Also, feel I have to stay awake to protect my family. So, I've been operating in Zombie mode for quite some time. I'm healing really well though. I have one more surgery and ironically, it's sceduled on the 6th month anniversary. I said at least it would give me something else to focus on that day instead of my grief. My hair is also growing. (yay!)
Andrew has adjusted really well to his new school. He was chosen for their gifted and talented program. Only 6 kids out of over 140 made the program. We are sooo proud of him!! And he loves it. He has started having a difficult time dealing lately though and has said that he is finally ready to talk to someone about the fire, his anger, missing his sissy, etc. I feel so bad for him. The other night he said that He wished that he had taken Macy with him when he left the house. I was really hoping he'd never "go there", but no such luck. I assured him that it was NOT his fault and he did exactly what I told him to do. It's just such a sad situation for all of us.
Anyway, I just wanted to update since I've been MIA. Just haven't really felt much like socializing and talking for quite some time, but I'm trying to start living again...with an emphasis on the "trying."
We did get out Disney trip paid off and are getting ready to go on December 9th. Poly here we come. So, if you're there and see the person crying all the time, that's probably me. lol There is a little bit of excitement starting to build in me, so that's an improvement.
And we are getting married on November 11th. Just a small ceremony here at our house.
That's about it for now. I'll try to get around to answering my pm's later today. Thanks to everyone that has checked on me.
Sherry
(Updated with a recent photo in post #37 ~of me. Yikes!)
to you, Sherry.
