Gosh I feel silly...

[minnie56]

Two weeks ago my 8yr old kitty passed away suddenly.
One minute he was fine, the next he had lost mobility in his hind legs and was crying...I rushed him to an Emerg animal hospital and less than 24 hrs later, he was gone. They tried all they could...he had a clot in his leg and another in his heart, the result of heart disease...who knew?? Ho always looked and seemed so fit?

I have 2 other kitties, aged 4 and a very old doggie...but I am having huge trouble getting over him?? He was such a good boy...full of love and personality and I cannot believe the despair in my heart. I am just back from visiting my DD in WDW where she is in the College Program which lifted me up a bit..but being home again...the sadness is overwhelming again

They called today to say his 'remains' are ready to be picked up...I am lost
Anyone have any words of advice?? I am just heartbroken...I have lost pets before, it's never easy...but for some reason this time is very difficult.

 

[chell]

There are some DISers here who will give you excellent words of wisdom and comfort. since they are much better with the words I'll save them for them to say the right words, just know you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Please don't feel silly. It is perfectly normal.

 

[Miller1412]

I'm sorry. Just believe it will get better. Cry all you need to...

 

[MickeyMouseGal]

I also lost a cat to a saddle thrombus resulting from hypertrophic cardiomyopathy. Even though I knew she had HCM, it was still a shock as the thrombus happens so suddenly and without warning.
It is often a very silent heart disease and many people don't know their cats are affected. HCM is very frustrating because it often strikes down cats in their prime.
Take care.

 

[minnie56]

I keep thinking what did I miss? Was his food not good enough, he was overdue his annual check up...I should not have let that happen...I am beating myself up..I found him in a bush so have no idea of genetics..but I really loved him alot

 

[need_a_Disney_fix]

We had a wonderful kitty named Fred for many years. One evening, Fred decided to cross over the Rainbow bridge all by himself. DH took him to the vet and we ultimately had him cremated of which I have not regretted. Freddie's ashes are in our hutch and will always be there. It is VERY difficult at first, but it does become easier...I promise you. I look forward to the day when Freedie and I meet at the Rainbow bridge.

 

[chell]

I keep thinking what did I miss? Was his food not good enough, he was overdue his annual check up...I should not have let that happen...I am beating myself up..I found him in a bush so have no idea of genetics..but I really loved him alot

Honey you can't beat yourself up over this! It was NOT your fault. There are sometimes these things that happen that we simply can't predict and there is nothing we can do about it.

You just keep on loving him and letting his memory live on in all you do. Two years ago I lost my cat Kelly. The first few months were pretty rough. After about a month I had to get another cat even though I wasn't ready to take that chance again. Kelly and my dog, Auggie, were best friends and Auggie was getting depressed so I had to get her a new kitty to play with. That is when I found Galaxy. I'm saying this to say that time does heal and maybe even another pet might help you feel better but don't rush into it. Each day did get easier. Today when I had to take Galaxy in for his rabies booster shot I was thinking about Kelly and how he got sick and died. This time instead of crying or beating myself up over it I just remembered how beautiful he was and how much he loved me and smiled. You'll be there one day as well.

 

[luvmyboys]

I am so sorry for your loss. Pets are such warm, unconditonally loving animals, and so easy to love. (unlike a lot of people!) My heart goes out to you.

 

[minnie56]

I come here so often with the trials and tribulations of life..but this is so painful, I couldn't even bring myself to talk about it. I just felt negligent that something so awful got missed...I sit here with the other 2 nuzzling at my feet..and I love them so..but he was so very special. I go through the day..and mostly I am allright, but there are times it just overwhelms me, like now.

Hopefully all these tears will help eventually...I know we only go part of the way together..but he deserved more time and me too.

 

[Froggyswife]

I lost my coco kitty last august to feline diabetes. I had no idea she had the disease. Our local vet is a quack. When she didn't get any better from the meds she gave me for coco and I couldn't get in touch with her I took coco to the next town to another vet who imediately did some test and diagnosed her with feline diabetes he tried everything but alas she died after 3 days in the hospital. I beat myself up for not taking her sooner. (The vet was so upset of the misdiagnosis, which was a bacterial infection due to stress cleaning because of an outbreak of fleas, that he wanted to do an autopsy if I wanted to sue. I couldn't let him do that to my little one so I declined.) I cried for weeks and I still do from time to time I get to missing her so much. Grieve all you need to it isn't silly we all get attatched to our pets especially if we have had them for a long time.

 

[MickeyMouseGal]

You probably didn't miss anything. HCM is often a silent killer. Sometimes they have a murmur, sometimes they don't.

 

[Pooh67_68]

 

[minnie56]

He had last had a check up about 18 months ago and a murmer was never mentioned...of all 3 kitties, he was the one leaping onto and off of things.in fact, when I saw he was dragging his leg I thought he had broken it flying onto something! Such an active and busy boy..

Thanks everyone for letting me get some of this hurting out...it just helps

 

[irisbud]

Honey, all you can do is give them a good life, and I'm sure that you did. I work with animals all day every day. They can't tell you why they hurt, and sometimes don't show you that they do. You love them and care for them, and that's the best that you can do. Remember how many of them don't even get that. Those we love never truly leave us, they are always there in our memories, and they live on inside of our hearts.

Best wishes

 

[minnie56]

He does and will always live on in my heart..
Thanks everyone for the words of kindness..one day at a time right?