I closed my eyes then opened them to see the repeated jabbing. I still have a giant black bruise on my arm bigger than a quarter from blood being drawn. I will not know for two months if the drugs worked. Right now I am in my suicidal mode and depressed and full blown SID. Last night was so bad I downed 3 chocolate Lara bars then later had a cherry struesel muffin and then a bag of plain chips. I knew it was wrong but it made me feel good.
Mom did not get dinner on time last week and that triggered a panic attack for her that has led to full blown SID meltdown and controlling issues. It has been a week and is better but not by much. She will scream my name until I come even if I am in pain or puking. She needs the commode emptied NOW or the mail brought in NOW. She only sees what she needs or wants and it has to be done NOW.
There is no respite care or family. I run to Disney often enough. She allowed the house to fall apart so I cannot have anyone in the house I do not trust and know. We are paying $250 to a friend because last year the city came after mom for painting the house and removing the carport. My firend fixed the carport and hired people to paint the house. Not the best job by far but enough to get by but the city was supposed to be by last Halloween but has not as is usual with them.
A friend owns a game site and accused me of cheating. The evidence is that the items would have had a higher ID number than the items I own and some of the taken items I do not own. She is too busy with real life to check my evidence. Instead she send me 5 items to make up for it. You say I stole cookies then you give me 5 cookies, is that right?
disAbilities is my home board and I left after a person came from Board X and posted that I was inferior. I have inferiority issues and SID which is hypersensitivity and mom is 10 times worse than me. Stacie and Mary Jo are especially nice to me but maybe Stacie was only nice to me to get my jello shooters.
Teasing Stacie
Thanks for the memories and now to read up the last 5 new pages.
Kelmac284 you need lots of hugs. Do not live in fear as there is nothing she will do to you. She may try to come home and if she breaks in she will only take what she can carry and easily sell. It is not worth the fear. The camcorder or camera can be replaced and you can hide money. It is not your fault and I have seen teens online go bad and it is just one step at a time toward badness. Most of the teens I see online that go bad have great parents who love them and give those kids the world.
I went to school with Vernon who was the sweetest child and gentle and had a good mom and step dad and family but eventually through years of school bullies went bad. I get hit with the "what if" bug and wonder what if I had done things differently to help him. I am right now watching a 13 year old destroy her life and she has done cutting and date hunting. She even fell in love with a pervert and then later a dude who was a liar. She is going bad one step at a time and it is not her parents' fault.
now kelmac284 big hugs and prayers for everything to get straightened out.
I have memory issues so I cannot remember your real name but I do remember who you are.
Of course, after the official word from Miss Beth.
