tiggspring
DIS Veteran: When I stop talking you'll know I'm d
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A little pity party here. I don't let the fibro really get to me that often but this week has been horrid and stressful which I might talk about later
. Right now I'm really embarrassed by something that happened at my DD girl scout rededication ceremony. We Have never gone to this before so I really wanted her to participate.
We were meeting in a church and DD got us seat right up fount then promptly ditched me and her siblings for her friends
. The the town GS leader started going around with little papers asking people to speak. When she got to me I said I cant. since I never really know what is going to come out of my mouth when I'm reading aloud I do not do this in public . I never know until its too late if I might miss words, not understand what I'm reading, read something and understand it but say something else. or just have a big hiccup and not say anything. These things happen at home when I relaxed and reading to family. I'm certainly not going to show off this talent out in public.
Well she wasn't going to take no for an answer and says more loudly your not going to read this? I replied I' cant my Fibro...at which point she gets even louder and very annoyed you mean you cant read this? I said I'm not Joking about the Fibro and she stomps off. Now about 50-75 people in our small town are behind me. Many don't know me yet because I've been wrapped up with the kids and handling my Fibro so unless thay sat next to me at a Soccer game or something they know of me but the don't "know" me. I was soooo Mortified
. I was working on my masters when I got sick and now reading is the bane of my existence and she made me look like a fool in front of all those people and my kids. My kids took it all in stride and just ignored it but It was hard for me no to cry
the whole time we were there. I work really hard to "look" normal while we are out. All the troops leaders know my limitations because I learned a long time ago I cant hid them without looking like a freak sometimes. My oldest DD told me when we got home to not let that woman get to me she is bossy. I'm just so exhausted, and it was a bad week, now this. Tonight I have to go to a Boy Scout dinner (at least I don't cook!) and some of the same people will be there. they know me so it shouldn't be too bad but I still feel a bit shell shocked..
Am I being too sensitive?
Bonnie

We were meeting in a church and DD got us seat right up fount then promptly ditched me and her siblings for her friends




Am I being too sensitive?
Bonnie