FEELiN BLAH...?!

[DiSNEY[MOMMA]]

A week from tomorrow is/was our DLR trip for three days. DH and I are taking DS2 for his 3rd birthday. My mother and sister are joining us, as well as DH mother who is arrving from Tennessee on Sunday. So one big happy family trip right?! Up until yesterday I have been super excited about returning to DLR. I have gone since I was 4 years old, although this will be the firs time since 2005 that I have gone. We have been planning this trip since last August. There is just something more magical about Disneyland when it is spent with family. Well yesterday I found out some stuff that I wish I hadn't. Along the lines of lying/cheating type of stuff, and it has thrown me for a loop. I have gone through EVERY emotion possible and am now sitting at work venting. I must say, I'm not too thrilled about DLR now. I know it's normal to go through the emotions, but I honeslt thought NOTHING could make me not wanna go to DLR. My mother keeps telling me to just stick with my trip and take DS and enjoy my time. Once I get there I'm sure I will be as happy as a clam. Is it selfish of me that I don't even care or have the will to go anymore?! Im one click away from cancelling the hotel ressies and throwing my hands up with the entire thing. I think my feelings are hurt more than anything and this trip has been something I have been waiting for and is well overdue. I think I just need some encouragment because right now I'm lost...
I love all my friends on the DIS and ya'll really know how to make someone smile and forget about all the negativity and just enjoy Disneyland for what it is. So maybe someone can knock some since into me. I'd love you forever

 

[Krissy Marissy]

I am so sorry to hear you are having a rough time. But only you know if this trip is worth it. I also have a 2 yr old son and I know that just seeing that smile on his face and hearing the sounds he makes when he is happy and excited makes me forget about everything else. It sounds to me like you need to get away for a few days and do things that make you happy. Like going to DLR and having a great time! I really do hope you enjoy your vacation. You are, afterall, going to the happiest place on earth!

 

[DiSNEY[MOMMA]]

I am so sorry to hear you are having a rough time. But only you know if this trip is worth it. I also have a 2 yr old son and I know that just seeing that smile on his face and hearing the sounds he makes when he is happy and excited makes me forget about everything else. It sounds to me like you need to get away for a few days and do things that make you happy. Like going to DLR and having a great time! I really do hope you enjoy your vacation. You are, afterall, going to the happiest place on earth!

I think seeing the look on my son's face is what will make me forget everything. See i knew it only took someone else's opinion to ease up a little. Your right though, only I know if the trip is worth it. There really is a reason as to why it's called the Happiest Place on Earth. Thanks Krissy Marissy

 

[Sherwin]

Reality always throws us into a spin. But here's what I do. I go on Youtube. And I search for 'Remember Dreams Come True' or 'Fantasmic', and if I don't have time to watch the videos, I'll leave the music one inr the background while I'm working. And it works. Every time.

 

[mystic_path]

I am really sorry to hear about the trouble your going through right now. Only you know what is best for you. But maybe its a good thing you getting away. It is something you can look forward to before you have to put your left foot forward again. It will take some pain way for you for awhile and make your child and the rest of your family happy at the same time. There is nothing wrong with being around your kids and other family members who make you the happiest. You will have a good support team around you to keep your spirits up even if for awhile.

 

[DiSNEY[MOMMA]]

Reality always throws us into a spin. But here's what I do. I go on Youtube. And I search for 'Remember Dreams Come True' or 'Fantasmic', and if I don't have time to watch the videos, I'll leave the music one inr the background while I'm working. And it works. Every time.

I'm going to try that Didn't even think about that idea so I'm glad you did. HAHA. Thanks Sherwin.

 

[DiSNEY[MOMMA]]

I am really sorry to hear about the trouble your going through right now. Only you know what is best for you. But maybe its a good thing you getting away. It is something you can look forward to before you have to put your left foot forward again. It will take some pain way for you for awhile and make your child and the rest of your family happy at the same time. There is nothing wrong with being around your kids and other family members who make you the happiest. You will have a good support team around you to keep your spirits up even if for awhile.

Your right. I think I need to stop being selfish and realize I do have an excellent support team and a son who's happiness depends on me. At least for those 3 days I will be in a whole different world. Thanks mystic_path for the advice. It's appreciated

 

[mystic_path]

Oh your welcome Ive been there. I know what its like. Its tough, but you just gotta keep a positive attitude. Just think... You get to be a kid without any care in the world for a few days. During that time nothing matters. Enjoy them. Its ok to be selfish once in awhile.

 

[DizNee Luver]

I had a rough couple years (now everythings great!) & I would have given anything to escape to Disneyland for a day or two with my kids. Nothing else matters when you see your child light up when they see Mickey, or they're flying high on Dumbo. You walk thru those gates & are transported into a whole different dimension. There is no reality or outside cruel world, only happiness, faith, trust & of course.....*+*+*+*+Pixie Dust*+*+*+*+*+

Hang in there, stick to your plans & love the time you'll have with your family.

I'll be thinking about you & sending warm wishes

 

[pixleyyy]

I agree. Hang in there, stick with the plans and enjoy the unbridled enthusiasm of a child at Disneyland.

 

[DiSNEY[MOMMA]]

I had a rough couple years (now everythings great!) & I would have given anything to escape to Disneyland for a day or two with my kids. Nothing else matters when you see your child light up when they see Mickey, or they're flying high on Dumbo. You walk thru those gates & are transported into a whole different dimension. There is no reality or outside cruel world, only happiness, faith, trust & of course.....*+*+*+*+Pixie Dust*+*+*+*+*+

Hang in there, stick to your plans & love the time you'll have with your family.

I'll be thinking about you & sending warm wishes

Ahh, your post made me cry Im ready for some pixie dust Thanks Diznee Luver

 

[DiSNEY[MOMMA]]

I agree. Hang in there, stick with the plans and enjoy the unbridled enthusiasm of a child at Disneyland.

That's what's keeping me sane is the thought of my toddler @ Disneyland. Thanks pixleyyy

 

[DiSNEY[MOMMA]]

This is for ALL you guys who responded and lifted my spirits I honestly am lifted out of my hole of depression I've been sitting in. Even if it's just for a few days, Im okay right now. I knew I could count on all ya'll. Im going to stick with my trip for the sake of my son [&& myself too] and make it all worthwhile. After all, Disneyland is supposed to be the happiest place on earth and Im in need of some happiness. Thanks to all you guys. MUCH MUCH love
-Amanda

 

[DiSNEY[MOMMA]]

This is for ALL you guys who responded and lifted my spirits I honestly am lifted out of my hole of depression I've been sitting in. Even if it's just for a few days, Im okay right now. I knew I could count on all ya'll. Im going to stick with my trip for the sake of my son [&& myself too] and make it all worthwhile. After all, Disneyland is supposed to be the happiest place on earth and Im in need of some happiness. Thanks to all you guys. MUCH MUCH love
-Amanda

 

[kaoden39]

Amanda

Go have fun. Let the sights, sounds, and smells take you to a different place. A place where the where the rest of the world doesn't exist. A happy place.

 

[Sherry E]

I know exactly how you feel. I think we all do. When you are going about your daily business - maybe dealing with some of life's other crises like work or money issues or health stuff - and then you find out that someone in your life has done some crappy stuff (like "lying/cheating" things as you said) to you, it is HARD to not dwell on that and not let it completely throw you for a loop. I have been there. I was dealing with one major crisis at one point in life and then found out about something someone else was up to and it just blindsided me. It was hard to focus on any one thing because my mind was totally occupied with this other thing. It's the unexpected nature of these little discoveries and the timing that is just so alarming. So if I were in your shoes I would be feeling the exact same way, ready to cancel DLR. In fact, I might cancel under those circumstances if I were bummed out and upset enough - but I don't have a child. I have a feeling that having a child and knowing what happiness a trip to DLR will bring the child would make all the difference in the world. Your son may not know what's going on or what's on your mind, but when he sees DLR he will be so happy and you will undoubtedly be so happy your brought him.

I have a feeling that a large portion of the parents we see walking around DLR have crises happening in their lives, but they make the trip for their kids' sake and then end up having fun themselves, despite whatever is on their minds. So if you can just force yourself to pack the bags and get out the door and on the way to DLR, I think once you get there and get acclimated to the surroundings and get comfortable, you will realize it was a good idea for you and your son!!

 

[DizNee Luver]

Ahh, your post made me cry Im ready for some pixie dust Thanks Diznee Luver

Didn't want to make you cry, but did want you to know, there are others out here that know what you're going thru. Find the positives & hold on for the ride!!! This trip will really help!! Enjoy yourself!!!!

 

[momrek06]

Amanda, definitely GO!!

You really need this right now and so does your sweet baby son!!! Watching his smiles as you entire the Parks will bring a HUGE smile to your face. I so know if you do decide to go (and I think you really should) you will come back home and UPDATE us and you will tell us that it was the BEST decision you made. Running with DS from ride to ride, seeing all the characters, eating in all the restaurants, seeing the fireworks and Fantasmic will be just what you need NOW!

 

[pixiewings71]

Oh please go!!! It will help you so so much!! Take your son, enjoy yourselves and just relax and forget everything you can.

I'm so sorry you are going thru a rough spot, hang in there, things can and will get better for you.

 

[bumbershoot]

This is for ALL you guys who responded and lifted my spirits I honestly am lifted out of my hole of depression I've been sitting in. Even if it's just for a few days, Im okay right now.

Oh good.

I was going to say that first, it's totally normal to get a sort of flat feeling as the trip gets really close...you're not excited anymore, you're sort of dreading the whole thing. It's very very common.

And to find out icky stuff right before, well, ick! I can see why it brought you down.

But your son didn't do the bad stuff, I assume DH didn't do the bad stuff, and DLR didn't lie or cheat you, so just go and run away from the bad stuff. No better place to run to, to get away from that nonsense!