DVC Jen
Wigs out even the biggest circus freaks.
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Well here I go again. Yes again. This will be my third attempt to not just lose weight (which I have done in the past) but to KEEP it off (which I have NOT done in the past). My first attempt got me from a size 22 to a size 16 and then I ate myself into a 24.
Attempt number two was even more successful and I was able to keep it off a lot longer. I started out at that size 24 and was able to get down into a 10 (for about 2 weeks) and then stress caused me to stop working out... stop eating the way I KNOW I should and I am currently in a size 18.
I am sad that I slipped again, but proud that I caught it before I passed the size 18 and went into a 20 or higher. I know I can do it again, but I get scared that I will never be able to keep it off.
I am an emotional eater and was able to get a grip on every single emotion that got me into that size 24..well every single emotion but stress.
When I slipped this past time it was due to health scares with my DH. Fortunately that is all behind us and he is doing great.
So.. I am back on my journey to becoming as healthy as I can possibly be.
I have 2 daughters that are the main source of inspiration for me. Both of my parents died when I was a teen. I was 13 when my Mom died and 16 when my Dad died. They both had cancer. Because of that family history and knowing how it felt to grow up without parents by my side my biggest fear is to die before my own daughters are adults.
I want to see my girls graduate from high school, go to college, fet that first real job, fall in love, get married and I want to hold my grandchildren some day.
I don't think I am going to do that if I don't permanently get a grip on my eating habits and health.
Last week I started again and I did pretty good.
I worked out every day. I really watched what I ate and as of this morning (the one week mark) I have lost 2 pounds.
My short term goal is to lose 14 more by Valentines Day. If I don't get it..that is OK. I WILL get there..but I am hoping to do it by then... kind of a gift of love for myself. I want to be in a size 16..but secretly hoping for a 14 by our next trip to WDW.
I think these journals are an awesome idea and I am really hoping that having this available for me to go back and read when things get tough, will be a source of strength and a reminder of how far I have come.. or simply to inspire me to not let myself slip again.
Attempt number two was even more successful and I was able to keep it off a lot longer. I started out at that size 24 and was able to get down into a 10 (for about 2 weeks) and then stress caused me to stop working out... stop eating the way I KNOW I should and I am currently in a size 18.
I am sad that I slipped again, but proud that I caught it before I passed the size 18 and went into a 20 or higher. I know I can do it again, but I get scared that I will never be able to keep it off.
I am an emotional eater and was able to get a grip on every single emotion that got me into that size 24..well every single emotion but stress.
When I slipped this past time it was due to health scares with my DH. Fortunately that is all behind us and he is doing great.
So.. I am back on my journey to becoming as healthy as I can possibly be.
I have 2 daughters that are the main source of inspiration for me. Both of my parents died when I was a teen. I was 13 when my Mom died and 16 when my Dad died. They both had cancer. Because of that family history and knowing how it felt to grow up without parents by my side my biggest fear is to die before my own daughters are adults.
I want to see my girls graduate from high school, go to college, fet that first real job, fall in love, get married and I want to hold my grandchildren some day.
I don't think I am going to do that if I don't permanently get a grip on my eating habits and health.
Last week I started again and I did pretty good.
I worked out every day. I really watched what I ate and as of this morning (the one week mark) I have lost 2 pounds.My short term goal is to lose 14 more by Valentines Day. If I don't get it..that is OK. I WILL get there..but I am hoping to do it by then... kind of a gift of love for myself. I want to be in a size 16..but secretly hoping for a 14 by our next trip to WDW.
I think these journals are an awesome idea and I am really hoping that having this available for me to go back and read when things get tough, will be a source of strength and a reminder of how far I have come.. or simply to inspire me to not let myself slip again.
We spend the rest of our time in Pennsylvania. 
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