Doreen's New Way of Life (comments are welcome)

[DoeWDW]

I'm still celebrating the good stuff and there's LOTS of it!!

2. Water = 64 oz - YAY!
3. Late afternoon snack Atkins bar (3g) = 12g. I came home from work starving so instead of eating junk I made half a ham & cheese sandwich (14g) and had 2 Dove dark chocolate promises (7g). Total so far today = 33g carbs. That leaves 27g for dinner. It would be so nice to have a cheat free day today!!

I got a Valentine's card from a dear friend - totally unexpected!! It really made me feel good!!

I'm surrounded by blessings! I've just been forgetting to look for them! It's amazing that I can feel this good in the midst of the d-zone!

 

[Castillo Mom]

Good to see you're doing well Doreen. Happy belated birthday! I'm keeping it short tonight, will try to catch up with your journal tomorrow. Night!

 

[lulu201]

Sunny thoughts to you, Dear Doe-Doe! I hope they follow you through your day! How are you feeling this morning? Light and skinny from that hair cut?

I'm checking out my schedule for some walks--too bad I can't do it Saturday 'cause the weather's supposed to be mighty fine--and I'll pm you when I get my act together.

I'll be drinking some decaf orange green tea this afternoon and I'll raise a cup in gratitude to you, Marcia, Beth, and all the other WISHers who are joining me in a walk through the dzone. Hang in there, girlfriend. We have seen the light and we know that we'll soon cross back over to it!!

Did you get a chance to take those vitamins today? Try, OK?

I'm heading out to work. Take care, Doreen.

Erin

 

[DoeWDW]

I have an announcement to make!! I have LEGS!!

Yes, it's true! I have not worn a skirt to work for YEARS! Now that I'm 40 and returning to the office after my WDW trip and a few days of training, I'm in my size 10 red skirt! I figure it will help chase the d-zone blues away if I'm lookin' good!

Oops, training is starting so I'll finish this later.....

 

[DavidandDenise]

SEXY! Congrats! That is so awesome! And, you did so well yesterday with eating and the water. Congrats on the new look; you own the red skirt! Have a great day!

 

[DoeWDW]

Today:
1. Meds taken. Vitamins with lunch, thanks to Erin's reminder! I truly would have forgotten, WISH-sis!! :happy1:
2. Water - 24 oz down, more to come.
3. Food - I'm at another site for training & forgot to bring breakfast. I did the best I could - Dannon strawberry yogurt (29g) and cashews (7g). That comes to 36g but they say you don't need to count all the carbs in yogurt.
4. Exercise - maybe....

Back to training!

 

[honeymo78]

Woohoo, look at you in the little red skirt!! You must feel wonderful Have a great day

 

[CourtasanSatine]

always great news, for you today

 

[Strings]

Woohoo! Check out Doe in the sexy red skirt. I think you may have stumbled onto the cure for DZONE. Let's take monthly trips to WDW. Keep the going. Enjoy your training.

Beth

 

[DoeWDW]

I'm back in the office - my 2.5 days of training have concluded. The class was excellent and has helped me feel more confident in my job. It was time well-spent!

1. Vitamins taken.
2. 42 oz water so far.
3. L = Subway wrap (about 15g), total so far = 51g.
4. I'm still thinking about that exercise....maybe a trip to the fitness center tonight to use their treadie for a quick 3 miles.

Yesterday was not cheat free but that's life. I fall apart in the evenings when I don't have menus planned. I didn't binge, though - just ate a dinner too high in carbs - so that's progress. Sometimes, in the midst of the d-zone, a day without a chocolate binge is the best I can hope for.

Thanks for all the comments about my skirt! I really do feel pretty good in it! It's fun to wear something different. I have a Kohl's gift card from Christmas and I may hit the mall this weekend to look for more modestly priced clothes that make me feel this good! I definitely need some ladies' unmentionables though - treating myself to new undies & bras is a top priority!

DD has a friend staying with us for the weekend, but we have a pretty unbusy schedule. I intend to get back to my exercise routine, plan meals for next week, do some shopping for ME for a change and get some extra rest!

 

[Strings]

Shopping for you is a must. You deserve it. I did it alst night, loads of fun. Just be warned, you are shopping in the midst of Dzone.

 

[DoeWDW]

The d-zone is here with a vengeance! I have not had an on-plan day since well before vacation and I just can't seem to pull myself together. I do fine during the morning, and usually into the afternoon but then it all falls apart. I just stop caring.

I'm tired. I don't WANT to count carbs. I don't WANT to exercise. I don't WANT to plan meals and grocery shop and bring food to work to make sure I have healthy food on hand.

I've been doing good with my meds and now I'm back to taking my daily vitamins. I've been doing good with drinking enough water. Just those two things seem like such an effort right now.

I know this is the d-zone talking and that I'll feel better in a week. I'll actually WANT to do what's healthy for me. But for now, it all just feels like drudge work. I keep hearing those Dr. Phil words that I myself have quoted so often - you don't have to FEEL like it, you just have to DO it - and I want to find him and slap him. I KNOW that's the d-zone talking because I'm generally a very non-violent person (unless I need to tame someone else's scale ).

The question is, what do I do about it for the next week. Do I chuck all the plans and let the EVM rule my life like it did yesterday afternoon? Do I stop trying and have myself a little pity party about how it's just too hard? Do I fight it and wear myself out? I don't know the answers and I'm sorry for whining but this is how I feel today and I wanted to have it in my journal.

Other than all that, I'm doing just fine.

This must be the low part of the d-zone roller coaster. I sure hope the ride takes me uphill instead of further down!

 

[marsh0013]

it's so hard to make it through this nasty dzone time, i feel ya. and i understand about just not caring. i had a nasty bout of that last night. i wish i knew the answers to your questions. the best i can do is just tell you that whatever decision you make, i hope it is the right one for you. do what feels right. don't worry about doctor phil, i feel like slapping him all the time

hope you start to feel better soon

 

[lulu201]

Honey, I'm here for ya. I don't know that I really have any words of wisdom, but I will tell you what my impressions are of the situation you've got going there. . .I know you'll sift through it and take out what's meaningful (if you find anything meaningful, that is ).

You ARE in the midst of the DZone. No doubt about it. You're in one of its deepest darkest corners, and while some people never experience the depths its darkness, you do. A few months ago, you didn't know that you were in this place every month, but now you do. Back then you didn't understand your urges to inflict a little bit of bodily harm on TV psychobabble-ists , but now you do. Understanding where it comes from, though, doesn't erase it, as you know. It's yours to deal with, and it's not easy.

You are just off the magic of Disney, the magic of the Florida sun, and the magic of relaxation with DH. Now you're back to reality. Not that reality is bad, mind you, but it's a tough thing to be faced with when you're hit with the Dzone, too. A gazillion work-related issues, training sessions (and while they were wonderful, did they find someone else to do your other work so that you could come back to your desk and find it free of MORE catch up work?? I hope so. Anyway. . .), emails out the wazoo, grocery shopping, household chores--all these things were part of your reality this week, too! YUK!! What's to like?????????

You, being you, Doreen, know that there's MUCH to like. There's beauty to embrace at every turn, blessings in abundance--you know this. BUT, sometimes is takes work to find them. You don't want to work--your body is exhausted. You're just recovering from a nasty cold and lots of travel--you're weak. You CAN'T work at it--you're tuckered out. You fight to take care of yourself all morning and past lunch; you turn down brownies and donuts and all the goodie carbs they bring in, and then when you get home, it's all too much. You have to eat whatever's there and then you have to medicate yourself with a few yummy carbs because that's what helps at the moment. You are only human. You can't do more than what you're doing, and that's OK.

This month, I walked the dzone with stresses quite unlike yours--hey, we're all different, right? Still, though, I had my share. But this month I felt like I experienced a new peace (until I stepped on that nasty, hateful scale of mine, but that's a story you'll find in my journal). I may not have this peace every month, but this month I did, and I think I'll always remember it. This month I took everyone's advice and I just floated through. I accepted the fact that physically I was low and just let it be. I am weak. I prayed to just let God take care of me--I would be weak in the midst of his strength. I couldn't be strong, I couldn't care, I couldn't fight it, I could only be. I asked Him to take care of all this healthy living stuff for me for the day--not yesterday or tomorrow--just that one day. I would rely on his strength to help me make the choices and to find the goodness that was around me. I separated my physical frustration from the mental as much as I could. I made this request, Doreen, and I saw and felt the results. I felt uplifted by the thoughts and support of everyone at WISH--I felt like I didn't have to struggle, I just had to pass through, and this is what I want for you.

More, dear WISH-sis on a pm coming your way.

 

[DoeWDW]

Marcia, thanks for your encouragement. There seem to be so many of us feeling odd and not-quite-up-to-snuff around here.

Erin, WISH-sis, you know me too well, and I'm so happy about that. Your words have made a lot of sense to me.

I'm giving myself the next week off. The ONLY thing I will commit to doing is taking my meds and vitamins and drinking 64 oz of water a day. I will not commit to anything else. If I decide to count carbs or exercise, it will be a moment by moment thing I do for myself and not a goal for the day or the week.

I'm taking a break. There, I've said it and the world has NOT stopped spinning! What a relief! It feels like a weight has been lifted from me. All my expectations about how perfect I'm supposed to eat and how much I'm supposed to exercise have been wiped away for the next week - until the d-zone is over.

I'm going to sail through the rest of my d-zone, secure in the notion that it's a temporary thing. I won't undo all the good I've done by taking a week off and lifting all these expectations from my very tired shoulders.

I will pray for God's guidance and comfort during this time. He knows what I'm going through, and has said that I can seek help and comfort from Him at any time. I'm going to stop trying to be so goal-oriented and do it all myself - let's face it, there's no way I can do that on a permanent basis. I can rest in God's arms and let life take care of itself for a week. I don't have to always steer the boat AND chart the course AND run things myself. Sometimes it's okay for me to sit back on the deck in a lounge chair and let God take care of things for me - not forever, but for a short time.

If anyone needs me, I'll be on Deck 9 by the pool, resting in the sun on a comfy lounge chair, feeling the gentle rocking of the boat with the waves, sipping on something cool, possibly reading a good book or napping. I'm off duty for a week.

 

[LAinSEA]

That old D-zone is just no fun at all. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers and will him to leave you alone. (He can bother my boss or something instead.)

I've though of an excellent product - a Dr. Phil blow-up clown punching bag (like they used to have for romper-room - yeah, I know, I just completely dated myself.) When you hear the Dr. Phil words to "just do it" you can knock him around until you feel better.

Try to get some sunshine and fresh air. Maybe you can delegate shopping and meal planning for a couple of days - your family can think of it as a "learning experience."

take care Doreen,

-Laurie

 

[DoeWDW]

Laurie, I remember those blow up punching bags from Romper Room!! Romper, stomper, bomper, boo.... um, anyway...

I'm feeling better, more peaceful. I'm not on plan but I've been drinking my water. I'm enjoying my time off - I know it sounds strange but I just felt I needed a break for the sake of my sanity. I'm sure I'll be paying for it next week but for now, that's the way it is.

Tomorrow is another day.

 

[DoeWDW]

I'm feeling more sunny this morning! I'm still in the d-zone but I don't feel like I have to fight it all day. I've asked God to help carry me through and given up all my goals except for my meds, vitamins & water. The rest will take care of itself.

Yesterday was nothing but a junky carb-fest. Today I'm craving fruit and tuna salad. I'm curious to see what I REALLY want to eat and how it stacks up with low-carb now that I've given myself permission to eat anything. I suspect that I'll tend toward low-carb with some extra fruit, just because those are the foods I enjoy most. However I won't be counting carbs or sticking to any limits. What an interesting experiment, huh??

DD has a friend staying with us for the weekend. We have lots to do in the next 2 days - the mall, the library, bowling. I also need to go grocery shopping and do some light cooking. I'm glad I have Monday off (state holiday, you know!) and the kids have school & DH has to work so I'll have the house to myself! I'll have time to recharge my batteries then.

I'm off to finish balancing the checkbook and writing out bills. I also need to post my pictures from my meet with Amanda last Saturday night at the MK. Guess I'll post them on the main WISH board. First I have to edit the pics to get rid of the red eyes...don't want us looking evil!

 

[lulu201]

Oooh, Doreen, I love this plan. Won't it be interesting to see what foods you really want to eat? Cruise along, girlfriend, cruise along just riding the wave.

Doreen, here's some for your day. Today's supposed to be beautiful, full of that "abundant sunshine." I think you're going to find it shining full force on you! Hmmm, if I had a crystal ball, I'd say that I see a leisurely stroll for your and Maya in your future!

Enjoy your day; celebrate the love in your Dfamily this Valentine's Day--I know that your home is filled with it. Have fun shopping, bowling, library-browsing, and plod through the chores bit by bit. You'll feel good when they're done.

for your new day,
Erin

 

[ibouncetoo]

I thought I'd find you here on deck 9 by the pool. Mind if I join you? I've brought a tote bag full of books, we can lounge quietly and sip lovely beverages in the while we read, then nap, then read, then nap and maybe have that cute steward bring us something yummmy for our lunch. And when our bodies get a little stiff from too much lounging, there's that pool for a refreshing swim and then...... a NAP! There are plenty of empty deck chairs for all you WISH-sisters to join us....but don't get to rowdy!

....I was going to say more, but decided not to have any 'real' world intrusions in this cyber retreat!