Doreen's New Way of Life (comments are welcome)

[Auntmeme]

Hi Doreen! Hope you're having a great saturday and that you have a better sunday

 

[DoeWDW]

Recap of my goals:
1. Meds taken at 9 PM - better late than never Vitamins still on the table - oh well.
2. Drank at least 48 oz of water - not as much as usual but better than the typical weekend day.
3. No breakfast. L = chicken waldorf salad (16g). S = 2 Dove dark chocolates (7g). D = chicken waldorf salad on low carb bread (20g), 8 baby carrots (5g). Total for today = 48g carbs.
4. Exercise was done early today - YAY!

All in all, it was a good day. Didn't get the cheesecakes made - will do them tomorrow hopefully. The peanut butter protein bars are made but they seem odd - will try one tomorrow.

Time to change my bear clippie and head to bed.

 

[lulu201]

Hmmm, odd protein bars. . .sounds a little dangerous if you ask me. Handle with care.

I hope you have another good day today, Doreen! Here's some and to keep you on the right path. All the preparation that you're doing for the week is inspiring me to get my act together. Thank you for that!

Good luck with weigh-in today!

,
Erin

 

[DoeWDW]

Goals:
1. Take meds & vitamins
2. 64 oz water
3. Eat 60g of carbs or less
4. Exercise - should do some treadie time at the fitness center - at least 3 miles but who knows, maybe more?

Plans:
DD is having a friend over to play DDR (Dance Dance Revolution) as we wait for the snow to arrive this evening. I hope to take DS out for a driving lesson soon. Need to finish laundry for the week and do some cleaning. Gotta make cheesecakes. Looks like a busy day!

 

[septbride2002]

Good Morning Doe! You sound like me today - lots and lots to do. I think I have enough ingredients to make some cheesecake cupcakes - and your post got me thinking about them. Yum.

It is Ice-*** here in Missouri. I can litterally here the ice hitting my windows as it comes from above. A very cold day here. I'll try to send ya a little bit of for your day today before the snow comes.

Can you believe in less then 2 weeks we will be in sunny warm Orlando! We need to coordinate a little on our meeting on Saturday the 7th. I'm going to try to find a Red St. Louis Cardinals hat to wear so that hopefully I am easy to find. I'll also try to take a picture of me so that I can send that to you as well.

I know you are going to have a cheat free day today - as am I! Onward and downward with our weight!

~Amanda

 

[DoeWDW]

Amanda, I am SO READY to be warm in Florida!! I sent you a PM with a picture of DH and I in it.

Goals so far:
1. Meds & vitamins taken.
2. 24 oz down - lots more to go.
3. B = PB protein bar (8g), 2 Dove dark chocolates (7g). L = chicken waldorf salad (8g). Total so far = 23g carbs.
4. Not sure I'll get to exercise today. Too much craziness going on at my house! A good friend of mine just got un-engaged last night and I've already spent lots of time on the phone with him and with his ex-fiancee. I find these types of things really take their toll on me. Maybe I'll do some Pilates later.

I've gotten everything done but the cheesecakes - guess I'd better get moving on those. I also have to figure out what's for dinner tonight. So far it's been a good day!

 

[A1A1]

Hi Doe! Thanks for keeping up with my journal and helping to keep me going! I have been so tired lately, that I have trouble staying online. I start falling asleep as I type.

I am so happy for your upcoming vacation. You deserve it. I hope you have a fabulous time. I will be thinking of you and sending lots of good vibes your way.

I have often wondered about pilates. Do you find you get much of a workout from it, or is it more relaxing?


Have a super day at work tomorrow. Beware EVM. Make your list. Drink your water. Take your meds.................you already know all that. Have a great day. Good thoughts to you tomorrow and always.

 

[marsh0013]

hey doe, hope you had a good weekend! with all the craziness going on, i hope you got a chance to take some time for yourself. whether it was pilates, or just relaxing, you owe it to yourself. here's to the beginning of a great week, hope monday treats you well

 

[DoeWDW]

The bear has the same number as yesterday - I had a bit of a run-in with some M&M Mars and Hershey's products!

I'm feeling down and depressed again. I noticed it yesterday and it's really starting to hit me again. I haven't been getting outside so it may have to do with not getting enough sunshine and Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD). It also has to do with my job - at a low point there now, and with my friend's engagement fiasco. I think all of it piled on together makes for a tough time for me. I keep reminding myself that it will pass - I just keep taking my meds. My last exercise was Saturday, so it can't be that. It's harder to stay on track with healthy eating but I know that it will help me fight the depression. I'll keep trying.

I have a 2 hour delay at work this morning because of the snow storm, so I'm still at home. I'd rather stay hidden under the covers but I have a lot to do at work so I'll try to go in, as much as I truly do not want to. Just the thought of going out into the snow and going to work makes me feel like crying - I'm very emotional today. We're supposed to get more snow today and tomorrow and even into Wednesday - I really do want to hibernate!

Sorry to be so down this morning - but I need to be honest about my feelings here so I can look back later for patterns and root causes. Isn't it amazing how I can feel so happy one day and so down the next? At least I have my journal and my WISH buddies to help keep me sane. I've learned that this is not a bottomless pit and the feelings will pass. I just have to ride it out and hang on as best I can to my healthy habits. It's nowhere close to the D-Zone so that can't be the cause - wish I knew why I go through this, what triggers it?

Goals (even if I don't feel like them!)
1. Take meds and vitamins - NEED them more than ever today.
2. Drink lots to help get rid of the junk I took in yesterday.
3. Try my very best to eat healthy.
4. Exercise may be a tough one today - if I were smart, I'd take my walking shoes and get at least 2 miles in over lunch hour inside the Capitol building.

I'm off to try to do something productive. If I just sit around, I'll feel worse. I'm going to look for the small blessings and bright spots in my day today - they are there but I'll have to look extra hard for them.

 

[R_Judy]

Hang in the Doreen! Ten days until you get a break from all that mess. Here is a great tip for you today. Forget the weather, forget the job and get on a treadmill. Put a disney cd in to listen to. Get your speed set for a brisk walk. Close your eyes. Take a walk around world showcase. It is 1.2 miles. Start at one country and try to remember everything you can about it. ie Mexico: see the birds in the tree? the bright pink bougenvilla? what is in the display cases this trip? A little shopping? A boat ride? WARNING DO NOT PICTURE ANY RESTAURANTS! Off to the next country. I have never made it aroound the world showcase yet. In fact I finally had to start picking up where I left off so I could see all the countries in the middle. Tomorrow could be the MK. How about a stroll through DTD. The possibilities are endless. You'll be there before you can run out of ideas. Chin up and have a great day!

PS 40 isn't to bad. Been there, done that. However 45 is way to close now.

 

[lulu201]

, dear WISH-sis. You need them today. As you head out to work, know that I'm saying prayers for your safe driving today.

Doreen, you're sad and low because you're a sensitive, kind, human being. You can't always be up and positive, you just can't. You went through an emotional ringer yesterday, trying to help people you care about; of course, it's going to take it's toll on you today. You're at a low point in your job--of course you're going to feel down about it! It's a terrible mess outside and you're anxious about going, especially when you know you'd rather be nesting inside--I'd want to cry, too! The point is this, and I hope I'm not being too bold for saying this: it's OK to own this sadness and lowness. You cannot be a loving, kind, sensitive soul and not feel the negative along with the positive. That's what makes being a gentle soul so bittersweet. You feel it all! The joy, the sadness--it all plays on you in a big way! It will pass, as you said, sweetie. Unfortunately, though, this is our humanness. Sometimes we're sad. Now I'm not trying to minimize your experience--I don't know what other depressive elements are factoring in here (I'm sure this winter weather does NOT help a bit, you need those Florida rays!)--but you deserve to just let yourself feel a little bad. Ask DH and Dfamily for more hugs today and be kind and gentle with yourself until the blueness goes away. It will, because you are the type of person who is just looking for the joy in the day. It will be looking for you, too, I know.

dear friend,
Erin

 

[DoeWDW]

Erin, thank you so much. You always seem to be able to just KNOW what I need to hear. How do you do that??? Well, however you do it, I'm very grateful for your words this morning.

I'm at work. I've read some other journals and I know there are a few of us, especially Erin and Amanda and myself, (maybe others because I haven't gotten to everyone's journal yet) who are struggling to get back on track today.

Here's a for all of us. There is strength in numbers and I feel a number of my WISH buddies around me in spirit today. You are a comfort to me - thank you all.

So onward we go - to do the best we can today.

Goals:
1. Meds and vitamins already taken.
2. 12 oz water down & more to come.
3. B = chicken waldorf salad (6g).
4. Don't know yet about the exercise - I'll see how I'm feeling at lunch.

Edit: 1:30 PM
2. 48 oz down so far.
3. L = 2 PB protein bars (16g). These turned out so strange. I don't think I'll make them again, but I'm slowly getting used to them. They have a rather gummy and oily texture that's hard to describe. Total so far = 22g.
4. No exercise yet.

 

[septbride2002]

Hi Doe - you are right we are all in the same state of mind today. I'm going to post something on the main board about carbs - see if you agree. I hope you are doing okay today and you are right about waiting to see how you feel about exercise. Glad to see that Vitamins and Meds are taken.

Regarding the way you are feeling - stop making yourself feel bad about it! You can't help the way you feel anymore then you can change the weather? If you feel something then embrace it. Of course you should also realize that life isn't over and there is a new day ahead. But you shouldn't make yourself feel bad or guilty over the way you feel. Accept your feelings and maybe your day will be a bit better for it. Of course I have never dealt with depression before so my advice might be a big pile of smell stuff!

~Amanda

 

[lulu201]

Hi, Doreen. Hang in there, OK? I admire you for trying those little peanut butter protein bars. . .they sound a bit, uh, how do I put this. . .questionable.

I'm on my way to take DD to the dr.; I'll stop back later.

Erin

 

[DoeWDW]

S = peanuts (5g) from the EVM. I was looking at the peanut M&Ms but I know my WISH buddies Erin and Amanda are avoiding temptation today so I opted for the peanuts without the chocolate and candy coating! Total so far today = 27g carbs.

Edit: 4 PM
The workday is about over and I'm getting ready to head home. I did good at work today and am feeling better about my job at the moment. It should be easier to face the workday tomorrow - if we aren't iced in! There's more snow on tap for tomorrow evening into Wednesday.

Dinner tonight - I'll plan something on the way home. I'll make sure I eat low-carb, even if I have to make something else for the rest of the family. I want to change my bear's number this evening!! I WILL avoid the snack cabinet with the evil carby junk food in it. Maybe I'll make a low carb treat for myself!

 

[ZerasPride]

Hi Doe, I'm sending a big {{{{{hug}}}}} your way. I hate when I start to feel depressed. It's like you can feel the bad feelings coming from far away like the rumbling of a train on a track but you can't see the train yet but you know it's coming. I feel for you my friend. When you post on other people's journal (including mine) you are always so positive and upbeat for us. Try to be that way (just a little bit) for yourself. You said you know you have blessings and things to be grateful for and some days we do have to search harder than others to find them. But I know you will find find those rays of sunshine in your day.

Please take care of yourself and even with littles slips (who does't slip, we are all human) know that the slips make up who we are and help us get stronger in the long run. You are always such a rock for other people, let us be rocks for you now!

 

[lulu201]

Yay! You made it through the work day! You talked back to the EVM and only had peanuts! The day is full of success for you, Doreen. You're doing this!

After you have dinner, I want you to write what you had so that when I check in around 7 or so, I'll know how you're doing. We're going to get each other through this grey day!

Erin

 

[DoeWDW]

I'm munching the rest of the chicken waldorf salad for dinner (16g), which brings me to 43g so far today. I have 17g to play with, but I don't think I'll even be hungry for anything else. I have sf jello and whipped cream if I need a snack later. I'm going to make a conscious effort to stay away from the chocolate, even though I have enough carbs left. I'm not sure I could stop at one piece so why start?

I got through the day because of my WISH buddies. Thank you all for walking this walk with me - even on, no ESPECIALLY on the tough days!!

I'm finished eating for the night so I'm going to change my bear now!!

 

[A1A1]

I wish that when you are feeling your saddest, that you could close your eyes and feel our warm hugs. Close your eyes and feel your wish buddies patting you gently on the back. We are here for you. We feel each other's pain.

Hope you can get to bed early and have a restful night.

 

[septbride2002]

: All Right Doe!

Way to go sweetie! You made it through the day and I am so very proud of you for staying away from the Peanut M&M's. Good for you! Big HUG! I made it through the day with you and it was tough but I feel much better for it. Tomorrow will be even better and hopefully easier for all of us.

~Amanda