Doreen's New Way of Life (comments are welcome)

[DoeWDW]

Yesterday went pretty well as far as exercise. The Denise Austin Pilates video is working ab muscles I never knew I had...LOL!!
I'm still not concentrating much on food and am overindulging in carbs but I'll get back on track in time.

Today I'm back at work and I'm feeling pretty good. I've started drinking my water for the day. I'm ready to jump into my different projects and put some of the tasks behind me.

I can't stay here - I've got WORK to do! I'll check in later after I've accomplished some of my stuff. I think DISboard time might be a good reward!

Bye for now!

Edit: 9:30 AM
I'm very focused this morning. I'm getting work done and am feeling good.
B = 4 slices bacon

Edit: 12 noon
I have been choosing to be good to me today! I chose to do my Pilates workout this morning. I chose to eat bacon for breakfast with no carbs. I chose to take the stairs down instead of the elevator. I chose to eat a low-carb taco salad for lunch. I chose to enter my food into Fitday and my ratios are looking GREAT so far. I chose to drink 32 oz of water so far today. I'm worth it!!
L = low carb taco salad

Edit: next morning
I felt so nauseous yesterday afternoon - don't know if it was the taco salad or the bacon, but I was NOT happy! I didn't eat properly for dinner - had a small sliver of pumpkin pie - it's the only thing that sounded like it wouldn't make me sicker.
D = 1/16 of a 9" pumpkin pie

I entered everything into Fitday.
Calories = 1031
Fat = 73g - 65%
Carbs = 42g - 7g fiber = 35g - 14%
Protein = 52g - 21%
Water = 40 oz

My calories were low but my ratios were great - a good day considering how I felt!

 

[lulu201]

Hi, Doreen! You know that I admire anyone who does ab work.
You're my hero for today!

Sounds like you're on the onward and downward track for this Wednesday. . .hang in there and make it your best Wednesday yet!

Take care,
Erin

 

[DoeWDW]

Yesterday went well! I edited yesterday's post to include all my food and water, etc.

Today, I'm feeling better, although I haven't eaten anything yet. My scale, after hitting a high of 137 over the weekend, is back down to a 134 - which seems to be the weight my body likes at the moment. My rings are loose again, so I've gotten rid of lots of water weight.

I've been extra tired, so I'm not working out this morning. I was practically falling asleep yesterday afternoon at work, which usually means I've been pushing too hard. I still got up at the same time - want to train my body to roll out of bed at 5 AM so when I DO exercise (at least 3x a week) it won't be so hard to get up. I have training all day at work, so I figured I'd better catch up on the DIS now.

I have not been taking my medicine like I should because I ran out. I have to get it refilled at a specific pharmacy chain (Rite Aid) and the closest ones are at least a 20 minute drive in areas that we don't normally get to. Last night, though, DH took me out to get my meds refilled so I'm good for another 3 months! I've already taken my pill this morning and am drinking my water for Jody's water challenge.

I'm off to have another great day!!

 

[lulu201]

You ARE off to another great day, Doreen! Hooray for you and all the great choices you've been making. One thing I was particularly impressed with was how you let yourself be tired this a.m., still get up, but not work out. It's so important to listen to our bodies. It's thinking like that that makes eating a small piece of pumpkin pie when that's all that sounds good totally OK!

I'm glad you've got your prescription filled; your DH is sweet. I can't wait to meet you all next weekend.

Your encouragement means a lot to me, Doreen. I'm looking forward to my treadie walk now. . .I can hear you chanting me toward it: TRED-DEE, TRED-DEE, tred-dee, tred. . .

Continue to be good to YOU today!
Erin

 

[DoeWDW]

It's FRIDAY!!!! Can ya hear the excitement through the computer, can ya??!!!

Yesterday's totals came to:
Calories = 1525
Fat = 61g - 37%
Carbs = 178 - 17 fiber = 161g - 43%
Protein = 76g - 20%
Water = 70 oz
Meds = yes

I didn't overeat calories. My carbs were definitely higher than I'm used to, but my tummy was still queasy. The scale this AM said 135 but I'm not worried about.

I did my Denise Austin Pilates workout this AM and it's getting easier. My abs don't hurt as much either. I'm hoping that my abs will be stronger by the time I get the Winsor Pilates DVDs. I haven't ordered them yet - gotta find money in the budget - but I think they'll help me with my tummy pouch and my heavy thighs and hips.

I just finished yummy low-carb cheesecake for breakfast - mmmmm! This morning I took the last one out of the freezer, so it's time to make another 4 or 6 and have them ready when I need them. I've taken my meds and I'm drinking my water.

I'm getting really excited about the Doylestown walk. I'm not as nervous about it - I think we're gonna have a great time!!

Erin, thanks for stopping by my journal and encouraging me. I really missed you while you were away - it was too "quiet" around here, if you know what I mean.

Onward and downward!!

 

[lulu201]

I'm excited about our walk, too, Doreen. I'm thinking that we'll meet and feel like old friends being reunited! I think it'll be hard to walk 'cause we'll be talking so much!

This may sound like a strange question, but what should I wear?
It's not that I'm fashion conscious or anything, but will be walking leisurely so a sweatshirt and jeans are OK, or will we be power walking so that I should wear some kind of exercise clothes? Am thinking too much?

Doreen, you are back in the game, honey. You're eating right, keeping track, exercising, drinking water, taking your meds. . .it doesn't get better than that. In honor of your achievement, I officially dub you today's Princess of Good Health ! Wear your title with pride!

If I don't check in this weekend (I have to work tomorrow), enjoy the cheesecake bake-a-thon--you're doing something yummy and good for yourself!

Off to paper work and then the treadie. . .
Erin

 

[DoeWDW]

It's another good day. I'm feeling a little tired but overall, good!

DH and I just got back from our reconnaisance mission to....you guessed it....Doylestown! I wanted to check out where to park, where the start point is, get a copy of the trail map, etc. It was such a pretty day today and the town is such a neat place. It will be such fun to walk with some WISH friends next Saturday! I hope the weather is as beautiful next Saturday and the fall foliage will be in full color!

The trail loops around one side of town and then comes back to the middle of town and loops out to the other side, so if anyone gets tired and wants to stop halfway, it will be easy for them to get back to the start point.

By the way, Erin, I'll be wearing my usual fall gear - jeans, sneakers, a turtleneck, sweater and light jacket. I find layers are good for walking. I know we'll be chatting so I'm sure we won't be power walking. I'll put the bare essentials in my belt pack so I don't have to carry a purse. YIPPEE - we're gonna have FUN!!

Okay, I'm off to get ready for a church dinner tonight. I get to help serve and clean up. I'm such a klutz - let's hope I don't spill too much on too many.

 

[DoeWDW]

I survived the church dinner last night - didn't spill or drop anything!

I did step on the scale this AM. Between pre-TOM gain and not eating right lately, it reads 136, which would be a 2 pound gain from last week. However, I'm not going to worry about it. I'll do an official weigh and measure day next Sunday and just skip this week.

B = a wonderful piece of my yummy low-carb cheesecake, lots of water and my meds. I'm starting the day right!

Gotta run - time for Sunday School and it's my job to walk around taking attendance and counting the offering. I like it because I'm helping the church AND getting some exercise!

 

[lulu201]

Hi, Doreen! Are you reading this at work? I hope you have a great day. Take a breather or two throughout the day to find, as I call it, your "happy place." That place inside yourself where you're not sweating the small stuff, you know what I mean?

I'm on my way to take the puppy to get his hair cut. He's looking more like a sheep dog and less like a Westie these days. Just wanted to wish you well, though, as we all start a new week.

Are you up to thinking about cheat free clippies? I will if you will!
How 'bout it: cheat free 'til Saturday?

Talk to you soon,
Erin

 

[DoeWDW]

I've been avoiding this journal today - always a sure sign of something wrong. My depression has been steadily building over the past week. Today, I could have stayed home under the covers, but I came to work anyway.

I cannot get back to eating right. It just feels overwhelming at the moment. I need to scale back my expectations for now, so no cheat free clippie for me at this point. I am trying to minimize the damage though and not totally carbing out, except for that pint of Ben & Jerry's last night (what was I thinking!!).

I made an appointment to see my doctor this Friday. Hopefully he can suggest a change to my meds or something that will help me. I feel like I'm only functioning at 50% of my former self and there are days like today when I can barely get through the motions of a day. How can I feel relatively good one day and then feel like crying at the drop of a hat the next day?? The swings in mood aren't big enough to be manic-depressive, but I do notice a 4 week cycle that seems to be tied to TOM's comings and goings.

I've had such good intentions for the last week and just can't seem to follow through on them - no energy and no willpower. I guess it's back to square one for me, again......

 

[lulu201]

, Doreen, I'm sending you a private mail, so pick it up, OK?

Erin

 

[lulu201]

It's a brand new day, Doreen. Ease yourself into it. I'm sending you lots of bright sunny thoughts and prayers for a good day. It doesn't have to be a great day. . .just a decent one, you know what I'm saying?

Your journal is where you can come to honestly talk about what you're coping with, and, maybe, get a little support from your friends. You don't have to prove anything here or be a perfect eater or water drinker. . .just dropping in and being here is enough. If you can't be here, for whatever reason, your WISH friends will be here with open arms.

Take care, Doreen, and hang in there.
One day at a time.

Erin

 

[DoeWDW]

I'm finally checking in for the day.

I was feeling so bad yesterday that I took some meds (prescribed, of course) to help me sleep. Well, sleep I did, straight through all last night and most of today! I'm looking forward to seeing the doctor on Friday to see what my options are, since the meds I'm on don't seem to be doing the job.

I'm also really looking forward to the Doylestown walk on Saturday. I checked the long-range weather forecast and so far Saturday looks beautiful. YAY!

Food today was NOT good but it's in the past and tomorrow is another day.

 

[DoeWDW]

Today is a new day! I just finished a WATP 1 mile walk. I thought about doing the 3 mile, but realized that was more to punish myself for being bad than out of a desire to get healthy. The one mile walk is enough to ease me back into the exercise routine.

I still have a headache and am not feeling too great but I don't feel the utter exhaustion that I felt during my "crash" the past few days.

I'm not going to say I'll eat perfectly today but I will try to make healthy choices. I have cheesecake in the fridge for breakfast - YUM - and I'll probably make a salad at lunch time. I have some chicken to use up for dinner but we have to run tonight - my son has an interview to see if he is accepted on the People to People Student Ambassador trip to Australia and New Zealand next summer. It's a 3 week trip of a lifetime and I'm so excited for him!

I don't think I'll be perfect today but I'll definitely be more on track than I've been!

 

[lulu201]

Good morning, Doe-Doe It's Wednesday a.m. and instead of writing my goals for today, I'm thinking going back to bed would be a better choice. Too bad I can't do it! Maybe my morning cup of coffee will jolt me into focus. Anyway, have a good day and drink a glass of water for me.

Erin

 

[lulu201]

Hi, Doreen. Totally on the run this a.m. , but wanted to drop in and wish you all the best for this new Thursday. Only two days until our walk! Saw the weather. . .it's looking like the warmer air will be back for our stroll in D-town. Can't wait!

Take care of yourself today.

Erin

 

[DoeWDW]

I'm still here and I'm not giving up! Even if I'm not totally on plan, I'm still gonna post daily to my journal.

I'm off work again today - am just so tired. I changed my doctor's appt. to this afternoon so hopefully he will change my anti-depressant meds to something that has a chance of working. I hate the idea of changing meds but I really think it's what I need to do.

I'm within a day or two of TOM's visit and I notice that I feel the worst the 2 weeks before TOM. My eating has not been helping but I am not going to beat myself up over it. I'm just going to note on my calendar when my danger zone is going to hit next month and I will be prepared with healthy food.

My ultimate goal has not changed. I do want to be healthier and fitter and slimmer. Even if I get derailed now and again, I am not giving up on that goal - no matter what!!

I ate cheesecake for breakfast. I'm off to drink some water and take my meds. I'll be feeling better in a few days when the hormones are done raging for this month...LOL....and then it will be so much easier for me to get back on track.

I really need the walk on Saturday. I'm excited about going!

 

[DoeWDW]

Just got back from my doctor's appointment. Bye-bye Celexa - hello Effexor SR. The doctor said the next week is gonna be horrible - withdrawing from one drug and building up another. I'm ready for horrible - how much worse can it get?? At least I can have hope that in a week or 2 the Effexor will kick in and I'll be feeling better.

I'm feeling better already, just knowing that I'm trying something different. He did order some blood work (a CBC and a TSH) just to be sure but my blood work has never shown any problems in the past so he doesn't think it will now. I go back in 4.5 weeks to check the dosage on the Effexor.

 

[lulu201]

Doreen, thanks for checking in and letting us know how things went at the dr. I hope that this brings about some positive changes for you. . .are you sure you're going to be feeling up to the WISH walk? I hope so--but you need to be caring for yourself, too, you know.

With a hug,
Erin

 

[DoeWDW]

Erin, I'm DEFINITELY up for the walk tomorrow! It's been the one thing keeping me going this week!

I'm feeling great this morning. I put my exercise clothes out last night so I could hop right into them. I just finished my WATP 2 mile workout. Today is "be good to me" day! I'm going to choose things that are good for my body, like healthy food and a little exercise.

I'm off to have a great day!