Doreen's New Way of Life (comments are welcome)

[DoeWDW]

What a wonderful day!!

I'm tired physically but I am mentally and emotionally happy and refreshed.

I'll write a walk report, complete with pictures, tomorrow. Suffice to say, I had a wonderful time walking and talking. I hope everyone else enjoyed themselves as much as I did. We had a great group of 6 WISHers, 1 DH and the most adorable toddler / tour guide.

I actually ate on plan today! I had a protein bar & my pills for breakfast and a Subway low-carb wrap for lunch. After the walk, DH & I along with Erin, her DH and her lovely DD, went to Ruby Tuesdays and I had the low-carb Church Street Chicken, creamy mashed cauliflower & fresh steamed broccoli, along with a slice of their heavenly low-carb cheesecake for dessert. Of course, I DID say that I ATE on plan but I didn't mention that I DRANK on plan. I've had plenty of water all day, but DH & I did share a very yummy margarita at Ruby Tuesdays!

Now I'm headed to bed. I think I'll sleep very well!

 

[lulu201]

Good morning and Happy Mother's Day to you, Doreen. I can't believe we talked yesterday and I never found out what your plans are for today! Whatever you do, I hope you enjoy yourself.

Didn't we have fun yesterday? Thanks for all that you did to organize it and see that it all ran smoothly. It refreshed my spirit, too.

for you, WISH-sis,
Erin

 

[vald1977]

Happy Mother's day, Doe!

 

[DoeWDW]

I'm still tired from all of yesterday's fun but it's a good tired!

Breakfast was a protein bar & my pills. I've had several mugs of water already.

We're taking dinner & dessert to my brother's house this evening. My mom & dad & grandma will be there. Thank goodness my brother and I have figured out what works for us on these occasions - he cleans up his house and I bring all the food. That way, no one gets stuck with all the work.

DS is making the desserts for tonight. He has already baked a cake (from a box mix) and the brownies just came out of the oven. He'll have to frost the cake later.

I have to figure out dinner. I think I'll make lots of low-carb tuna salad and low-carb chicken waldorf salad so I can bring the leftovers home to eat for lunches this week. Then I'll pick up some deli turkey and all the fixin's and some side stuff at the store so everyone can make their own sandwiches / low-carb wraps. Fortunately, my family is just happy to get together - they don't expect a lavish home cooked meal.

I've spent the morning looking for the cable to help me upload the pictures from the digital camera. I wanted to post them, along with a walk report. Oh well, it will have to wait.

 

[Auntmeme]

Thanks so much Doe for setting up the walk yesterday, it was fabulous
Sorry if my stroller held anyone back, hard to get away without my ds. Vary happy to meet you and your dh and all the other wishers. Looking forward to the next one. I see you had a margarita, yummy, I went with a cosmo(hopefully less carbs ) And I did have the cake - Oh it was chocolate chip with the most unbelievable buttercream icing

Have a wonderful day

 

[Strings]

Happy Mother's Day Doreen,

looks like you will be busy today. Sounds like you and your brother have worked out a great compromise. Enjoy the time with your family.


Beth

 

[wilderness01]

Happy Mother's Day.

 

[nancyj_pa]

Doreen,
Thanks so much for organizing the walk. I had so much fun but I was really sore last evening. I had to take two advils and go to bed early! This morning I felt great.

I loved meeting all the WISHers and hope we can get together again soon.

Nancy J

 

[gadizlover]

Happy Mother's Day, Doreen

Haven't been good about checking journal's lately, trying to catch up with everyone.

Sounds like you have some positive things going on, that consultant sounds just great, hope he continues to be a great help. You can almost "hear" the relief in your posts!

The "Wish-er" walk sounded wonderful, I bet you all had a great time, so nice to put faces to the names.

to keep your week stress-free and OP.

Have a great week!

 

[Carol36]

Hey Doreen!

You sound like you have had alot going on lately! You Wishmeet sounded like lots of fun. I know that meeting others that want to get healthier helps keep you on track. Keep up the good work!

Have a nice day!

Carol

 

[lulu201]

Good morning, Doreen! Here's some and a for your day. Can you believe it's Monday already???? Where did the weekend go? It was a fun-filled, that's for sure.

DH, DD, and I all had fun at Ruby Tuesdays after the walk. It was great to see you and DH again.

Promise me that today you will do everything you can to treat yourself in a healthy way. We're going to be cheat free together!

Love you, WISH-sis,
Erin

 

[Strings]

Happy Monday Doreen,

I know you have a ton of things to do at work. I just wanted to pop in and say . Here's some for your week. Remember you are a in disguise.


Beth

 

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Doe!
I hope you have a wonderful week!

Take care,
Tracy

 

[DoeWDW]

I spent yesterday doing stuff for my mom & grandma. Today I woke up so exhausted that I could not even keep my eyes open. DS was feeling a bit queasy and that's all the excuse I needed to declare today as my Mother's Day!! I took the day off from work, took DD to school, came home and went back to bed. I just woke up (it's 11 AM!! ). I really needed the rest.

Of course you all know me too well! I justified the day off thinking I could accomplish a ton of things - am I predictable or what! I'm glad I slept until 11 AM - now I can be a bit more realistic about my expectations for the day. I'm going to write my to-do list on paper and make sure it's realistic and still leaves some more "rest" time for me - maybe laying out to work on my tan??

Erin, I like the idea of getting back on plan today. I'm embarassed to say that I had leftover cake for breakfast this morning. The evil voice inside my head is trying to talk me into using that as an excuse to be bad the rest of the day, but I know I should fight it. I feel huge, bloated, uncomfortable. I've been way off plan for way too long. I'm scared to step on the scale or take my measurements, but that hasn't been stopping me from over-indulging. Am I ready to jump back on the bandwagon, truly commit to being healthy and MEAN it??? What's been keeping me from walking the walk?? Maybe I'll think about all this while I'm working on that tan.

I'm off into the day!

 

[wilderness01]

Doreen,

You'll get back OP when you are ready. I know you said you feel huge, but how huge can you be at 122? Am I reading your weights wrong? Is that your goal? Still your starting weight doesn't seem that bad either. Be kind to yourself and you will be back on track before you know it.

 

[lulu201]

Confucious says: "Our greatest glory consists not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall." I can live with that, can you? We're going to get up and try our best today, Doreen--just try our best. You'll be in my prayers as you go forward into today, trying to treat yourself in a healthy way. Is there a lot of work waiting on your desk? If there is, just take it baby step by baby step.

Don't forget to drink your water and take your meds.

Hugs for my WISH-sis,
Erin

 

[CheapMom]

Hey Doreen-
I hope you a great Psuedo Mother's Day yesterday. Sleeping till 11:00am (or 10:00 or 9:00)- is a fantasy of mine I am glad one of us got to do it!
I know what it is like to feel huge and bloated but realize that it is more of an internal feeling than reality. We should all do affirmations- like Stuart Smalley on Saturday Night Live- where you look in the mirror and say I am a beautiful, valuable person. (Touchy, feely crap- I know) But I think it is true that if we look in the mirror and our inner voice says- "ugh, fat" then we really start to think that way about ourselves. It doesn't do any good at all. It really isn't motivating or productive to look in the mirror and say- "I'm Fat". I think it is more of a motivation to say, "I am worth all this hard work- I deserve to be healthy and to feel beautiful."

Doe- as Stuart Smalley would say- You are good, enough, smart enough, and doggonit- people like you!
(If you don't get that reference it is from an SNL skit where Al Franken plays a disfunctional touchy feely guy who is addicted to 12 step programs and self help books- it's pretty funny)

 

[septbride2002]

Hiya Doe! I hope you had a great Mother's Day on Monday! That is the Mother Day for Mexico - so Hola! LOL! Like I told Erin I've been thinking about you a whole lot lately! You are such a great friend and I am so happy you are in my life! I can't wait to see you again in January at the marathon! I've been scrapping pictures from our trip in February and I'm working on the page from our night in front of Casey's - makes me feel like I'm right there!

~Amanda

 

[Auntmeme]

hI dOE-dOE

I love Erin's quote and have faith that you'll be right back on plan when you are ready. I hate when those negative feelings creep into my brain. You are great and look fabulous. Put on that princess hat and do a strut in front of the mirror See how lovely you are

Hugs to you

 

[DoeWDW]

I'm home again today. I've been tired and had an acidic tummy both days. Yesterday, DS stayed home - he too was fatigued and had an acidic tummy. Today he went back to school but DD is home with back muscles that are very tight and causing her pain. Our chiropractor has adjusted me, DH and DS monthly for years but DD would never let him touch her - it's become a bit of a running joke. Well, today she asked to see him - she must really be hurting. We leave for his office in a few moments.

Now, why did I stay home 2 days in a row? Neither child was so sick that they needed me. I've been doing lots of soul searching. This may sound crazy but I believe I'm making myself sick over the stress at work. On Saturday, it was so easy to stay on plan (well, except for the margarita ). I enjoy my low-carb food. It seems like I start to eat badly on Sunday, in response to the fact that Monday means work again. On Monday morning I feel tired & sick from the carbs and from the thought of work. Yesterday, since I was home with DS, I pretty much grazed through the kitchen all day, making myself feel physically even worse. So of course I don't feel like going to work today when I feel so terrible.

I have spent lots of time napping and catching up on rest. At least I'm not as tired, but the depression is focused on work and my responsibilities there. I know I must face this. I must go back tomorrow and dig in. There are lots of complicated reasons why I'm causing myself to feel bad....but need to detail them here. The fact remains that I must gather my strength and go forward with work, at least for the next 7 years and 8 months. I must find a constructive way to deal with these feelings without hurting myself, using junk food and non-exercise as weapons or as comfort.

I'm not giving up - do I ever? I'm the eternal optimist and I will continue to look for things that will help me through.

OK, I've rambled enough. I've been so self-involved that I haven't gotten to anyone else's journal. I'm sending a to all.

Now it's off to the chiropractor w/ DD and then she goes to dance & baton lessons. With the recital only 2 weeks away, she can at least sit and watch so she doesn't forget the routines.