Do you ever feel this way?

[Marseeya]

I'm just wondering if I'm the only one.

There are some days where I feel mentally paralyzed. I can't seem to force myself to do anything -- laundry, dishes, school work, leave the house. I can do routine things like check e-mail, read the paper, or take a shower, but anything beyond that, I just mentally freeze and can't bring myself to do it.

Yesterday I felt like I descended into a full-blown depression. I feel better today, but that paralysis is still working at me. It's so strange!

Nobody I've talked to can seem to relate to this.

Anybody?

 

[experiment626mom]

yep, I've been there. If it continues please see your doctor. There are some wonderful drugs you can take short term to help.

 

[Christine]

Yes, it can be terrible for me. For me, it is not depression but anxiety. And now with my upcoming surgeries, I am totally useless. I've hardly done ANYTHING at work for almost 2 weeks and very little at home.

 

[Marseeya]

yep, I've been there. If it continues please see your doctor. There are some wonderful drugs you can take short term to help.

Maybe a med change is in order. I've been on Wellbutrin for about 3 years now and it was wonderful for me. Maybe it's not working anymore.

 

[Disney Ella]

Yes, it happens when I am overwhelmed and just don't know where to start. Just telling myself that I can take the day off from thinking about it or doing any of it and then making a plan to tackle one or two things the next day helps.

 

[mommaU4]

Yes, it happens when I am overwhelmed and just don't know where to start. Just telling myself that I can take the day off from thinking about it or doing any of it and then making a plan to tackle one or two things the next day helps.

I agree about the being overwhelmed part. It's like you have so much to do that you can't even figure out where to start so you mind just shuts down and you can't do anything. At least that's what it's like for me. That's when your mind and body is telling you it's time for a break.

 

[Christine]

Maybe a med change is in order. I've been on Wellbutrin for about 3 years now and it was wonderful for me. Maybe it's not working anymore.

Yes, these medicines typical "poop out" after awhile.

 

[Marseeya]

Yes, it can be terrible for me. For me, it is not depression but anxiety. And now with my upcoming surgeries, I am totally useless. I've hardly done ANYTHING at work for almost 2 weeks and very little at home.

I'm so sorry you've been going through this for so long! I hope everyone is being understanding about it.

 

[Marseeya]

Yes, it happens when I am overwhelmed and just don't know where to start. Just telling myself that I can take the day off from thinking about it or doing any of it and then making a plan to tackle one or two things the next day helps.

Is it like a chicken vs. egg thing for you? Are you overwhelmed and then begin feeling that way, or do you get overwhelmed because you feel that way? I can't tell the difference! However, I have been pretty stressed out with school, finances, kids, etc. But that's just normal life.

 

[Christine]

For me, I think the anxiety sets off things. There are some periods of time where things are very stressful and overwhelming and I will do just fine. And then, out of nowhere, I feel like I can't cope with anything. So, for the most part, I think it is *me*. But, there are *some* things that do set me off and my health issues are one of them. When I am dealing with scary stuff, I just totally shut down.

 

[AllyandJack]

I am hanging over the edge of my sanity, as well. All I need is a tiny push and it's all over. Physically, I'm a mess because, mentally, I'm done. Even my trip to WDW this weekend....I just wanted to come home. When I left, my insurance approval for my IVF was up in the air. As much as I tried to tell myself that there was nothing I could do on a Sunday from WDW, I spent most of my time sitting there thinking up scenarios of approvals and denials and what each of them meant and how to appeal and why I should be approved and what I'd do if I wasn't.

I came home and got the approval....now I'm sick to my stomach. I'm waiting for my doctor to give me the official schedule. I'm all over the place. Do I tell my parents? What if it doesn't work? I hate needles....can I really do this?? I even had a dream that DH's company switched insurances and I had to stop!

I'm useless at work because it's all I think about. I'm always so tired or so sick to my stomach that I'm lucky if I put in a 30 hour week (usually compressed into 3 days because I need 2 days to be alone). When I am home, I make all sorts of plans...I'll mop the floor, I'll do the laundry....I usually end up curled up in bed (I can't even plant myself on the couch!) watching talk shows.

I'd definitely talk to your doctor. I finally decided to go talk to someone and I go on December 12. Then, I can rehash all of this with them.

 

[Christine]

I am hanging over the edge of my sanity, as well. All I need is a tiny push and it's all over. Physically, I'm a mess because, mentally, I'm done. Even my trip to WDW this weekend....I just wanted to come home. When I left, my insurance approval for my IVF was up in the air. As much as I tried to tell myself that there was nothing I could do on a Sunday from WDW, I spent most of my time sitting there thinking up scenarios of approvals and denials and what each of them meant and how to appeal and why I should be approved and what I'd do if I wasn't.

I came home and got the approval....now I'm sick to my stomach. I'm waiting for my doctor to give me the official schedule. I'm all over the place. Do I tell my parents? What if it doesn't work? I hate needles....can I really do this?? I even had a dream that DH's company switched insurances and I had to stop!

I'm useless at work because it's all I think about. I'm always so tired or so sick to my stomach that I'm lucky if I put in a 30 hour week (usually compressed into 3 days because I need 2 days to be alone). When I am home, I make all sorts of plans...I'll mop the floor, I'll do the laundry....I usually end up curled up in bed (I can't even plant myself on the couch!) watching talk shows.

I'd definitely talk to your doctor. I finally decided to go talk to someone and I go on December 12. Then, I can rehash all of this with them.

AlleyandJack--

You sound like me. I am also hanging my the tips of my fingernails to sanity. I having both of my breasts "hacked up" next week and am scared to death.

Hang in there. I don't know much about IVF (although one of my co-worker's wife is doing it) but I hope it won't be too bad on you. And you'll get used to the needles!

 

[Disney Ella]

Is it like a chicken vs. egg thing for you? Are you overwhelmed and then begin feeling that way, or do you get overwhelmed because you feel that way? I can't tell the difference! However, I have been pretty stressed out with school, finances, kids, etc. But that's just normal life.

Usually it starts when I'm stressed at work and then one of the kids has a problem at school (which they usually overdramatize, but at that point, I'm already stressed and the drama only adds to it). Then I start thinking about everything I have to do - piles of laundry in the basement, the house is a mess, I've got to go shopping, take the kids to dance. I've got to get the cat to the vet, got to get to the post office in the next two days or my mother's birthday present won't get there in time, find out what this vague notice from the homeowner's insurance company means, call the doctor's office and tell them that they sent the bill to the wrong company, etc.

For weeks, I put off doing a very basic thing at work because it had multiple steps. I finally just made myself do it last week and have been taking baby steps to do things at home. Listening to music and having DH taking the kids somewhere helps and it's so nice to be alone in my own house when it's quiet and I can actually relax.

 

[AllyandJack]

AlleyandJack--

You sound like me. I am also hanging my the tips of my fingernails to sanity. I having both of my breasts "hacked up" next week and am scared to death.

Hang in there. I don't know much about IVF (although one of my co-worker's wife is doing it) but I hope it won't be too bad on you. And you'll get used to the needles!

and good luck with your surgery. The waiting is the worst. They really need to schedule these things at a moment's notice. A phone call that says, "Hey....show up in 15 minutes!" would be nice. Either that, or they should provide some sort of narcotic for the waiting. If I could give myself a hit of Versed every now and then, it would be a lot easier.

 

[Christine]

Either that, or they should provide some sort of narcotic for the waiting. If I could give myself a hit of Versed every now and then, it would be a lot easier.

I asked my doctor (jokingly) if I could get a prescription for Versed. He said "that stuff is some good 'you-know-what'" and he said it is highly addictive!

 

[AllyandJack]

I asked my doctor (jokingly) if I could get a prescription for Versed. He said "that stuff is some good 'you-know-what'" and he said it is highly addictive!

It is really good. When my fertility doctor said I'd be medicated for the egg retrieval, I said, "Versed?" with a big, excited smile on my face. She said, "Yes....how did you know and why are you so happy about it?" Hey, we have to have SOMETHING to look forward to when faced with something we don't want to do and I just happen to look forward to being on the Versed. Plus, it's comforting to know that I won't care who is doing what to me once I get it. Big needle jammed into my ovaries? I don't see a big needle....look at the way the door is sparkling.....

 

[ChrisnSteph]

Is it like a chicken vs. egg thing for you? Are you overwhelmed and then begin feeling that way, or do you get overwhelmed because you feel that way? I can't tell the difference!

I think this is what happens to me. I'm a huge procrastinator, and then things start piling up, and the bigger that pile gets, the more overwhelmed I feel, and the less motivated I get. I've been on meds before for depression and anxiety, and though they helped some, I realized that it was just me needing to get off my butt and just do what needs to be done. Of course, I'm typing this as a huge pile of laundry sits on the floor, the kids need baths, and my house needs cleaned! But to answer your question Marseeya, yes, I do feel that way alot.