Anyone here a watcher (or former watcher) of you know what and the city with sarah jessica parker and company? I don't want to type it because I think it will get censored out. Anyway, anyone remember the episode towards the beginning of the series with the secret you know what? Because the people were embarassed about their partner and didn't want their friends or family to know that is who they are with?
I have a secret crush. Without the you know what. There is this guy that works in our clinic (who is also in the program and in one class with me). I've been finding myself looking for reasons to go to his "office". Not really an office. It's where we laminate our materials and use assistive communication devices for clients. But I really don't need to go in there as much as I do. But he is sooooo not like anyone else I've liked or dated - looks, what I have seen of his personality, religion. I don't even know that much about him. But I want to. I think. And I'm so not telling any of the girls I hang out with at school. That would be b a d bad. And he seems to be on the serious side so a girlfriend is probably not high on his list anyway.
Anyway, I've been feeling the need to talk about it. I feel better now. Although I still have the crush. I feel like I'm 13 again. I should be sending him notes in class: Do you like me? Circle yes or no.Why am I such a dating loser?
Sorry for such an immature-ish post. I really do feel like such a baby when I talk about these things. Dating (or wanting to date someone) is hard.
Must get those pesky pounds OFF!
For a while, I posted pretty regularly. I didn't stop posting because of anything bad... it was actually a good thing! With the encouragement of Jay (aka Hunky Trainer Dude) and the confidence I got from my Peeps, I started leaving my house and "doing things". When I stopped posting, I promised to keep the Peeps updated on any significant events in my life.
Well...... check out my new bling.
On January 1st, I weighed 330 lbs and wore 4X/5X and 28/30/32 size stretchy clothes. Today, I weigh 229.8 lbs and wear size 18 jeans/shorts and my 1X workout clothes are getting too big. Not sure of the exact inches I've lost (cause I didn't have up-to-date starting ones), but I know I've lost at least 3 inches in my chest, over 5 from my waist, about 7 from my abdomen, 5 more from my hips, and 3 from each thigh.
I've gained enourmous amounts of energy and self confidence. My mood and outlook has skyrocketed... for 20 years, I was always on the depressive end of the spectrum; now, I'm way over in the manic category. My Disney "how do I feel today" magnet on my fridge is almost always set to "ecstatic". And I've made lots of new friends... some really special, like Jay (just friends).
My friend Christy and I have been to the River Walk in San Antonio (which ya'll knew about) and 6th Street in Austin (which ya'll didn't know about). There happened to be a gigantic motorcycle rally while we were there (Christy came back and bought herself a Harley). I must say, it does wonders for the ego to have a cute and funny young man (23) flirting with me and insisting I didn't look like I was 42 years old one evening. Also didn't hurt the ego to have 30/40 year old men flirting with me the next evening. We're currently planning to head to New Orleans French Quarter in a couple of weeks.
Of course, life's bed of roses has had a few thorns. My 37 yo brother had to have 3 brain surgeries in 3 weeks. The first removed an egg sized cyst. Pressure built up so they then had to put in a permanent drain. The drain clogged, so they had to go in and fix it. He's now home and getting better and stronger all the time. His fellow firefighters have been wonderful... when he runs out of time off, they are going to donate their time to him. And since he had two seizures during and after the first surgery, he can't drive for 6 months, so they are going to pick him up when he can return to work.
My newfound confidence and assertiveness (I now tell people when they upset, anger, or hurt me instead of stuffing it down with food) have had an unexpected consequence. I've also reconnected with old friends. I was tracked down by the people planning my 25th high school reunion (I've never been to any of my reunions). The girl mentioned several classmates, including one in particular that was my "boyfriend" off and on through high school and college. He was living in New Zealand and wouldn't be attending, but was in classmates.com. Well, 23 years ago something very, very, very bad happened and we parted on terrible terms. I looked him up on classmates, read that he was doing well now, and sent him a message. I told him I was happy he was doing well and that I couldn't have said that long ago because he was the only person in the world that I ever really, truly hated and that he knew why. I said I've been working on things in my life and that I have decided to just let things go from the past. I also apologized for anything I had ever done that had hurt him. I never expected a response... but about a week later, I got one. He's thought of me off and on over the years, and that he knew he had hurt me but never realized just how much, and we've both been punishing ourselves for something that happened when we were young and stupid. And, he's moving back to the states and will come to the reunion so we can talk. A friend at school warned me about "hooking up with old boyfriends"... but that isn't what this is about. Hate eats you up... this is about closure and forgiveness of both each other and ourselves.
And sometime next week, I'm going to meet up with my best friend from high school so we can reconnect (she just lives 60 miles away).
So, I've got 4 months to hit one-derland (just 29.8 lbs). If I don't make it, that's okay, but that's the goal I've got (I need goals). I also don't just want to look good compared to 6 months ago... I want to get a "darn! you look hot!" from someone I haven't seen in 23 years.
But for now, Jay is throwing me a "100" party... I'll be sure to get pix so you can see my progress (and Hunky Trainer Dude
Love ya... and you'll never know how much you all helped me and you mean to me.
Dene'
Anyone here a watcher (or former watcher) of you know what and the city with sarah jessica parker and company? I don't want to type it because I think it will get censored out. Anyway, anyone remember the episode towards the beginning of the series with the secret you know what? Because the people were embarassed about their partner and didn't want their friends or family to know that is who they are with?
I have a secret crush. Without the you know what. There is this guy that works in our clinic (who is also in the program and in one class with me). I've been finding myself looking for reasons to go to his "office". Not really an office. It's where we laminate our materials and use assistive communication devices for clients. But I really don't need to go in there as much as I do. But he is sooooo not like anyone else I've liked or dated - looks, what I have seen of his personality, religion. I don't even know that much about him. But I want to. I think. And I'm so not telling any of the girls I hang out with at school. That would be b a d bad. And he seems to be on the serious side so a girlfriend is probably not high on his list anyway.
Anyway, I've been feeling the need to talk about it. I feel better now. Although I still have the crush. I feel like I'm 13 again. I should be sending him notes in class: Do you like me? Circle yes or no.
Sorry for such an immature-ish post. I really do feel like such a baby when I talk about these things. Dating (or wanting to date someone) is hard.
Next week I am going to Panama City beach to watch my DS9 play baseball and am dreading putting on a bathing suit.....
(shameless plug or informative message - you decide! )
Stacey too cute on 2nd place... btdt (only with hockey)
Everybody -roll those hips and tummies!!
Wow!! Still inspiring us!! Way to go! Best wishes for your brothers continued improvement! So glad to hear so many things are going well in your life! Can't wait for the pics!For a while, I posted pretty regularly. I didn't stop posting because of anything bad... it was actually a good thing! With the encouragement of Jay (aka Hunky Trainer Dude) and the confidence I got from my Peeps, I started leaving my house and "doing things". When I stopped posting, I promised to keep the Peeps updated on any significant events in my life.
Well...... check out my new bling.
But for now, Jay is throwing me a "100" party... I'll be sure to get pix so you can see my progress (and Hunky Trainer Dude
Love ya... and you'll never know how much you all helped me and you mean to me.
Way to peek your il head in.
Always love to hear from you Amy!I'm on Eastern time so 7:00 is later for me. In the winter time, I go to bed around 8-8:30 and get up at 5ish. But I enjoy getting up early to I can DIS and drink my coffee uninterupted.Did you really write this at 6:05 am? And does that really count as later?!
We miss you, Dene! Continuing prayers for your brother's recovery. What great friends he has! SO happy for you on the 100 party!!! You are incredible! Looking forward to the pictures!But for now, Jay is throwing me a "100" party... I'll be sure to get pix so you can see my progress (and Hunky Trainer Dude
What's stopping you, girl! Flirt away, you young single hottie. All of us old married ladies probably with we'd done more of that while we were in your shoes!
We miss you too Amy! Will baseball be over for you after the trip to the beach or does it go on?
We miss you too Sparkie! Get that computer fixed girl! And......NINE MORE DAYS!
, throwing a serious wrench in my plans to finish packing. I then got to hear for about 2 hrs how I should have been packed long ago, I knew we were leaving, blah blah blah. But if it was HIM who was not ready there would have been no reason to talk about it. Grrrr 
And he was too busy nagging to actually HELP me of course. Figures So I finished packing (for me and DD and the coolers for the car....) and we hit the road. We didnt make it too far past Memphis and we stopped there for the night. It was so not worth the $40 for the rock hard bed and cold shower, but lesson learned. On the way back I plan to stop in Jackson..thanks Melinda! I looked it up and I think I know where you suggested to go, looks like a good spot for us to stop! I wish we could ahve made it that far on the way here. The highlight was somewhere around Cinicinati when DD was mad I wouldnt pick up her stuff from the floor for the millionth time (after being warned to hold onto it.) She threw a hissy fit like I have never seen before. Complete with hitting and telling me "She wasnt a kid anymore and didnt need a mommy!"
Kids have a way of getting to you at a young age, huh?! My back is killing me too. The whole time I kept thinking how much better this trip will be in December after surgery. I am hoping my back pain is pretty much gone by then! You are awesome!
I haven't been on alot lately and wanted to say a quick hello.Things have been crazy,I have gained back almost all my weight,and I am now on medicine that makes me feel pregnant and have gained 5 more lbs sice Monaday.
if you need a hand to help you back on the wagon, we're here! have fun at the beach!!!Hey Everybody!
Just wanted you to know I do still exist. My home computer is still sick and the computer doc has been out of town so I'm posting on the sly while at work. SHHH!
OH, AND I LEAVE FOR DISNEY IN 9 DAYS!!!!!
hope your computer feels better soon. and did tara tell you that me and my friend erin might be joining you guys at OKW for the september trip? just for a couple of nights though. it just depends on whether or not the other chic (twob4him, i think?) goes or not. 9 days til disney.....what a good feeling!!! 
.... i knew I would gain and i actually put back on 3.8 of the 5+ i lost...but i am not too sad about it, since it was expected..and i am HOPEFUL that it will come off quickly, since i am not eating on vacation mode autopilot anymore...
