DISappearing Peeps...A fastpass to THIN! Part 4

[Minnie_Moo]

My exercise tonight was Jasper's agility class. It was my turn to take her through the course tonight, and I was huffing and puffing, and my capris are getting too big, so I had to keep pulling those up! She did great tonight (She has started doing the chute, which she wouldn't go through at first!), and it's a great workout for her and for me!

WOO HOOOOO FOR YOU AND JASPER!!!

We have an agility club a few miles from us and I have an acquaitance through work who is an agility judge. I would love to do agility, except for the running along with your dog part. Because of that, I will probably look into fly ball with our next dog intead. I don't think there is much running involved with that.

HKat - My DD is in grad school at UNC/Chapel Hill, so she lives near there, but will be working in Durham this summer. Not too bad of a drive. We will be visiting at some point this summer and hope to get over to the ocean. Maybe you can give me the scoop on the best beach(es) to go! Will probably do Kitty Hawk and then drive down the Outer Banks. I was VERY happy to learn today that she'll be coming home for a visit soon. So we'll also get to see the new grandpuppy!!!

 

[dwheatl]

okay.......i'm not gonna give anything away. but i'm just gonna say.......

BLAKE LEWIS ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!

i'm so voting for him tonight. even if you don't particularly care for his style, you gotta admit the kid's very talented and creative.

I tried to get on earlier and the site wasn't working, so I went in the hot tub. DD was watching Idol, and I had her turn up Blake. He ROCKED! I could hear a neighbor clapping along to the music.

Got back yesterday about 4:30... tried to make up for the 6 hours total sleep I got Friday and Saturday nights. Didn't work, the body was tired but the brain wouldn't shut down.

San Antonio... fun place on the river walk... didn't eat enough food, consumed too many of my calories in liquid form. ... and finally got a picture of Jay, the Hunky Trainer Dude (Christy had one on her phone)... too bad I can't post it here... doesn't look like he has any clothes on...


Maybe I'll just post a link... Hunky Trainer Dude aka reason to go workout

I love San Antonio! And that picture? Humina humina! I think someone mentioned a treasure hunt? I found the trail!

Hi everyone! I'm Amber. eeyore45 invited me to join you all.

Can't wait to get to know you all!

Welcome! Have a great time at DL! I'm an AP holder, and I LOVE it there!

Hi Peeps! I'm sorry I haven't posted this week. I started feeling sick Sunday night (sore throat, fever). Monday I called in sick and I went to the Dr. I have strep throat!

So sorry! I hate how weak it makes you feel. Hope you feel better soon.

GIRLWill have another one in June for measurements and such and to reconfirm since it is so early, but we are pretty sure that it is a girl.

Woo hooo! I love girls! They take care of you when you're old. My DD and I fight more than DS and I ever did, but we get over it and move on. DS broods like DH. Congrats on your little .

Big step today-I went to the gym w/o DH. He usually drags me along. I just felt like the weight is not moving, so I have to get serious. 40 minutes on the elliptical=380 calories. I ate 1680 calories, which is right around my goal weight calories, and didn't eat up the elliptical calories. Let's see where that gets me.

I laughed at all the descriptions on here of body shapes. I took a modeling class in my teens, and they said the perfect proportion was 12 inches difference between bust and waist and hips and waist. That's what I have, but the clothes I buy either fit my booty and are too big in the waist, or they fit my waist and are too tight in the booty. Makes me think of the lyrics from "Baby Got Back" (a part I can repeat, anyway)
"Yeah baby
When it comes to females
Cosmo ain't got nothin to do with my selection
36-24-36
Only if she's 5'3"

 

[denecarter]

Wedding cake margaritias? YUM, that sounds good! And thanks for sharing the picture!! Now I know why you are so dedicated to the gym!

Dene - Wedding cake margarita sounds YUMMY! Glad to hear you had fun! You deserve it!

Wedding Cake Martinis = Skye Vanilla, Di Sarono Amaretto, pineapple juice, grenadine, and a cherry (whose stem I can tie in a knot AND tighten with my tongue )

Dene......Hubba, hubba....how could he BE any hotter???

If you could see his eyes... hot, hot, hot... and the muscles help too! Shoulders and arms are bigger now... I love muscles... and eyes...

We're old but we're cool........

My 9th graders tell me I'm cool!

Oh MY!!!!! ((fanning myself)) He's nekkie!!!!

Looks it! But if you look really close on his right hip you can see a bit of cloth... and he claims he has something on. Tonight, I showed him that I had that picture. He's like "you didn't show that to anybody did you?" 'cause he doesn't think he's ripped enough. Nahhhhh... just my imaginary friends

HUBBA HUBBA! But I love this post best Dene!! It is sweet - plus it shows you are changing your life, and look what you're finding! (and um, anyword on that goal your new friends had for you... coronas and martinis - what was it Spring Break??? Be careful your pictures arent posted anywhere - did you hear about the girl not getting a Teaching Degree because she posted (she was of legal drinking age) on myspace a pic of her and labeled it "Drunken Pirate" (the drink was in a plastic cup!)

There is no photographic evidence of Dene''s trip to San Antonio

Dene, he is a hunk... I can definitely see your motivation!

Dene - Trainer dude Jay is yummy!

dene Hunky trainer dude! YUMMY!

I think I burned my eyeballs, Dene'!!!!!

Thank you... now everyone knows why I always referred to him as Hunky
Trainer Dude...

I'd go work out too if I had him for a trainer!
BTW...Why does Christy have a nekkid pic of him on her phone?!?

He sent it to her as a joke... but he didn't send it to me. There were a few "issues" that Jay and I had to work out yesterday. More about that later.

I'm back - at 11:50 I think I went 2.5 miles.... in 30 min - bring on the 5K -

You ROCK girl! I couldn't do that... YET!

Ok ladies get motivated and do 50 crunches now!!!!!!

I did! (Good thing, too... only did 15 minutes on the elliptical tonight... can't get motivated lately... according to a Fitness Lab I did with Stacy for her PE class, I have almost all the symptoms of "overtraining"... either that or a wild weekend!

but hey, i can't complain. i'll be at disney!!!!!! so that makes up for ANYTHING i miss!

That's right, girlfriend!

So long, farewell, auf wiedersein, adieu!!!

Have a great one!

Isn't it wonderful when hot guys are nice too?? I am trying to remember all the hot, slide off your chair hot, guys I have dated. None were nice. Glad you found the only one!!!

Believe it or not, in his own bizarre way, he's also "modest"... I know you can't tell from the picture, but he's actually pretty modest about his bod... he wears long sleeve baggy shirts to work all the time... kinda hiding the guns... only his friends get to see the bod, and only in little flashes usually.. and he doesn't get into the little testosterone competitions that sometimes happen at the gym when the guys are seeing how much they can lift. Every once in a while he'll have someone "feel this muscle"... he's already got all the ladies at the gym drooling, can you imagine if he wore muscle shirts and shorts all the time!

GIRLWill have another one in June for measurements and such and to reconfirm since it is so early, but we are pretty sure that it is a girl.

Congrats!
__________________
Did anyone else get a package from Body Shop today?

 

[denecarter]

I love San Antonio! And that picture? Humina humina! I think someone mentioned a treasure hunt? I found the trail!

 

[denecarter]

I briefly mentioned that Jay and I worked out some "issues" earlier.

Well, I've been really insecure and paranoid lately. And something Christy said on the trip set me off and I got a little annoyed... then ticked... then mad... then really angry.

That's a huge thing for me, I ALWAYS shove my feelings down... never get mad about anything... hate confrontations, always try to appease and make peace. I went with it... I allowed myself to be mad and hurt 'cuz I deserve to get mad as much as the next person.

So, I ended up sending Jay a text message laying some things out and asking him to quit treating me differently from our other friends. He and Stacy kind of freaked 'cause they had no idea where this all came from. We figured out it was probably all a misunderstanding that started it all (Christy is Australian and sometimes smart-alec Texan doesn't easily translate into Australian). This was not just HUGE for me, it was GI-NORMOUS. I never confront anyone, never tell them something they've done is bothering or hurting me, and I usually let it fester and imagine all the worst. I just figured if confronting him made him no longer want to be my friend, then he probably wasn't my friend to start with. But as he said "we're cool".

Anyway, they both assured me that I was just being paranoid, we're all good friends, and I'm not treated differently than anyone else... I sort of agreed (deep down, I BELIEVE I'm treated different... could be the paranoia though).

Tonight, I kept making it a joke... "see, you DO treat me different". Well, I don't know if it was me saying something and they acted different or if I perceived things differently, but I did feel better and more "on the same level" and included tonight. It was a really good feeling.

 

[denecarter]

I ate almost nothing today -
a few bites of egg, three shrimp and a chicken breast.
So I'm making up for it with a glass and a half of wine, two martinis and creme brullee'.
It all evens out to 600 calories, right?
Oh - I also swam for thirty minutes too.
I can type good for a drunk person, right?

That's what I thought Saturday night! Then, I went back Sunday and reread all the text messages I had sent to Jay and Stacy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Plus, Jay and Stacy are still ribbing me about it!... note to Peeps, either turn off the automatic speller on your cell phone or proof read before you hit send!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Stupid phone kept changing the words on me!

 

[denecarter]

Okay... this is one of the symptoms of overtraining... sleep pattern is totally messed up (tired all day, wired all night).

I also have:
*been depressed
*felt unusual anger
*not been able to get motivated to work out
*lost my appetite
*felt my legs and arms were "heavy"
etc... there were others, just can't remember.

Of course, the heavy legs could be the 31 sclerotherapy shots I had last week... plus, I missed 4 workout days between the shots and the trip... plus, I NEED to go to the grocery store 'cause I've got nothing to eat.

Anyway, guess I'd better force myself to go to bed... nighty night!

 

[eeyore45]

I'm up now Dene!!

woohooty Dene for allowing yourself to get angry, and 'confrontational' as that wasnt easy for you - and as you learn yourself, you respect yourself, then you demand others respect you!!

Now those shots!!

and all those 'issues' I'm having and that's what makes me turn right around and reach for the twinkies...

been depressed
*felt unusual anger
*not been able to get motivated to work out
*lost my appetite
*felt my legs and arms were "heavy"

so I add - crying - not sobbing, but just tearing up more often...
and I have found your appetite!!

but you still motivate me - I'm telling you as I was going to 'walk' a bit, I thought of you and pushed myself to the next tree... and then I remembered how long you went on the eliptical, and thought, that next tree isnt that far... and then I realized, I really wasnt hurting anywhere, my breathing was about the same, so I knew I could make it to the next tree!! Next thing I knew - I finished the 2 miles in 30 min!! HUGE - I average 20 min miles... in college when I was IN SHAPE!

so grab on Dene, sounds like its time to send out the wagon and lasso a few peeps!!

 

[lexmelinda]

GOOD MORNING, EVERYONE!!!

I have strep throat!

Sorry about the strep! I took DD in for a test yesterday but she was negative. Those elementary classrooms are full of germs. Ask Danielle! Hope you are better soon.

My day so far
B-Fiber One and skim milk(200)
S-bagel(100)
SB- wraps(240)
S-Yogurt and bagel(160)
D- Chikfila sand(270) 1/3 Large fry(133)Kiddie cone(160)
S-Gummi lifesavers(130)
TOTAL-1393 calories

Great job, Amy!!!

GIRL

YAY! I know you were hoping for a boy but every girl needs a sister. I don't have a sister and always wanted one.

Chef Mickey's buffet at the Contemporary will be open for lunch, in addition to its usual breakfast and dinner offerings, August 28 through September 8, 2007.

That's a very small window...one week. Is that right?

Totals for today...
B: 2 whole grain waffles w/ 1Tbsp peanut butter & yogurt smoothie (290) light cranberry juice (50)
S: 6 almonds (40)
L: McDonald's southwest salad (320)
S: Pop Secret 100 calorie kettle corn (100 - This stuff ROCKS!)
D: salad w/ reduced fat blue cheese crumbles, craisins, almond slices, and salmon cup, and balsamic dressing (280) apple w/ peanut butter (350) light cranberry juice (50)
S: 2 Dove dark chocolates (84) WW key lime cheesecake (150)

TOTAL: 1714 calories & about 100 oz. water

That McDonald's salad must be good! Also your dinner salad sounds great! DD13 played VMK while she was home sick yesterday. I told her to look for you. Her name is Sunny Amazing Waffle!? She said it was the only name left??

I have also had 2 pints of Bud select and I will probably have one more, so total for today is 1200.

Heh. When I was calorie counting I would always leave room for three things: whole milk for my coffee, Dove dark chocolate, and Bud Lite. Those are three things I like to treat myself to and as long as you count the calories...no harm done!

Posting totals for the day!

Now I'm exhausted! Way to go, Misty. We miss ya, sister!

He's like "you didn't show that to anybody did you?" 'cause he doesn't think he's ripped enough.

I admit it! I opened that picture every time I saw someone quote your post!

HAVE A GREAT DAY, EVERYONE!

 

[Eventer98]

Coronado Springs (CSR) is our favorite moderate. It feels very "deluxe" to me, and if you are on the DDP it has one of the best food courts on property. It is almost more of a TS w/ a waiter and "stations". They do charge gratuity on the bill but DDP takes care of it. The resort is beautiful and centered around a large lake. It has a huge pool and a large square hot tub (rather than the round found at the other mods). It is a large, spread out resort, so request buildings 8A or 9B, which are closest to the pool/food court. If that isn't available, casitas 1-3 are close to the food court but further from the pool. The rest of the buildings are sort of far from everything.

We would have stayed at CSR this trip but they had no king rooms left on the AP rate, and we also figured we could add another to our list.

Thanks for the feedback!! I remember catching a bus there last Aug but I have no idea why we or how we ended up there. I will call back today and request a room...it's short notice but it can't hurt!! If I have to walk I don't mind...althogh DH might!!!

i need advice from all your mamas out there. i stepped on a splinter last night in my garage and had to get it out with a needle. it was in my heel, like on the bottom of my foot. i put peroxide on it as soon as i pulled it out. i go barefoot when i'm in the house ALL THE TIME so of course that's what i did last night, not thinking about the fact that i had a tiny little hole in my heel. today it's still hurting, so i just put some more peroxide on it and wrapped it in a bandage as to not get dirt or anything in it. i just don't want it to get infected because we leave for WDW on saturday and i'm obviously going to be walking a lot! any advice? i'm sure it'll be fine and i'm just worrying over nothing....as i always do!

I had to pull a ONE INCH splinter out of one of the kids I used to watch last. Imagine trying to hold down a 5yo and pull that sucker out!!! I just treated it with neosporin and he was fine. It didn't even bleed!! For awhile there I thought he would be heading to the ER! Eeyore's tip was great about the epsom salt. Another item we use on horses if they have a foot bruise/abcess. It works great. Did she tell you to use hot/warm water?? I'm sure she did. Hope it feels better today!!!

Hi Peeps! I'm sorry I haven't posted this week. I started feeling sick Sunday night (sore throat, fever). Monday I called in sick and I went to the Dr. I have strep throat! A very bad case actually. I don't remember the last time I was this sick. I was home today again and I will be home tomorrow as well. I have been emailing my lesson plans into school. I don't think I will be posting a weigh in this week. Although, when I went to the dr. one bright thing was the nurse commented I had lost 14 pounds since the last time I was there. I hope everyone is doing well!

I hope you feel better soon!!!!

okay.......i'm not gonna give anything away. but i'm just gonna say.......

BLAKE LEWIS ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!

i'm so voting for him tonight. even if you don't particularly care for his style, you gotta admit the kid's very talented and creative.

Yeah he does!!! And he's not bad to look at either!! I think it will be Phil and Jordan going????

GIRLWill have another one in June for measurements and such and to reconfirm since it is so early, but we are pretty sure that it is a girl.

Congrats!!!!!! How exciting!!

I have to tell you, I chuckle every time I read your food and it says cupcake because it has been a staple these last few days for you, huh? I bet you cant wait til they are gone! I give you big credit for admitting to us all you are eating them everyday!

There are two more of those da*n cupcakes still in the container. DH was supposed to eat some. Nope. So I think I will toss them today. They are a week old.

Dinner was a big deal today for me. DH wanted burger king for the Spiderman toys in the happy meals (dont ask!) and I knew if I went with them I would cave and order something really bad. Especially after having McD's yesterday. So I stayed home while he and Amanda had some quality daddy time, and he brought my dinner back. I knew I had the calories left for the onion rings, and I could have had something other than salad...but this was a healthy choice for me and that was HUGE. I knew the temptation would be there so I avoided it. I just could feel that I wasnt strong enough to resist it today and I would have SOOO ordered a whopper if I went there and smelled it.

Off to watch my tivoed General hospital from today and Idol later....I hate commercials, cant watch live tv anymore In case I dont make it back to the computer...Have a good night peeps!

I love BK fries but never go there. I guess that's a good thing??
Commercials drive me insane!!! I was watching "live" TV last night and kept picking up the remote to FFWD thru the ads.

Totals for today...

B: 2 whole grain waffles w/ 1Tbsp peanut butter & yogurt smoothie (290) light cranberry juice (50)
S: 6 almonds (40)
L: McDonald's southwest salad (320)
S: Pop Secret 100 calorie kettle corn (100 - This stuff ROCKS!)
D: salad w/ reduced fat blue cheese crumbles, craisins, almond slices, and salmon cup, and balsamic dressing (280) apple w/ peanut butter (350) light cranberry juice (50)
S: 2 Dove dark chocolates (84) WW key lime cheesecake (150)

TOTAL: 1714 calories & about 100 oz. water

My exercise tonight was Jasper's agility class. It was my turn to take her through the course tonight, and I was huffing and puffing, and my capris are getting too big, so I had to keep pulling those up! She did great tonight (She has started doing the chute, which she wouldn't go through at first!), and it's a great workout for her and for me!

I'm jealous of your agility class!! I used to do it with my dog that passed away. What great exercise!!!

I tried to post all this last night and the boards were down...at least for me. I hope everyone has a great Wednesday!! The weekend is coming soon!!

 

[pigget74]

belle - sorry you're sick. hope you feel better soon!

pigget - CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!! how exciting! any names picked out yet?

We are looking at several names and Parker Rhea (Ray) we also like Rachel but could not use Rhea---We would not be naming after food network--my middle name is Rhea, but everyone would think otherwise. I realy wanted a biblical name since all my others have one in their name, but we are lost. We had the boy name narrowed down to either William Jackson or Noah Jackson ( I really wanted Noah). We have another 5 mths to figure it out so I am not to concerned yet!

I am ok with a girl-a boy would have really worked for us as far as layout goes sharing a room and Joshua was born at that season so we would have been set on clothes and such. God has plans and that is all I can think.

 

[Bee]

Well..

I do not know if it will stick to Friday....

But today I got on the scale and it says 300.... that would be approx 20 lbs. lost.

I guess divore has a way of helping to lose weight. Since Sunday I have had 2 pieces of veggie pizza and a small cup of popcorn that work handed out yesterday.

I will not go into details but there is a tape of something that makes me quite sad and makes me lose my appetite going on in my head constantly. It is on a loop.. Plays over and over.... I wish the tape would break already.

I guess whatever works to lose weight. Someday, I will have a man that wants me and loves me again. I do not want to be alone!!!

Anyway, I love ya all!!

 

[princess@heart]

Wow! My name is Amber too. And my birthday is in May too (the 21st). And I'll be 30ish too! (ok, 31, but close enough, right?)
And I'll be at WDW while you're at DL. Woo hoo!

LOL! That's too creepy, huh?

I don't really know any Ambers close to my age here. They all seem to be 10 and under.

Have a good time at WDW!

 

[dance2874]

That's a huge thing for me, I ALWAYS shove my feelings down... never get mad about anything... hate confrontations, always try to appease and make peace. I went with it... I allowed myself to be mad and hurt 'cuz I deserve to get mad as much as the next person.

So, I ended up sending Jay a text message laying some things out and asking him to quit treating me differently from our other friends. He and Stacy kind of freaked 'cause they had no idea where this all came from. We figured out it was probably all a misunderstanding that started it all (Christy is Australian and sometimes smart-alec Texan doesn't easily translate into Australian). This was not just HUGE for me, it was GI-NORMOUS. I never confront anyone, never tell them something they've done is bothering or hurting me, and I usually let it fester and imagine all the worst. I just figured if confronting him made him no longer want to be my friend, then he probably wasn't my friend to start with. But as he said "we're cool".

I am the exact same way! I let things fester and avoid confrontation at all costs. Not healthy, but it is just how I deal sometimes. Good for you for getting it all out there. It would have gotten very uncomfortable for you to work out with them as time went on if you had let it sit inside, you know? Well, as uncomfortable as working out with hunky trainer dude could possibly be!

Well..

I do not know if it will stick to Friday....

But today I got on the scale and it says 300.... that would be approx 20 lbs. lost.

I guess divore has a way of helping to lose weight. Since Sunday I have had 2 pieces of veggie pizza and a small cup of popcorn that work handed out yesterday.

I will not go into details but there is a tape of something that makes me quite sad and makes me lose my appetite going on in my head constantly. It is on a loop.. Plays over and over.... I wish the tape would break already.

I guess whatever works to lose weight. Someday, I will have a man that wants me and loves me again. I do not want to be alone!!!

Anyway, I love ya all!!

I have a similar tape in my mind...mine is quite old but I know exactly what you mean. Wish it would go away, but it is part of who I am and part of what made me who I am today. Down the road you will be a stronger person, you just need to get through this rough patch

And this could be the week you will lose the 3 in your number!! If it says 300 today it could easily say 299 by Friday!!!! No thinking it wont 'stick' either, it will. (but please take care of yourself and eat something! that is not enough food for 3 days time!)

Yes, I am up and online already. Been up since 5. Guess who woke up again this morning at 5am?? Dear lord, please help her outgrow this phase quickly. Momma is getting exhausted. At least I got her back to bed by close to 6. She has preschool today. I am sure they would not have appreciated me letting her get up at 5 and being miss cranky pants all day for them. (better them than me though! )

 

[princess@heart]

I have to leave for work in 10 minutes, so I'll catch everyone up on my day yesterday later.

Have a good Wednesday everyone!

 

[punkin413]

Yeah he does!!! And he's not bad to look at either!! I think it will be Phil and Jordan going????

i'm hoping it won't be jordin, but she did really bad last night. it just wasn't her night. but if people actually did base it on the last two weeks, i'm hoping it will be phil and lakisha or phil and chris. i honestly like everyone who's left, so it's a hard choice, especially when 2 have to go! but i just don't feel like jordin deserves to go home after 1 bad performance. the rest of her performances have been so good. i voted for blake a few times last night, and i might've snuck in a couple of votes for jordin, too.

 

[UtahMama]

I woke up wayyyyy too early coughing my head off.

Had a breathing treatment ( I have my own nebulizer) and feel much better. But now I'm super tired and my daycare buddies come in an hour. DANG! I'm going to have to take a nap later, if possible.


Bee!!!!! Do everything you can to make YOU healthy and happy and spend time with your girls. Someday you'll meet someone who'll love you but work on yourself first. You are a good catch!!!


Hi Spongie!!!!!!

 

[MA pigletfan]

Happy Wednesday everyone
( to be read in cheesy radio announcer voice)
its 8:33 in the a.m. here in Southeastern MA and a rather cloudy rainy dreary Wednesday..will Gina the Peep be able to keep herself busy at work and not give in to comfort food and the evils of the vending machine 3muskateers today?? stay tuned..and now, yesterday's totals:

coffee with milk/sug. (70)
(B) HN Cheerios/skim (150)
lf string cheese (70)
(L) bakery mushroom pizza (600)
SBD cookies (100)
cheese n' crackers (90)
D)1/2 chicken breast grilled (200.up because of marinade)
mushrooms ( 25ish)
small serviing boiled red potatoes with sheep's milk cheese(YUM) (150)
100 cal cupcakes (100)
Grand total: 1555 ( max is 1740)..not bad!
H2O--not the best..~ 80 oz
Exercise: Walk away the Lbs DVD--2 miler, some crunches.

And now we resume with our scheduled programming....

 

[Bee]

I woke up wayyyyy too early coughing my head off.

Had a breathing treatment ( I have my own nebulizer) and feel much better. But now I'm super tired and my daycare buddies come in an hour. DANG! I'm going to have to take a nap later, if possible.


Bee!!!!! Do everything you can to make YOU healthy and happy and spend time with your girls. Someday you'll meet someone who'll love you but work on yourself first. You are a good catch!!!


Hi Spongie!!!!!!

Thank yuofor thinking I am a great catch. It is hard to believe when I am going through what I am going through now. I feel very lost, If I had someone else I would not be so lonely. I believe this would be an easier process if I had someone telling me they love me and are loving me. But, I GET to do this all by myself. I feel it would be easier, this divorce, if there were someone in the piicture waiting for me. I guess I am not the "lucky" one. No one waiting for me.

Anyway, I know I have made mistakes. I admit that. You know the old Cher song... If I could turn back time. I would be more loving, considerate, and I would not take things for granted. You fall into a comfort zone and you feel "safe". Then there is that old saying... you never know how much you will miss something.. someone till it is gone.

My relationship is OVER. I know that in my head.. my heart is having a hard time understanding.

Anyway, SOMEDAY I will be stronger, someday we will get to the other side. Someday we will be able to look back at our life and share special memories. Right now the looking back is too painful.

Yes, I know that certain people still read my posts.. but again these are my feelings.

Love all ya all.

 

[MA pigletfan]

okay.......i'm not gonna give anything away. but i'm just gonna say.......

BLAKE LEWIS ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!

i'm so voting for him tonight. even if you don't particularly care for his style, you gotta admit the kid's very talented and creative.

I SECOND THAT!!!! UNBELIEVABLE...i think my jaw dropped at that performance! Such an individual..as good as Melinda is..Blake has the "star" thing going for him!!