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So now I am going to put this stupid computer through the window. I have been trying to send this since 8 pm. Now I will try and make it brief because the anger I am feeling at this computer is enough to heave me off the roof.
Dr results worse than I could want.
Red Cells in Urine and tons of blood. This means cysts and stones not a normal infection. This is the worst because my kidneys do not function well and this can put me on a renal failure spin in a hurry.
I go in tomm. for spiral Ct's and MRI's. Then on to talk w/ surgeon. Not good because they do not know if my right kidney can handle an additional surgery.
To top my life...Tupperware has a 6 month goal I am working on and this is the last 2 weeks of the 6th month. No 2nd chances and I am sick to my stomach for my team.
I honestly feel so much hatred towards my body right now. I am sick of being sick. I have lost 7 pounds in 1 week and that is not good because my body is shutting down.
I am sorry for venting. I was much more eloquent in the first 3 versions.
I jsut love my Kids and hate leaving them. I have missed out on almost 3 years of their lives since all this started in 1990 and I am tired of missing the smell of their hair and the way they look all groggy when they stumble out of bed. I just want to be normal for a whole year and not have my body screw up our finances, our goals and our lives.
Please pray for my family...and me.
Dr results worse than I could want.
Red Cells in Urine and tons of blood. This means cysts and stones not a normal infection. This is the worst because my kidneys do not function well and this can put me on a renal failure spin in a hurry.
I go in tomm. for spiral Ct's and MRI's. Then on to talk w/ surgeon. Not good because they do not know if my right kidney can handle an additional surgery.
To top my life...Tupperware has a 6 month goal I am working on and this is the last 2 weeks of the 6th month. No 2nd chances and I am sick to my stomach for my team.
I honestly feel so much hatred towards my body right now. I am sick of being sick. I have lost 7 pounds in 1 week and that is not good because my body is shutting down.
I am sorry for venting. I was much more eloquent in the first 3 versions.
I jsut love my Kids and hate leaving them. I have missed out on almost 3 years of their lives since all this started in 1990 and I am tired of missing the smell of their hair and the way they look all groggy when they stumble out of bed. I just want to be normal for a whole year and not have my body screw up our finances, our goals and our lives.
Please pray for my family...and me.