GTAGWTA to all the ladies this afternoon
O.K., stop the cancer coaster, I want to get off, yes, I know you will all remind me I cant do that, but it is wishful thinking.
O.K. we have hit ANOTHER bump in the road. I have cried and prayed again. My ds was trying to cheer me up, saying stuff like, oh forget that 8 hours of surgery, I got my knife over there, I will have you done in 2 and get my zippo so I can cauterize the bleeding. Sounds weird, you would just have to understand middle ds, he didnt win class clown in high school last year but he got voted best sense of humor. Boy I need that too right now.
Well the NP from the surgeon called and she wanted an update on me and we shared info.
1. They did the blood test before for calcitonin which was negative. I told her I thought they did but I did not want to argue with the endo.
2. It does not seem to point that I have medually cancer now. But they are going to look at the 24 hour test.
3. The head pathologist wants more tissue and has suggested to the surgeon to do a core biopsy on me in the office awake!! The np says oh If you tolerated the other stuff, you can do this. I said, I was NOT in so much pain until he did the other biopsys.
4. They still dont know but now they think and are considering that it could possibly be lymphoma. This would be chemo and radiation. I am so not liking the chemo word. To say my body does not react welll to stuff that is of a "foreign" nature is an understatement. I am allergic to many meds, my body doesnt like foreign objects in it like the rods I had, the graft etc. Its weird to describe.
5. The surgery will take place the lst or 2nd week in Feb, since I have to be on the blood pressure med they all agree for a good 2 weeks.
6. The NP called my pcp to give him an update and he refused to talk to her. He said he was busy with patients. I said this does not surprise me knowing him. My blood tests were on his desk for like 5 weeks etc. She said, oh that is highly unusual that a dr. will not talk to me, I said you dont know my dr.
Well next friday my dh is going to California for a week. The 2 ds are going back to college and then they have work too so in between they will help as best they can.
Thanks for letting me vent to all of you. Keep the prayers coming. You are the best sisters!!