difficult to post this, but I need your prayers

[msmouse]

I had a biopsy yesterday on my cervix. I am out of my mind with worry. The issue is that it was my first pap in 11 years. How could I have been so stupid? I let my fear of doctors put my family in a position of having to watch me go thru this. I feel so guilty and so ashamed. They found a 2cm polyp. The doctor explained that polyps are very often benign. But, my nature is to anticipate the worst. I know how self defeating that is, but I am completely out of control with my emotions. I have a 24 year old son and I can not believe that I have done this to him. I know the power of prayer is real. I have witnessed this first hand in my life. I read some of these posts and say a prayer for those that I read. So, I humbly ask that you say a prayer to God to save this stupid soul. I swear, I will be at the doctor's office once a year from now on. I hope anyone that reads this and has done the same thing I have will get the courage to go. Believe me, this is far worse than any doctor's visit. Thank you for listening. It has helped just to put it into words.

 

[Meriweather]

Best wishes and to you.
I don't like doctors either and had gone quite a few years without going.....and I paid for it. Now I make sure to go regularly.

Keep us posted......

 

[Saffron]

Try if you can, to take solace in what the doctor said. I will be saying prayers for you. {{{Hug}}}

 

[sadeeyore]

Try not to be so hard on yourself , my thoughts and prayers are with you.

 

[MsDisney23]

Sending prayers your way and a hug.

 

[dizneenut]

Prayers on the way.

 

[mrsmom]

Sending prayers and a hug your way. Don't be so hard on yourself, we all have let things go longer than they should sometimes.
Kim

 

[Microcell]

At least you did something now! You can't beat yourself up now that you have done something!

 

[Mimi Q]

Prayer said. I haven't been able to bring myself to go to the doctor in almost three years, so I know what you mean. Hope everything turns out okay.

 

[Mercy]

msmouse... I know exactly how you feel, I went way too long without getting a mamogram and breast cancer runs in my family. I was just so scared to get one, stupid, I know. I finally went a couple of years ago and agonized over the results, which came back fine. But I haven't been back since and I really need to go. I swore I would not put it off like I did the last time.

I will pray that you get a good report back

 

[Want2liveatWDW]

Prayers and hugs are on they way.

 

[pokiemomo181]

Don't get down on yourself. You need to relax and not beat yourself up so. I know people who have had a pap smear every year and still had something go wrong. You can't stop something thats going to happen anyway. This could be nothing, so just wait and see what it is.


Pokie

 

[minnie56]

at some time or another of burying our head in the sand and not doing the things we should!

Don't panic...I am sure it is fine!!! Take the Dr at his word and put it out of your mind as best you can.

Keep us posted..

 

[Dan Murphy]

First, msmouse, a hug with prayers. Take heart in what the doctor said, most likely fine. But in the meantime, do not beat yourself up, we do tend to procrastinate when we are not feeling ill. Natural to do, that's why reminders, like you so thoughtfully have done here for others, are so needed. I am sure you are being instrumental in getting some to make a call on Monday, and that is good. Please let us know how it all goes. 's and prayers.

Dan

 

[chell]

Many hugs and prayers to you!

 

[Otto's Doll]

Praying for you and reminding all those who posted to MAKE THE CALL... GET THE TEST... Please... don't deprive your family of someone who is precious to them just because you are scared/embarrased or shy!

 

[Pooh67_68]

 

[WDWLVR]

You can't change the past - focus on the future and don't beat yourself up. Here's hoping that all is well! I'll keep you in my thoughts.

BTW - I too was quilty of not going to the doctor for years but it all worked out well in the end.

 

[tinaluis]

Prayers and **PD** are on the way. Let us know how everything goes and good luck!

 

[janette]

Hope it all goes well and you get a good report.