Big update!!!
I tracked blood sugar all weekend and figured out a lot! Basically, what I was eating before that I thought was "good" (AFTER the big diet changes I made a year and a half ago) is sending me into the 150s/160s. A really bad meal (what I ate all the time before a year and a half ago) sends me up over 200. (and not down below 150 for like four hours). Eating a meal with 40-50 carbs puts me up to 150/160. Eating a meal with no more than 30 carbs puts me up to about 140 at 1 hour and then 110/120 after 2 hours. Much, much better - not totally normal but okay
I also talked to my regular doctor (er, NP). She's the NP who is fairly knowledgeable, but more importantly, interested and attentive and passionate about improving my health.
The upshot of our conversation was that she completely agrees with my assessment and that I am definitely diabetic (or maybe "prediabetic" just if you go by the somewhat arbitrary numbers that are officially used -- not that "prediabetes" really exists outside of a convenient diagnostic entity).
We could do more testing like a glucose tolerance test if I want (may be in my future no matter what), but she suspects it would simply demonstrate what I have already demonstrated with my meter, and doing the GTT won't change the way this is managed, anyway, which is that I need to be treated medically and dietarily as a type II. Therefore, she's going ahead to diagnose me me as type II and that will help me get testing supplies and a nutritionist consult and maybe diabetes education classes.
She also said something interesting, which is that she thinks that I am a "diet controlled type II diabetic" -- i.e., without a diagnosis, completely on my own, I changed my diet and that ended up controling the blood sugar and making my numbers go down. So now, surprise, surprise, i sort of no longer "look" like a diabetic when they do labs. But I basically am.
Whew ... long post ... hope that makes sense.
I'm going to get a bunch of supplies in the mail and the insurance will probably cover 100 strips per month

mad: wish I could get more) and a meter. She wants me to call her next week and tell her what my numbers look like and also try to restart the Met if possible

... maybe at a lower dose and just 500 mg at lunch or dinner and see how that goes. Then I will see my endo in less than a month and also get a nutritionist consult.
It's all very overwhelming ... disappointing ... upsetting ... but also a relief, because it makes so many other health stuff that I've dealt with make more sense as being part of this ... and now (hopefully) I'll know exactly what to do and how to get healthy and how to get the right medical care.
