ive got to admit.... iv cut myself too... that is one of my biggest secretz... my parentz know and some of my friendz know.... and i hav a psycologist for it.......... but i still cant seem to beat it.....
Sparx... ur lucky that it scared u to do it, cuz i cant control it anymore... and it takes over my life:
i cant get a job b/c i cant wear short sleeves
in gym i hav to change in the bathroom and i have to be careful whenever we r playing b/c my sleeves sometimez come up =[
im petrified that people are going to find out.... certain of my friendz hav big mouthz... nd im soooo afraid that my boyfriend is going to find out.... im afraid he wont ever talk to me again, and i depend on him a lot--we hav been together for realliiii long!! and we became realy good friendz first, so i dont know wut i would do
when ppl find out, they never look at me quite the same, itz hard knowing that i do something that is socially unacceptable... itz lyke smoking or drinking in the sense that u cant always help it, and it helps with your problems, but people dont accept u when u do it....
on the cruise we r going on this summer.... we r going with a couple other families we know... and i dont know wut im going to do about bathing suits and itz going to be really hot in florida, so this is not good =[
i cant stop =[
well thx for sharing that Sparx.... i wish that people didnt talk about "being emo" or cutting yourself so much
all my friendz will talk about it and it makes me feel so uncomfortable cuz they dont know and they joke about it
lyke one time i asked for a knife to kill one of my friendz with (obviously joking i would never do something as horrible as that!!!) and my friend goes "y so u can use it to slit your wrists" it was hard for me to hav someone say that to me....
i wuz thinking.. u hav no idea!
soo yeaa guyz... thx for listening to one of my many deep secretz...... u dont know how hard it is for me to put this on here b/c anyone in the world could find it.....